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"fuzziness" poems
When Technology died, some of us merely shrugged and Tried to go back to before... Only it wasn't the same... So many hard-wirings gone, So many places where we used to go, So many thoughts we used to know, Forgotten in an ethereal swirl... Internetted and forgotten. Power plants done, and no more juice To feed along the sagging wires. Once the Internet went down, (Without so much as a diminishing blip Of dying light (cathodes were gone)), Ah, Lord, we missed the ethereal glow... Screens now dead and flat, Unable even to reminisce The comfort-glow of former irritants, The fuzziness 0f electronic snow.... And telephones! My Lord! To think of how we used to talk! Electronic prayers, each other we implored... So much connected, We forgot the depths of face to face, Now cellular paperweights lie dormant, Longing for at least a little life, Reminding us those days are gone. We pass our little news Word of mouth now, Word of mouth to ear, Only if the ones We want to know are near.
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May 19, 2013
May 19, 2013 at 11:41 PM UTC
When Technology
At times I feel socially awkward hiding away those eyes from contact mumbling and stuttering as though I were stumbling, upon the words as I was discovering. Please don’t think I don’t want to talk when I rush out, Please don’t think I don’t want to talk, when I don’t open your messages. I escape out of nervosity I feel the fuzziness in my head butterflies in my stomach nervosity in my nerves lack of air in my lungs tremble in my muscles and the gritting of my teeth on my nails as it drains every ounce of energy out of me. I hide behind shadows so I don’t encounter any social interaction. No matter how many times I plan and play a conversation in my head I shudder and fret in reality, making myself look like an awkward mess. I want to be friends I want to say hi but the words do not escape for I feel tongue tied. I feel conscience and dreadful for being such an awkward mess choking on words unable to let them escape my tongue. I am thinking more than I am speaking I can have a conversation in my head but somehow, I find it difficult in reality. But then you reach out and make the first move It makes it easier; only to find myself being an embarrassment once again. But you don’t judge you play it cool and remain patient you still show an eager to talk and maybe that was what I needed to be comfortable and me.
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Feb 21, 2018
Feb 21, 2018 at 1:47 AM UTC
Social Phobia/Social Anxiety
a HOME credible THE BISHOP accusation ADMINISTRATION is PARISHES one MINISTRIES that, SCHOOLS after RESOURCES review SAFE ENVIRONMENT of EMPLOYEES reasonably CAREERS available, CONTACT US relevant MAKE A GIFT information BISHOP’S FAITH APPEAL in LOVE AND JUSTICE consultation AFRICAN AMERICAN MINISTRY with CATHOLIC CHARITIES the PLANNED GIVING Diocesan CHANCELLOR Review OFFICE OF CONSTRUCTION Board HISPANIC MINISTRY or CAMPUS MINISTRY other CRIMINAL JUSTICE MINISTRY professionals, STEWARDSHIP AND COMMUNICATIONS there YOUTH MINISTRY is FINANCIAL SERVICES reason MODERATOR OF THE CURIA to MAKE A GIFT TO THE CAPITAL CAMPAIGN believe SOCIAL MEDIA POLICY is FAMILY LIFE MINISTRY true VOCATIONS The soup today is not what it could be; We’d better search out the old recipe Explanatory Note: I fear the poem as written fails, which is my fault (perhaps I have lapsed into fuzziness from reading Leonard Cohen), so here is a bit of exposition: The words in small print are a quote from the Bishops of Texas (long may they wave), generated by some in-house scrivener, about what constitutes a "credible accusation."  "Credible accusation" is not a title in civil, criminal, or canon law, and it appears to be some sort of Article 58 (cf. Solzhenitsyn's The Gulag Archipelago), a means whereby anyone is guilty because he has been accused.  It stinks. Also stinky is the behavior of some few priests and religious. Anyway, I pulled the quote from a diocesan web site, and scattered among it in LARGE TYPE categories from that site.  I stirred 'em all up in a soup because the matter of paedophilia and the bishops' responses seem to be a soup, making it difficult for a "good simpleton" (cf A Canticle for Leibowitz) like me to understand. May God have mercy on us all.
