I am breathing
I am happy
I am learning..... not expecting
I am smiling
Your silence taught me that not everyone is the same .
I have learnt to open up my wounded heart  to you .
I have given so much time and love to the wrong people in trade to feel loved and valued .
With you, I have learnt to never regret but to reflect and improve . You have filled the empty space in my heart .
I have learnt to love and to feel loved .
Valued.
I have been looking for you, searching... for my reflection not knowing you were on the other side of earth. My missing rib, my soulmate .
I am learning to love you more and more by the day .
It's true as they say that life is short . But you make life worth living , you make a sour candy taste sweet.  

You make every part of my day worth it.
I am blessed to have you. Cause Life with you is sweet, calm and beautiful.

Look at me ,
I am no longer the girl I use to be.
I am broken and wounded ,
Filled with depression .
My soul no longer defines what happiness is.
I smile but my heart is empty .
No emotion ,
Nothing.
My heart bleeds blood full of pain .
My mind is filled with all the lies you once said.

Speak to me ,
Bring back  the life that was once stolen from me.
Bring back the joy I once had .
Lift me up cause I can't stand anymore.
Bring back the light in me that turned into darkness.
Look at me
And be the peace of my broken pieces .

His smile is contagious
His smile brings joy and peace to my heart.
But behind his smile lies a wounded soul,
He smile with pain on his shoulders,
It breaks me to know that no matter how many times I try to repair it. It will still break down.  He misses her , he mourns for her and I understand that I'll never replace her . Because she is his treasure, his one and only queen .
His mother
and I ?
I am his woman .
I feel like I am the cause of this because I promised him that all will be well . But it's not and it never will be because the earth took her too soon. Now he smile with tears in his eyes . And he laughs with a broken heart.

All it took was a hood on
Skittles and music
6 shots
3 minutes
Pronounced dead
No ambulance
Bloodshed
Mothers mourning
Her sons are gone too soon.
Wiped from the earth
All because of my colour black.
We all mourning and protesting.
We all kneel and raise our hands up to the sky
Pleading for justice
Begging Don't shoot!!
He was killed by a man whose job is to protect and serve
But failed to serve due to my colour black.
Now the media are tearing our community apart
All because of my skin colour.
I am no animal,  I am human . Why must we bury our children?  What have they don't wrong?
They say racism doesn't exist
But how many black boys and men must die
In order for us to accept that racism still exist!
We are all human
As if being human is an error
an excuse for a trigger.
No mother deserves to bury her joy. We deserve to be respected the same. We are all equal in God's eye.
Black lives matter.

Miss me ????
Come and join me tonight and
let's go and see another sight.
You'll be the six
I'll be the nine.
Lets dim down the lights
and go in to our fantasy world.
Tonight just you and I
Making sweet melody with our mouths and tongues
While you moan and grind on me.
While the sheets get warmer and warmer .....

His tongue sang beautiful melodies
That sent chills down my spine.
His tongue also turned on me
When I was off.
Just like a baby asking for milk
He licked me with pleasure,
And never wanted to stop
Wooing my body into divine seduction.
******* till my breast were chewy.
His tongue was my therapy.
I was always satisfied.
His tongue was midnight my memory
He was my fantasy.

I can go a day without the sound of the wind,
I can go so many hours without the sound of the birds in the sky. I can go a day without the sound of the cars or kids playing outside.
I can go so many days without seeing my friends, family members and I will still survive.
But one person I can't go a day without is you.
You are my everything.
I love you .

Every human was born to be uncomfortable.  
We were made to adapt to change.
When you accept the comfortability ,
That's when you stop growing.
In your mentally and in your faith,
Always get out in your comfort zone.
Break out of your comfort zone,
Grow up.  Read a new book.
Learn a new course,
Learn a new good habit.  
If you want success,  you have to break the zone.
In order for you to get better,wiser & stronger.  
It's time,  Let's go get it .
Dreamchasers !!!!!

