Błeeding Dįamøndš: Poems

So many expectations,
such little time.
So many people want you to be so many things,
a friend
a listener,
a supporter,
a lover,
a "normal" person.
And when break those expectations,
well
you got hell comin' to ya.
See people are so cruel.
They are ruthless.
Obscure.
As long as they can find something they don't like,
they won't let go.
Expectations can **** a person.
They tear them apart,
like meat inside a grinder.
They make people resent themselves.
and what is worse than that?
I wish people could see what value they really have.
Because everyone,
YOU
have so much value.
Thank you for being you.
don't fall to their expectations.
they will ruin you.
Trust me, i know

#getreal

485 · May 2017

Human

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Human

Cut me to show me that I bleed

#human #depression

485 · Aug 2016

S.m

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S.m

You told me i make you smile.
i love to do it
See because i know more than i lead on
I see your pain,
Though i cant hear your voice.
I want to hold you.
I wish i could somehow take her hateful words away.
No one deserves hate.
And you, my friend knows what its like.
Somehow i know that you are like me,
always counting
Counting the times we fall,
The times we didnt get back up
And ***,
Know you are not alone.
Ive wanted to write you something special for a while now,
you know who you are
Just allow me to hold your hand,
Look into your eyes
since you love mine
And let me tell you
To keep hold,
To never let go.
We are never born without purpose.
And yours,
Yours is gonna be big.
You just hold on.
The sky
All the stars,
Yours for the taking.
I cant tell you
What you mean to me.
You give me a child-like grin,
You often make my heaad spin,
And sometimes i want things to slow,
But you make my heart beat so fast.
You are special.
You will do great things
And when the curtain falls,
We are gonna give a big bow
*a job well done

For a special person.
S.m

#forher

484 · Aug 2016

Icon

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Icon

Is it bad
That i want to be someone big
Someone great?
Because
All my life
I've felt like i've been in a bubble,
Aaaalways in trouble.
I want to finally become someone people like.
Right now i feel alone,
But somehow i feel like its the start of the end.
I want to build a fanbase.
I want to live
better
Do you think i can?

Another bad poem im sorry

#life #improve

481 · May 2016

the mirror

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the mirror

this wild ride I'm on
i really don't like it
this road I travel
is broken and cracked.
These memories I hold
stab my wrists.
Like I mirror,
showing everything through its body,
the world's twists and turns
and unexpected burns.
This place I live
seems to consume me.
Like a dog barks,
I cry.
seems like every day.
And I'm sorry that I could not hold it together one more day.
But its the memories that makes me scared.
The ones like this:
I can remember
going to bed.
I was so ready
to end the day.
I had just fixed my bed.
I climbed in
my bunk bed,
brother on top.
Suddenly,
I felt my leg getting pulled with an aggressive tug.
I saw his eyes
his eyes
they were studying me,
my fear induced face.
Then he swung me into my dresser.
A bang echoed through the house.
Brother crying,
mom lying
saying I deserved this.
He continued to slam
my eight year old body,
all over
my violent-infested room.
My back.
The pain.
No gain
After it ended,
I was told to stop crying,
to stop trying
Fear still invades my breath.
The mirror saw it all.
It never got to tell my story.
That mirror
has seen me cry,
and has seen me sop up my own blood.
It has seen me
burn myself
It has seen me
mock myself
and the mirror has seen him too.
Its seen all he's done.
All those things hang
on the wall above.
Mirror, liberate me.
Mirror,
free me,
from this hate infested dimension.

all true

#hate #abuse #mirror

481 · Aug 2016

Fly

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Fly

I have serious intentions
To break my limitations

#love #kiss #crush #you

478 · Apr 2016

my depression

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my depression

my depression
feels no sadness,
nor an
end.
My depression feeds on joy.
It consumes me alive like a fire to a church.
My depression
marks the feeling on my fore head.
The sensation tickles,
call me insane.
I live in the dark,
my scars told me so.
And my teddy bear told me to do it.
So here i sit.
on the porch.
ready to take the leap of faith,
with no one to catch me.
Here, i go.
weeeeeeee
to the bottom of the ground.
to the bottem of hell...
want some tea?
how about a bagel?
Scared yet?
because i was,
when i saw the signs
of my own. *******. Depression

