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"grapevine" poems
May we live in and see interesting times, the old saying goes another offers that when the mind is blind, the eyes cannot see for me my days are interesting and the laughter readily and often comes for the grapes of wrath brings forth mirth filled grapes on grapevine tendrils As lemmings and sheep enact bellyaching absurdities, as the ridiculous does Veracity on sojourn and falsehood in residence with doors firmly closed Hamlet re-enacts hapless role, with Red Robin Hood and vigilantes to a tee eager audiences, participatory scenes in towns and cities, leaving empty homes come all and vent your spleen and satiate your prejudices without paying a fee This land belongs to us, it is our birthright and we will send Hamlet to the catacombs Nothing is private anymore, rights and freedom nailed, anywhere we roam Ophelia not only went to Italy, she went to Hull, Turnpike Lane and even Essex but a joke here, if all these were good, why did she come to me, you simple gnomes perchance unlike you common goons,  she knows distinction has no comparison to thee Your vacuous hate filled mind cannot see that difference in a Prince, that regally looms Act two, dim, fooled actors in their Beggars Opera, screaming, 'we oppose' with glee so called republicans, laughable in their ardent favor, ignorant of their lobotomy botches we will do Hamlet's head in, totally unaware theirs been done in, for the brains of fleas in a civilisation, our conscious and stable populace, roots for vigilante and mob rule, yeah for a man of distinction is a threat reminding you of your insignificance and lack of tomes Come friends, lets see how the home of Democracy, hounds a citizen for us all and we lets know that Robin Hood is alive and taxing, and 'Windrush' is still active in dispatches indigenous people power, meets criminal gang stalking, meets racism and we all drink tea and in true cowardly fashion, its all done by insidious, indictable, nefarious, malcontents and psychopathic crazies It is our proud duty that we should all ruin Hamlet, for mediocrity has no distinction for aspiration et excellence Copyright LaurenceA. JUNE 2018.All rights reserved.
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Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 8:00 PM UTC
Mediocrity knows no Distinction.....
May we live in and see interesting times, the old saying goes another offers that when the mind is blind, the eyes cannot see for me my days are interesting and the laughter readily and often comes for the grapes of wrath brings forth mirth filled grapes on grapevine tendrils As lemmings and sheep enact bellyaching absurdities, as the ridiculous does Veracity on sojourn and falsehood in residence with doors firmly closed Hamlet re-enacts hapless role, with Red Robin Hood and vigilantes to a tee eager audiences, participatory scenes in towns and cities, leaving empty homes come all and vent your spleen and satiate your prejudices without paying a fee This land belongs to us, it is our birthright and we will send Hamlet to the catacombs Nothing is private anymore, rights and freedom nailed, anywhere we roam Ophelia not only went to Italy, she went to Hull, Turnpike Lane and even Essex but a joke here, if all these were good, why did she come to me, you simple gnomes perchance unlike you common goons,  she knows distinction has no comparison to thee Your vacuous hate filled mind cannot see that difference in a Prince, that regally looms Act two, dim, fooled actors in their Beggars Opera, screaming, 'we oppose' with glee so called republicans, laughable in their ardent favor, ignorant of their lobotomy botches we will do Hamlet's head in, totally unaware theirs been done in, for the brains of fleas in a civilisation, our conscious and stable populace, roots for vigilante and mob rule, yeah for a man of distinction is a threat reminding you of your insignificance and lack of tomes Come friends, lets see how the home of Democracy, hounds a citizen for us all and we lets know that Robin Hood is alive and taxing, and 'Windrush' is still active in dispatches indigenous people power, meets criminal gang stalking, meets racism and we all drink tea and in true cowardly fashion, its all done by insidious, indictable, nefarious, malcontents and psychopathic crazies It is our proud duty that we should all ruin Hamlet, for mediocrity has no distinction for aspiration et excellence Copyright LaurenceA. JUNE 2018.All rights reserved.
