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5.0k · Sep 2014
Onion girl
Serena martius Sep 2014
She hid her heart with fallacious layers of 'don't worry' and 'it's fine',
And she pleaded them not to try and reach her soul.
But their words tore through her defences,
And they cried as the onion girl bled slowly into oblivion.
2.3k · Oct 2014
ballet of the brain
Serena martius Oct 2014
Snail trails of a cloud, bleeding life into a dying sky,
As feet drum out a rhythm for wounded thoughts to dance to:
pirouetting voices shout to keep a smile on that face,
And anxiety tripping in a failed twirl, trampled by pointed toes of glee.
This makes very little sense, I don't really know what I'm trying to achieve here. Oh well.
2.0k · Sep 2014
I thought I could fly
Serena martius Sep 2014
I felt myself suspended
in the air,
And I thought I could fly.
Then I looked down,
Saw my shadow lying on the floor,
Felt the rope around my neck,
And realised I wasn't flying at all.
1.7k · Nov 2014
Friendship
Serena martius Nov 2014
I long for the times
When we were kept afloat
By rushing jokes and waves of laughter,
But fractures appeared in strained conversations
And our unspoken words.
Now we cling to the wreckage of our once beautiful friendship
Desperately trying to stay adrift,
But I fear the water flooded my lungs years ago.
there's not much worse than loosing a best friend
1.4k · Oct 2014
Beauty is
Serena martius Oct 2014
What is beauty?
An ideal stuffed down our throats,
That makes us scrutinise reflections
To trace every single flaw and imperfection in our very being?
I've long since stopped searching for beauty in the mirror,
It was a loosing battle, no mater what empty compliments were spat my way.
Instead I've come to think of beauty as freedom,
As liberation from the shackled thoughts of society,
And it's come to mean so much.... more.
Beauty isn't in the angular curves of malnourished models,
The photoshopped perfection of tabloid queens.
No.
Beauty is in muted sunsets,
Colours thrown up as homage to a whispered day,
Cradles by clouds and wisps of white.
Beauty is in the moments that make you itch for a pen,
A brush, a lens: anything to preserve the moment
In perfect clarity so that you can feel again the breath thieving awe.  
Beauty is in woven fingers and passionate touches,
Love shouted through the twitch of a mouth and the softening of eyes.
Beauty is caught in the second you stop, look up
And dig your nails into a world that spins too quickly,
Seizing every day that flies your way.
1.1k · Sep 2014
I saw your wrists in the sky
Serena martius Sep 2014
I saw your wrists in the Sky this morning,
Planes trailing white lines above my frosting breath.
They scarred the flawless blue expanse,
Marring it with imperfection.
Beautiful, wonderful, perfect imperfection.
959 · Dec 2014
Heart beat
Serena martius Dec 2014
Press ******* beneath your ear,
Feel the swift pulse of a lover's kiss,
The devestated trickle of a meandering tear,
The muted thump that accompanies a crinkled eye
And the halted thud, seized by fear.
Feel your heart steadily beating.
This is it:
Living.
Whenever I feel useless I just think of my heart always beating, desperately trying to keep me working and it makes me think that atleast something thinks I'm worth being alive.
753 · Sep 2014
Autumn's days
Serena martius Sep 2014
These are the days of skies that drift
Down to hug the canopies and lap softly at the hills.

These are the days of rain that flies,
Droplets suspended in the air that burst as stolen kisses against passing cheeks.

These are the days of flaming trees,
Fire that courses through branches to turn leaves into flickering embers.

These are the days of stillness,
A world holding it's breath, quivering with each and every heart beat.

These are the days of lingering dusk,
Cloying so thickly it can be sliced with a cry.

These are the days.
Autumn's days.