It's all about the filter
And not personality.
It's all about the cake make up ,
And not the true beauty.
It's all about the wcw
All about the body shape,
Promoting beauty
Looking like a product.
No longer human,
not advertising the mind.
Hair hair everywhere from
Brazilian
to Indian
Comparing who rocks it best.
Looking like mermaids with seaweed dye on it,
It's all about a cool dance , dumb lyrics and a hot beat ,
Not real music about life
Just a free promotion of ****, money and *******.
Making the world go crazy.
Believing this is the way life is,
Get high or die.
It's all about social media and not putting the phone down to enjoy nature.
The outside , has now become the phone.
All about linking up but not wanting a relationship
Just a friend with benefits.
Hiding our heart in our sleeves.
Not expressing our feelings .
We are trying to impress the world
When truly a bit of us dies every minute.
We are being judged by the social media
Twerking,
Doing the fire challenge.
And tryna beat everyone in the dumbest challenge,  just so we can get new followers , retweets and praises.
Instead of reading a book and learning something new.
Or trying to achieve our dreams.
We're not even working hard no more.
We are becoming slaves to the media.
That we don't seem to realise , that we lost our identity.
We were made original but most of us are dying as a copy of another. We no longer have our unique colour.
We are all blending in.
Smoking marijuana because it's cool and you will be accepted by the society.
But what happened to being ourselves?
Being loud
Being funny
Being caring
Or taking our time to show affection to one another.
We are no longer happy with the reflection we see in the mirror.
We are losing ourselves,  
We've become so lazy.
We're not inspired no more.
Or respected
We are so focused on living the now ,
with no idea how that will affect us tomorrow.
But at the end of the day, we must remember that most of the people we try and please . Will not be there , in your times of need and pain. Or bury you . Why??because we have become the lost generation. 2014.  It's time to wake up!

My best friend,come with me.
Let us live our fantasy.
Let us fulfil each other pleasures.
My king,
I promise to always be there,
Just like Timon and pumbaa
Your heart, is mine and I will never leave your side.
My love
I won't judge you no matter what,
The door to the past is shut.
They say when one door closes,
A window is opened to smell the roses.
come with me,
I'll show you what its like to be free.
Let's express our love to the world.
The growth of this sensual feeling we share.
Is like platinum it never rust
Just hold my hands and see the world with my eyes.
Our love will never die.
No one can divide us.
For you are my king , my one and only Charming,
These feelings are alarming!

I can't believe I'm falling so hard,
Living on the other side of the earth .way more than a yard.
I'll be here just waiting for your embrace
When we meet face to face.
To feel safe from the world around,
And so we can finally be crowned!
We can walk side by side as King and Queen.

I'll always be your miss tea, your pumbaa and friend in need.
With you I'll always feel so valued.
Tea or queen, I don't care.
Call me anything, as long as I'm your baby.
If paradise is what your looking for, well I got it in me , as long as you are with me , my king.

Strive for better, be better do better. Remember if you  want to achieve higher in life. You must keep on going and your vision must be wider.Always make ur own choices. People will tell you what they think is best for you, often with the best intentions, but you have to find the courage to do something different if it's what you really want. You may be wrong, but the only thing worse than realizing you're not happy living a life you thought you wanted,is being unhappy living a life that you never did.‪#‎staypositive‬ ‪

Use every opportunity, every single one, to be happy. Don't just take a shower - feel into and receive pleasure from the water on your skin. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of nature on ur way.  Every moment is an opportunity to be happy. Good morning,  wake up its a new day, forget yesterday.  The time goes forward. Don't stress. a day of blessing.  A day of joy. Thank God for another day . Be happy.

Always be obsessive to your own work. Create your own moves; be passionate about yourself and those who are really dedicated (committed) to you. Understand the facts when it all makes sense Do it in your own way if necessary, risk it when you can if you have to achieve something. Forgive and forget, Give to get, Say yes but No at times. Life is hard for Everyone, people go pass several things to reach a better life, so if you thinking about achieving or becoming someone in life, you better start thinking, being positive. Expect the worst along the way, people letting you down, not believing you. But always put your head up high. Because nothing worth having comes easy. So you gotta work hard and play harder. Love yourself, take care of yourself. Make your happiness a priority, its necessary. You only live once. So make it count. Work for today so you can rest tomorrow. Make your passion, your paycheck. Remember , life is too short , make it happen now . Let's go get it !!!

