Hes right there

Shes right there

Just across the way

He looked at me, I hope he didn't notice me blushing

She looked at me, I hope I didn't blush

He blushed when he looked into my eyes

She blushed and I realized that I was blushing too

She smiled at his blushing and giggled a bit

I blushed deeper as she smiled, and I smiled back

He smiled back

She was smiling

I probably looked stupid

But I don't care

I love him

I love her

But he doesn't see

But she doesn't see

I hope he likes me back

I hope she likes me back

This whole thing may have been a bad idea

What if my heart gets broken again?

Stop thinking that

It'll be worth it

*That's why you fell in love in the first place right?

Today
Today is the day
The day that I feel utterly
And completely
ALONE

I scream out to the world
But all I get in return
Is the empty echo of my voice

I listen to the world
But all I hear
Is my black heart beating hollowly in my chest

I look at the world
But all I see
Is the blur of life passing by without a care

Just who will be there?
To listen my cries by choice?

Just who will be there?
To call out to me instead of myself and all the rest?

Just who will be there?
To help me crawl out of the hole filled with the burdens I bear?

Who will be there?
Who will be there?
Who will be there?

Or to more simply put it,

Who will care?

There’s a hole
In my heart
And it’s shaped
Like you

There’s a wound
In my lungs
And It feels
Like your touch

Because of you
Everyday is weighed down
Like I’m a prisoner

Because of you
Insanity for me is just around the corner
Like I’m lost in the labyrinth of your eyes all over again

Because of you
I’m not my own

If you see with your heart and not with your eyes,
I will let you see past my disguise.

If you seek with your words and not with your hands,
I will share with you my mind's wonderful lands.

If you love me with all you are,
I will never leave a scar.

If you work to break down my walls,
I will never let you fall.

If only someone could save me
From falling off the edge

If only if someone could catch me
When I fall off the ledge

If only I had a savior
If only I could be saved

Alas, I'm to far gone
I've fallen to far

And no one would ever catch me
Without making me spar

What is this feeling in my chest?
It's like a thousand fireworks going off at once,
Mending the shattered parts and rejuvenating the rest,
Making me more alive than ever.

What are all these new colors I see?
They make the world so much brighter,
Kissing life into the dark places and thoughts
Making me feel lighter.

Why do I feel this jealousy?
When he looks at another,
Darkening the clouds and making things once again gloomy,
Making my blood seem to boil.

What is wrong with me?
Thinking thoughts such as these,
Twisting reality making me wish I was normal and free,
Making me drunk on this sudden highlightation of life.

They say I have a crush,
But really I'm a million miles away,
Hoping in a rush,
That it is alive on both sides instead of just one.

How we can be born from love
And filled with such hate
I shall never know

I have learned
Over the years
Is that demons are real
Just not where you think they are

I've found some
Oh yes
I truly have
They're more terrible than your wildest dreams

Where did I find them?
Why the answer is simple
I found them inside of me
For the demons we fear
Are inside us
And they come out to play
When we're afriad

They think I'm a mocking bird
-Singing a false song

They think I'm a siren
-Leading men to their doom

They think I'm fools gold
-Too good to be true

That is why I'm all alone
Sitting in silence at night
Because no one believes that a gold rush
Is any where in sight

Remember when all the lights went out
And the snow drifted all over town
Remember when we let our hearts show off
And all that we had lost was found
Remember those moments
Where everything seemed
Like it could last
Forever

Maybe even though
Stars fall
We can all learn to
Stand tall
Maybe even though
Empires crumble
We can all last
Forever

Even when all the lights go
Out
And silence is the only
Sound
When everything is new and cold
Maybe we can break our bonds
Maybe we can bend our molds
Maybe we can make this last
Forever

You can't play me
Like a chess piece

You can't slay me
Like prey

You can't treat me
Like I'm lesser

You can't
You can't
You just can't

For I am a human being

I have
Rights
Freedom
And dignity

I have
Love
Hope
And trust

I am not some puppet in your play
I am not some punching bag at the gym
I am not some target that you can shoot at

I am alive

So you can't
Shoot me down,
Kick me when I'm on the ground
Hurt me and think I'll come back around

I am alive

And I have the right to be free

Sitting in the dark
All alone
Wondering who else is home

Oh how you wish to roam
Those city streets tonight
Just hanging out and picking fights

But all your friends are out with lovers
Hitting the scene with style
You don't bother finding others
You know they'll come back in a while

Being left behind never hurt so much
Never before wished I was in love

Grey
Just Grey
Black and white world
Black and white life
Black and white heart
Nothing special

Until...

