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"grogginess" poems
Have you ever sat until some part has gotten really numb? It happened to me yesterday to the left cheek of my *** At first I didn't notice until I tried to up and stand. What should have been so simple didn't go exactly as I planned. Initially I rose ***** without any feelings of being sore. But that changed quite abruptly as my nose impacted the floor. I don't think I was down too long as the hurt still felt quite new. Initial pain was somewhat lesser from the grogginess as I came to. The doctor says it isn't broken and the redness will fade away. I hope it is so tomorrow as it isn't feeling any better so far today. For those there to witness much laughter was enjoyed by some, as I crawled into the ambulance to avoid walking with half a ***
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Jan 28, 2021
Jan 28, 2021 at 9:00 PM UTC
I Have a Sore Nose
I was conscious the moment her hand touched mine. It felt as if I was sleep waking in a beautiful dream. I had no insight to anything before that. No remembrance of if I dreamed or not. There was no grogginess no want to close my eyes. I felt at peace laying there watching her stare back at me. The simpleness of it all. The experience of something so precious shrewd in nature To be perfectly honest there is no place I'd rather be. Her voice assured a deep well that cured need for thirst, the sheer depth of a look shared from eye to eye. I told myself it was just a dream, But when she touched me; I refused to wake
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May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 1:06 PM UTC
Coma
No time to sleep, when i'm always awake for creativity I like to think i can rest, but my mind implodes with cresting thoughts. they don't pause for sleep, they are instead dragged on. By my grogginess. i bid you (reminiscing) adieu my fair love that's true. for the night my mind stirs, and in the morning old thoughts occur.
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Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 11:22 PM UTC
Nighttime Reminiscing
Toddlers can put green crayons in the freezer without Anybody questioning them and I Have a problem with that. I have a problem with the fact that toddlers can put Green crayons in the freezer and tell their parents that they are Preserving The Earth and that they’ve been learning about Animal adaptations and conjunctions in school And that they Love Their friends. I have a problem with the fact that a Toddler’s idea of Beauty Is a butterfly landing on their finger during Recess, a snowflake on their tongue, the Grogginess of  staying up past 8:30, Scooby snacks, Dora the Explorer, The satisfaction of scraping the First chunk out of a tub of butter, the Giddiness and fear at your first sleepover, The one where you had to timidly shake your Friend awake in the middle of the night because you could Not for the Life of you find the bathroom. I’m not ashamed to admit that I haven’t said I love you in a time that Lingers like the smell of burning. It’s always love you or love ya and I’ve Forgotten what it feels like for those words to Caress my lips, to guide my heart Out of its cage into the Stale air. I want to be considering beauty like a Toddler.  I want to be watching Dora and Learning about conjunctions, but instead I’m Crying because I can’t fit into my jeans right and I Don’t know how to do makeup.  I want to say I love you and let it Ring in the air like Frozen music But I can’t Because you’re States away and instead I brush my hair So many times for people who don’t even like me that There’s no personality left. I have a problem with the fact that you Moved on so quickly and left me with the Loves me not flower petal and that Dora the Explorer is not on Netflix Anymore and the price of Happy Meals goes Up everyday like the age of my Heart   And that Toddlers can put green crayons in the freezer without Anybody questioning them and say that They Are preserving the Earth.
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Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 4:29 PM UTC
Green Crayons
Toddlers can put green crayons in the freezer without Anybody questioning them and I Have a problem with that. I have a problem with the fact that toddlers can put Green crayons in the freezer and tell their parents that they are Preserving The Earth and that they’ve been learning about Animal adaptations and conjunctions in school And that they Love Their friends. I have a problem with the fact that a Toddler’s idea of Beauty Is a butterfly landing on their finger during Recess, a snowflake on their tongue, the Grogginess of  staying up past 8:30, Scooby snacks, Dora the Explorer, The satisfaction of scraping the First chunk out of a tub of butter, the Giddiness and fear at your first sleepover, The one where you had to timidly shake your Friend awake in the middle of the night because you could Not for the Life of you find the bathroom. I’m not ashamed to admit that I haven’t said I love you in a time that Lingers like the smell of burning. It’s always love you or love ya and I’ve Forgotten what it feels like for those words to Caress my lips, to guide my heart Out of its cage into the Stale air. I want to be considering beauty like a Toddler.  I want to be watching Dora and Learning about conjunctions, but instead I’m Crying because I can’t fit into my jeans right and I Don’t know how to do makeup.  I want to say I love you and let it Ring in the air like Frozen music But I can’t Because you’re States away and instead I brush my hair So many times for people who don’t even like me that There’s no personality left. I have a problem with the fact that you Moved on so quickly and left me with the Loves me not flower petal and that Dora the Explorer is not on Netflix Anymore and the price of Happy Meals goes Up everyday like the age of my Heart   And that Toddlers can put green crayons in the freezer without Anybody questioning them and say that They Are preserving the Earth.
