I don’t know anymore, how to feel something again
Feels like I’m drifting, lost in outer space, to god knows where
Unanchored from everything, yet my chest is heavy, eyes are lifeless
Each day repeats itself, every conversation feels hollow, insincere

I bury myself in work, not to build, but to forget
Laughter doesn’t echo, smiles barely stretch, just motions
And if I disappear, would it really matter?
It’s not selfish, just silent. Space swallows sound, and maybe it swallows me too.

In this silence, I lay dormant—
I no longer expect anymore.
There’s no pull, no push, just a vast, empty stretch.
The stars hang motionless, indifferent
and I’m no different

On empty streets where shadows roam,
I see your face in every soul.
It’s been four months since our goodbye,
Yet the ghost of you still grips my mind.

Your smile, your laugh, that careless spark,
The paths we wandered, the dreams we shared
No song can drown the storm in my mind
No matter how loud, you always arrive.

I miss you, but I don’t long for you—
Yet every step, I stumble through.
In every shadow, every flickering light,
I’m haunted by the ghost of you

I tell myself I’ve let you go,
But deep down, I think we both know.
It’s colder now, these nights I roam,
Even the stars have lost their glow.

Here again, it’s all so familiar,
The empty space I carved for myself,
A void that brings me solace,
Far from the world's embrace.

This time, I entered willingly,
Unlike before, when ignorance guided me.
It’s different now; I can choose to leave,
Yet in this toxic, dreadful silence, I find comfort.

No longer weeping in the corner,
Everything shifts, but the feeling persists,
The heaviness in my chest—
As if the rain never ceased.

Bloodstained puddles on the floor,
Grim reminders of past hardships.
Each reflection a testament,
To all I've survived.

Maybe I’ll linger a bit longer,
Wandering endlessly through this void.
I’ll escape eventually, won’t I?
I can get out… right? Someone... please...

I once feared looking at the sky,
Afraid it would swallow me whole
I always covered my ears,
Believing if I couldn’t hear, words wouldn’t hurt

I numbed my heart, closed every door,
Isolating myself from life’s embrace.
A hollow shell with a fire long extinguished,
But then, your presence sparked a change.

I thought I was beyond feeling or hearing
Yet your touch opened my eyes to the sky.
I hesitated, nervous, but you held on tight,
With a smile you ran straight towards the light

My heart races, unfamiliar and wild,
Your eyes invite me to follow your lead.
I readied myself, slowly walking, running, leaping
What is this sense of freedom I feel, its warm

I don't know where we are going,
But there's no longer room for doubts
With you, I’ll soar to unknown heights,
I'm not afraid to take a step forward

Nakahiga, tulala na naman sa kisame
Tuloy ang daloy ng panahon
Ngunit ang mundo ko'y nakatigil
Kamay sa mukha, luha'y pinipigil

Inaalala ang mga sandaling puno ng kulay
Paligid ko'y umaapaw sa tawa't saya, dahil nariyan ka pa
Ngayo'y nagpaalam na tayo, ngunit puso ko'y nakakapit pa
Libutin man ang sansinukob, ikaw pa rin ang nais makita

Kahit anong pagsusumikap na limutin ka
Lalong lumalalim ang sugat sa bawat alaala
Sa bawat pintig ng puso, hapdi ang nararamdaman
Umaasang ang ating landas muli'y magtatagpo

Enthralled by the lunar glow’s allure
Blindly treading the path I would endure
Stubbornly pressed on, heedless of the toll
Ignoring the cracks within my weary soul

As I draw closer, happiness and solace unfurl
Yet my touch, ignites the flames that wildly swirl
Burning yet I cling, despite the searing pain
I stand my ground holding you in my embrace

To my surprise, you pushed me away,
Leaving me adrift, lost in disarray.
Unaware, I’m falling into the void
Desperately clinging to the shadows

Was I naive, to have pushed so far?
Do I regret the burns and the scars?
With tears and a smile, I raise my fist,
"I would do it for you” as I fall in to the abyss

I’d craft you a poem, yet words may fall short,
To capture the joy, the laughter, the rapport.
The very essence of what sets you apart,
The moment we met, the joy in my heart.

