To the depths of my heart you linger
to my soul you are there
you are my person
forever there

baby i've tried but can't unlove you

i hate you bc i still love you

I want to not exist, i want to float, to sleep and feel peace
i don't want to feel empty, but i can't fill this void
if i'm still here on earth

I am here on this earth
I love simple things but somedays i love no things
I am sad and i feel empty
I would say i want to be dead but thats just so simple

If I like girls what would you say?
I were to love a girl or a boy would that be okay?
I like girls, But when embraced I"m called a ******, I am confined to the normal reality of this world
I like boys, I can openly express that but can i really without being called a ***** or a ****? We are supposed to love everyone, but we do not love anyone but our selves, we are afraid of the different
We fear change, when will we change?

You left me not in a physical sense mom, but in a emotional mentally
I am drowning inside an your no where to been found
I'm dumbfounded to think you'd be there in time of need
But your my mom too, not just his
your my heart too, not just his
what about me mom
I took those beatings against my bare back
I took the those hands against my face
I stood tall an proud to fight for you
where you would never fight for me the same way mom

I don't know how to stop
the pain of losing you
to someone you think
is better then me

You touched my soul
When i heard your voice
You stole my heart
Not even by choice
Once I breathed you in, i couldn't breathe without
It like I dived head first in to the ocean captivated by it's beauty
Not knowing to swim
Now your gone, there's only a outline of my heart
I barely breathe, I'm back on land, An My soul still touched by you

I tug at her hand
She pulls away
i ask when will you listen?
If not today tomorrow
But if not right now,
if not tomorrow then when mom
soon i'll be gone

i wish i can run
i wish i could fly
i wish that i can find peace inside my soul

Has there been a line drawn?
You tell me "Okay"
after I explain my pain
Whenever i ask if your all right I'm hit with "I'm Fine"
Has there been a line drawn?
where your Absent an I'm just trying to close the distance
Has there been aa line drawn?

Heartache, Broken heart,
Never thought I'd feel this way,
Without you there's no other way to feel

When we break up we alway come back to us
But you started to change and i started to see
That we weren't gonna make, we couldn't stay this sea

I won't hit up your phone, won't text you no more,  
But i still think of you , i still miss you, pretend every guy is you, this isn't fair, cause out there  your probably happy without me

I'm drunk
And I don't feel ****
Ha

i lost my heart
when i kissed your lips

2019 and Its okay to **** women and children
We don't stand a chance because this a Man's world right?
This wouldn't be there if we didn't discard these peoples voices
If we listen to every pained voice,
every voice that cracks into tears
an every little child asking is this okay? Are we gonna lets this be a
everyday thing? We are not animals , We are people
When people say No they mean NO,
And when some guy messes with the wrong Girl an  he gets killed
She shouldn't be blamed, No matter what

In a storm, your cold I gave you my coat
Put my arms around you
shield you from the hail
you didn't want to get wet
I Give you my umbrella
you want to be warm
take my body heat
You want my soul, i say take it
even if your the devil

I see you across the room
Dark shaggy hair, light brown skin like caramel, light brown doe eyes
I could probably get lost in
I see you across the room
When you smile it's purely innocence
It's like you light the whole room, Maybe I'm the only one who notice
When i see you
Im not sure how to feel
I can't even say a word to you
I  just see you across the room

Para que te diga que te quiero,
tengo que decirlo en otro idioma.
  te amo

En mucho tiempo finalmente me amo
soy libre

I Smile like a baby, Whenever your around
Like your some kind of candy, I can't get my hands on
I just want to wrap my arms around you an squeeze
y nunca dejar ir, tu mi mundo...

I like him
for him
an no other reasons

When i heard you name, My heart immediately fell
I can feel the blood pumping through my veins
The security that i felt melted away
Tears blossom in my eyes and fall
I can't think about you, i never dare say your name
but you haunt me at night
In my dreams, in my mind
I never fight, waste of time
i just compile

I have someone, not a boy but a friend
She's beautiful like the morning sun, Nice and gentle like the night breeze. She's as radical as the sea, As strong as the light house that up stands everything. Her love is like crashing waves of happiness.
she is my friend

I need no man for i to be happy
I don't need you no more
I am content with me
I am happy by myself
I am Strong on my own

I would burn in hell for you
just to see you live happily in heaven

We're like Romeo an Juliet, Bonnie an Clyde , Moon an Sun
We were a beautiful sight , I loved you like they loved each other,
You were the devil with no love but deception
Deceived me so quick so easily, I didn't even see it
Maybe because I would stab myself for you , take a bullet for you or rob a bank for you , Make it light or dark for you. Anything for you
We have a suicide love, A killing love , A love of death