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POSTICTAL PORTHOLE-(TIME BLOWN BACKWARDS) Frozen breath holding back weight, against the chest seems great stacked like stones Starting softly to see from the third door down the row,reclusive, damage is waiting to show Others in red alert our mind coming on slow, their fear no reflection on our unknowns Peace while in waiting,thoughts flow slow into a reflecting pool,echos beginning to grow Time blown backwards when clocks stopped ticking , simple assessments our only goals Mental evaporation senses left wide open,trying to find the song but only get static from the radio Held back by grogginess looking out from fogginess ,bits of life as viewed through those holes Oh MY I made it,escaped , BUT when will blackness call again,laying low not quite thinking of that other plateau Bolted ,jolted rousing frequently followed by drowsing,hearing as a low hum ,sounds soon forming new tones Nonexistentance now part of the ritual ,for the witness memories are visual,slowly waiting to say hello Perspective has changed, await for thoughts to be rearranged ,senses in collusion with massive confusion,new beginning like waiting for future episodes . R.C.
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Jan 17, 2018
Jan 17, 2018 at 12:05 PM UTC
POSTICTAL PORTHOLE-(TIME BLOWN BACKWARDS)
Times between night and mornin, Just when the chill about sets in, Limbs frantically search for that crumpled quilt Increasing warmth and ahh sweet grogginess. A dream floats in my blank sleep You and me tootling along a forgotten, familiar street In a battered old Hyundai Santro?? it is. Twenty years of acquired cobwebs melt Evoke fond memories and unexplored possibilities Overlaid with a wild imagination, the images move in slow motion Me driving, your gaze surveying the landscape You are older and plumper, I have a beer belly and a bald patch There is not much to say, or too much to say but no time. Four Eyes frequently lock and search for something Knowing it but daring not to say. Your sultry liquid voice breaks into a song, an old Urdu ghazal, Of obscure origin and meaning, The notes glide and acquire shapes in your husky abused throat, Silvery quicksilver, flowing, and always round  at the edges Unfettered and undisturbed by the bumpy ride and noisy springs Brings whole of creation in the Battered old Hyundai Santro Still. The vocal vibrates and resonates in my bones and skull and in my soul Stimulates humours I didn’t know exist Eyes lock again, a mild smile is exchanged, We understand each other Know the limits and improbabilities Its not going to be in this life time dear. Let’s seal it with a kiss An embrace exchanged over the gear levers and handbrakes Oblivious to the barreling old Hyundai Santro Your tiny ******* and Pantene scented hair Your lips still perfect, soft, warm, moist and downy at the corners,. Unfamiliar yet so familiar.
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Nov 22, 2016
Nov 22, 2016 at 1:35 AM UTC
A Forgotten Song
Times between night and mornin, Just when the chill about sets in, Limbs frantically search for that crumpled quilt Increasing warmth and ahh sweet grogginess. A dream floats in my blank sleep You and me tootling along a forgotten, familiar street In a battered old Hyundai Santro?? it is. Twenty years of acquired cobwebs melt Evoke fond memories and unexplored possibilities Overlaid with a wild imagination, the images move in slow motion Me driving, your gaze surveying the landscape You are older and plumper, I have a beer belly and a bald patch There is not much to say, or too much to say but no time. Four Eyes frequently lock and search for something Knowing it but daring not to say. Your sultry liquid voice breaks into a song, an old Urdu ghazal, Of obscure origin and meaning, The notes glide and acquire shapes in your husky abused throat, Silvery quicksilver, flowing, and always round  at the edges Unfettered and undisturbed by the bumpy ride and noisy springs Brings whole of creation in the Battered old Hyundai Santro Still. The vocal vibrates and resonates in my bones and skull and in my soul Stimulates humours I didn’t know exist Eyes lock again, a mild smile is exchanged, We understand each other Know the limits and improbabilities Its not going to be in this life time dear. Let’s seal it with a kiss An embrace exchanged over the gear levers and handbrakes Oblivious to the barreling old Hyundai Santro Your tiny ******* and Pantene scented hair Your lips still perfect, soft, warm, moist and downy at the corners,. Unfamiliar yet so familiar.