You

Like color to a canvas you lit up
My world
My life
And my heart

Now because of you I have color
And with that color
Came hope

A hope that things could change
That things could be better
That this wasn't the end

That my fairy tale dream of life
Would no longer be fantasy

And it can't
It just can't be a fantasy any longer
Because of you

And I thank you for this spark
To light up my life
And to keep my dreams of love alive

Isn't it so beautiful
To see something as simple as a heart beat
Come alive?

Not just the steady thumping
The thumping that keeps you alive
But something more

The quickening pace
As you heart enters this race
That occur as soon as you see your lover's face

The little flutters it emits
Right from your soul
Making those empty spots whole

Isn't it incredible how it goes to your smile
Your eyes
Your very mood

Oh don't you wish
With all your heart
That you can see it again soon

I want to make him proud
But all he sees is loud
I want to prove that I'm worthy
But everything I do seems to come back to bite me
And it be real

Why do I crave is approval?
When the reaction I get seems to be wishing of my removal
Why do I wish that he'd say
You did good today
And mean it

Why does he keep hurting me?
That's not the way its meant to be
He's suppose to keep me safe and warm
Instead of the one who brings me harm

I don't know
How they
Can sleep at night
After hurting
One who is
Different
And laughing
Because they did

I don't know
How I
Can sleep at night
After knowing
That
Such horrible
People exist
Because they do

I look around
And all I see
Is Humans
Without Humanity

How will we survive
Without
Mercy
Caution
Love
Without hurting us all

Those were the best times
The old times
Where we never laughed & mourned in a sitting

Only sunshine
No rainfall
Till caught up the hurricane

It destroyed our ritual
We couldn't make new
For too few of us made it out in one piece

Now we've been broken
Set apart
So far that no glue can fix us

All thanks to that hurricane
That revealed our differences
And hid the similarities

All thanks to that hurricane
That snuffed out our link
And our light

Accusing of wrong,
Hurdling insults,
Calling names,
Really they're all the same.

Poking,
Prodding,
Making fun,
When will this be done?

The only cure for this,
Is not to ball your fists,
Or to start a fight,
But to defend peacefully, before taking flight.

Make sure you keep your head high,
Keep your eyes bright,
Stand tall,
And don't let them see you fall.

I am water.
I mold to fit into your life
But you never really care for the flavor I add.

I am a chameleon.
I fade in and out of the existence you know and into another's.

I am clear.
I seem to be see through, but you never really know what's inside.

Isn't it amazing
How smiles can be faked
How laughs can be plastic
How ****** expressions be unreal

Isn't it incredible
How good of actors
People can
And that no one can see

Isn't it sad
Being that person
Behind that mask
Longing for someone to see

But alas
You're all alone
And your screams
Only echo
Off the sides
Of your mask

You can't let someone in
You can't get out
You must stay
An imprisoned actor
Faking to the end

I am a villainous heroine
Leaving my family brings me sweet sorrow
Marrying my kin’s murderer brings me miserable joy

I am a lucky wretch
Paris’s devotion gives me belittling flattery
Romeo’s adoration gives me obscured clarity

I am a guide lost
Society rejects this careless affection
My heart is open to this insensitive empathy

I am loved hatred
I am an accepted cast off
I am Juliet

I feel the walls around me cavin' in
We're in the deep end with out favorite friends
And in the dark we like to play pretend
As we struggle to make amends

The water here is pourin' in
Our time as kings almost spent
It ticks away with every grain of sand
Maybe one day we'll find land

Now here we're drownin' with our crown
Fighting those who try to bring us down
They think that all we do is mess around
They only see us as little clowns

But what they don't know is they got another thing comin'
We've all brought our knives do you better start runnin'
We don't thirst for blood we only fight for the title
Sick of being taught you're our idol

So you better be on your guard
We know that this war is hard
But be careful for we're wild fires
Especially as our situation dires

One day all the marble will crumble
And the next ruler will rise from the rubble
But we know that it's okay
For today is not that day

We know eventually we'll be replaced
But we won't let that scare us away
They say all we have to do is sit and wait
We know that our end is near
But also that we ha nothing to fear

Little wisp of hope
You're drifting away
And so soon

Little wisp of hope
I wish you would stay
And sing your little tune

Little wisp of hope
Why must you always leave in the end?
Without a farewell?