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Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 4:20 PM UTC
Our Catholic Soup Kitchen (Explanatory Note Appended)
a HOME credible THE BISHOP accusation ADMINISTRATION is PARISHES one MINISTRIES that, SCHOOLS after RESOURCES review SAFE ENVIRONMENT of EMPLOYEES reasonably CAREERS available, CONTACT US relevant MAKE A GIFT information BISHOP’S FAITH APPEAL in LOVE AND JUSTICE consultation AFRICAN AMERICAN MINISTRY with CATHOLIC CHARITIES the PLANNED GIVING Diocesan CHANCELLOR Review OFFICE OF CONSTRUCTION Board HISPANIC MINISTRY or CAMPUS MINISTRY other CRIMINAL JUSTICE MINISTRY professionals, STEWARDSHIP AND COMMUNICATIONS there YOUTH MINISTRY is FINANCIAL SERVICES reason MODERATOR OF THE CURIA to MAKE A GIFT TO THE CAPITAL CAMPAIGN believe SOCIAL MEDIA POLICY is FAMILY LIFE MINISTRY true VOCATIONS The soup today is not what it could be; We’d better search out the old recipe Explanatory Note: I fear the poem as written fails, which is my fault (perhaps I have lapsed into fuzziness from reading Leonard Cohen), so here is a bit of exposition: The words in small print are a quote from the Bishops of Texas (long may they wave), generated by some in-house scrivener, about what constitutes a "credible accusation."  "Credible accusation" is not a title in civil, criminal, or canon law, and it appears to be some sort of Article 58 (cf. Solzhenitsyn's The Gulag Archipelago), a means whereby anyone is guilty because he has been accused.  It stinks. Also stinky is the behavior of some few priests and religious. Anyway, I pulled the quote from a diocesan web site, and scattered among it in LARGE TYPE categories from that site.  I stirred 'em all up in a soup because the matter of paedophilia and the bishops' responses seem to be a soup, making it difficult for a "good simpleton" (cf A Canticle for Leibowitz) like me to understand. May God have mercy on us all.
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They had begun to question consciousness, turning solid matter into fuzziness in their brains, rendering not atoms, nor photons, nor particles, only cold energy, halucenogenic stardust joints. For the exclusionary few to whom the material had never meant **** to a tree or a **** to a rabbit, it was the cash-cow of quantum reality, ambiguous poetry for a Beat Generation, Uncertainty in free verse chapbooks. So they wrote of our interconnectedness --- the Ginsbergs, the Levertovs, the Ferlinghettis --- till the gravity of space-mind curved imagination, a nation falling unheard without a whimper in the forest.
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Feb 22, 2012
Feb 22, 2012 at 1:58 PM UTC
Beatniks Are Out to Make It Rich
You were my angel Covered me in every angle Brought true happiness Unexplainable fuzziness Men if only I can stand I promise I wont pretend Be with you till the end You brought the best in me And left the worst in me Dreams turned to nightmares Days turned into nights My world turned upside down Smiles became a gloomy frown Still today you hold the crown My queen of my magical dream Can I eat you up like ice cream? I Love You, wherever you are, faraway...
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Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 7:24 PM UTC
Tinkerbell
Cottonwood falling, A snow in July, Filling the air with fluffy flakes And covering the world with White fuzziness. We're riding, Just as fast as we can, Racing, Stirring up the drifts While the wind blows the avalanche closer. I feel warm, Being so close to you and the sun. A warm snow-- Don't you think that's ironic? I love the snow, I love your heat. My heart is going as fast as we are, Fifty, Sixty, Seventy miles an hour. I embrace you closer, This thrill of a panicking soul, It's magic. Keep me in this illusion of a Peaceful time. Lift me sky high, Let me fall in warmth like this Snow in July. I feel so free, So young and bright eyed, A naive star In a Hollywood movie. Let's get out of this small town, Let's make new memories together. I want to see the world, I want to see the highlight, With our song, The one where we sing along. Tonight, Our love is a song, A soundtrack to A snow in July. We can see the world Together. No need for others to ruin our Loving silence.