this is me. halleigh ******* luyah

#depression #dead #lunatic

478 · Jul 2016

We need to talk

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We need to talk

There is a time and a day
For everyone to shine.
Whens mine?
When will someone take a look at
Who i am.
See
I wish this world was different.
Less talk and more look.
Because people like me take the end of the stick.
Starving ourselves to match your definition of perfection.
Molding ourselves from what we see
And not by what we feel.
The world really is a ****** up place.
Everythings a race.
Who will blow up next.
See,
I dont want to shine too bright
But someday
I want to prove that
everyone is great.
There is something to love about every single person who exists.
everyone
Society is so focused on negativity.
On drama.
But what hasnt been ventured is
Focusing on kindness.
Negativity is ugly
So hurtful.
Especially when it seems like everyone has something to say.
So what do you say?
Nothing negative i hope
Because as you are reading this,
I am speaking to you
Maybe you are thinking
Whatever
You dont know anything.
But i know some things.
And i know that everyone has something to love about themselves.
Find yours.
What is it?
Its time to start thinking
About a little
(rather big thing)
Called *happieness

#love #peace #positive #negative #happieness

478 · Dec 2016

a quote I came up with

Błeeding Dįamøndš Dec 2016

a quote I came up with

The only thing keeping you a failure
is believing that you're a failure

#failure #inspirational #advise

476 · Mar 2016

death is bliss

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death is bliss

today i was thinking.
I was thinking about all that I've seen in the world.
I've seen evil.
Nazis, ******, KKK.
All of them wanting something in the world.
All of them killing. Hurting.
They are evil people.
Evil is inevitable.
Which is why I want out.
I want to leave this terrible place.
I want to go home with the lord.
Because i do not condemn sin.
But then i ask
is it real?
religion?
Sin?
Death?
Death seems so blissful.
Nothing can last that is good.
Thus my theory.
Bleeding diamonds.
Beauty doesn't last.
So if good things don't last,
can death really exist?

#religion #death #evil #insight

473 · Sep 2016

E.

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E.

I found myself biting my lip
Drawing blood as I looked into her eyes.
I wish she could know
Does she know?
It’s like I want to expose myself
Purposely mess up,
Let her hear a hint.
I wish she knew how I felt
Could she know?
And what if she did?
What if she knew?
Would we be right for each other?
Sometimes I see her looking at me.
Almost starring.
I can’t help but wonder,
Does she think about me the way I do her?
She feels like everything,
But I hardly know her.
This passion radiates off me.
How is this even possible?
She is so beautiful
Yet somehow so insecure.
I want to see the future.
Our future at hopes,
Maybe I can learn the ropes.
E,
If we ever get to love each other,
This is for you.
This,
It has always been about you.
I really like you.
Like, a lot.
You are so cute.
Make me feel like a mute
Speechless.
I hope
One day
I will
We will
Have mutual love.

#love #girl #crush

471 · May 2016

Start again

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Start again

starting over.
A new you
New look,
new attitude
New outlook on life.
Walking down the halls,
head held high.
Until someone comes up,
knocks you down.
****.
See people try so hard.
they just wanna make it.
They wanna stop faking it.
Life gets hard.
Things get ****** up.
Why these things happen,
well I don't know.
Dark fills this place.
All we want to do is start again.
Get a better reputation.
Create a better life.
But people won't let you.

#again #start

471 · Apr 2016

My favorite song

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My favorite song

"115"

[Verse 1]
No one can see me and
I've lost all feeling and
I know I won't die alone
I'll stop you from breathing and
all your deceiving and
this house is not my home

[Pre chorus 1]
No
More forgiveness
No
and the reason is
I know I wont die alone

I have returned

[Chorus 1]
and everyone dies and
everyone lies
They're waiting for the second coming again

Everyone tries to hold onto their lives
When no one's alive
Bring me 115

[Verse 2]
You stand for nothing and
overlooked something
I'll bring you down all on my own

I'm the end I can taste it
I'll justify hatred
I am the chosen one
left hand of all that's sacred

[Pre Chorus 2]
No
More forgiveness
No
I'll bring you death and pestilence
I'll bring you down on my own.