Little wisp of hope
Am I not allowed to have a forever real friend?
Instead only for a spell?

Little wisp of hope
Why must you torture me?

I almost wish
That you'd just leave me be.

Thoughts spinning round my head,
Making me wish I was dead.
But I cannot die,
I can only cry,
Wishing that my wings could fly.

Ideas March around inside me,
Like a humming of bees.
Twisting me down dark roads
To the croaks of lemon toads.

Spiral pathes,
Brick bathes,
This is insane!
Vibrant colors,
Flowers like 'find anothers',
Are all over.

Here in a world of my own,
The madness here has grown.
So please save me,
By lending us a bit of sanity?

There is a hole
In my heart
And it's shaped
Like yours

There is this emptiness
In my lungs
And it's all because
Of you

There are these flutters
In my stomach
And they appear when I
See You

How do you make me feel this way?
Any time of day?

Where are the wires?
Where are the tires?

Where are the strings?
Where are the backstage things?

How do you do it?
You must be a magician
To make me feel this way

An abundance of hope in her heart
Light dancing in her eyes
Who could imagine such a horrible thing could start
To take that all away

She use to do these little dances
On her way to the kitchen
Now she barely takes these little chances
For shes afraid what she has now will be swept away

Oh
Oh
Oh
How could this be?

Oh
Oh
Oh
How can no one see?

They took it away
In a midnight raid
Now she has to pay
For the damage made

How could they
Take it all
And have nothing to say
But goodbye

Where did it go?
I can't find it
If only someone could show
Me

Now she drags her feet
To the kitchen

Now her eyes
Are dark

Now her heart
Is missing a piece

And all she hopes for now
Is to go back to the way she was

The summer sun
Kisses my skin
Perfect time
To be young again

No more worries
No more doubts
No more cages
No more pouts

And here I am
Drifting about
Thinking of
What happens next

Of how we'll meet again
If we'll stay friends
If I am wrong and you are right
And if my black soul is still comparable with your pure

And while I spend
My time contemplating
The summer slips away
Leaving me here wishing it would stay

I looked into the mirror
To see
A terrifying monster
Staring back at me

I took a step back
And the monster did the same
Perfect timing
Perfect time frame

I made a confused face
And the monster copied me
A reflection of my actions
Oh what a sight it was to see

To test this beast I smiled
The monster smiled back
And I realized

I'm afraid of it
And it's afraid of me
Neither of us would hurt the other you see

And I learned
That the so called beast
Wasn't looking for a feast
Only someone who could love it

So
I became friends
With the monster in the mirror

And I discovered
What love really is

Beautiful dreamers,
Heart broken believers,
Don't let your cracks show.

Glistening stars,
Chasers of cars,
Where did our luck go?

The monsters,
Are hunting us,
The demons are getting faster.

Look out,
Look out,
The horrors are real.

Watch out,
Watch out,
Some how to their tastes we appeal.

Keep your eyes open,
They feast on fears.

Keep your eyes open,
They are your peers.

People think he's perfect when he's not,
People think he just breezes through life without a care when he doesn't,
People think he can just shrug everything off but he can't.

Nobody sees the real Mr. Perfect.
Nobody sees that he works for it.
Nobody sees how hard he tries.
Nobody hears his silent cries.
Nobody... but me.

I see the man behind the mask because I wear one too,
I see how hard he works on it though just like me,
I see how every shard of him is driven to be perfect just like me,
I hear his silent screams because I scream the same things,
Only nobody sees... at least I think.

I think he can see the girl behind the mask when he looks into my eyes,
I think knows how hard I work when I ask him for help,
I think he can sense that all of me is driven to being perfect when he stands near,
I think he can hear my silent screams when he hears my voice,
I think he's like me.

Oh save me my angel,
From this mad insanity.

Oh save me my angel,
I don't like him the way he does me.