When things go wrong
and you think your beaten, you are.
If you like to win but think you can't,
It's almost a cinch you won't.
But if you change the way you think
and try to do what you always aimed for, you can.
For it is there inside you
All of the potential you need
To be whatever you want to be;
and all of the energy
To do whatever you want to do.Even though at times it may seem too
difficult to continue, but still hold on to your dream.
Just take life one step at a time
and continue working towards your dreams and within a blink of an eye, you will wake up one day to find
That you are the person you've always dreamed of,
Doing what you wanted to do,
Simply because you had the courage
To believe in your potential
And to hold on to your dream.
But remember that it all depends on you,
so work to make your dreams come true.

Faith is wisdom and it is very powerful.
With calmness we start our aim
With personal faith we continue
With strong faith we score our goal.
Faith is the key to success, turning a dream to reality.
Faith and strong belief opens the door to everything.

Relax your mind ,
I'm gonna take my time
it's just you and I ,
we will be up all night .

So close your eyes
I'll show you paradise ,
the pleasure is so high
so please leave your cares behind.

We can groove all night,
cause the feeling is just right .
Yeah, we can take our time
cause everything's alright.

just me and you
you and I
we can do this all up
all night .

I was in love
Your words charmed me.
Once.
I felt like I was in heaven
You fooled me.
Like a puppet, I was hypnotise,
A fool to your words & lies.
blinded
Not noticing your actions.
You stabbed my heart with a smile upon your face.
You promised to be there, but I guess I was in the limelight alone. Grieve became my logo.
I didn't realise the sorrow surrounded around me.
Until one morning.  I didn't love you no more

Keep people in your life who truly love you, motivate you, and make you happy. If you know people who do none of these things, let them go. -Lucia domingos Fula

This season,
Arguments will be rising,
Agreements disappearing,
Cliques separating,
Enemies appearing.

Blood divorcing,
Horror striking,
Tears dropping
Leaves falling.

This season, this season of blood, sarcasm, sacrifices. Darkness will finally come in to light. The angels of darkness will shine out. The world would witness a new world order. Heavens gate shall open. Hell would break loose.
Mourning,
Poison,
******
mystery.
The time has now come..

May I take a walk with you
Father Father may I have a word with you?
I feel so empty without you in my life,
My soul is weak
Crying out for help
But I haven't had none.
You are the creator of life
And the easer
No matter where I go
Astray or elsewhere
I still hear your calling
No matter how many times I ignore it
My soul trebles.
My eyes are filled with tears
While my heart is filled with pain.
It's broken,  please mend my heart.
Please help me not fall into sin
Guide me
Instruct me
Father, please take a look how my life is colliding.
Please direct me, use me as a tool.

I
I was born in the streets
The streets
My home town Tottenham
The streets raised me.
It knew me by my name,
It taught me the life game.
How to score a goal
With a little ambition
And more action,
Just keep it on a down low.
It taught me the highs and lows
Trust,
Hope
And
Education.
I may not have the best vocabulary
But when I speak , everyone focuses.
Tottenham taught me how to face my fears.
The streets gave me links
Introduce me to spoken word, poetry and love.
The community was my family
No bonding has ever felt so strong.
The streets spoke to me, reminding me "wherever you go,  don't forget where your from".
The streets spoke my language,  it understood me and taught me humbleness is everything.
Tottenham  is my home sweet home.

Stirring will.
Test me
I'm faithful
Loyal
Tease me
I'll laugh
And take away your sorrows
Touch me
I'll make your life easier
Whisper
I'll light up your chandelier
Glow.
Kiss Me
I'll make you feel wanted
Needed, Naked
Feel
free like a bird
Fly as far as you can
Take advantage
I'll make you feel worthless.
Empty. Like a casket without a corpse has no meaning.