I have returned

[Chorus 2]
and everything dies
look to the skies
to see the end of all creation again

See with your eyes
my army of flies
when no one's alive
bring me 115

[Bridge]
I've lost all form and unity
where has my life gone
I'll bring you doom that you can see
and bring you down to see you bleed.

[Outro Chorus]
and everyone dies and
everyone lies
They're waiting for the second coming again

Everyone tries to hold onto their lives
When no one's alive
Bring me 115

and everything dies
look to the skies
to see the end of all creation again

See with your eyes
my army of flies
when no one's alive
bring me 115

and nobody cries
when everyone dies
and no one's alive
bring me 115
~ Elena Siegman
115

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/elenasiegman/115.html

#115

470 · Apr 2016

shush, child

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shush, child

they expect you
to take the pain
They expect you
not to care about injustice
They want you
to accept blood
They want you to let them hit you,
and take it "like a man"
But they don't want you
to fight back
When we cry,
"shush child"
"shut the **** up, boy"
I hate those people.
I hate the parents
who hit their children
For fun.
Punishment is one thing,
cruelty is another.
So,
Shush, father
*you had this coming.

for my father

#abuse #rise

469 · Mar 2017

Fingertips

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Fingertips

With all that she's felt
She feels every memory.
Everyday that drags on
for an eternity.
What seems like a gift
is really just misogyny.
Misunderstood
She was never truly okay.
With all that she's felt
both emotionally and physically
They still hurt
It always hurts
and it burns
With all she's felt
since she was a child
(Her fingertips seemed to touch everything, she longed just to feel)
She would never understand
She would never be
more than
*misogyny.

#depression #confusion

467 · Apr 2016

Fancy wishes

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Fancy wishes

I want to drown
in a pool of love.
I want the smell of perfume to fill my lungs,
and the sweet feeling of affection
to rush between every cell of my body.
I want to be held
I want to be kissed
I want to be cradled
as if I was the only one,
and nothing matters.
I want the touch of her
to make me feel safe.
I want my girlfriend to be decided.
To know what she wants,
and to know that she wants me
and only me
is it too much to ask?
Or am I just dreaming too much again?

#love #want #lust #match #flirt

464 · Aug 2016

The beaten

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The beaten

Beaten Bitter Blood mouth.
Emo shutters through the walls.
Darkest dreams surface to reality.
Black eye
Strong guy
A club
And a kid.
All over
Here
In
This time
He pays
Price
$$
(Prison)
Sketchy motives
And a coffin
Left
For the
Morning
To clame

#strange

463 · Apr 2016

cheers to us

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cheers to us

how about a cheers?
A cheer to life.
A cheer to death.
A cheer to innocence.
A cheer to faults.
A cheer to mortality.
A cheer to damnation.
Though you might not think
some of these are worthy,
they all describe
some part of me.
So cheers to you.
you made it.
so did i.
Now lets breathe again,
and set off on our way
in a blur of hypothetical bliss
disappear into the wind
as we feel it gently tap our nose.
And then. we just.
go

cheers anyone?

#life #i #me #myself #facts

463 · Apr 2016

My attempt at a love poem.

Błeeding Dįamøndš Apr 2016

My attempt at a love poem.

the day i first saw her,
she sat in the corner
curled up,
with one earphone in one ear.
She looked at me
for a brief second,
then looked away,
for some odd reason.
I looked at her,
saw her beauty.
I hadn't known
what our future would hold.
How could i known
What joy she'd bring me.
And what
love she would hold for me.
How could I have known
at that very second,
how much her life,
would mend with mine.
I remember that day,
like it was yesterday.
I wish I could have known
just who that girl would be.
I marveled at her
when i finally met her.
Her personality clearly beat mine.
I love the way
she looks at me now.
I love the way she smiles at me.
so clearly I can see,
her love for me.
So lovely is she.
Shemeans the wordl to me

for you

#love #poem #attempt #letter

461 · May 2016

Religion: WTF?

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Religion: ***?