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The artichoke With a tender heart Dressed up like a warrior, Standing at attention, it built A small helmet Under its scales It remained Unshakeable, By its side The crazy vegetables Uncurled Their tendrills and leaf-crowns, Throbbing bulbs, In the sub-soil The carrot With its red mustaches Was sleeping, The grapevine Hung out to dry its branches Through which the wine will rise, The cabbage Dedicated itself To trying on skirts, The oregano To perfuming the world, And the sweet Artichoke There in the garden, Dressed like a warrior, Burnished Like a proud Pomegrante. And one day Side by side In big wicker baskets Walking through the market To realize their dream The artichoke army In formation. Never was it so military Like on parade. The men In their white shirts Among the vegetables Were The Marshals Of the artichokes Lines in close order Command voices, And the bang Of a falling box. But Then Maria Comes With her basket She chooses An artichoke, She's not afraid of it. She examines it, she observes it Up against the light like it was an egg, She buys it, She mixes it up In her handbag With a pair of shoes With a cabbage head and a Bottle Of vinegar Until She enters the kitchen And submerges it in a *** Thus ends In peace This career Of the armed vegetable Which is called an artichoke, Then Scale by scale, We strip off The delicacy And eat The peaceful mush Of its green heart.
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Ode To The Artichoke
Tender fruit, grapevine, fleshy pulp waiting inside, marry me, be my bride.
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Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 7:41 PM UTC
****** Poem
Forget me not as I find myself Blind to the lies, my knowledge is my own true wealth Dreams that I lay upon Orion's belt Your heart is ice cold, passion will make it melt Forget me not as I walk blind Right part of the road, wrong side of the lines Mother nature caresses me faithfully as I feel the wrath of Father Time I search for clarity, but I cannot find Squashed grapes on the ground of lies told through the life's grapevine Forget me not as my heart endures life's maze Guide me, Lord, through this very day Spring my faith, like the gentle flowers of May Tomorrow isn't promised, so all we can do is pray.
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Sep 22, 2013
Sep 22, 2013 at 9:38 AM UTC
Forget Me Not
My heads pounding My necks twisted amuck think I'mma stop giving a **** Light up a blunt and do what I want - woah wait - ain't that the **** that got me here in the first place? Worst case I nervously pace the halls for a day - two or a weekend Blasting the weeknd Entire enviroment reeking shrieking - Nah - I'm better than that. Can't latch onto the past. That's the trash that got us there at the start - instead I prepare it in art And share from the heart, with you. And you. And you and you and you. Because why not? It helps forget about that pinebox looming- Thinking outside the winebox lucid - I mean Windex, clean em out And a win decks, stacks paper chips You can't say this isn't some matrix blips I am not losing **** I am manuevering this beautiful thing up past this ******* Nuva Ring Cause that's life - you can get beat or keep it on a leash - jeez that's sexist. I don't know where this became an accepted comparison, its embarrassing comparing them - to K9's But we hear it through the grapevine Turns of phrase we make fine.
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Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 12:29 AM UTC
the grapevines (nsfw)
Afraid to sleep, we keep on working. Afraid to sleep, We meet the dawn from either end. When light comes, its continuity calms us and ancestors watch over us, as we sleep in fits and starts. Outside the kitchen door, Señor Romero's own grapevine says: "Buenos dias!", says "Gracias a la vida!"
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Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 7:31 PM UTC
Casa Romero
If I offer my      kindness,                       Accept    it.                    Embrace    it.              Take care of    it. If      you      don't, someone else will.
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Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 9:03 PM UTC
Last Grapevine
Yadda......yadda......yadda he's dying of loneliness Go listen to the news They're Nine million people lonely in the country You're all known for your coldness Some don't even know their neighbours You abandon your parents when they get old Put them away in Retirement homes when was the last time you saw your elderly mum when was the last time you called your sister Thank God for the GRASS being the scapegoat used by crooks To illustrate community mobbing let us all gang up together Now you're hugging the Asians and the blacks are your best friends yadda......yadda......yadda come join the club we are all mates now against that outsider grass we welcome all the ***** ******* are molesting women oh it's just to make grass envious cause we've stopped him loving talk to me I hate you no more because grass is more hated no more bullying you just join us and help us harass that grass don't trouble that foreign shopkeeper we now want him to join welcome Muslim brothers and sisters come join us we now like you cause we have somebody else to hate hey Mr ugly come here for a hug just make sure its in front of grass you my loner friend be lonely no more you are now a club member you Somalian, you Ethopian, you chinese, you Ugandan no matter everyone is friends no more hassle just hate the grass as much as us yadda......yadda......yadda this is politics we fool and fool you all when we need you you are our best friends we show you our commonality and bring you into the fold just make sure you do as you're told and don't grass like grass we will give you opportunities to make grass jealous we will forge a grapevine from here to Kathmandu and beyond we will teach you hate and poison your stinking minds we will imprison you and make you our slaves to serve us just make sure you give that grass a hard time and come for a prize this is all our secret and your minds belongs to us gangstalking crew make him lonely make him friendless and show viva democracy You are all simpletons and that's how you will stay in our pockets this is a union of morons by morons for morons and the crooks win yadda......yadda......yadda
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Sep 29, 2018
Sep 29, 2018 at 3:26 AM UTC
Yadda....Yadda......Yadda......