Just a sinner
Not pitch perfect.
Living life to the fullest
Looking at the mirror every day
In search of my soul
Discovery
Recovering
from experience.
Taking notes , learning , listening.
Tryna touch a new soul without touching them
Allowing my words to glow inside them .
Walking, interacting.
Thinking. I'm human. Human is what I am.
I'm not pitch perfect, I'm no form with wings or a halo.
I'm just human.

Craving for attention
Craling deep down inside
growing as the day goes by
Releasing it's fire
As she speaks .
Creating a deep hole
in everyone's heart.
Hypnotising
Casting spells.
Blinding people's eyes.
With sweet words and dreadful meanings.
Each year goes by her level rises.
New level,  new devil.

The days has been so long, yet so cold. Ever since you walked out that door , you never turned around to say goodbye. No more. You once made me feel like a queen . I never pictured that you'll drop me to the ground. Now I'm in misery . You took my pride and joy and left me empty. Like a ghost. I must of been crazy &extremely; lazy for not listening to my heart. That said leave & advance. But I lied to myself & said no I still have a chance. But now , I'm here all alone.

Black is Beautiful,
White is bright;
Asian is a **** persuasion.
But being Albino is special
No matter what colour you are,
You may be Asian, Black, and White, Mix race or Albino
Beneath you are Beautiful.
There's no need to hate your colour
For that's who you are.
Embrace yourself.
For there's nothing you can do about it.
Even if you bleach so hard, to change your colour;
Beneath you are still the way you are.
Embrace yourself, love your colour.

Im tired of thinking, my mind is going dizzy. I'm tired of stressing, I'm suffocating. My heart is bleeding, my veins are in pain. My ears have gone deaf and my body is weak . This is insane . I once loved you, but guess your mind was elsewhere. I thought what we raised was love, but it was in vain ...... Just lust.. Guess this is no longer my place to stay. I'm sorry for all the pain and tears I've caused. But guess it's for the best. For you, me and us. All the best. Take care. Bye....xxxx

Me and You You and I staring into each other eyes. lost , wildly in love. living like we're in paradise. calls from 7 in the evening to the next early dawn. Romancing, chilling, giggling and relaxing.  Met in the summer , wasn't too attached but I said I give you a try.  You embraced my flaws and loved my scent. When you took my hand to dance. I felt something different in my bones . the soark we shared gazing into each other eyes. I saw my reflection. You and I .We became stronger than we thought. We danced to every beat. Lovers in the Sun . gazing into each other's eyes. wildly & lost in love. You and I . living in paradise.

Everyday is a blessing as you are awaken. Experimenting, breathing, seeing, hearing .
You name it.
But finding yourself is all that you need. For life itself has a purpose and your mission is to teach and lead. But patience is all that it takes. For it's more than winning.
It takes self discovery.
loving.
achieving.
Putting your main priorities first.
Believing.
It takes growing & learning that  life is too short to follow everybody's shadow. Finding yourself is looking at the mirror everyday , admiring your reflection in believing that you deserve more and better for you are a king / queen. It's up to you to act upon your words for success is connected with action. No action, no success. Go Find yourself.

Look at me,

Tell me what you see

I have 2 identities.

Which is hard to see.To my friends and family, I’m a different me. I have a secret identity,

Which may not describe me.

The secret identity that I have is deep inside my soul which is hard to find. I’m still searching hoping that I will find the complete me. Myself and I.

You are my candle, my love!
You are everything to me;
you are the lover of my life!
You are the moon and I’m the stars!
You are everything that I desire.
You are my destiny.
You are my past, present and future.
You are my sun my, everything! You are my Friend, Brother, Father, Sister, Mother.You are my family, my heart is all your to keep within you. Forever I will always be yours and no-one can damage the love that I have for you. You are my soul and no darkness can overcome to depart us. You are my raindropp and I am the sea. I’m so proud that your mine and I’m yours. Every time I feel /touch you my heart smiles and rejoices, but then at the same time its cries because I know once that candle blows away I will never ever feel the same.