Sunday's sermon was interesting.
"God knows all!" He said.
"Trust in the lord, and his word shall be a lamp unto your feet" he yelled.
But see,
this is where I start to doubt
See,
if god knows all,
than why did he create Satan, the "fallen angel"
Tell me.
If god knows all,
than why did he create Adam and Eve,
and see
I get free will and that concept,
but why would he create destruction if he knows what each and every one of us will do?
TELL ME!
Tell me why God loves us to praise him,
doesn't that seem a little conceded?
He wants everyone to bow down,
that sounds like a tyrant to me...
Religion,
what the ****?
You have so many plot holes,
more holes than there are stars.
Religion,
God is the best
so you say
so tell me,
why would he make his son suffer the way he did.
Or,
why not send a daughter?
Is that sexist?
Religion,
tell
me
this.
Why must you take everyone?
Peacefully or not?
Religion,
don't tell me to pray
because if your logic is true,
than god already *knows my prayer

Just my logic
if i offended anyone, sorry
but I really don't want to hear it.

#religion #*** #plothole

461 · Aug 2016

Idiot ftw

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Idiot ftw

When im around you,
i find myself biting my tongue
...
**alot

#anger #sensor

460 · Jul 2016

Men...

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Men...

Im growing up
Im becoming man.
And with becoming a man,
Society has laid expectations
That i have already broken
Without growing to complete adulthood.
ive already cried in public...twice
Men arnt supposed to do that! Be real!
i hang out with mostly girls
Bros before hoes you ***!
i let my sister paint my toenails
Are you kidding?!?! You ****!
Men...see men are mean.
But...im not.
Men are fearless.
Im scared of ****.
Men are ripped atheletes
I will NEVER look magazine worthy.
Men are *** machines
...im still a ******. Ha!
Men dont care
I do....in fact...i do alot!

I am a man
But that doesnt mean
im a steriotypical one
;)

#men #*** #steriotype

460 · Mar 2016

untitled 115

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untitled 115

hello
its been a while, huh?
Im at home.
Whiling away my day.
Reading her words.
They sting.
They bleed through the paper.
Her last words.
Her last will.
was me.
And yet, she's gone, and i'm here.
****.
Who am i?
i think i should go.
You don't deserve to see me

#depression #death #bleed #last

460 · Apr 2016

Today

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Today

I will rise from the stones,
this is the day
that I shout out,
"I AM BLEEDING DIAMONDS"
This is the day
where I live up to my name
This is the day Zach will rise.
Rise past the haters,
Rise past the abusers,
yes my friends,
today is the day I let go of everything and become
who I was always meant to be.

#life #legend #arise

459 · Apr 2016

Cool-aid

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Cool-aid

cool-aid cool-aid in my glass
if you don't,
I'll kick your ***

#funny #haha #joke

458 · Apr 2016

this is me

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this is me

"Plans, plans, plans. They always have their plans. But the problem with their plan... is that when you take an insane person to the asylum, you're just taking him home - the very place he knows best."

~joker..again XD

#wise

455 · May 2016

This situation

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This situation

sometimes
things dont work out
**I hope this is not one of those

eh, eh?

#love #crush

453 · Aug 2016

Speak

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Speak

I said it before.
But i didnt explain.
The complexity of my words.
What did i say?
"My tears are like knives
And im crying all over my body
Ive got scars all over"
See i wasnt lying.
My cheeks look like a cuttingboard.
Each time my body gets cut open
My blood runs black.
It oozes through my veins, and out to the ground.
I am not to be understood.
Like one runs into a train
The roads so similiar
But wind up here,
On this one tear.
These tears that cut,
Are like unopenable doors that shut.
The wind up closes,
As my final thoughts choose to vanish.
These tears
These knives
Prove often to be poetic
Because i often write about the scars.
I often write about my pain
but my silence echoes.
Bouncing
Bouncin
Bounci
Bounc
Boun
Bou
Bo
B.
*silence