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Jun 14, 2014
Jun 14, 2014 at 7:55 PM UTC
Pillion
Accepting quantum fuzziness and discreteness, u-h-d allows the idea of seeing one thing is not the other, über aber ich weis nicht focus, this is spiritual, not religious, this is inner-bubble space, pick a hat, here's a Dumbo feather … "and called it macaroni." A line forms an ancient meme, in the Spirit of America, dancing children singing and waving tri-colors, performing grammar school maypole pageants in conjunction with the ashtorothean rites called passion, feeling earth warm to the dance of our sowing of the seed, celebrate, the coming of the sun to the appointed time as time is measured on the stone that bhers witness to our we formed spirit. We are walkers along the spiral, twisting this way then to that once, you felt me make a point you felt was your tic to on point, alert, predictions pile in unverifiable belivable, but easy to believe, life is good, in terms of essential being, elemental preceptions glimpse of something super-semantic tic super symmetrick not having seen hell, from the perspective of the conqueror, leaves any weapon fit to fight the reality hell forms unique, unlike any weapon as yet imagined better, truth as a concept any mind may form to hold, from holding nothing, as a thought, then in a word caught as thought think this is the trick to quantum being, be a bit. See how it does feel to be real, ah, as in Wings of Desire, I knew I did not suffer through that film in vain. Anthro-poor-morphed angels imagined as unread messages, felt where good is the only thing ever felt real, as real as any angel's kiss, but just a kind word heard, as thought.
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Jun 8, 2021
Jun 8, 2021 at 4:04 PM UTC
Wings of Desire, a TCM movie interpretation
Accepting quantum fuzziness and discreteness, u-h-d allows the idea of seeing one thing is not the other, über aber ich weis nicht focus, this is spiritual, not religious, this is inner-bubble space, pick a hat, here's a Dumbo feather … "and called it macaroni." A line forms an ancient meme, in the Spirit of America, dancing children singing and waving tri-colors, performing grammar school maypole pageants in conjunction with the ashtorothean rites called passion, feeling earth warm to the dance of our sowing of the seed, celebrate, the coming of the sun to the appointed time as time is measured on the stone that bhers witness to our we formed spirit. We are walkers along the spiral, twisting this way then to that once, you felt me make a point you felt was your tic to on point, alert, predictions pile in unverifiable belivable, but easy to believe, life is good, in terms of essential being, elemental preceptions glimpse of something super-semantic tic super symmetrick not having seen hell, from the perspective of the conqueror, leaves any weapon fit to fight the reality hell forms unique, unlike any weapon as yet imagined better, truth as a concept any mind may form to hold, from holding nothing, as a thought, then in a word caught as thought think this is the trick to quantum being, be a bit. See how it does feel to be real, ah, as in Wings of Desire, I knew I did not suffer through that film in vain. Anthro-poor-morphed angels imagined as unread messages, felt where good is the only thing ever felt real, as real as any angel's kiss, but just a kind word heard, as thought.
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She hardly was an early riser. Life at home for her was hell. Violent voices and mean threats. She wrote this on a sunny start of the week, monday. The sun seemed to have been greatly amused at her wrinkled face. Recently, she discovered she would release a **** whenever anxiety or nervousness hit her like a dart. Her daily life began by 4:30am. There she was in comfort on her irregular bed, till a sharp light hit her face and a thunderous voice boomed her ear drums, His foot steps made so much sound than his voice. It was her father. It wasnt his voice that struck her, or was it the sight of a whip that he wielded so callously. It was the angry look he always beared on his face. It was almost as if he was angry with God for waking him up everyday. Mixed feelings of fright and fuzziness gripped her she hastily greeted He didnt respond. Her sister stood behind her bed whimpering in fear. Only then did she discover who the whip was meant to trash at that moment. The night before was a nightmare she have seen before. Her ingredients failed her, her attention and her organization towards the food preparation. Her Mom hated excuses Her Dad hated losses and bad soups. Her promises flew away Phone accessories became her get-away. It wasnt the intensity of the funny smell, or the intense awareness of the pepper and salt, but it was the searing look her mum had. Her mom must have mentally shredded her like cabbage, she thought. Her mom wondered why arguements stuck in her tongue like a tatoo. Most times she resented her awkward behaviour, She saw life has an eazy game. She thought mistakes were a part of our imperfection as human beings and hence should be constantly made. She didnt understand why God placed her in that family. Her mom would constantly remind her of the future She could hear her voice in her sleep Her mom would speak with her eyes when her anger has reached a certain height. Hereditry played a role in her usual condescesion. The environment played a role in her usual sadistic talk and thinking. Yin and Yang, Cold and Hot, the order of seasons Either you can change or you can not. Such is the nature of Monica.
