You are a risk I'm willing to take.
Let's see if I made a mistake.

Some people were born for greatness,
Some worked to achieve it,
Some stumbled upon it.

Some let it slip between their fingers,
Some deserve it,
But can't have it.

Shoot for the moon,
You'll at least land among the stars.

Show me you scars.
Show me you bruises.
I need to see all the times that I failed to be there for you.

I am tired of the ongoing fight,
I'm done explaining.
So I will sit silently.

I am sinking,
In a ocean so big,
Nobody will find me,
An ocean so deep,
My only friend is the dark,
I can't tell you,
I know you love me enough to rescue me,
But you can't,
Without sinking like me.
I am fine,
Until the darkness swallows me whole.

At the end of the day, no matter what, I find my mascara smudged.
Whether it be from tears of sorrow or joy.
After a great day, when I feel there is nothing wrong in the world, my mascara is smudged.
After a day so bad it makes me question my will to live, my mascara is smudged.
No matter what it looks like someone could be going through something completely different than what you think.

Sometimes all you can do is wait.
Wait for the tears,
Wait for the relief.
But sometimes they don't come.
Sometimes,
You lay down,
You state at the roof,
You shake with sadness.
The tears don't come
And the relief doesn't come.

I'm sorry to those I hurt.
I know I can destroy with words.
I know you didn't mean it.
I know I can be mean.
I'm sorry.

I lie.
I cheat.
I manipulate.
My moral compass may point South.

You strip me down to the core.
Force me to resurface painful secrets.
Pressure me to empty my mind to you.
You scrape out my heart while it beats.
You may as while dissect me while I breath.
Then you have the audacity to tell me I hurt you.

People get addicted to all sorts of things,
Alcohol, drugs, ***
I cant lie, Im no saint
Ive fallen to the temptations
But Ive yet to find anything as intoxicating as you

If you don't take the mask off every once in a while, you'll suffocate.

I gave and gave.
A slice of my trust here and there.
Until there was none left and none returned.
Sorry you came a bit late, I'm tapped out

This joy is temporary.
This relationship is temporary.
This feeling is temporary.
But this scar, it's not.

At Youth camp service the pastor asked all the troubled to pray at the alter,
He called it the alter call.
Dozens of teens stepped forward to pray,
The tears were almost to much for me,
I comforted all who finished,and
whether I knew them or not.
The you walked forward, all eyes on you,
You were the strong one,
You never broke,
What hell has broken you?
You one else and after everyone left, you stayed still praying.
I stayed behind waiting.
when you finally lifted your head your teary eyes met mine.
We hugged for an eternity not speaking,
You left and smiled at your friends, messing around, a flawless mask,
And I believed that lie for the longest time, But now I know you truly.
Only I knew the unbreakable boy has snapped.
And I think I love him.

She needed to be saved,
But her Prince was nowhere in sight.
So she forged her sword and wore her armor.
She slayed the dragon and any who dared cross her.
Soon she was more feared then any Dragon or man.

The road to hell is a long one.
And it's paved with my good intentions.

We almost made it.
It was almost enough.
I was almost enough.
She almost lived.
He almost woke up.
They almost did it.
But it wasn't enough,
Only almost.

When a heart breaks it falls into shards,
And every time someone brakes it they take a piece with them,
And it gets harder to put it back every time,
Soon enough there’s no pieces to piece together.

The storm will come.
Or maybe it has already.
Maybe it's raining on you now.

But know this,
Sometimes the storm comes to clear a path.

Last times hurt because we never see them coming.
The very last time that you do something or see someone,
You lose a piece of your soul.
It's like breaking the **** of a door after it's been locked,
You don't get it back.
The only choice is to move on,
Or "chase the dragon", to no avail.
You can't return to the last time.

The Weapons You Wield
Though they never touched my body,
Broke my skin,
Slashed at my flesh.

They tore at my heart,
Ripped up my mind,
Spilt my tears.

The pain is real.
The weapons you used are not the kind of war,
but the unkind words tinting my soul.
I lost the battle.
I intend to win the war.
-Madison Smith

Once it was jewels of love and affection,
But you twisted it,
Now its thorns of desire and obsession.

