I'm not what you see me
I'm not what I do
I'm what I think &
Never exist in reality

The words are magical
Mysterious too
They entice us into
A world of fantasy
Lure us with their curves
And ****** us to play romantic games

I was not the exceptional
I was too entangled in it's web
Craved to write love,
Lust, beauty and people
Which fade away as clock ticks

They transformed my words into fictional
Took me away from this natural world
I was flying in it's beauties
I was touching it's indelible curves
And went deep inside it's private parts

I fell from that sky on a starry night
Like a star that laminates more
Hit to the grounds of reality
The fragile fantasies were shattered
Made me alone in my story

The reality is bitter unlike the fantasy
It bites my bones, eats my head
Burns my soul and torments my heart
To write what is true
Despite of being ugly and *****

As I walk along the pavements
My heart is loaded with misery
The agony it has brought is completely a mystery
All I realized,
The writers whom I read were impotent to write this pain down

Dustbins are screaming for mothers
Pavements are starving for food
Brothel houses are moaning for their souls
Preachers are filling hatred
Politicians are serving agony

I want to weep
I want to write
I want to bleed

The body that I beautified over the years
Had eaten by unseen scavengers,
Left my soul lone and lost-
I found hardly few, crying, at my funeral
Few held me for days
Few for years in their memories
That faded, eventually, away like morning mist-
But when will my soul die?

Surya Teja M

I awoke from my sleep on a starry night;
It was old like my heart and quiet like my love,
The stars were huddling tight and twinkling bright,
I ambled to window sill and perched like a waffling owl.

I beheld-
Wind swirling, tree quivering
Clock ticking and waves swaying.

The tree gravitated me; quivering and rustling
Standing strong against its heart to fly-
Reminded me of my job of my young-hood;
Duties and desires waged war against and leaves fell apart.

Turned my eyes and swaying in the waves
They swayed me to the corners of happiness,
Resting me in the chasm of gloominess
It was like then me-
Walking on same path and dreaming for the wonders

Seconds hand in clock beat in my ears
Once, I loved creating, perceiving and pursuing
The freedom and independence I grabbed from choices
Allowed me to exist like me out of anxiety

The call was too late;
The breeze entered my dress,
Crept over my body,
Stalked me to death,
Decomposed my corpse,
Diffused my soul into the dust.

I found happiness
In the deepest
Corner of depression

When I say this
People say, "impossible"
But, I say, "everything is possible".

The crowded streets,
The empty nights
Were the same;
Scary and dreary,
Till I met you.

Whether it was spark,
Or it was dark
I was the same;
Numb and dumb,
Till I met you.

You showered love
In oddest times,
Trained me seeing
Beauty in everything,
Accompanied in loneliness,
Exhilarated in clumsiness.

The sense of you
Had woken my eye,
The strike of your light
Ignited my mind,
The pill of your pleasure
Had cured my heart,
Hymns of your wisdom
Enlightened my soul.

Oh! Books!
I'm grateful!

You introduced the world to us
By carrying us on your back
You fed us our stomachs
By tilting hard clay with your bones
You exchanged our love letters
By travelling miles without tiredness
You made us rich
By selling your fur, skin, meat and even eggs
You gave us life
By dying in medical research
You gave us love
By caring, kissing and hugging when we are alone
We are humans
Because of your sacrifice, dear animals and birds

There is a world
outside me
There is a world
inside me
You can see the first,
but not the latter.

I feel proud
When Sun tires
Of melting my frozen heart;

But, I fear
When Sun rises
In the morning with hope.

Starving: don't know what I am starving for
Waiting: don't know what I am waiting for
Searching: don't know what I am searching for
Sticking: don't know where I am sticking in
Loosing: I know, I am loosing my mind
Killing: I know, I am killing the hearts

I am a girl
                                     Like a flowing river                                      
Sometimes laminar,
Sometimes turbulent

I am a girl
Like a flowing river
Sometimes cold,
Sometimes warm

Someone spits,
Someone ***** on me
Someone dilutes,
Someone pollutes me
But, you can’t question me the level of my purity

Someone  loves,
Someone prays me
Someone respects,
Someone wishes me
All I do for them is keeping my flow divine  
                                                                              
My birth and my death
Reflect my serenity
The rest of my life
Reflects your entity
So, you don’t have a right to question me
I am a girl
Like a flowing river.

I myself submitted my soul and body at your feet to dissolve in your love
Forgotten the surroundings and drenched in the dreams of our world
Expecting you to paint me with rainbow and to **** me with your sight
Satisfying our desires and expressing my love in oozing tears
When I came back to the reality, all I have is only the rolling tears
Don’t know why your caresses turned into scars all over my body
But, still, deep inside the scars, I cuddle you with my eternal love
You became the beast, your love is gone, but, still, I am in love with you
I am wounded, but, still, I am Beautiful

In the name of your love,
In the sense of your touch,
In the feel of your breath
I'm going…
I’m going alone.

Far away from the woods,
Far away from the roads
To the brink of this world
To jump into my own world.
I’m going…
I’m going alone.  

Hate is must in this world
Starving to death is so common
Marketing is a hobby, and
Deception is an art
I can’t hate, I can’t cheat
I won’t market my labor
I won’t business my art
I won’t sell my heart, and
I won’t invest my mind, so
I’m going…
I’m going alone.  

Painful to stride on thorns,
Awful to ride all nights
Still I love to go
To the world where
I wish to grow.
I’m going…
I’m going alone.

My world is full of love
I wish you to come
I know you can’t live there
Like a delicate bird in cage.
Every look harms you,
Every touch hurts you,
Every word breaks you
Every memory ****** you, still
I don’t know why you’re there?
I stretch my hand
To make a bond.
I’m waiting…
I’m waiting alone.

O friend!
Without a face
You’ve come like a tide
Touched me with your warmth,
Soothed my heart with words.

O friend!
Without a sound
You’ve gone too like a tide
Leaving my eyes wet
Yearning my heart to meet
Throwing me back to hell again.

O friend!
Without a wait
Come to me and
Sing for me
I love to dance with you
I want to live with you
O friend!
Come back again                                        
Say, ‘I don’t go back again’.

The joy is inexplicable
When the dawn is out to warm you
But, nothing gold can stay:
It turns into burning fire
And ***** your blood out of you.

Dancing in drizzling rain
Reminds you how beautiful you are
But, nothing gold can stay:
Hurricanes bring down big guns
And shoot you to dead in rain.

The wanton scenery
Is also nature's first gold-
The gold that can not stay.

I am the Nature
My gold turns into stone
It is your love that matters
I am bipolar, I am your lover
A lover who can't be always
The Nature's first Gold.