Instead, gaze upon the night's starlit design,
Connect the dots, the constellations align.
A grand spectacle, yet a void unseen,
A tapestry incomplete, until you intervened.

Stand amidst the cosmos, in lunar glow,
The missing piece, the truth starts to show.
By now, you must surely know,
How your presence completes this poem I bestow.

When things improve, I stumble and fall,
Self-sabotage whispers, questioning it all.
A perpetual cycle, back and forth I go,
Please, release me from this remorseful woe.

My anxious heart given a chance to soar,
Freed from shackles, yet I was careless.
In my own undoing, I tarnished the key,
Locked away the possibility of you and me.

You embraced this fool who turned from the world,
Your soothing presence and your words, warmth swirled.
Echoes in my chest, what was once lost, unchained,
Emotions surge - a tide - each part regained.

I won't revert to the person of old,
No more shivering, no more words left untold.
The reflection in the mirror, standing strong,
I'll rectify missteps, admit I did you wrong.

This time! Just this time please! Let redemption be my rhyme!

When butterflies no longer take their flight,
The vibrant hues turn dim, day turns to night,
In the fairytale we thought would never
end,
True love awakens as the mundane descends.

That's where the real journey will commence,
Hold your beloved, let your souls' recompense.
When your heart beats calm, steady, and true,
That's when love's authenticity shines through.

Do not fear, embrace this honest reveal,
Facing the truth, emotions raw and real.
Only then, deserving of the love we earn,
To a deeper, lasting fairy tale we return.

Wandering through a field of flowers,
Petals sway with each gentle breeze,
Only to stumble and embrace the rich soil,
A purple rose to my face, respectfully bowing to it.

Its vibrant purple hue set it apart from the rest,
I was entranced by the way it stood out,
So I knelt down and offered it to dance,
Carefully plucking it from the ground.

The purple rose swayed like a graceful dancer,
As if it were the one controlling the wind's rhythm,
I met an extraordinary partner in this floral waltz,
I lift it above my head, and it twinkled with delight.

What if I let the wind carry you to the sky?
I released the rose, and it vanished from sight,
As darkness enveloped the deep blue sky above,
Only to reveal the moon, with a twinkling star beside it.

Front row seats to admire its beauty,
A hidden gem, beneath all this earthly rubble,
Who knew you'd ascend so high,
Flamboyant and shining ever so bright.

The soil is not where you truly belong,
For it has hindered your growth for so
long,
To stand out, high above, with that radiant glow,
Is what you've always deserved to know.

Almost out of fuel
Light-years far from home
I already circled the moon
Even got closer to the burning sun

Maybe its time to accept the fact
That the star I once held dear
Is lost in the vast galaxy
Who knew that outer space could get lonely

Stuck with my messed up navigation
As its light always guided me
Without fail towards my location
Now its only pitch black that I see

Where do I go? What's Next?
Questions piling up, the cold creeping
What awaits me in the unknown?
Equipped with the fear of going alone

As you pick up the paintbrush
The music starts to play
Deafening the mundane cacophony
Enveloped in your made up world
A portal seen through your canvas

With each stroke of the brush
Colors starts to fly, fireworks in your mind
You sway to your own creativity
Couldn’t tell the difference,
Between you and a ballerina

The look on your face, filled with passion
Butterflies appeared out of nowhere
Carrying your emotions,
Flying in different directions
Filling the space within with life and glee

As you let go of the easel,
Ready to unveil your work of art
Smiling right at me, rays passing through
At that moment, I realized I wasn’t dreaming
There is indeed two masterpieces that I percieve

Cigarette smoke fills the air
Reddened eyes from all the crying
In bed complaining why life ain’t fair
A sip of beer while I’m slowly dying

Hold on they said, I scoffed
How original, can’t I be left alone to rot
The last piece of my happiness took off
In its departure a lot of pain was brought

I took another chug, but met with an empty bottle
There goes my last lifeline
Here comes the memories on full throttle
I hugged my pillow, ready to resign.