Yadda......yadda......yadda he's dying of loneliness Go listen to the news They're Nine million people lonely in the country You're all known for your coldness Some don't even know their neighbours You abandon your parents when they get old Put them away in Retirement homes when was the last time you saw your elderly mum when was the last time you called your sister Thank God for the GRASS being the scapegoat used by crooks To illustrate community mobbing let us all gang up together Now you're hugging the Asians and the blacks are your best friends yadda......yadda......yadda come join the club we are all mates now against that outsider grass we welcome all the ***** ******* are molesting women oh it's just to make grass envious cause we've stopped him loving talk to me I hate you no more because grass is more hated no more bullying you just join us and help us harass that grass don't trouble that foreign shopkeeper we now want him to join welcome Muslim brothers and sisters come join us we now like you cause we have somebody else to hate hey Mr ugly come here for a hug just make sure its in front of grass you my loner friend be lonely no more you are now a club member you Somalian, you Ethopian, you chinese, you Ugandan no matter everyone is friends no more hassle just hate the grass as much as us yadda......yadda......yadda this is politics we fool and fool you all when we need you you are our best friends we show you our commonality and bring you into the fold just make sure you do as you're told and don't grass like grass we will give you opportunities to make grass jealous we will forge a grapevine from here to Kathmandu and beyond we will teach you hate and poison your stinking minds we will imprison you and make you our slaves to serve us just make sure you give that grass a hard time and come for a prize this is all our secret and your minds belongs to us gangstalking crew make him lonely make him friendless and show viva democracy You are all simpletons and that's how you will stay in our pockets this is a union of morons by morons for morons and the crooks win yadda......yadda......yadda
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Life is a puzzle That won't be solved By the argument of your mind. It can neither be cracked In ivory towers Nor in the parlors of grapevine. The mystery of life Crowns the benighted With a twist of a wand Leaving the enlightened To commune with the dark. At best, it is a glass enclosure Attuning your moves Along the belt of blessing Beneath the shelter of stars And at its worst, A dungeon floor Delineating your lot In unbending reality Under the dome of despair. Exposed to eternal pumping Of raw information, Student of life knows But a speck of curricula At any given time The process of life's lessons Extends well beyond the grave Not even multiple lifetimes May suffice to scratch the surface Let alone discover the core Yet the student of life Knows no limit Goes to village today And metropolis tomorrow Mounts a mustang to Shangri-la Hops on a boat to outland. Tantamount to the amount of stars Are pictures of life Full of synonyms and antonyms Boding inflections and reflections Of thought, taste and bearing In the academy of day-and-night.
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Aug 14, 2018
Aug 14, 2018 at 8:40 AM UTC
Life Is a Puzzle
I stopped the car to let the children down where the streets end in the sun at the marsh edge and the reeds begin and there are small houses facing the reeds and the blue mist in the distance with grapevine trellises with grape clusters small as strawberries on the vines and ditches running springwater that continue the gutters with willows over them. The reeds begin like water at a shore their pointed petals waving dark green and light. But blueflags are blossoming in the reeds which the children pluck chattering in the reeds high over their heads which they part with bare arms to appear with fists of flowers till in the air there comes the smell of calmus from wet, gummy stalks.