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I want to fall in love with his bad days His insecurities Become a best friend to his loneliness, his fears A partner to his loathing I want to love him for all he thinks he isn't So I can prove him wrong and kiss away his hate I want to fall in love with his tears His messy hair in the mornings His grogginess before his cup of coffee His clumsy and nervous stutters Everything about him, I want to find myself fawning over I want to give him my all and love his everything Because love doesn't pick and choose It consumes all or it leaves with nothing If I only choose to love his shimmer in the sunlight Or his childish smiles and giggles Then it would be as if I loved a portrait Our love would only tarnish and fade with time I will love everything or I will not love at all
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May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 2:00 PM UTC
All or nothing
And so I fall again Into the blackest cycles The dark patterns Of dreary steps Running on auto Not feeling like I ought to Piloting the craft through Though taking many hits to the hull And perennial pardon , Sure as the sun will rise With the impending dawn, ****** my plaintive passions Sickening and splintering the dream One from which I awake with a start Bloodshot grogginess My purest art
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Jun 28, 2016
Jun 28, 2016 at 5:07 AM UTC
Insipid
I will remember the waking Of many mornings Golden 7 a.m.s filling the room Grey grogginess of nightmares melt The most beautiful waking Is to the sound of birds and rain Shaking me to wake me up With a kiss on the hand You run a close second Waking up to the sound of you turning And pulling the covers over your shoulders And off of my legs (I don't mind) We are each other's invitations To change and growth And a beautiful garden Is blooming outside your window
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Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 7:19 PM UTC
Waking
My mind woke up, and its first thought was you. Then my heart rubbed the grogginess out of its eyes and readjusted itself to the newness of the morning. The instant it realized what my mind was thinking, a pang shot out all through it and it started to ache. It was reminding me of why I shouldn't. My heart and head do this every morning, and every morning I make them stop. It's too draining to deal with on a daily basis. My mind should know better by itself now, but it’s willing to break every single last rule when it comes to you. Have you no mercy upon me? Upon my heart? Upon my mind? Have you no compassion for the pain that you put me through? Most mornings I feel guilty, as though I should go back to sleep, but there’s no point seeing as you take over my dreams too. It’s always you, and I’m convinced that it always will be. I go to sleep, it’s you. In my dreams? You. When I wake up... It’s no other than you. The cycle is vicious. You’ve overstayed your visit. Please… just pack your bags and be gone, my head no longer wants to be your home.
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Feb 11, 2012
Feb 11, 2012 at 11:15 AM UTC
This Morning.
I wake up to the first note of my alarm Ringing loudly into my dreams Pulling me from the depths of sleep Out thru the ocean of slumber and awake Never anytime for the snooze button I have no extra time to spare I set my alarm for the last possible minute I stumble into the bathroom Rough my hair around a little bit And peel the sleep out of my eyes I turn the shower on and step in Standing still for just a few minutes I think that maybe I may fall back asleep A lighthearted prayer escapes my lips Hoping the hot water will be enough To wake me from this grogginess But of course it never is I’d really rather not get ready And just crawl back into bed Ten minutes have passed Now it’s time to get out of the shower And get dressed I blindly let the dog out of her cage Walk her outside to do her business In the thick early morning fog She plays around for a few minutes It’s all the time that I can allow We rush back up the stairs And back into the warmth of our home I hurriedly pack my lunch From a limited number of choices And empty cabinets The dog accepts her treat And trots back to her cage She is trained well The thought occurs to me That if only people were so well behaved Maybe I’d enjoy their company more But I’m running late by now as usual So I don’t have time to dwell on this thought As I close the bedroom door She watches me and I hear her whimper A soft goodbye with her eyes I grab my lunch bucket and head out the door Muttering a poem of early morning under my breath Which seems to hang frozen in the air I unlock my car door and slide in Keying the car on in one smooth practiced process The radio booms to life because I always forget how loud I had the music playing the previous day And my right hand quickly reaches For the volume **** to turn it down But only a little At least until I get out onto the road Every second of my drive to work I sit talking myself into not turning back around To go back home and go back to sleep Most days I’m successful and I end up at work Punching the time clock for an eight hour or more shift Of busting knuckles and periodic book reading Most days though I really should just turn back around And go back home and go back to sleep Most days though I really should never Have gotten out of bed in the first place