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Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 2:25 AM UTC
MONICA
She hardly was an early riser. Life at home for her was hell. Violent voices and mean threats. She wrote this on a sunny start of the week, monday. The sun seemed to have been greatly amused at her wrinkled face. Recently, she discovered she would release a **** whenever anxiety or nervousness hit her like a dart. Her daily life began by 4:30am. There she was in comfort on her irregular bed, till a sharp light hit her face and a thunderous voice boomed her ear drums, His foot steps made so much sound than his voice. It was her father. It wasnt his voice that struck her, or was it the sight of a whip that he wielded so callously. It was the angry look he always beared on his face. It was almost as if he was angry with God for waking him up everyday. Mixed feelings of fright and fuzziness gripped her she hastily greeted He didnt respond. Her sister stood behind her bed whimpering in fear. Only then did she discover who the whip was meant to trash at that moment. The night before was a nightmare she have seen before. Her ingredients failed her, her attention and her organization towards the food preparation. Her Mom hated excuses Her Dad hated losses and bad soups. Her promises flew away Phone accessories became her get-away. It wasnt the intensity of the funny smell, or the intense awareness of the pepper and salt, but it was the searing look her mum had. Her mom must have mentally shredded her like cabbage, she thought. Her mom wondered why arguements stuck in her tongue like a tatoo. Most times she resented her awkward behaviour, She saw life has an eazy game. She thought mistakes were a part of our imperfection as human beings and hence should be constantly made. She didnt understand why God placed her in that family. Her mom would constantly remind her of the future She could hear her voice in her sleep Her mom would speak with her eyes when her anger has reached a certain height. Hereditry played a role in her usual condescesion. The environment played a role in her usual sadistic talk and thinking. Yin and Yang, Cold and Hot, the order of seasons Either you can change or you can not. Such is the nature of Monica.
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Tammy,Tammy,call your mammy daddy's run away. Buildings built of stilton cheese and Wilton rugs,bugs that run round in my head,silver diamond ten gauge thread to tie my eyes up. Tea leaves tell no lies, I've seen them in a broken cup where broken people all look up to watch me fall. I call the Master of Ceremonies,also made of Stilton cheese,eaten slowly by the mice,made from chocolate covered rice cake crisps and baked in ovens,gas mark seven and ask him, where did daddy go? he doesn't know and never did and slowly drops off from the grid, in hidden thoughts behind veiled red eyes where riots run with teddy boys,who ride Italian imported scooter bikes, twenty thousand Facebook likes for what, a **** *** underneath the bed? more bugs that run wild in my head, another silver,sugar coated thread to wrap me in when I am dead, but I'm not there yet I've got to shift the fuzziness,the interfering laziness,be blessed twice by his Holiness,undress the dressings I am wrapped in,bleach my skin and reach inside to clear my mind.
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Nov 13, 2013
Nov 13, 2013 at 5:06 AM UTC
Declutter
its getting bad again. i can tell. around every dark corner its there waiting for me. for the past four months depression has been subdued and had been just a back thought. just a thought of suicide. never thinking if how or when two days ago i felt my brain become fuzzy and unclear like it had before i began to think about the act of killing myself. i thought of hanging myself i thought of overdosing i thought of slitting my throat and letting my body bleed out but instead of killing myself i broke a 4 month promise i made to myself i cut myself not deep enough to do much damage but deep enough to feel the pain and annoyance of fresh cuts ive been so scared to get bad again and its back and its going to be worse than ever the fuzziness is back and its constant i dont have many clear moments   depression blurs reality and brings in false perception of my moments i dont feel right nothing calms my thoughts im becoming numb with fear of myself but ive never been so comfortable
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Oct 4, 2015
Oct 4, 2015 at 6:44 PM UTC
im getting bad again
Thy furry ****** fur that do not glow, It show not social status,  worth or wealth, Upon thy lovely face thy make it grow, Yet flatter thee it does not, bring no health. What is the purpose of thy fuzziness? Dost thou wish to appear more masculine? Dost burgeoning of dark bring happiness? Thou wishest to appear more than thy kin? But while my dislike for thy beard is true, Thou art a lady lovely, sweet and fair, And while she love your eyes of green and blue, She loveth all thine scruffy ****** hair. So while I feel thy lookest like a *** She still believe you shineth like the sun.