#explain #depression #silencr

452 · May 2016

future aspirations

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future aspirations

I want to be someone
anyone.
I want to be in front of a crowd of fans
on stage
performing
I want to
be someone
because
I have lived my life
feeling like no one
I want to prove my haters wrong.
I want to scream that I am someone
from the top of my lungs!
I want to live a life worth living
and have no regrets.
I want to live a life with love.
And fun.
I want to be a good person,
who no one will think of me as a ******.
I want to hold the mike.
I want to let my scream come out.
Spit lyrics,
and bob my head to my song's drumbeat.
I wanna make it someday.
I dont care how
because I am done
*being a nobody

truth on paper

#future #live #yolo

450 · Mar 2016

good morning

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good morning

good morning people.
How did you sleep.
Was yesterday hell?
Is today a waste?
Just hold on.
Just make a sun.
Let it shine.
Let it shine
let the ******* shine.
and make today a good day.
So pick up your face.
stand UP.
not down.
and lets rock and roll.
________

just get up and go!

#truth #raw #inspirational #bleedingdiamonds

448 · Jul 2016

Us (memoir)

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Us (memoir)

Dont think things have to die.
Nothing has to die
See
I didnt want the relationship to die.
But it did.
And it didnt have to.
But you wanted to control my life
Every minute of it.
You needed to see who i talked to
Who i didnt
And you had to make sure you were it
Even though ive told you a thousand times that i am a loyal man that is yours forever.
Yet it wasnt enough.
Because you still tried
To hold my life
Like it was a ball
And eventually
You dropped it.
I admit
It was my fault i wasnt brave enough to end it earlier
So it ate at me
I became angry.
I was grumpy.
That ****** you off
So i ended us
The relationship died.
But if only you had honored my wish
Like i did yours
We could still be
Us

#love #dead #breakup #us #controll

447 · Sep 2017

Stay

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Stay

Time is short,
*so just keep living

#suicide

446 · Sep 2016

..sin..

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..sin..

my flow of emotions
are far more valuable
than your temptations.

#love #her #no #more

445 · May 2016

Arguing with myself

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Arguing with myself

My day was fine
Except for the yelling
And the tears
and the bruises
The cussing
The fussing
The overall day was bad I guess
No, no your right
I did have a good night's sleep.
I have a roof over my head
Carpet beneath my feet
And a warm place to stay
But in the place that I stay
I have to deal with abuse
Denial
I just feel off
No I don't
I feel great.
I want to get away
but getting g away could lead to uncertainty
And you don't like uncertainty
I don't
I hate these conversations
*with myself

#physco

444 · Jul 2016

Viewer descretion: dark poem below

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Viewer descretion: dark poem below

"Why do we fall?
So we can learn to pick ourselves up."

Ive fallen more times than there are stars. I have more scars than there are sand particles on the beach.

Brought up in a world
Only knowing punishment and attitude ajustment.

I was killed by a look.
Well, that and the sharp pain in my ribs.
Forced into insanity
Only hope being prosperity.
I thought of suicide more times than a pencil breaks in a school year.

Where is justice?
Where is hope anymore.
Because depression moved into my life with a title wave
Crashing into my soul with an intensity
That overtook my prosperity.
Torture.
Yes
A word
All too true for me.
Two by four with nails sticking out below my knees
They punctured just below my kneecap.
Still got the scar.
All i was able to do was whimper.
Ooh how fun that was BELIEVE ME
I did survive.
Only a sophomore now.
With gunpowder scent for a hint
Of whats next from my dad and his game.
I can expect
Nothing but death
To float me away.
Only to float
Float
Float