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Oct 18, 2011
Oct 18, 2011 at 8:37 PM UTC
Most Days
I wake up to the first note of my alarm Ringing loudly into my dreams Pulling me from the depths of sleep Out thru the ocean of slumber and awake Never anytime for the snooze button I have no extra time to spare I set my alarm for the last possible minute I stumble into the bathroom Rough my hair around a little bit And peel the sleep out of my eyes I turn the shower on and step in Standing still for just a few minutes I think that maybe I may fall back asleep A lighthearted prayer escapes my lips Hoping the hot water will be enough To wake me from this grogginess But of course it never is I’d really rather not get ready And just crawl back into bed Ten minutes have passed Now it’s time to get out of the shower And get dressed I blindly let the dog out of her cage Walk her outside to do her business In the thick early morning fog She plays around for a few minutes It’s all the time that I can allow We rush back up the stairs And back into the warmth of our home I hurriedly pack my lunch From a limited number of choices And empty cabinets The dog accepts her treat And trots back to her cage She is trained well The thought occurs to me That if only people were so well behaved Maybe I’d enjoy their company more But I’m running late by now as usual So I don’t have time to dwell on this thought As I close the bedroom door She watches me and I hear her whimper A soft goodbye with her eyes I grab my lunch bucket and head out the door Muttering a poem of early morning under my breath Which seems to hang frozen in the air I unlock my car door and slide in Keying the car on in one smooth practiced process The radio booms to life because I always forget how loud I had the music playing the previous day And my right hand quickly reaches For the volume **** to turn it down But only a little At least until I get out onto the road Every second of my drive to work I sit talking myself into not turning back around To go back home and go back to sleep Most days I’m successful and I end up at work Punching the time clock for an eight hour or more shift Of busting knuckles and periodic book reading Most days though I really should just turn back around And go back home and go back to sleep Most days though I really should never Have gotten out of bed in the first place
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hum...habit...hic...abbott woozy celebrating with British Royal Family and...hub bout red dee to take a snoozy sup...par'n...this poet fur...hib bit..bing a lil oozy. Now this raggedy man whilst deep in sleep this past night what felt like galactic body fell upon ma slumbering heap affecting immediate fear lest worst nightmare, would crush with might but lo…just then zee spouse plunked herself with unconsciousness deep unable to recapture pleasant dreams well nigh past day light. So...rather than emit shrieks like some angry birds the idea arose to attempt poem to express discombobulated state whereby grey matter feels similar to thick whey curds palliative sans restorative power per rest will clear muddled pate thick with grogginess and marauding herds of mailer daemons worse than unsuitable mate or a world wide web filled with nerds thus lethargy purged via catharsis with forming words that follow rhyming pattern to convey mood = to a synonym for turds. respite from a cat nap as tonic no lion here can spell relief and serve as balm with pillowed temptress ever near beckons softly inviting calm before this human goes a berserk manic tear being revisited from haunts inside head of this scrivener caught by men in white coats strait jacketing this maniac in tattered under wear whose ***** by the way oh about the size of an average palm yet taut for witnessing deux score plus eighteen mortal year.
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May 19, 2018
May 19, 2018 at 6:46 PM UTC
Roy L. T. Canard, Si?
touches ungainly in the darkness. breathes entangled in each other's throats. hands. roaming. traveling. drifting. the familiarity of your muscles. tongue. tasting. consuming. savoring. the orbit of your back. fingers. soaking. engrossing. immersing. the blueprint of your slumber. your slumber. my slumber. your face nuzzled in my bird nest. my arm wrapped like a boa constrictor. your calf easing my calf. your early rise. my grogginess. your gentle smile. your hungry kiss. drift. drift. back into the wondrous state. a world where we both reside. darling, to sleep by your side every night of every day of every month of every year. i dream. i dream.
