Serendipity Smiling has never been easier because I can remember how it feels to be in your arms.
And I know you are like me:
You want to have this love forever.
I am found. :) 93 followers / 12.8k words
My dear Faithful Husband I hope you know My goal is to never take you for granted I cherish you always I love your scent and your smile You make me happy Your arms keep me warm and safe Protected when you are near I love you my darling dearest With every breath I take and beyond
Weeks have gone by with me in this funk. Don't know what I'm doing. Don't know where I'm going wrong. Waking up is worse than falling asleep. Nightmares next to my patient husband. Drained more than I started with. Cannot remember what went on. Days and days, just another day.
Don’t try to pretend that you were in my place... The circumstances... yours weren’t mine... being emotionally abused by the only one i felt like i could trust who made me think he trusted me. being sexually assaulted and then living with that FEAR. Constant. Pressssssssing. learning that my temptation to cut is a need for adrenaline, Not a need to cut the pain away. what does cut to the core is After I learned all of this about myself, You let me know “you hurt me and everyone around you” “your tendency to lash out prevents trust” THIS is different than depression Even if the symptoms are similar. I needed to trust someone who was safe then, But no one was emotionally available for me. Not even you. When you sat typing on the computer and calling me annoying. i was crying out for help.