I began my journey,
Walking down on this lonesome road
Wandering for miles and miles
Til a car passed by and offered a ride

She greeted me with a welcoming smile
We talked a lot and exchanged stories
We had a lot in common,
And It made the journey more exciting

It was all smooth sailing
Had we not been unaware,
That the ride was going too fast
We had to make an abrupt stop

I'd hope that I could reach the end of my journey with her
But I guess from this point on
I’m walking alone,
but this time with a smile

Countless attempts all to waste
Perhaps its time to let go,
The string that leads to fate
Encounters that are all for show

Easily deceived by false promises
Gullible for that wanted attention
Infatuation blocking all my senses
Only to face the inevitable rejection

A tulip sowed onto the harsh ground
Awaits the weeds of the community
Suckling on its dew, defiling it all around
To live in this world, To face inhumanity

The miasma of lust and disownment
Suffocating and killing the tulip
Ravishing the flower to their heart's content
Cling to that small ray of light, oh tulip

Never let them hinder your growth
Soon you will be ready to bloom
And all those weeds you loathe
Will be brought to their doom

Would nicotine help me get over
The addiction I have for you
Would alcohol help me get over
The pain I felt when you left

All these vices right in front of me
Will these help me get over you
All these people around me
Will they help me get over you

The feelings and emotions
Always lead to me, ending up alone
The memories and special moments
Always lead to me, writing a poem

Who knew endings could be so abrupt
Just when you're already dancing to the rhythm
They cut you off and take a piece of you
Leaving you less of a whole

No matter how much you prepare yourself
You will never be prepared,
from the reality that will take place
The emotional consequences that come after

But hey! It was a good run, right?
You were happy You made memories
Isn't that enough to keep you going
Now let go and let the emotions flow

Is it gonna be like this forever
To only see you through photos
To express how I feel for you in poems
Unable to do in person, failing at every endeavour

Is it gonna be like this forever
To suffocate from the anxiety of loving
To feel depressed cause I feel I am nothing
Just a hopeless romantic, suffering and waiting

Is it gonna be like this forever
I kept asking myself the same thing
But even If I take action, it’ll end up for nothing
Maybe I am meant to be like this forever

Evergreens cover the forest
Fallen leaves at every step
Walking silently is a myth
Theres no place to avoid the crunch at each step

The rain pours, flowing through the soil
Throwing the wet leaves downhill
As I struggle forward
Progress slows to a crawl

A glimmer of the suns ray peeks in the foliage
Pointing towards a clear pathway
Ive thought that the forest has kept me a hostage
But little to my knowledge I was guided by a fae

Midnight routine, checking my phone
As I stumble upon old pictures of you
It reminded me its ***** being alone
Smile, while the tears flow through

Playlist full of sad and sappy songs
Memories of my time with you filled my mind
The rain starts to pour and the cold breeze joined along
Overwhelmed by emotions, never forget the heart reminds

I yearn to be in the center, to be in the spotlight
Burdened by my unpopular features
But with courage and passion I will take flight
Holding back, anxiety and seizures

There will be a slight delay but I will arrive
It might take long , maybe even a year or two
Bringing along dreams and promises as my drive
Even if along the path I’m to be seen a fool

If perchance someone gets ahead of me
With all that I can, I’ll seize the center
Even if I have to face the very worst
And if I cannot, I shall wait for my time to enter

Every night when I try to sleep
I am met by unpleasant memories
Drowning in it, that is ever so deep
Suffocating, accompanied by anxiety

Its nothing supernatural, just the past that i cannot let go
The failures and mistakes, that shackles my happiness
Live and let go but I’m  stupid enough to let it flow
It is not simple or maybe it is, the cause of my loneliness

I’m blessed with friends, but this heart craves more
Which lead to this event that prevents me to be happy
Stuck in a loop, trying to open a locked door
It needs a key, with all that I’ve done, It doesn’t seem to be me

As I awoke, I was welcomed by the vast sea
Laying on soft sand filled with rocks and debris
Whilst the sun and its rays are staring at
me
I could find a shade but then again I have no reason to flee

As the sun sets and the moon looms above me
And without a single source of light, I was left in the dark
Feeling the cold grip of the night, paying the terrible fee
Had I been more prepared when I decided to embark

As the night sets deeper, and the silence became deafening
I wonder if I will come out of this with my sanity intact
My eyes grew weary staring at the void, whilst my body is trembling
Not from the cold, but from the absence of contact