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Nov 10, 2010
Nov 10, 2010 at 7:16 AM UTC
Tyler's ****** Hair- Sonnet 3
A callous darkness hides in the Haze of your burnished body You run your icy fingers through My gossamer hair and a hazel fuzziness Leaks through your chocolate eyes. I mutter silent requests of mercy As your intrepid skin steals into the Fragility of my crystal soul, reducing it To splattered relics of harrowing passion. Your lust burns like spilled neglect And tastes like rotten coffee; With every painful sip that strikes My lips, it sings  like a sonnet of love And with every tepid sip that incinerates My throat, it burns like a gentle eulogy. You’re the parchment, stealing the Expressions of my artless love, and the obsidian ink tattooing my fragile heart With gestures of an intricately Woven melody of a foreseen loss.
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May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 5:42 AM UTC
Acrid Love
everyday is an exertion if you look hard enough you can see my brain in two places at once but being this competent has a consequent price & I'm not even sure how to explain it it seems with every accomplishment i get further caught up in my abilities my talents being a by-product of unattainable stress that i'll never be able to recognize so when its time to shutdown & cool off from the heat of the days work i'm always stuck in the warmth of it the fuzziness over my head the future tasks awakening me digging burrows in my skin & nesting upon my amygdala emotional strain detached until the time comes when the stress of accomplishment becomes too much for even me the double tasking anxious achiever
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Jan 29, 2014
Jan 29, 2014 at 2:28 PM UTC
insomnia
Hurricane season All throughout my cotton pocket Comfort, such a tricky muse, I found it! Nope.. that’s not it. But it was, a subtle fuzziness, My nerves suddenly honey dipped The sweetest, **** here comes the bees & once again i’m running stiff. Freest when i’m knotted up I gotta bottle up The ****** such and such Until I’m still enough to drift beyond the cusp The same setting sun, The same son will set unsettled. Another silent night, Another fight against the nettles. I need a rest, To feel closer to death. To keep me at my best. It’s like a test, Each time I lay in bed. I have to try my best. To stay there, Blankets wrapping round me Don’t ground me. Still awake, I lay, awaiting sleep to come and drown me.
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Sep 25, 2014
Sep 25, 2014 at 7:53 PM UTC
Cotton Pocket
i first felt confused. everything seemed to slip between my fingers were they even my fingers? now i was completely terrified. this sense that everything was foreign like i've never seen these surrounding in my entire lifetime. i didn't couldn't feel myself. my it those fingers. i saw them move as fingers do, but they didn't seem like my hands, my fingers, my flushed palms. it felt surreal. even the people i knew seemed unknown to my eyes. it gave me this churn in my stomach. a churn that screamed "danger". but why? don't i know these people? i should know how they act how they talk how they walk how they move. but when i saw them talk when i studied how their lips formed around words i heard nothing. there was no familiarity in their voice and the words they spoke from their mind to their tongues. it sounded like static. like white noise. the nothingness that's heard in a room of complete silence. i felt like white noise. that fuzziness; the pins and needles kind when you haven't moved in hours. i could've brushed it off. maybe tried to refocus my brain into thinking that "yes. all of this is familiar. don't be so dumb." but i couldn't. all i felt was bile in my throat as i internalized my imminent panic. it was settling there in the pit of my stomach all because i couldn't recognize my own voice. i couldn't recognize their faces. i couldn't recognize where i was nor could i recognize why i was there in the first place. what was my purpose? why do i wake up, go to school, come home, sleep. why do i do these things that give me little to no substance in my life? this regular schedule of constance. that's what caused this white noise. the white noise that pressed anxiety and stress into my chest making it heavier making it harder to breath making it worse. i hated it. but i couldn't do anything about it. this white noise. oh, how much i despised the thing. but all i can do is revel in the moment until it passes.