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Apr 28, 2012
Apr 28, 2012 at 12:13 AM UTC
drift
It was a Saturday morning. My eyes, they fluttered, lashes grazing against the top of my lids, pitter, patter, flutter, am I awake yet? Hours spent drifting in, drifting out somewhere I slipped, swiftly, floating in between sweet, delicious dreams and soft, serene reality. The universe opened wide just beyond the unlatched windows. The wind whispered to me as it slowly blew by the quilted drapes. "The universe is yours," it whispered. Awake, rising, how I was aware, senses heightened by the morning air, or was it afternoon? No matter. Grogginess faded as my eyes focused on the whimsical, soft shapes that shifted, turned, dissolved, bloated and withered, the clouds spoke to me, creating a slow, two-step harmony in my soul. Sunlight faint, that early afternoon light the kind that makes everything beautiful, and poetic, even the 3, oh wait, there's 4, flies buzzing, circling round and round the overhead light were they dancing? playing a tune? The sunlight made it so. 'Twas all a chord, a line from a song, a poem, a simple moment in a complicated world, and all I felt, smelled, heard, saw, tasted; I am alive.
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Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 7:18 PM UTC
What Were Their Shapes?
Coffee Rich and dark Slowly spinning in a white cup, Therapeutic aromatherapy Creating a warm feeling Even sophisticated, A smell that sells houses Breakfast Sizzling, crackling into life Taste-buds still blurred From the grogginess of sleep, Bacon and eggs Like Morecambe and Wise An inseparable odd couple Newspaper Folded and re-folded Onto an article of vague interest, Words from another world Unimaginable, war torn, desolate, Colder than the rain-washed street Outside this café window Cigarette The first of the day Smouldering between yellowed Fingers moulded to its shape, Smoke slightly burning eyes That are awakening to Another fragment of life
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Jul 22, 2019
Jul 22, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
Fragments
It was just the tips of your fingers and the way they weren't ashamed to be between mine. The way your skin's not mine, and mine will never be yours, but you loved its freckled smoothness anyways. It's just because my heart broke when every word you passed to me in two a.m. dizziness turned itself into a confession, and the way your eyes gave you away, and apologized for wanting to not be alone tonight. It's raining today, and I'll never be the weight upon your chest at night, or the pitch you'll tune your self-acceptance to. But I will be the grogginess of morning that never lasts forever, but never fails to come back, and I will love you like the very saddest memory I keep away in my chest. It's not important, but it's where my mind goes when it's windy, so I guess I'll love you there. In the spaces where no one sees it, because no one sees us. It's just because your smile broke when you said that nothing hurts you. Well, that's certainly not true. But I will love you like the ocean at midnight, a stillness I'm never allowed to swim in, and can only love from distance. But I promise to love you anyways.
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May 23, 2014
May 23, 2014 at 11:22 PM UTC
July 3, 2013 -- Morning
Who knew I'd fall in love with the musky smell of moss and burning wood or the small hole near the armpit of your favourite sweater or the soft smile that graces your lips when you're having a good dream or the way your eyes light up when you talk about your dreams & aspirations or the grogginess in your voice when you've just awoken or the soft pitter patter of your feet on the hard wood or the faded tiger stripes on the side of your hips or the twitch of your nose, when you're disgusted or the little puddle shaped bruise from when you fell as a child Who knew that I'd fall in love in with the small details before the bigger picture Who knew I'd fall in love with you.
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Feb 16, 2017
Feb 16, 2017 at 10:50 AM UTC
Part 1 || Who Knew
Life The crack of dawn, Grogginess kicking in, Struggling to get up for the day, Everyday just like the rest, Same routine, Sleep. Eat. Learn. Study. Sleep. But one day something changes, A kink is thrown in the system, Nothing is the same again, Going to school different every day, Trying to adapt to the change, But it is hard to change, To this lifestyle that is different, Not knowing what to do, Or what to choose, For life has thrown a curveball, In my life plan, And I don’t know what to choose, Eventually will have to make decisions, Which I’m not ready to make, For I’m afraid if I choose, I will make a wrong choice, Time is ticking, And I have to choose soon, For not being ready is not helpful, It is coming too fast, For panicking is what I’m doing Do I choose sports or school, Will I make the right choice, Or suffer my own doom, These choices will help mold my fate, And the pressure of the choices is unbearable, For I can’t decide a choice, I love all the stuff I do, But I don’t know if I’m ready to say goodbye, To my friends. Sports. School. Or life too. For life is going by fast, And I can keep up with it, I wish I could just stay back and live in the good ol’ days.
