Since day one you’ve put me to the test Month 11 and you don’t even consider me your best I try to do this I try to do that Trading in my *** for tat But nothing is ever enough
This relationship is getting tough You tell me you have doubts I’m in school busting my *** and you’re worried about clout
It’s not fair Tired of losing all this hair You make me stress I’m a ******* mess If I’m not what you want, then leave me Stop telling me everything I’m not and what you wish I would be
If I’m not the girl of your dreams then there’s no reason for you to buy a ring Don’t waste your time and don’t you dare waste mine **** is hard enough with our age I don’t see why you need to add all the rage You tell me Ive got better qualities than hoes Well **** I guess once a play boy always a play boy and if that’s what you compare me to then go back to those
You said you’re heartless and I’m starting to ******* believe it You say I carry myself like a *** then go ahead and say with a blunt “my bad” and ******* leave it
I deserve respect I’ve been nothing but loyal to you no matter what your insecure ******* detects You continue to project your ex onto me As you sit there and tell me to push you into the Atlantic sea
Well I’m drowning and tired of your half thought out decisions Each pain-filled lie you say to me is like a ******* incision
You say I’m too good to be true So why the **** does a blood like you not care when you make me blue?
You’re a polar teacher Taught me how to smile while I’m aching Taught me how to laugh until my body started shaking Taught me what it’s like to be important Taught me how to push myself when I thought I couldn’t These are wonderful things that you helped me learn But there are some lessons that make me burn You taught me how to cry in silence to not cause a scene You taught me that there’s a point where all I can do is collapse and scream You taught me trust is something that can break You taught me that there’s only so much I can take
I lay in bed Thinking clouds above my head A thunderstorm of cumulonimbus clouds Dark thoughts overcrowd
I try to force a happy subject through But I'm still blue The thoughts are in control And they begin to take roll 1. Death Deep breath 2. Loneliness Heart full of emptiness 3. Mind overrun with fears Eyes flooded with tears 4. Exhaustion Only one option
I fall asleep And I no longer weep I wake up and get out of bed Without memory with a rainbow overhead
I'm a pretty big pencil And when the smaller pencils talk about me I become dull When I get dull I become depressed I shave off some layers to get smaller They still pick I shave some more I shave and shave until I'm smaller than them I wish I was bigger but I can't be so I shave more Now I am so small no one can see me I am alone
Stumbling around in the same circle Only hearing words that are hurtful My hand cover my ears My eyes flooded with tears Make up running down my face Mind racing all over the place
Questions spin In the end, did you win? Was it something I wore...that made you call me a *****? Could I have done more...to keep you from walking out the door? My heart you tore...and you threw the halves on the floor?!
The first boy to say "I love you" And the first boy to say "I hate you" Said I was perfection Now you can add my heart to your collection