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Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 10:13 PM UTC
White noise.
i first felt confused. everything seemed to slip between my fingers were they even my fingers? now i was completely terrified. this sense that everything was foreign like i've never seen these surrounding in my entire lifetime. i didn't couldn't feel myself. my it those fingers. i saw them move as fingers do, but they didn't seem like my hands, my fingers, my flushed palms. it felt surreal. even the people i knew seemed unknown to my eyes. it gave me this churn in my stomach. a churn that screamed "danger". but why? don't i know these people? i should know how they act how they talk how they walk how they move. but when i saw them talk when i studied how their lips formed around words i heard nothing. there was no familiarity in their voice and the words they spoke from their mind to their tongues. it sounded like static. like white noise. the nothingness that's heard in a room of complete silence. i felt like white noise. that fuzziness; the pins and needles kind when you haven't moved in hours. i could've brushed it off. maybe tried to refocus my brain into thinking that "yes. all of this is familiar. don't be so dumb." but i couldn't. all i felt was bile in my throat as i internalized my imminent panic. it was settling there in the pit of my stomach all because i couldn't recognize my own voice. i couldn't recognize their faces. i couldn't recognize where i was nor could i recognize why i was there in the first place. what was my purpose? why do i wake up, go to school, come home, sleep. why do i do these things that give me little to no substance in my life? this regular schedule of constance. that's what caused this white noise. the white noise that pressed anxiety and stress into my chest making it heavier making it harder to breath making it worse. i hated it. but i couldn't do anything about it. this white noise. oh, how much i despised the thing. but all i can do is revel in the moment until it passes.
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it's one o'clock in the morning and it smells of drugstore perfume, daisies mixed with something attempting to be sweeter than sugar when its truly salt swirled together with arsenic and my vapid feelings. it's one o'clock in the morning and it feels like static, like the fuzziness on television screens and the sensation of the wires in my brain snapping from this exhaustion that was never there till i gave up on the phantom innocence i'd been clinging to in the hopes it was still clinging onto the shreds of clothing at my feet. it's one o'clock in the morning and it looks as though everything has been painted monochrome. it's a series of hazy greys and blurry whites, but it's mostly a black delved so dark i can't see anything through it; it's not transparent enough to even glance at the stars blinking down toward the earth because the nighttime won't let me see anything but mysteries and untouched memories. it's one o'clock in the morning and it tastes like blood, so much blood. there's metal on my tongue and it's everywhere because there's no knife anywhere, just this transpiercing pain in my stomach and my lungs are being sliced open and the gore of my guts is spilling onto the tile floor and there's blood covering my hands and my face is cracking against concrete and i'm puking rainbows again and it tastes of heartsickness. it's one o'clock in the morning and it sounds like nothing. it's the kind of nothing that everyone notices: the breath that stops when one gets the news that their loved one is leaving them for good, the nothing after a performance that's left everyone contemplating the universe and love and whether i actually want to live at all, the silence following the coffin being shut. it's the nothingness of sobs and heartbreak and death. it's the sound of loneliness - particularly mine.
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Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
the five senses at one a.m.
it's one o'clock in the morning and it smells of drugstore perfume, daisies mixed with something attempting to be sweeter than sugar when its truly salt swirled together with arsenic and my vapid feelings. it's one o'clock in the morning and it feels like static, like the fuzziness on television screens and the sensation of the wires in my brain snapping from this exhaustion that was never there till i gave up on the phantom innocence i'd been clinging to in the hopes it was still clinging onto the shreds of clothing at my feet. it's one o'clock in the morning and it looks as though everything has been painted monochrome. it's a series of hazy greys and blurry whites, but it's mostly a black delved so dark i can't see anything through it; it's not transparent enough to even glance at the stars blinking down toward the earth because the nighttime won't let me see anything but mysteries and untouched memories. it's one o'clock in the morning and it tastes like blood, so much blood. there's metal on my tongue and it's everywhere because there's no knife anywhere, just this transpiercing pain in my stomach and my lungs are being sliced open and the gore of my guts is spilling onto the tile floor and there's blood covering my hands and my face is cracking against concrete and i'm puking rainbows again and it tastes of heartsickness. it's one o'clock in the morning and it sounds like nothing. it's the kind of nothing that everyone notices: the breath that stops when one gets the news that their loved one is leaving them for good, the nothing after a performance that's left everyone contemplating the universe and love and whether i actually want to live at all, the silence following the coffin being shut. it's the nothingness of sobs and heartbreak and death. it's the sound of loneliness - particularly mine.