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Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 12:59 PM UTC
Life
Her room was chaos; clothes thrown everywhere, bed unmade, and junk piling every open spot. Even though her father told her time and time again that she needs to find a solution to this trainwreck, the messiness never seemed to cease. She had attempted to tidy up, but somehow the mess would always return; always lurking in the back of her mind, taunting her every second. She washed her ***** clothes, threw away the trash, got rid of unnecessary items, but the mess always returned. She began to lose hope, nothing would bring this to an end. Each time she tried to stop the mess it grew stronger and got progressively worse. Her friends had started telling her she needs to clean her, but she always had an excuse. She would constantly say how she was always too busy, but it was a lie; she had all the time in the world, but she knew her friends just wouldn’t understand how the mess was her own personal bully; it never left her alone and it was a constant reminder of how her disorderly her life had become. One day, she finally broke. Her goal to have a clean room had been demolished and engrossed into the mess itself; similar to her other goals and aspirations. The mess began to spread; her locker overflowed with useless papers, her car filled to the brim with futile garbage; it followed her everywhere. The grogginess from her bedroom poured into the sky, turning it a terrifying shade of gray; lessening her hope drastically. Every single thing she did contributed to the mess and she just couldn’t take it anymore. She went home and just lay there in her unkempt bed with her ***** laundry and empty water bottles and she allowed the mess to overtake her. She stayed trapped inside this mess she created until it consumer her; like it had consumed every other aspect of her life. She never found a solution to the never ending mess.
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Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC
Disorder
Her room was chaos; clothes thrown everywhere, bed unmade, and junk piling every open spot. Even though her father told her time and time again that she needs to find a solution to this trainwreck, the messiness never seemed to cease. She had attempted to tidy up, but somehow the mess would always return; always lurking in the back of her mind, taunting her every second. She washed her ***** clothes, threw away the trash, got rid of unnecessary items, but the mess always returned. She began to lose hope, nothing would bring this to an end. Each time she tried to stop the mess it grew stronger and got progressively worse. Her friends had started telling her she needs to clean her, but she always had an excuse. She would constantly say how she was always too busy, but it was a lie; she had all the time in the world, but she knew her friends just wouldn’t understand how the mess was her own personal bully; it never left her alone and it was a constant reminder of how her disorderly her life had become. One day, she finally broke. Her goal to have a clean room had been demolished and engrossed into the mess itself; similar to her other goals and aspirations. The mess began to spread; her locker overflowed with useless papers, her car filled to the brim with futile garbage; it followed her everywhere. The grogginess from her bedroom poured into the sky, turning it a terrifying shade of gray; lessening her hope drastically. Every single thing she did contributed to the mess and she just couldn’t take it anymore. She went home and just lay there in her unkempt bed with her ***** laundry and empty water bottles and she allowed the mess to overtake her. She stayed trapped inside this mess she created until it consumer her; like it had consumed every other aspect of her life. She never found a solution to the never ending mess.
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What is it that I have done this time to bring the wrath down upon my head? The burning hatred in your eyes bright with a fury of unknown deeds or words In my tiptoeing world of never knowing What blame is pinned to the chest today? The paranoid delusions of my unsatisfying life failing you with every action My unworthiness constantly on display that only you can see I flinch, I tremble, I beg I endure the belittling, the threats, the humiliations, the staring through me The **** on your shoe unable to meet your exacting, delusional demands My unwillingness to bow down at your majesty, your might and intellectual superiority With the snap of a finger, the rage dissipates And contrition follows quickly along If only I would learn, you wouldn’t have to show me my errors You love me like no-one else would I am lucky to have you, but I must not keep stepping out of line for you cannot keep doing this It is for my own good I’m sure I just don’t think I know or want to know that And then it is over and the adrenaline is left to slowly creep out of the system And I want to cry Not anymore Not tonight Tonight I’m going to be free Free from the sharp tongue The threats of a pounding unless I comply The put downs The constantly being told I am not good enough And you are the only one for me I whisper your name I need you to stir I need you to see To feel the coming apocalypse No movement, no stirring Again, a little louder The voice gentle A parent waking their child without startle You mutter in the grogginess of dreams Once more with the hand caressing the cheek The eyes they open slowly With some recognition you smile back, but this is the last time that you will With the anger and vengeance of all those abused, I raise the hammer and with the power of Thor bring it down into the centre of your forehead with a bone cracking thud The look you gave after the second blow The look of a confused little boy wondering what had brought this on was overshadowed by the third and final blow No more No more threats No more shouting No more abuse No more placating you so you don’t hurt No more believing what you say No more put downs I am worthy I am good enough I am my own person I am me (You are no more and I am free)