Love, I can't sleep in my bed.
In my room
Love strange feeling,
Wild imagination,
love,
birds do it,
Humans
and so do animals.
Oh love you are the most unfinished food in the planet.
How mysterious you are u create such a warm feeling. You bring people from miles away together
You got the power to unite people together. Love you make the strongest man and woman succumb.
How powerful are you love, how mysterious you are?
I wanna see the poison. You use, love I wanna see you
I want to see ur face,
how do you look like?
I want to know you & feel you.
I'm looking for you
I need u in my room, I need you in my house and bed.
Love
I'm seeking for you.

Starting to get tired of being a man in the relationship. Coming up with everything. Stressing. I can't take it, yet you call yourself a man.

No.1: Fix yourself
No.2: Look at the mirror and leave that stupid ego aside
No.3: Learn how to speak to a woman, if you don't respect your mother well u might aswell marry yourself. Cause no woman would scoop so low to give you a discount. Cuteness doesn't buy loyalty neither does it buy marriage.

No.4: Stop praising yourself, you ain't **.
No.5: Learn to respect yourself in order to gain respect.
No.6: Love yourself otherwise no one will love you.
No.7: Put yourself in someone else's shoe before you judge. By the way God didn't hire you to be his part time judge assistant. You're human, act like one. Imperfect.

No.8: Grow up, Man up.stop acting like you wear the dress in this relationship. Be mature about things and situations.
No.9: Learn to be positive, negativity isn't gonna get you anywhere. Accept change, it's good to change it healthy for the soul.

No.10: Be a leader, not a follower. Your friends shouldn't influence you all the time. At times say no. Also know that it's your relationship not theirs. Their opinion doesn't matter because we are not sharing the woman. I'm not their girl, I'm yours.

Note to you: When you have the woman you wished for, keep her up on her feet. Make her smile more often. Act as if you are still trying to get her. The way you use to before. A woman is a flower and she deserves to be watered right and grow beautiful and natural. Without you watering it, it will die. No attention she will lose interest.

You sit there analysing & testing my soul. After all the aches you caused me, I had to learn it the hard way.
For
I was born alone
Came to this world alone
Crawled alone walked alone
Gain knowledge alone
Let how to survive on my own.
Lost friends and my love ones along the way
And I'm still on my way to success
. In search of my soul, alone .Ride or Die?  No. I leant to do everything alone.
Suffer alone.
Wiped my tears alone.
Yet u sit here and question ride or die, my response still  No. My team is me and I alone. Never will I sacrifice to die for someone,  if they will never put the effort to please me.
Ride or die.
I ride alone
I die alone.

Dim the lights
Whisper in my ears all night.
Hands on my breast
Tingle me all the way down
Make my legs feel weak
Touch me , like I never been touched
Make me grasp,  while  you ****  upon my ear
Tease me with your tongue,
****** and tear my clothes apart. Unbutton and unzip  your trousers and watch me bite the head of your hard ****. through your underwear. With my hair in your hands firmly. I take out your **** and start to lick it. Massaging the head of your **** with my cold little slutty mouth. While I rub my clint . While I watch you moan  and groan so loud because it feels so good. while I finish ******* the tip of your ****, I whisper Papi **** me like a *****. Lift me up and throw me on the bed ,Spread my legs apart , tie my hands together, make me feel like a prisoner. I'm a slave for your pleasure. Direct me ,I can  feel your warmth your aching for me.  You pull my hair back and ask. is this how you like it ?  press your **** deep into my Asian persuasion *****. While I Thump and humpand grind on your property, the key of my pleasure,  the key of my *****. I'm craving for your explosion ,upon me ,  let ur inner soul ****** in me, sweet pleasure , heart beat rising, breathing heavily, seduction at its finest. The taste is so sweet . I upon you. sweetness upon sweetness.With the sounds of pleasure filling the room, echoing  " Oh..oh ...umm yess ...yes...YES. .YESSSSSS"