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Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
You
I don't want to annoy you with my troubles
But you're the only one I want to talk to
When there's no one there to hold my hand
Or hold me tight
And tell me "everything is going to be okay".
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
Life makes me want to run away
And never turn back
And leave everything behind;
The pain, the hurt, the negativity.
Life forces me to grin and bare it
while I suffer through it all
And inside I'm falling to pieces.

Life makes me want to take your hand in mine
And ride off into the sunset
Without worry or doubt in our minds.
Life is hard and we all know it,
But it's worse when you're sick
Like me.
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
Lost:
It's an adjective
It's a past-tense verb
It's a TV show
It's a state of mind.
It's how I describe myself;
I've lost friends
I've lost feeling
I've lost hope
I've lost heart
I've lost faith.
It's hard to admit being lost,
But it's the first step in being
Found.
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
I'm sick,
But no one seems to notice.
I'm sick,
But no one seems to care.
I'm sick,
But no one understands.
I've flirted with darkness
For far too long
And now it's enveloping me
Soul first.
I'm sick,
And I think you know...
But why doesn't anyone care?
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
Poetry is beauty because of its ambiguity
It's not black or white
Or even gray
It's indigo skies
Golden rays of warm light.
It's bitter morning frost on the hood of your car,
Sweet squishy sand in St. Tropez.
It's the thud of a heartbeat,
The silence of a blink.
It's the emptiness of the mind
And the ingenuity that fills it.
Poetry is nothing...
But boy is it everything.
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
Hashtag done.
Hashtag I give up.
Hashtag tired.
Hashtag alone.

All we ever talk about anymore is hashtags and Instagram and texts and snapchat.

I'm done.

I miss the face to face contact.
The way someone's eyes light up or dim down in reaction to something.

I miss the way your hand feels when you place it on mine.

I miss your hugs.

And I miss your voice.

And I'm able to talk about anything with you over a text message, but I'm afraid that you don't want to talk to me, person to person.

I like to think that we have a great friendship, but I realize that we don't.

You FaceTime and call other people, but you won't do that for me.

I try to initiate more conversation than we have, but I feel like you hold back.

I pour some of my heart out into a message that I sent and your only response is an emoji.

I'm hurt.
As childish as it sounds, I'm hurt.

I'm broken and I feel like you keep taking pieces of me away.

I'm broken and I wish you would actually talk and listen to me instead of typing it out.

I miss you because there's no one else and I'm sorry that there isn't.

I don't mean to burden you with everything that's wrong, but when you say that you're there for me, I expect you to follow through.

I miss you a lot.
And I need you to know that.
Because you mean so much to me.

And I know I don't mean as much to you...
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
So I sit alone.
So no one talks to me.
"How does that make you feel?"
What?
How do I feel?
I'm tired, exhausted...
I'm done.
I feel like jumping off the bridge that
Washed away over 6 months ago.
I feel like disappearing
Forever.

Is that good enough for you?
Is that a satisfactory answer?
I don't have friends.
"A lot of people say that"
Oh really?
A lot of people are isolated
For most of the day
Because their only true friend
Is two hours away?

I have clinical depression.
I take pills for it.
There. I said it.
Are you happy now?
Happy to know what's wrong with the
Girl who sits alone and doesn't talk to
Anyone...?
I have clinical depression.
And there's nothing I can do about it
But wait and try and
Hope
For someone to say
"It's okay. I'm here..."
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