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It took a year to get over you To store you away in my memories with a wall that couldn't be broke through To Learn how to look away in the hallways To walk straight and not runaway To put aside the anger To hang the blame up on a hanger Then you come and talk to me You let those memories break free My eyes can only fix on your eyes I'd follow you up into the skies I glow with happiness I fill with fuzziness What's wrong with you? After all you put me through?! Now I fear It's gonna be another year
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Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 7:27 PM UTC
Year After Year
What is my labyrinth? The suffering of loneliness The quiet calm of my empty rooms Or the silent screams of my crowded mind How do I escape this labyrinth? The fuzziness of an inhibited brain Doesn't last for long There is no permanent escape
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Dec 8, 2011
Dec 8, 2011 at 2:26 AM UTC
The Escape
the soft, farmiliar fuzziness of your blanket. the humbling wall art comforting house a place where you feel safe. the movie starts. walls become tall narrow, you never noticed the way the darkness lingers in the far back corner so that you are never quite sure of what could be hiding there. even after you turn on the lights you still tiptoe through the hallway peeking at every turn swear you heard something swear it's hiding waiting to get you scamper to your bedroom lock the door fall asleep with the lights on little did you know it appears when you are asleep. lurking watching your every toss and turn waiting for the perfect chance to strike. don't close your eyes don't sleep it will devour you.
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Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 3:40 AM UTC
THE CREATURES WILL CRAWL OUT OF YOUR TV AND EAT YOU WHEN YOU ARE LEAST EXPECTING IT
it says something about them not you contextualize... be in the moment, breathe you have to date a lot ok, but **** it hurts and ***** and I don't need this right now when I'm scared and things are changing and so much depends on that interview or does it and if you're in a frying pan, and jump out only into flames you are still not safe Own that reality as you own your own words and experience and look at that person who rejected you and think: how much do I really like him and stick with that, because chances are, it's not as much as you think it's more about that primordial childhood abyss inside where love and warmth and fuzziness should have been but weren't but you are not that child anymore and knowing that will save you.
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Feb 9, 2013
Feb 9, 2013 at 8:00 PM UTC
rejection spectrum
the feeling before is the worst when I know I'm going but I can't stop it's blurred vision fuzziness and then bees on fire dark and wooshing and I'm out for 3 minutes or 10 I can never be sure it's like being in a pool with your eyes closed but not wet and I dream the dreams are the strangest of my life they are dreams without thought dreams without shape color is felt liquid is breathed thoughts are as solid as non-Newtonian fluids when I wake up I'm still in the dream still in the dark colors and thrashing out of it then it's cold tiredness even if the room is as hot as my face from the embarrassment of having people look at me even when people are just my mom staring at me while we sit by the side of the road best case scenario is when I'm at home in bed it's so much worse when people are around hitting concrete and have to be taken away on a stretcher through a school full of kids who will be talking about that girl who fainted when I came back every one stared and asked how I was I didn't know how to act and I did't know what to say but it faded like my consciousness did until it happened again
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Feb 26, 2012
Feb 26, 2012 at 7:39 PM UTC
Syncope
Warm and fuzziness is the feeling I crave That feeling that everything is OK, with me, the world, the sun is shining, I'm out of that dank cave And there's one way to get it, even though I know even though I've been told through science I know, there are really two ways Science isn't poetic, but it explains and you can understand it Doesn't change much of anything in how you feel as you go along I feel like I'm living through a ****** Kesha song and that is sad and just plain wrong Men.  They can give me, that seratonin high And there's nothing better, although I've looked well nigh everywhere and run down train tracks, into seedy bars, took those pills in plastic bags and ***** jars, it always comes back to that one elusive feeling that floating, I am attractive, enough and everything will be just fine And I'd drink a case of wine except I know it wouldn't take me there, just make me sick, and lie around making a rat's nest of my hair It makes me seem desperate For the guy who is experiencing me and it I don't even have to like him He just has to turn a kind eye and off I go That's how I entangled with my X I know I didn't even like him much, but off I went and ended up married under one of those Jewish tents So one call and I'm high And then an hour later it's over and I'm low There is only one thing I know I must take the sage advice that I've paid a high price for and that is: this feeling, to myself I can give and if I learn that I won't feel like this I can, anyone can, renew from the inside out I don't have to walk around in helpless doubt But it's the hardest thing in the world harder than the butterfly stroke that I'd never tried to learn I wish there were drugs in some ancient urn and I'd walk a thousand miles on my knees until they were bloodied to plunge my hand in and consume that thing or I wish at least I had some book that could teach me how to get there, or at least how it would look Just be here, science says, that's all it does. It's not enough.