Everyone pressures us together and he doesn't mind,
I can't let my friends down it would not be kind.

I do not love him the way he does me,
I love him like a brother,
Not a lover,
As he does me.

Every time I try to secretly turn him down,
He just comes back around,
Paining me at the sight of him.

Oh my angel save me,
From the pain in his eyes that I see.

Oh my angel save me,
Hurting him makes me unable to breathe.

My angel,
My angel,
Wipe the tears that I shed.

My angel,
My angel,
**** his love that's been bred.

My angel,
Please save me,
From this torturous misery.

For th washed,
The splintered,
And the torn.

For the withered,
The bitter,
And worn.

This is a beacon,
A flare if you must,
Into the sky,
Telling you that it's okay to cry.

Cry a river,
Cry a storm,
It'll make you feel better.

Cry a pond,
Cry an ocean,
It will only help.

Just don't leave,
I'll be with you every step of the way,
And then finally we shall see the day,
Of eternal peace prosperity and love.

Just close your eyes my brother,
Unless the demons come near.

Love with all your heart my kin,
I'll make sure that you have nothing to fear.

And stay by my side my friend,
Never shall they hurt you as long as I'm here.

She smiled like sunshine
I can't believe that she's mine

She kissed like raindrops on a summer after noon
I hope she comes back soon

She'd whisper in my ear
So only I could hear
"It will always be you and me
And together maybe we can be free"

She is my love
And she fluttered away like a dove

Please don't go
Our love was only starting to show
Please don't leave
I let you put my heart on my sleeve
I should never have let you in

Please don't let go of my heart
I couldn't bear for us to part
Please don't leave a mark
I thought there was a spark
I should never have let you in

Tears stream down my cheeks
As I wait for you for weeks
Not learning a thing from my mistakes
No matter how many times it takes
I still won't learn

I should never have let you in

What kind of an ungrateful brat
Trades her family like a hat

After keeping her from harm
Making sure she is warm

She married our only foe
Bringing us such grave woe

My once pride and joy
Leaves us like a toy

All because of a son of Montague
Her time in this family is through

I will never be
As smart as the other kids

I will never be
As happy as the other kids

I will never be
As good as the other kids

I will always be
The loner

I will always be
The worthless

I will always be
**never good enough

Soft touches,
Little glances,
Small talk,
Taking chances.

Brighter colors,
Fuller skies,
Bigger smiles,
No painful cries,

Something new,
A new begining,
Maybe you'll lose,
Or end up winning.

No one knows,
It's only a start,
A chance that can save,
Or break your heart.

We are nothing but sunset and dusk
As ageless as a newborn's laugh

We are nothing but history and moments
As forget-less as heroes in legend

We are nothing but ash and flame
As timeless as a dying man's last days

Everything nowadays is so dark and dreary
That now it's becoming tough to see clearly
Bitter tongues clash as swords
Some in the name of the lord
Others in the name of what can't be restored

Everything nowadays is so miserable and bleak
That now our bonds of love are growing weak
Talking becomes an act on a tightrope
Some no longer know how to cope
Others no longer know how to hope

One day we'll out run the monsters,
One day we'll live without fear,
One day we won't have to keep running,
One day they'll all disappear

Once upon a time
In a dream
There was just you and me

In the dream
You took my hand
And lead me away from everything else
So it was just you and I
It all happened so fast I though I was flying

We talked
We laughed
We danced
The perfect fairy tale romance

To bad it isn't real
To bad we've never had the chance

To dance under the stars
To feel that we could go far
To fall in love with each glance

Oh only
Just only
If we were given the chance

Some people are like stars,
so close yet so far away.

Some people are like the moon,
Shining so bright, but rarely noticed.

Some people are like comets,
They burn so bright and so fast that they don't last.

Some people are like constellations,
They look so put together when really everything is far from it.

Some people are like the night sky,
They look so dark far away, but really are filled with light.

Perfect clothes;
Perfect hair;
Perfect make up;
Perfect perfume in the air.

Perfect grades;
Perfect outlook;
Perfect act;
Perfect,not even a little crook*.

I wonder how perfect people think;
Do they see their own perfection?
Do they strive for it?
Do they know their direction?

I will never know;
For I'm far from perfect;
I'm far from normal;
But I'm worth it.