A foolish ploy I enact for escaping
Proclaimed that I have moved on
Knowing to myself that I’m in ruin
Crying over a couple of beers listening to sad songs

Showed everyone that I’m fine and sane
But to be honest, I’m enduring my bane
As the mouth can always deceive
The eyes can tell how a life is lived

There is no escaping from the truth
No matter how much I run and hide
Unconsciously, I go down the same route
Truth be told there’s no restraining these feelings inside

I feel stuck, a jack in a box
Pull my crank, I will appear
Not me, but rather one that is faux
A facade shown, to appease my peer

But if stuck, akin to schrodingers cat
Because true feelings i hide with a mask
Unknown if I’m doing well with pent up feelings
Feelings that got my sanity reeling

Cursed this arrow that impaled my soul
Mundane enough that I fell in a manhole
For I yearn to be romantic yet timid
So back in the box, stuck I’m winded

Often, I wish to climb
The wall that separates the two us
Is this our paradigm
Where any approach is considered a bust

Exert all the effort, sweat away
But at the end of the day I fall back down
There is no top or end, just dismay
A loop where in sorrow myself drown

But you love them dont you ?
But do they know you exist too ?
The presence of doubt makes it harder to climb
The weight in my heart, makes it easier to fall

As embers consume the land
The last branch unlatches from the oldest tree
Rivers all dried up and replaced with sand
Roaring flames, deafening the animals plea

Amidst the noise, you could hear singing
From a little songbird, embracing her unborn
Who stood her ground unwavering
From an unexpected event that made their life forlorn

Start anew little song bird build your nest in the forest above
Where the fires and destruction could no longer harm you
Where you and your fellow animals will be treated with love
Just let go and join everyone as they pass through

How can you shut up the heart
Like for an hour or two
Because every time I’m with you it starts Beating uncontrollably, making my mouth move

I tried shutting my mouth but to no avail, If I were to stay silent, I feel like I bore you But the more I talk, the more I feel the words I say becomes stale
Different topics spewed trying to push through

When the only thing I wanted to do was spend time with you
Treasure the moment of us two
With the little time we spend together
To know if I have a chance to go further

As I watch you create art
Exerting every effort to make it a masterpiece
Putting a part of yourself in every stroke
The world around me starts to cease

I get enveloped in your creativity
Everywhere is vibrant, painted with different colors
Grandiose formation of lines and shapes giving off positivity
Imaginativeness that will fascinate and wonder

As I get back to reality
Realizing theres already a finished masterpiece
What others tend to overlook and only I can see
Is the beauty of the artist

Clouds starts to darken
Embrace the cold droplets
The symphony you must listen
When they fall and meet the ground

An orchestra composed by nature
Prepared especially for you
With its soft and sweet feature
You are swayed by the rain

A romantic display for two
Wondering why theres only you
But this is the part where I say
Shall I dance with you ?

As she runs off to the sunset
Filled with glee as she gazes at it
Little did she know it was a duet
A beautiful view and her captivating hue

Amidst the lonely night sky
This one star dwells
Its only objective and nothing else
Is to glow and be seen up high

It lingers on the same spot every night
Waiting for someone or something
Even when nothing is in sight
It perseveres to stay and wait patiently

Up there wrapped in vast dreadful cold
Yet it still stays warm and glowing
Is it for a noble cause to be that brave and bold
To just stay there waiting for the unknown

When I first met you, I honestly didn’t know
That you were gonna be this important to me
And every moment I spent with you
Is like a dream come true

For your beauty is like a work of art
Abstract but invites an otherworldly feeling
You are worth a broken heart
Eluding the loneliness, I’m dealing

It may look like I'm silent
But don't let it fool you
I'm holding back the will
To say that I love you

Scars well up within, hidden from naked eyes
As foolish as this may seem, It won't stop me
With every defeat, a new and sturdy me arise
Treading down this road comes with a fee

But I'm already jumping into the fray
Prepared to give everything I've got
Dancing along with cupids romantic display
Enacting the role of an Argonaut

The scent of coffee engulfs the room
Amidst a table for two
A place where jazz music looms
Reserved for just me and you

Ignorant of the world around me
Distracted by your alluring hue
And that smile in clear view
Adds sweetness to my bitter coffee