In time you will faded i say to myself
but i fear that i made a grave mistake
that i won't forget you, you'll be stuck in my heart, stuck in my mind
i fear that you were the love of my life , I just let you Go
I never should have left, Because I don't think i'll ever stop loving you

Can't forget you
in my dreams
You forever imprinted on my heart
so I'll rip it out

we're doing this again
I tried to push you away move away
but without you I'm heartless
I learned to use my heart less
with you my heart comes alive
and I can't help to think about how good we look to gather in time
**** ...I came so far to just fall for you again
I try to fall for other men but your the only person...
the only person I love...****
reminiscing about all the time spent with you
only fear is that may you still love her
that I won't be good enough
hope this love is good enough

My love is in all shapes for you
forgiveness,tears,hugs an kisses
and before you leave i give you a hug and a kiss and then more cause i really don't want you to leave
i love spending time with you, you may not believe that but i do
i want it to be me and you , just us two
Baby i love you more then you can count the snowflakes in the snow or the stars in the sky
or how many drops of water are in the sea
i love you an that's all to it.
i won't break your heart, it wont be replaced
cause i realized no matter how hard i fight it
I'll always be in love with YOU
so i'm not going to fight anymore
i'm going to embrace it
because i know your the one for me
for eternity

not happy nor am I sad
I'm just here, I just breath air
nothing to concern yourself about, nothing for you to care
I'm just here, really I'm just stuck
and I don't wanna be here
let me be honest the only reason I'm here is guilt
Guilt of leaving, guilt of making them sad
I am not happy don't think I'm sad either
I'm just in the middle
I am numb

with you, in a matter of minutes I fall for you, no matter how      
 many times we fight I can't fall out of this connection
I'm filled to the brim with love for you it's bigger then the sea
It's depths unfounded able, this love is different for me
we been through to much **** to now **** it up
I'ma give you my heart
don't rip it apart, because I know we can make it thru
To the part where I marry you
to where I still fall in love with you again & again

F&A is forever our thing, I hope you never use that for other girl
I hope we stay to gather til we're gray and old
Cause your in embedded in my heart
Your heart strings can you feel them when I pull
Forever& Always F&A

I can picture holding your hand forever
I can see us old gray in our house, I can already see our marriage
And what I'm gonna say
My vow to you:
I promise to love you in your worst moments, I promise to stand behind no matter if your wrong I'll tell you later that you are
I promise to love our children until I die an on to the next life
I promise to stay
I promise to spoil you with my love
And I'll love you til I die and in to the next
Never will my love fade
it will never warn, for you are my life

I'm stuck in time, Unable to move
My mind is unhinged, I'm confined to this dark place
It's in the creases of my head, In the back corners of my brain
It's spreading in to my soul, Ripping me apart
I'm unable to move forward, I'm am stuck and I want to get out
But my pride is to high, To say i want to die
I want to end this, I'm a waste of space
If i told you, you say i sound to stupid, you wouldn't take me seriouly
You'd judge me just like she did.
that's what I'm most afraid of

I'm afraid to say goodbye, scared I'll miss out something
Afraid to pull the trigger to end all this pain
No body notices how I feel, All my emotions are fegin
A blind man can see the suffering
But all these friends can't see the tear stains
Blind to my pain, Blind to helping me
I can't escape, i can't not be free
My mind holds me captured
Bullet to the dome will do it
this could be my final goodbye

Every one around me lives in a glass world
They all swirl around happy in there little glass case
Happy not a care in the world thinking how they won't break
Soon the weight of the glass world will soon make them ache
They'll tumble over shatter there glass world
but maybe I'm glad mine broke
Now I'm real and not a reflection of who I wanted to be.

I.... you left again
But this time i don't want you to come back
i want you to stay gone....
gone in the wind
memories within
will fade
and soon
enough
i'll love again

it rains
black rain
   in the night
       It thunders! in the dead of night
              Her heart stops
                           No more thumps left
                                     No more thunder in her body
                    No more lighting to light her up
                And it's your fault
  you  let her down
Now she cries black rain
while she's dying
on the inside

I wish I could yell at you
I wish you knew
what pain you put upon me
I wish I could be set free
Free from this binding pain, I'm black & blue
And the only one to blame is you
I've tried to take away the blame I feel toward you
To release you of this fault, to forgive you but I can't
I can't do it, you broke everything we had
Everything I tried to build with you
I'm now through
But the worst thing is
at the end of the day
when I go down to lay
It's that I still love you
Even though I should hate you
Even though if I can't forgive you, Even though you broke my heart
I
still
l
o
v
e
you Johnthan
And I hate myself for it

Every time the rain hits the earth, my heart beats
Every time the rain falls on my cheek, it washes away the tears that leak.

Every night I look at the moon and think of you
Every night when I close my eyes you are the last thing on my mind

Every day I wake up and pretend I'm fine
Every day i wanna scream and die