This isn't a storybook,
Don't stay when I say to leave,
Don't wipe the the tears you caused from my face.
I don't need to be saved.
Don't expect a fairy tale ending,
If I say its over, it's over.
When it's done, it's done.
This isn't going to be a happy ending.

We need a little magic.
Our world's kind of tragic.

Blessed are those eyes,
One green, one hazel.
A shade for heaven,
And a shade for earth,
Balanced on a smile worth a million words.
Blessed are those eyes

It all begins with Those deep brown eyes,
Those deep brown eyes have no end,
They hold the world,
These fleeting moments when nothing exists at all,
It all ends with those deep brown eyes.

Those Hypnotic hazel eyes hold a map for the lost,
An illusionist can't fathom their beauty,
These eyes make you go crazy,
Those Hypnotic Hazel Eyes

Those icy blue eyes hold no warmth,
I shiver but we're on fire,
Those icy blues steal my heat,
So shallow but deadly,
But they hold a lives worth of secrets,
Those icy blue eyes might be my end.

Those lovely green eyes hold all the innocence in the world,
The forest has less shades of green then those eyes,
Those green eyes show a brand new beginning.

I feel so dead,
The only way I know I'm not
Is the ringing in my ears
and the thump thump in my chest

I guess it just too much to ask for someone who says
"I wont leave you"
And actually mean it.

I fell before I loved.
A little too hard.
A little too soon.

You can't see me,
You can't hear me,
It's a shell of a happier person I used to be.

I am trapped in my own mind,
The walls are crumbling,
But I'm still chained,
The chains are weak,
But I'm still stuck,
because I am afraid.

The walls are collapsing,
The roof is caving in,
Under the crushing weight of anxiety and depression.
I am afraid I am going to be crushed,
But I won't leave,
I am even more afraid of the outside

I don't want to be seen or heard.
I don't want to trap you with me.
I am dying,
You don't know,
I am dying.
But you are happy.

So I can be
fine.

Treat me like a **** game
And I'll make you regret playing.

My hands hurt when they are not in yours
My eyes hurt when I cannot see you
My heart hurts because your gone

It's depressing really.
How you grown accustom
to despair .
The way you've memorized the trails your tears leave behind.
How you've grown to enjoy the salty taste in your tears.

Ive never loved myself,
Not truely anyways.
Theres always been apart of myself thats loathed me from the beginning.
A voice hating every part of me.
I swear to god I will drag her out of my head.
By the hair, kicking and screaming if need be

All I wanted was a break from caring,
But it seems I've gone numb.

If you hurt me again
I'll show you true betrayal and pain.
I'll be your villain.

I know you sacrifice your happiness to get me to trust you,
I know you will give up someday,
I know you hate this whole situation,
I know this hurts you, that I hurt you.

If I could just wake up and start trusting people again I would,
If I could see the world the way you see it I would,
If I could just trust you I would.
I don’t think you realize how much it hurts me to know how you feel,
And that you would ever give up on me,
It hurts like hell to know I’m hurting you and I can’t do anything about it,
But what about me?
I have been through hell and back,
Forgive me if I can’t trust you,
Forgive me if I can’t forget what I’ve been through.
I’m already hurting and your not helping.
All I can think about is how much I hurt you.
Are you thinking about me?
What About Me?

My demons are there for me
When you aren't.

Why do you blame the children?
Who raised them?

Your darkness swallows all heat,
Yet its the only thing keeping me from freezing to death.
Its gotten so bad,
I try to fight it.
But I can't help
That smile when you pop in my mind,
The fleeting moments when our eyes meet,
The smell when you're near,
You make me the happiest,
You make my world go round,
But you're no good for me,
I Don't want to fight it anymore.
I give in to you
And your darkness.

When those dark thoughts plague you,
Place you hand over you chest and feel that thump thump.
You are alive.
It is enough.
YOU are enough.

All I wanted was some one to look at me and say "You're Mine"

When they judge most, care the least.
Their thoughts aren't yours to carry.
Drop their comments and strut over them like a red carpet.

I feel the more I reach for it the further it gets
Every moment slipping from my grasp
I want to live
I havent even had the chance
Im growing up and nothing is okay