#abuse #torture

444 · Apr 2017

The Carnival

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The Carnival

Why can’t you look at me as normal?
Why do you see me a freak?
Why don’t you think that my heart can’t break?
Why can’t you understand that I own my own pain?
That I drive myself insane trying to become something new.
But when I say that I hurt, its, “who knew?”
So put me in a cage,
Condemn me for wishing for normality
That wish led to my fatality.
So I am here
With the ones they call odd
The ones you laugh at
The ones you question
Because if I can’t be normal, than no one can
Spend my life wishing to be larger than life
Wishing that people would see me, and not for my appearance.
Because as this is written, I am in pain
At this time I have no hope.
So go and tell me
“No need to mope”
But hell, not even the pope
Could pray the things I need prayer about.
That’s why I fell so far behind
Because I thought there was another path to find
And music was the only way I felt right
The notes where my eyes to see the light.
But you still laugh at me
Because my music is not sung at church
Because I scream
I am labeled a freak.
But if I don’t have talent
Why am I still writing on?
Because one day
You will remember the remraf name
When I claim my fame,
You will burn in the flame of my darkness
Of my shadow
So welcome to the carnival,
Where the lowest of the low find the highest of the high
Because today
Is the day
We rise,
Every “freak” in the world
Rise.
Because a freak is the new normal
And if you don’t agree,
Than you can stand before me
And tell me all my faults,
Tell me my insecurities.
And when you’re all said and done
It’ll be my turn to pay my respects
Because when you looked down at us
You forgot that even you had overseers.
Because what you do
What you say
Is downright *****.
I am angry at your actions
Treating me as a carney boy
I am no freak
I am no freak
I am no freak
Leave me be!
Oh!
Leave this alone
Let me live my life
So what if you don’t like my music
So what that you don’t like my style
So what that you are to ***** to make your own
So what?
So what?

#song

444 · Jul 2016

Superstition

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Superstition

Something is coming guys...
*and im not sure i want to be around to find out what

#fear #terror #apocalypse

443 · Mar 2016

I love people

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I love people

i love people for the way they are.
I love the quirky laughs.
I love the strange looks people get on their faces.
I love the way people talk about everything and anything.
I love to see people for who they are inside.
Because that is what should matter, right?
What should matter is what we do and how we do it.
But somehow society has altered our thinking.
They altered us to stress about our latest Instagram photo
When we should be caring about eachother's feelings.
We've lost our way.
We need revival.

Today's world. Enough said

#social #lost #awaken

443 · Mar 2016

my message to you

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my message to you

Hi, you.
yes you.
the one who is reading this ;)
do i have your attention?
good.
lets begin.
My message
to you
is to
stay strong.
dont let them shut your door.
guard the light.
be the light
own the light.
My message to you
is that
i love you
though i dont know you
i love you
because
you are
and always will be
human.
you cared to read this.
so
i love you
so much
and any day you feel like no one does,
read this poem again.

everyone needs a lift somedays. if this is you, well this is for you.
i love you!
thx,
Bleeding Diamonds

#love #support #foryou

442 · Mar 2016

(song) Conviction

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(song) Conviction

Every day I see you, and how your sick world manifests!
Every day, I experience the cold. The shameless winter that takes hold.
How do you become the winter?
How do you let yourself get so low?
I gave my trust to you. You had a lust for two.
Your secret was as hidden as a man hiding in a house of glass.
I could see straight through you, for you had no shame.
But you’re to blame!
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!
Go!
Leave!
Disappear!
Fall into the shadows once again.
Maybe if you actually gave a ****, I wouldn’t be as mad as I am!
It was all an act, but not the impact.
Did you love me or hate me?
Reject or accept?
Was it just for show?
Don’t you know there is a place meant for people like you?
Its way down under and it’s called hell.
Can you hear its bell?
I heard its ‘a calling you!
So go ahead and do as you said!
Crawl around looking for your victims.
This is for the broken
This is for all the people you’ve left.
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!

Sing with me!
The. Day. You. Fail. Is. The. Day. I. Pre-vail!

I will never fall again.
I know your ***** tricks.
I see the lies.
Your memory dies!
So go to hell!
Don’t bother saying bye, because I won’t try to say it back!
I want you to know…
The world. Will go on. Without yooouuuuu!
Feel the shame that you were not given.
Enjoy your fate, because you are not forgiven.
I hear your threats, and that’s when the mood sets.
You don’t have any idea!
Do you love or leave it to burn?
Now it’s time for your other side to turn!
This is your conviction. This is your call to shame.
This is where I expose you! And all that you have made me feel!
This is where we learn your name!
Because, the day you fail, is the day that I prevail!
We the people find the defendant…GUILTY!