My days.
707 · Jan 2015
Sorry
Serena martius Jan 2015
My eyes weren't working,
So I took the liberty of crying out of my wrists instead.
Hope you don't mind.
680 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Serena martius Nov 2014
When the night shines brighter than the day,
And moonbeams cast more shadows than the sun,
Only then will I take your hand
And hold you in the dark.
The moon is simply beautiful tonight.
Serena martius Sep 2014
'You don't know what it's like to feel pain'.
Oh, don't I? Just because you've never seen me struck down by it doesn't mean I haven't felt it's shattering blow.
Do you know what it's like to be stalked by your worst enemy,
To see her reflected in passing cars and shop windows?
They say you hate everyone so you're angry at the world.
Well, I'm only angry with myself.
My heart was gift wrapped by the devil,
Tied tight with a barbed wire bow
That cuts and scars me with every beat.
I bleed where no one can see, but it leaks out every now and again
Through my eyes just to remind me I'm still alive.
Just.
I cry in the shower because what's another drop of water to a gushing stream,
Turn it up hot so my skin raises to disguise the criss cross of angry red scars.
So don't tell me I don't know what it's like to feel pain. To feel hurt.
I know, the words are gouged deep into an already ravaged soul.
Just because I'm my own tormentor it doesn't make the damage any less real.
You don't know what it's like to have your own mind turn against you.
So don't you ******* dare tell me I don't know what it's like.
Basically just a poorly disguised rant. Don't tell people they don't know what it's like. Just because their pain may not be the worst, or may not be one that you are used to, doesn't make it any less plaguing to them. We all have our demons, some just disguise them better than others.
535 · Oct 2014
A city of two tales
Serena martius Oct 2014
Two stories, intertwined to weave a web,
Of elaborate lies and hidden secrets.
Parallel truths of a renowned city:
London, the city where they come to live.
London, the city where they go to die.

A cacophony of colours, vibrantly singing,
Reds that foxtrot and blues that Waltz,
Twirling, swirling, laughing, swinging,
Shining bright till dawn takes its course.

Whilst peeling greys in burnt out husks
Of building's corpses, thrown down by the tantrum of time,
Get signed by the shaking hands of addicts,
In dripping graffiti and shattered windows.

In an office, hands soft from perpetual ease,
Poking out from crisp white sleeves,
tap methodically at keys,
Maintaining a facade they all believe.

A few streets down, fingers:
Tobacco stained and streaked with yellow,
Pierce a quivering needle into
Their master's begging flesh.

A girl who seeks definition in numbers,
Who needs a crowd to hear her message,
Seeks knowledge in eternal wonders
Of London streets' bleeding essence.

Yet the boy who drowns in pounding feet,
Melts into the din of a thousand voices,
And his voice pleads a dying whisper,
As he loses himself to anonymity.

By the light of the underground
These juddering truths are evident,
In the despondent eyes fixed on filthy floors,
And the eyes dancing with potential, flitting around the crowds,
Waiting for a chance to shine.

London is a lock that guards two doors,
And we are the key that determines our fate.
482 · Feb 2015
Just a kiss
Serena martius Feb 2015
A kiss from you is all I need,
To take the pain away.
The thought of you urges me through
All those vacant days.
When darkness kills my shadow beside me,
I know you're still there to guide me to the light.
You trail across me, red lips blossoming from within,
As you coax yet more scarlet tears from my wrists.
A kiss from you is all I need,
To take the pain
Away.
480 · Sep 2014
Untitled
Serena martius Sep 2014
Fighting to see through a haze
Of crumpled hours and tattered days.
Moments punctured and strung with thread
That writhes a noose around a head
fractured by words, not meant to harm,
And arrows disguised by Trojan charm.
464 · Oct 2014
Untitled
Serena martius Oct 2014
can't find delete
Deeper than most
443 · Sep 2014
How?
Serena martius Sep 2014
How can we live in a society that lies and manipulates
And endorses wars over a man in the sky?
How can we stand idly by whilst others run terrified through streets
That bleed with the essence of a tortured soul?
We have our lives handed to us on a silver platter
Whilst others can barely salvage morsels enough that, even when bonded together with all the dregs of an exhausted heart,
Barely manage to sustain a child.

Perhaps because it's easier to look at the moon as a smudge in the sky,
Softened by sheets the same as the indifference that clouds our mind and allows us to stare uncaringly ahead,
Not thinking of the panic stricken eyes that stare at the exact same moon as pandemonium courses through their streets.

How are we meant to clear the prejudices that have settled, cloying in our minds
Like the early autumn mist?
The gnarled fingers of hate hold us so tightly that our vision is
Blackened around the edges and we cannot see what lurks on the fringes of society.

The questions swim around aimlessly,
Fish darting across a tabloid, printed scales screaming for recognition.
But what is a question without an answer?
Meaningless.
Just like the corpses littered as morbid confetti,
Carnage celebrating the scarlet essence of man spilled in vain.

— The End —