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Blueflags
It was the early days of the organic food craze and my wife, ever a slave to the latest fads (which disposition sometimes benefitted me pleasurably but mostly cost me dearly) made me run on an errand (like: “Fido – go, fetch!”) to get some organic vegetables and arriving, I blurted out to the produce guy, stumbling: *“Some ****** for my wife”* – and that wise guy, Oxford-educated as he was (though a failed Professor, so ended up at the greengrocer’s) he said: *“That you must induce or encourage in your wife, Sir; I cannot and will not be of service in that connection.”* And I slowed down and I said: “Well, dear fellow – for my wife, have you any organic vegetables?” And Oxford-educated as he was, he did not understand such fads having mostly a sedate and Classical demeanour and he pointed his most English nose to the air; and so I attempted again to sensible-phrase my inquiry: *“Are your vegetables - and this I ask on account of my esteemed wife - sprayed with poisonous chemicals?”* And the Oxford guy apprehended now, and he pronounced: *“Poisonous chemicals for your spouse you must procure yourself, Sir”* Now, that was an idea. I knew Oxford-educated guys were smart in some way or other. And since then I have been free of my wife. I have no need to run on errands for no baby, no more; though I do have to count bars, limited as my numerical skills are, as is my verbal proficiency. And the Oxford guy, meanwhile, I have it from the grapevine, has set up an ******** Food Chain Store*, worldwide; I knew he’d go places, sooner or later, far and global
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Jul 9, 2013
Jul 9, 2013 at 8:06 AM UTC
organic food for my wife
It was the early days of the organic food craze and my wife, ever a slave to the latest fads (which disposition sometimes benefitted me pleasurably but mostly cost me dearly) made me run on an errand (like: “Fido – go, fetch!”) to get some organic vegetables and arriving, I blurted out to the produce guy, stumbling: *“Some ****** for my wife”* – and that wise guy, Oxford-educated as he was (though a failed Professor, so ended up at the greengrocer’s) he said: *“That you must induce or encourage in your wife, Sir; I cannot and will not be of service in that connection.”* And I slowed down and I said: “Well, dear fellow – for my wife, have you any organic vegetables?” And Oxford-educated as he was, he did not understand such fads having mostly a sedate and Classical demeanour and he pointed his most English nose to the air; and so I attempted again to sensible-phrase my inquiry: *“Are your vegetables - and this I ask on account of my esteemed wife - sprayed with poisonous chemicals?”* And the Oxford guy apprehended now, and he pronounced: *“Poisonous chemicals for your spouse you must procure yourself, Sir”* Now, that was an idea. I knew Oxford-educated guys were smart in some way or other. And since then I have been free of my wife. I have no need to run on errands for no baby, no more; though I do have to count bars, limited as my numerical skills are, as is my verbal proficiency. And the Oxford guy, meanwhile, I have it from the grapevine, has set up an ******** Food Chain Store*, worldwide; I knew he’d go places, sooner or later, far and global
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he had a voice that made her want to believe in eternity she had a heart that made him want to believe in love his mind has a secret garden bearing grapes his words are butterflies kissing flowers his thoughts derives from what passion brings her body curves perfectly like a well crafted grapevine her crown is the minds image her beauty is light in a formless world her body gave him life his soul told her spirit to feel honesty from that hug a hug warm like a summers evening.
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Mar 24, 2017
Mar 24, 2017 at 6:57 AM UTC
i. soulmate irony
The grapevines have never been so silent, but it is not the oil, or changing climate. To hear its word, you must now be beside it. Their messages once sung loud, merrily with joy, but now go unheard by most girl and boy. The words that find a way to meet our ears, have never been so full of hopelessness and fears. The grapevines eyes swell with tears. It seems the grapevine would no longer like to share, for the words they are sharing have lost the love and care. The abundant grapevine forest, now but a desert bare. After all of the rumors have come to cease, the grapevines sleep tonight in peace. Together waiting for sun of tomorrows dawn, they pray for new coming souls to bestow whispers upon. Holding on to hope that new messages will spawn, and lead to beautiful pictures being drawn.
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Jun 28, 2010
Jun 28, 2010 at 6:37 PM UTC
Grapevine silence.
Cicadas gather on the grapevine, a mass of wings and vibrating abdomens. Males call out to females but it is the grey squirrels who answer, chattering loudly as they feast on insect flesh. I sip cold wine and tap my fingers on thin glass, watching and waiting. My phone buzzes next to me; you, calling, again. I ignore it and turn my gaze back to the feast.
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Jan 5, 2021
Jan 5, 2021 at 8:08 PM UTC
moonrise
Love at the lips was touch As sweet as I could bear; And once that seemed too much; I lived on air That crossed me from sweet things, The flow of—was it musk From hidden grapevine springs Down hill at dusk? I had the swirl and ache From sprays of honeysuckle That when they’re gathered shake Dew on the knuckle. I craved strong sweets, but those Seemed strong when I was young; The petal of the rose It was that stung. Now no joy but lacks salt That is not dashed with pain And weariness and fault; I crave the stain Of tears, the aftermark Of almost too much love, The sweet of bitter bark And burning clove. When stiff and sore and scarred I take away my hand From leaning on it hard In grass and sand, The hurt is not enough: I long for weight and strength To feel the earth as rough To all my length.