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Dec 30, 2012
Dec 30, 2012 at 7:56 PM UTC
Give Me My Drugs, Please. (like right now)
Warm and fuzziness is the feeling I crave That feeling that everything is OK, with me, the world, the sun is shining, I'm out of that dank cave And there's one way to get it, even though I know even though I've been told through science I know, there are really two ways Science isn't poetic, but it explains and you can understand it Doesn't change much of anything in how you feel as you go along I feel like I'm living through a ****** Kesha song and that is sad and just plain wrong Men.  They can give me, that seratonin high And there's nothing better, although I've looked well nigh everywhere and run down train tracks, into seedy bars, took those pills in plastic bags and ***** jars, it always comes back to that one elusive feeling that floating, I am attractive, enough and everything will be just fine And I'd drink a case of wine except I know it wouldn't take me there, just make me sick, and lie around making a rat's nest of my hair It makes me seem desperate For the guy who is experiencing me and it I don't even have to like him He just has to turn a kind eye and off I go That's how I entangled with my X I know I didn't even like him much, but off I went and ended up married under one of those Jewish tents So one call and I'm high And then an hour later it's over and I'm low There is only one thing I know I must take the sage advice that I've paid a high price for and that is: this feeling, to myself I can give and if I learn that I won't feel like this I can, anyone can, renew from the inside out I don't have to walk around in helpless doubt But it's the hardest thing in the world harder than the butterfly stroke that I'd never tried to learn I wish there were drugs in some ancient urn and I'd walk a thousand miles on my knees until they were bloodied to plunge my hand in and consume that thing or I wish at least I had some book that could teach me how to get there, or at least how it would look Just be here, science says, that's all it does. It's not enough.
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Mix a little bit of city lights, You know- the ones that shine amidst the fog leaving traces of sparkling stars While busy cars create a dancing scene amongst a stage of black pavement; Take that moment and swirl in a perfectly pastel, left open like a door- blazing in the breeze country sky. Colors that are so perfect you'll wonder who choose them, And how they learned to create a masterpiece like that- Gently mix those two together and You got something pretty intense But to get the perfect inspiration You have to make it a little more dense. Mix a little bit of snuggle, The kind that combines heartbeats, while wrapping you up like a blanket who's fuzziness leaves you feeling warm like a cabin fire Warm like your hearts desire, Warm and wanting more- And a dab of midnight kisses- The ones that have you tasting sweet breath for hours, The kind of kiss that can't go sour- The kisses that make your toes curl, your head whirl; Allow to sit for lifetimes, Simmering on happy thoughts Bubbling with laughter that you can see While slowly turning a perfect golden brown A love once lost but may be found- A recipe for inspiration.
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Jan 25, 2013
Jan 25, 2013 at 9:25 AM UTC
a recipe for inspiration.
*I like the twists and turns of phrases And how they cause smudges of fuzziness In my mind and anything that Stirs this obsession is an instant fascination. I levitate through the time and space of imagination I flip and flop on phrases and hard sounding words With mild reckless abandon And it’s the one instance I throw caution to the wind. Before a duck’s done shaking its tail These words coalesce Into ideas of grandeur and almost immediately Like quicksand disappear beneath my mind’s feet Shortest “lease” conceivable. Soon “after-words” a state of normalcy’s restored.*
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Nov 1, 2016
Nov 1, 2016 at 3:58 AM UTC
The allure of words
Oh my God Have you ever felt this? Man, its great You become one with viscus And his holy ember watch the poppy smoke curl Into 3 dragons blowing smoke into the in finite bed time I can see your magezine left upon your side table but it is boring to me speaking to me without sound I can hear muffled echoes in some alluring ancient tongue Riddle me this sweet Adeline why have they gone and put the roof where your feet should be walking why do you have a slipknot Cd? Why do you have empty pill bottles on the floor? Why are your posters coming to life And pestering me for the time of Roger I will get you as a tattoo on my fore arm if it is the last thing I do I was gonna get that poem of Helen's done too In perfect script oh Helen your words are so beautiful I want to mold them to.my spirit I want to.wrap them upon my arms and sell them to.the poor and blind The fuzziness is returning now Telling me to go the **** to sleep and if I never wake up again.... I want you to know that I love you I love you I love you I love
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Jan 2, 2012
Jan 2, 2012 at 7:51 PM UTC
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