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Sep 12, 2025
Sep 12, 2025 at 4:55 PM UTC
I'm Free
What is it that I have done this time to bring the wrath down upon my head? The burning hatred in your eyes bright with a fury of unknown deeds or words In my tiptoeing world of never knowing What blame is pinned to the chest today? The paranoid delusions of my unsatisfying life failing you with every action My unworthiness constantly on display that only you can see I flinch, I tremble, I beg I endure the belittling, the threats, the humiliations, the staring through me The **** on your shoe unable to meet your exacting, delusional demands My unwillingness to bow down at your majesty, your might and intellectual superiority With the snap of a finger, the rage dissipates And contrition follows quickly along If only I would learn, you wouldn’t have to show me my errors You love me like no-one else would I am lucky to have you, but I must not keep stepping out of line for you cannot keep doing this It is for my own good I’m sure I just don’t think I know or want to know that And then it is over and the adrenaline is left to slowly creep out of the system And I want to cry Not anymore Not tonight Tonight I’m going to be free Free from the sharp tongue The threats of a pounding unless I comply The put downs The constantly being told I am not good enough And you are the only one for me I whisper your name I need you to stir I need you to see To feel the coming apocalypse No movement, no stirring Again, a little louder The voice gentle A parent waking their child without startle You mutter in the grogginess of dreams Once more with the hand caressing the cheek The eyes they open slowly With some recognition you smile back, but this is the last time that you will With the anger and vengeance of all those abused, I raise the hammer and with the power of Thor bring it down into the centre of your forehead with a bone cracking thud The look you gave after the second blow The look of a confused little boy wondering what had brought this on was overshadowed by the third and final blow No more No more threats No more shouting No more abuse No more placating you so you don’t hurt No more believing what you say No more put downs I am worthy I am good enough I am my own person I am me (You are no more and I am free)
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The sticky grogginess of the morning often wanes as the day lengthens. Your body begins to crave entertainment, nourishment, all sorts of things that are unrelated to sleep. But after exerting oneself, you are reminded again of the luxurious feel of your mattress. You drag yourself home, leaving your belongings at the door, shedding the garb of work and monotony, and scrub away the grittiness of the thin film you develop from a day of human interaction. Perhaps there is a delicious refreshment awaiting your empty, tumbling stomach. You soothe the anxiety rolling in your insides with each sweet, pillow-y bite of a chewy sugar cookie, quenching your thirst with fresh, cold milk, or a perfect, steaming cup of hot tea. Finally, clean, warm, and satisfied, you seek reprieve in the cool, crisp sheets, freshly turned down. The pillows are perfectly placed, cradling your head, and the mattress beneath you is like a cloud gently lifting you, carrying you high and rocking you, as you lay beneath the pleasantly slight weight of your sheets. There is a specific moment, just before you succumb to sleep, when your body is in such a state of peace and comfort that you can think of nothing but giving in to it. Such a satisfaction can only be described as bliss. Your body has no complaints for the first time all day. It is perfect, delectable, almost guilt-inducing, like your tea, right between too hot and too cold, or a bite of chocolate that's neither too bitter nor too sweet. That moment, were I to capture it, and bottle the feeling, is precisely what it feels like, to embrace you.
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Nov 5, 2017
Nov 5, 2017 at 9:41 PM UTC
Just Before Sleep
The sticky grogginess of the morning often wanes as the day lengthens. Your body begins to crave entertainment, nourishment, all sorts of things that are unrelated to sleep. But after exerting oneself, you are reminded again of the luxurious feel of your mattress. You drag yourself home, leaving your belongings at the door, shedding the garb of work and monotony, and scrub away the grittiness of the thin film you develop from a day of human interaction. Perhaps there is a delicious refreshment awaiting your empty, tumbling stomach. You soothe the anxiety rolling in your insides with each sweet, pillow-y bite of a chewy sugar cookie, quenching your thirst with fresh, cold milk, or a perfect, steaming cup of hot tea. Finally, clean, warm, and satisfied, you seek reprieve in the cool, crisp sheets, freshly turned down. The pillows are perfectly placed, cradling your head, and the mattress beneath you is like a cloud gently lifting you, carrying you high and rocking you, as you lay beneath the pleasantly slight weight of your sheets. There is a specific moment, just before you succumb to sleep, when your body is in such a state of peace and comfort that you can think of nothing but giving in to it. Such a satisfaction can only be described as bliss. Your body has no complaints for the first time all day. It is perfect, delectable, almost guilt-inducing, like your tea, right between too hot and too cold, or a bite of chocolate that's neither too bitter nor too sweet. That moment, were I to capture it, and bottle the feeling, is precisely what it feels like, to embrace you.