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To Earthward
It’s pudding time. Lose your thoughts Let down your hair And your bra Tap into the electric grapevine Let it transform you Into your truest form Shed your skin & Show off your soul You don’t have to dance On a phantom stripper pole Feel the music, it feels back The air is getting slippery Melt with it Wounded knee? No reason to flee! Face your fears, The free and loving soul Feels no shame No shame - less pain, Guaranteed; or you're money back But serenity is free It's everywhere Just breathe... So kiss Mr. Krinkle Right on the lips And ******* dance Cause it's pudding time.
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Sep 8, 2012
Sep 8, 2012 at 12:09 AM UTC
Primus where art thou?
Oh! Woe to the poor captivated lover Being trapped in love, but beloved gone Oh! The moment I'm sitting as tulip alone In my heart's blood, she is gone as wind The voice of ax didn't come from Bistoon Shireen is gone to Farhad's dream tonight Oh! I will inform you of my painful alas The day my enormous patience finally gone Pity lover that flew your grapevine hair With a hundred hopes come, gone unhappy I am happy you abandoned all my rivals Although, you left me as fistful of soil to wind Mountains and deserts are mournful tonight Lovers as Majnoon and Farhad gone forever
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Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 1:40 AM UTC
Being Trapped in Love, but Beloved Gone
I heard through the grapevine The Gestapo are out tonight Weaving their tapestry Of violent sport and time So I duck into alleys ********* my talisman Praying for personal glory A reordering of the cosmos But all I get is an enigma Enigma with mystique I hear the chanteuse sing It makes the colors bleed through I heard through the grapevine The star police are out tonight Weaving their tapestry Of karmic sport and time So I duck into nightclubs ********* an eyeball glass Praying for personal triumph A reordering of the past But all I get is an enigma Enigma with mystique I hear the chanteuse sing It makes the colors bleed through
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Nov 25, 2012
Nov 25, 2012 at 2:27 PM UTC
The Chanteuse
I'm bottling up all my feelings. I know you noticed that, I've been holding back, There's something inside I'm concealing. You put me on ice for no reason. You make my heart stop, When you pop my top, I'm bubbling up to the ceiling I think you know what I mean and, You know I'm just teasing. I can't keep it a secret Grapevine, gettin' too seedy (juicy) Overtime my soul is primed, You're so divine Intoxicating my sober mind 'Til I'm, Ready to chill for the evening. Strictly for the VIP Tipsy when you lean on me Lipsin' up we don't need a cup It costs a lot but it's free
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Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 9:17 AM UTC
Champagne
Sinking I'm sinking With the every drop of rain Falling from the sky Reminds me again & again Not off you oufcourse But,off that time The time we spent together Underneath the grapevine Soft touch of bunch of grapes And,the valley of flowers Alongwith the gentle breeze Touching us like an eternal bliss How can you forget? How can I survive? Without you My Love Even for a while! Sinking I'm sinking For rest of life Into the world of dark Far from divine Please,be with me! Or,rescue me at once Otherwise,I've to bid 'Goodbye" Forever.......... Sinking I'm sinking Please,let me alive!!!-Written on 26.09.2012
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Sep 25, 2016
Sep 25, 2016 at 2:46 PM UTC
Sinking I'm Sinking
How do the vines of our secrets creep their way into the ears of those we want most to protect? It will never matter how I know, only that I know you are happy. So for the love of truth if she makes you laugh I beg you to sing aloud- your joy is too contagious to ever tiptoe around. Not on my (closed) account. All I've ever wanted is to hear your spirit ring across this country. Of course I love you, Bebe- Q. (And I can say without doubt, I shall never have another Bebe-Q. What does that even mean?) Of course I miss you. I miss you like I would miss most of my major organs. Painfully. But if her light makes your heart photosynthesize so that your entire being blooms with life -Please- Be free. Let it grow. The hardest gift I will ever give you is my blessing. My love, I am letting you go.
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Jan 20, 2014
Jan 20, 2014 at 8:18 PM UTC
The Mend, Part Two: The Grapevine, The Blessing.
haven't you heard the buzz that, the funny girl's dating the smart guy, and aren't they cute, they've been friends forever, but, they're so sweet and she's so artsy and adorable and oh my god he's hilarious i love him and, well we all saw it coming.
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May 29, 2012
May 29, 2012 at 8:36 PM UTC
the grapevine is onto us (aren't you glad?)
