Black boots
Black dress
Black eyes
Black hair
But you bleed forever red

My shadow has been trapped for a while
I haven't taken it for a walk in days
Maybe I don't deserve this shadow
I regret lying in my bed all day
Recently I have been seeing less of my shadow
Darkness seems to scare it away
I hope my shadow doesn't go for good
Because it has followed me all this way

A lonely sight with you not here
I turned off my phone
And ran away
I cried for hours
It rained for days
The sun came out
A friendly face
She dried my tears
Her rays I embraced
The moon soon beckoned
He and I relate
We talked and watched the stars
My mind wandered forever far

Maybe this is life
Away from it all
But in tune with the world
I am not lonely
Nor am I alone
Finally I am free

If you could describe me as a mathematical equation
You could call me friend< 1

There are no good or bad people
Rather there are people who have done good or bad things

Some people hang their heads in shame
Others hang their heads with rope

Hang me from your balcony
So you can hear my fantasy
People only want to listen when your wrists are painting poetry
Push me off a cliff so you can make a tragedy
Tragedies make poetry
Poetry is lovely
Tie me to some train tracks
To create a mass catastrophe
Catastrophes make poetry
Poetry is charming

A shard of glass to paint his skin red
A lonely boy waits for his death
Too scared to slit his veins  
He cuts by his elbow and shoulder
Art is created with each scar that he sculpted
He is proud of his creation
Although, he knows he must hide it
They won't understand why he cut in the darkness

Her only fault
Was that she couldn't land a tennis serve

He wore benevolence
She wore a black dress

His smile met her frown
And he wiped away her tears

Escape into the darkness
The only place where you can hide
Close your eyes tightly and pretend you are fine
Shutdown your brain so you don't agonize

Hide till you no longer feel blue
Hide till you no longer see stars
Hide till the darkness takes over so you can't see your scars

Wait for the light to come back
Regret all your choices
Wait for a life time
Die alone in the darkness

I don't want to be in the afterlife thinking
'The biggest mistake I made in life was when I killed myself'
That's why I hope there is no afterlife

Grey has become of the sky                     Blue has taken control of the sky
Bewitching the street lights below            Alluring the birds below

Empty sidewalks                                       Buzzing sidewalks            
Crowded clouds                                         One single lonely cloud
This must be a dream                                This must be a dream
I feel empty                                                 I feel complete
Absent                                                  ­        Present
Is this to be alive                                          Is this to be alive

I can not see the diamonds up above        I can see the diamonds up above
It is lonely here outside                               It is lovely here outside
This day felt dreary                                    This day felt joyful
The night feels numb                                 This night feels sympathetic
Unlike the crowded clouds                        Like the blue sky
Hollow is my mind                                    Fulfilled is my mind

Grey has become of the sky                      Blue has taken control of the sky
Bewitching my sunken eyes                      Alluring my hopeful eyes

There she lay
Between the Earth and the clouds
Asking the stars 'Please let me down'
Floating away as the thoughts left her head
She only wondered what would be if
And what would come next
As she left past the clouds and the marble-white moon
She felt the cold of the void
No more beautiful blue
Past the vast and small spheres
She drifted for miles
Empty and alone
Until the stars found her eyes
She turned around and saw the heavenly view

1) Mix apathy and emptiness
2) Sive out the happiness
3) Dilute pain and sadness


To make a void of nothingness

I am not sure what is happening
But surely the rain will make me numb
When it stops then maybe sleep
I hope I dream of love
I am sensitive
Insecure
My emotions take me where they want
The simplest things I overthink
I am as vulnerable as they come

Loneliness keeps me in sometimes
I think I shake too much

Even around the plenty
It sometimes feels empty
These thoughts get me too ****** up

I wish there was an easy way
To get past the hurdles in my brain

But I know deep down
That this sadness is only temporary
Or at least that is what I say

If I **** myself
Does it make me a bad person?
Or does it make me a good person for realizing how bad the world is

I find it strange
This eerie feeling
It is too quiet to move
The demons might wake up
And then I would too

It find it strange
I dyed my hair blue
But when I turned the lights out
Nothing has changed
I still feel blue

I find it strange
This morepork no longer calls
It used to call for hours
Maybe it died
Or left for other views

I find it strange
Did you see the moon and the stars?
This night feels off
This bed does not feel right
The covers feel too close

I find it strange
Nothing has changed
But everything feels wrong
I think I will just write
Till the sweet dreams come

Shadows do not discriminate
They stay and change
Sometimes they go away
Hide in the darkest nights
And live in the brightest days

If I took your shadow
I could not tell
If you were black or white
Had scars
Tattoos
Or hair that was blue
Our form is more or less the same

If I saw your shadow again
I wonder
Could I tell you apart?

I know its been while
The leaves are beginning to fall
Death is getting closer
I don't know who to call
I think it was sunny yesterday
But  my blinds were closed too tightly

Maybe its me who is falling
I haven't seen the trees in days
This room never changes
Will I go insane?
Depression is endless slumber
Pain makes you number
Life is part heaven
Part hell

I said I would do it
And you said go ahead

Honestly I thought about it
The fear in your eyes
And tears of regret

Because those words nearly did it
They nearly pushed me to the edge
So think yourself lucky
I haven't killed myself yet

It rains inside
When you lie
My body fills
Pass the lungs
And pass the heart
I start to drown and attempt to cry
But tears do not form
They stay inside
Maybe I will drown tonight
Not for real
But just inside
And I will ask myself tommorow
If I am still alive

It rains sometimes
So everyone huddles inside
But that is when I love to be outside
Because it is only me and the touch of an old friend
I can SCREAM
I can cry...
And just like rain
The tears dry
But all good things must come to an end
Out comes the sun
Out comes the smiles
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  **** me