another song i wrote

#music #song

442 · Mar 2017

Make of it What You Wish

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Make of it What You Wish

...
what's funny is
I always knew

Can mean so much for such different situations

#6ws

441 · Jul 2016

Truth

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Truth

If everyone would just
shut up
We wouldn't have so many problems

#truth #anger #duh

439 · Jul 2016

If i speak

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If i speak

You say you want me to speak
But if i open my mouth and talk
Anger  will rise
The ground will shake.
I have been silenced  for 8 years
That  time cannot  be taken back.
Instead, i am left with the memories
That  allow  me to tell the sad stories
There  is more to me.
I look fine from the  outside
But inside
I am a shipwreck
Just waiting to be discovered.
I am a rush of frustration
I often loose my happy concentration
When i am put into a ****** situation
Dont let me speak
i wont stop
Wrether you think you love me
Or  you pretend to love me
There is always going to be a void.
A void  only one can make.
But left 8 years ago
I've  been told to hold on for so long
And
My grip is slipping.
Each day i find myself wanting to let go more and more.
I cannot move on with little to none support.
I am a human
Not a robot.
I have feelings
Which everyonr seems to forget.
family slave
Is who i am to them
nuisance
To others.
I want to matter
I want to open my mouth
And speak
And leak
These secrets kept within the flesh.
But these bruises are like  circuit  boards
no one sees them
You have to uncover  these sheets of hell to see my pain. The bruises
My soul feels dead with every bad omen and every negative word said to me.
Ive prayed
Nothing came
Ive bargained  my soul
Just  for things to change
Nothing has happened.
Because  i will not speak.
My mind is connected
But not my mouth.
This is not a poem
No
Its a rant
An angry rant from an ******* poet.
Who cannot
*speak

Dont take privileges as a debt
Imaging what you have that others dont...even if that means being heard and being able to speak

#abuse #speak

437 · Jul 2016

Fault of being nice

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Fault of being nice

Its a bit funny.
I work so hard
To please everyone,
Yet i feel so useless.
"Its a teen thing"
Really?
You kidding?!?!?
Its a bit funny
All these things expected of me.
I did it to be nice.
I did it again to be thoughtful
And now
Im expected to do it
Wow.
How ****** is that?
*I hate being nice

I can only ask for it i guess. I was made to be walked on...

#nice #kind #used #***

436 · May 2016

Untitled

Błeeding Dįamøndš May 2016

Untitled

I wanted to believe there was someone who could save me
I want to believe that he suffered for me.
I want tk believe that somehow i have a good place to go even when evil has been commited.
I want to believe that someone watches over us all.
But. .i cant.
I cant
I cant.
I wont
Because if so
Why am i still in this hell?

#religion #***

436 · Jun 2016

To love a poet

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To love a poet

When a poet falls in love
Things can fall into place
or not
When you love a poet
You cant expect normality
Things inside a poet's head arnt clear.
Things the poet wants are faded.
Obscure.
When you choose to give your heart
There really is
No telling
The outcome.
The poet will try to use the words he's used so well before,
But end up stumbling upon every syllable.
Don't expect something
The breaking of hearts is not intentional.
Just a mere side effect.
Ghosts haunt the mind
Of a poet.
If you are down
To love
Expect
To be
Broken
It *****.
But in the end
Arnt we all broken?
A poet can only try
So hard
Too hard maybe
But it is you
That picks up the knife.
The poet can use words
To try to save you
Because words are all that he's ever had
And they will fail him.
Just as so many have before.
So
If that poet loves you
And says it
He means it.
i meant it
But things can only go so far
And you went over the edge.
She tested a poets words.
How is one to face suicide from a thousand miles away?
This poet cant give up
But only try so much
Before laying the pen down
And say
okay
Because you chose
*to love a poet

#love #poet

433 · Sep 2016

short...

Błeeding Dįamøndš Sep 2016

short...

All these mixed emotions cascading down my face.
Her fears turned into my tears.
Like a rose bud, bitter and sweet,
And such a painful thing to meet.
She was my drug, but I eventually overdosed.
Though I never gave her the thought of a proposal.
She used to stand to me to tall.
But she led me to a painful, long fall.
She was my power
But as all things do, it got too sour.
She was waiting for something to devour us.
There was a fault in our stars.
She made me feel like I was isolated, living on mars.
This wedding band meant nothing.
When it was supposed to mean something.
I’m surrounded in the thoughts of what we used to be.
You meant everything to me.

#love #breakup