Saw your pictures, Mom the sadness in your eyes so calm There was a minute when I barely recognized your face Shame on me look in the mirror and see your features have left a trace Well your pictures look great March 20th, 2013 was the date An obituary photo shoot how fabulously like you Preparing for sad days ahead planning like you’re already dead Morningside Cemetery plot number six another family member to add to the mix Tombstone of granite grapevine wrapped cross engraved on it These conversations are sad but true you only want less for me to do I’m sorry because you love me so much while I’m here in Chicago far out of touch Call as much as you please hearing your voice is the worst tease I want to see your face now, hold you tight please just know I'm doing alright.
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Apr 8, 2013
Apr 8, 2013 at 3:55 AM UTC
Obituary Pictures
my purpose of those yearly vigils was primarily as an effort for Colton to hear through the grapevine in one form or another that he was not only not forgotten but that he was extremely well loved and sincerely missed and to show Colton that whether his leaving was unintentional as in afraid to come home for missing curfew and 1 day turned into 2,3,4 and by that time he may have felt that he had painted himself into a corner and I wanted him to not feel embarrassed or humiliated that this had gone on as far as it had because, hell, the whole world that knew him or at least his family and friends were willing to have a party and he was the guest of honor!!!! No, it's not like I ever had that fantasy that in the middle of pizza the first year or grilled burgers that last year that he would come walking up and join us although it was a comforting story we all let run through out minds at least once or twice as we planned these events ea September although my once upon a time story usually had Colton walking in the back door as i'm doing dishes (see, it really is a fairy tale) and in typical Colton fashion he tries to play it off tries to play me with a "Hi, Mom" and act like nothing had happened and I am torn between hugging him and grounding him But actually I know I would have done what I always did to all of my children whenever they came back from camp or being with the other parent or whenever I had gone away from them for any length of time was sniff their head and get that scent of them just like when they were babies although teenage head is not the same smell especially if they haven't washed their hair it's a mom thang (Did you kids know this or was I slick when I did this) Or had Colton purposely planned his get away in an effort to start a new identity knowing in hindsight just how horribly stressed he had been with events occurring to him at such a young age of 17 and it was bittersweet to hear the new Shinedown tune playing at that time Second Chance where the singer tells his parents goodbye and I wanted him to find out that the Colton Ross Barrera that he had tried to leave behind was still very much needed to come home And at one time it used to scare me that my son ran away because he hated me now i am sad that my son hadn't ran away and now I know he didn't leave and that his life was taken from him and yearly candle light vigils (I didn't even know for sure how to pronounce that word until 5 yrs ago) are not going to bring him back
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Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 8:34 AM UTC
yearly candle light vigils
my purpose of those yearly vigils was primarily as an effort for Colton to hear through the grapevine in one form or another that he was not only not forgotten but that he was extremely well loved and sincerely missed and to show Colton that whether his leaving was unintentional as in afraid to come home for missing curfew and 1 day turned into 2,3,4 and by that time he may have felt that he had painted himself into a corner and I wanted him to not feel embarrassed or humiliated that this had gone on as far as it had because, hell, the whole world that knew him or at least his family and friends were willing to have a party and he was the guest of honor!!!! No, it's not like I ever had that fantasy that in the middle of pizza the first year or grilled burgers that last year that he would come walking up and join us although it was a comforting story we all let run through out minds at least once or twice as we planned these events ea September although my once upon a time story usually had Colton walking in the back door as i'm doing dishes (see, it really is a fairy tale) and in typical Colton fashion he tries to play it off tries to play me with a "Hi, Mom" and act like nothing had happened and I am torn between hugging him and grounding him But actually I know I would have done what I always did to all of my children whenever they came back from camp or being with the other parent or whenever I had gone away from them for any length of time was sniff their head and get that scent of them just like when they were babies although teenage head is not the same smell especially if they haven't washed their hair it's a mom thang (Did you kids know this or was I slick when I did this) Or had Colton purposely planned his get away in an effort to start a new identity knowing in hindsight just how horribly stressed he had been with events occurring to him at such a young age of 17 and it was bittersweet to hear the new Shinedown tune playing at that time Second Chance where the singer tells his parents goodbye and I wanted him to find out that the Colton Ross Barrera that he had tried to leave behind was still very much needed to come home And at one time it used to scare me that my son ran away because he hated me now i am sad that my son hadn't ran away and now I know he didn't leave and that his life was taken from him and yearly candle light vigils (I didn't even know for sure how to pronounce that word until 5 yrs ago) are not going to bring him back
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