Alone with my thoughts
Eating away my happiness
A trap, I've been caught
There was no struggle, I confess

Succumb to darkness embrace
The shadow whisper to me
One that looks familiar, similar to my face
If I let it inside me, I can no longer flee

It's not easy to abandon my light
For now, I'll calm down and breakthrough
It is the sole reason why I fight
I'll endure all pain, treading the path to you

To climb a mountain
One must prepare for the journey ahead
For the conditions up top cannot be tamed
Many have tried but all have fled

To fail is to progress
Climb again and persevere
The beauty atop, the air to ingest
One must take in the surreal atmosphere

But atop is where we'll truly see
If man's truly worthy
Will he be kind or will he be greedy
To be the caretaker of mother natures beauty

Things may not always go our way
Its's no one's fault, that's how the world works
We just need to chin up and be okay
Grab a bottle and pop the cork

Sit back and let pain takes its course
We need not be strong at all times
No need to feel any remorse
It'll subside, eventually, we'll feel fine

Every single day I try,
To catch her attention
Trying out every ways
Even with this lingering tension

Telling me I'm replaceable
Pushing me to the edge, telling me to quit
But it doesn't mean I'm not able,
To change the outcome, bit by bit

Curious? to why I'm like this
Being annoying and resolute
Simple, within her embrace I feel bliss
While hiding an obvious and cliche truth

That I'm so adamant to conceal,
Whenever I'm with or without her
Wanting to shout it with utmost zeal
That I'm madly in love with her

Every passing day is a battle
All those days I put up an act
Battles that'll surely test a man's mettle
Whilst keeping thy sanity intact

For I fight not through a battlefield
But on a huge stage alone with her and I
Pushing through, baring no shield
With confidence alone, victory is nigh

Dancing through the ecstatic beat
To waver or to falter is no option
For she is gonna be my greatest feat
A gem in the darkest depths of the ocean

She might be hardheaded
Who's to say I'm not the same
To her sweet embrace, I'm headed
And her heart I shall lay claim

An auction was held at the gallery
Many from afar had come
He who loved the painting so dearly
Puts on his best suit and brought a large sum

For he dreamed this day to come
Finally, he and the painting can be one
Alas a person came that made him numb
Who commanded power and
money, outbid everyone

Stood there lifeless
Could not comprehend what happened
Nowhere to go, feeling hopeless
His once favorite spot now darkened

Missing is the painting he so loved
That  was taken from him in an instant
For once he never felt loved
And that dream is now very distant

Left the gallery soaked with tears
His heart has died and lost it spark
All alone with a couple of beers
Drunk and left dancing in the dark

Eyes only for it at the start
Claimed to never look away
Ignored and started falling apart
Eyes now set on a new display

Intense feelings were felt from the last
But comfort was provided by the new
Decided to move and forget the past
And embraced the one that understands his hue

Nervous for what he had done
A crime only his heart can tell
For he broke a pledge, saying she was the one
Now his heartaches, like being burned by the fires of hell

Questioned himself If it was wrong
To pursue something that gave him ease
Like dancing to a properly tuned song
The closest to what he can call bliss

An ordinary guy nonetheless
Enters a gallery, full of wonders
Sighs can be heard, he was not impressed
About to leave, but heard thunder.

He stayed for the time being
Waiting for the storm to pass
He explored the entire building
And saw a painting, that he cannot bypass

For the painting bewitched him
Granted intense feeling of love and anxiety
He could not move a muscle, and it was on a whim
Staring at it like it was some kind of deity

No matter the occasion, he was there
Looking at the painting, like it was no object
Wishing he could hold it, but could only stare
For he wasn't worthy to have something so perfect.

I was once left alone with pain
Cried for help, but to no avail
Maybe because I was too mundane.
No one special, just an ordinary gale

Never been  look at twice
Ordinary like a grain of rice
Forgotten like a sunken ship
Wishing that this life of mine, I can skip.

As I fall in my self created abyss
Something peeked through
A small light that felt like bliss
At that moment, something inside me started to brew.

My heart resonates with the light
Thawing its prison of ice
Releasing me from its plight
Once again, I can experience paradise