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"are you depressed?" i wipe my eyes of slow grogginess, i pull myself struggling out of a fluctuating dream state to rest temporarily in reality. "what?" "oh well... wanting to sleep through everything, and never wanting to do anything is one of the leading causes of depression" *thanks i really had no ******* idea* "well i had it all through middle school so i wouldn't be surprised." "maybe you should talk to someone about it," i packed my things angrily loud, in her echoing teal classroom, and left quickly. *she really has no ******* clue*
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Feb 11, 2014
Feb 11, 2014 at 5:42 PM UTC
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My eyes droop To the sound Of the night caving in And the lights dimming out My vision clogs With grogginess and The mistakes I made today And the ones I will make tomorrow So I smile Because the future isn't certain And I like mysteries and all, But one thing is for sure That every night, before I am consumed by sleep My eyelids will be imprinted With your angelic face Burned into them And another thing Although I will make more mistakes tomorrow I still have you And that can only mean That I'll also do something right And with that My mind is filled With fog and clouds and smells Of days and nights And a smile tattoos my tired face Form the memory Of you
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Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 3:01 AM UTC
Thoughts Before Sleep
I have a love/hate relationship with morning, And not for the reason you might think; No, I have no problem with alarm clocks Or early jobs, cold breakfasts, Or the grogginess only cleared by a cup (or three) of coffee. No, I have a problem with literally waking up. On days I wake up without an alarm clock, I hate it. Well, hate is too strong a word; Really, it's bittersweet. I swim up towards consciousness From the warm depths of sleep. I float on the strange, ever shifting barrier of The dreamworld, A silver sea rippling with black and white reflections, Hints of rainbow. My brain is trying to tell me something, I'm sure of it, if only I could See the message for a bit longer. There is one moment, One single, tiny, brief, glorious Moment Where I know that I'm dreaming. My dream-self is warm and fuzzy and Right in the midst of an imaginary...something, And I know that this instant is all I have left of it. I strain, focusing all of my real-or-not energy On decoding whatever it is that I can't quite see. I revel in the mysterious firing of synapses deep down Within my brain, forcing pictures of Life Onto eyelids that have never seen The bright-hued portraits I hang before them. And I won't be able to think about it Until that last, final instant, I try to keep it with me like water in a seive, But I cannot stop myself from floating up, Out of Dreamworld, off the surface of the pool, Away from, from..from.... It's gone. I can't picture it anymore as I am Inexorably dragged up towards my life. I wake, eyes flashing open. Heart pounding. Out of breath from my struggle to See the other side. A tear escapes from the prison of lashes. **** I was so close this time...
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Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 12:14 AM UTC
Dream Land
I have a love/hate relationship with morning, And not for the reason you might think; No, I have no problem with alarm clocks Or early jobs, cold breakfasts, Or the grogginess only cleared by a cup (or three) of coffee. No, I have a problem with literally waking up. On days I wake up without an alarm clock, I hate it. Well, hate is too strong a word; Really, it's bittersweet. I swim up towards consciousness From the warm depths of sleep. I float on the strange, ever shifting barrier of The dreamworld, A silver sea rippling with black and white reflections, Hints of rainbow. My brain is trying to tell me something, I'm sure of it, if only I could See the message for a bit longer. There is one moment, One single, tiny, brief, glorious Moment Where I know that I'm dreaming. My dream-self is warm and fuzzy and Right in the midst of an imaginary...something, And I know that this instant is all I have left of it. I strain, focusing all of my real-or-not energy On decoding whatever it is that I can't quite see. I revel in the mysterious firing of synapses deep down Within my brain, forcing pictures of Life Onto eyelids that have never seen The bright-hued portraits I hang before them. And I won't be able to think about it Until that last, final instant, I try to keep it with me like water in a seive, But I cannot stop myself from floating up, Out of Dreamworld, off the surface of the pool, Away from, from..from.... It's gone. I can't picture it anymore as I am Inexorably dragged up towards my life. I wake, eyes flashing open. Heart pounding. Out of breath from my struggle to See the other side. A tear escapes from the prison of lashes. **** I was so close this time...
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