I just had the most beautiful dream of my life
Me and my beautiful naked wife
And she laughed at something I said just how I like
How did I end up meeting such a beautiful life?
And second, what is the name of my wife?
This is just a dream, but I'd like to know to avoid future strife
She's more beautiful than my hands could ever write

I wish I could have see her face
She was felt but not seen
Heard but no given name
I have no time to play this love thing

"Go ahead be a snitch
You'll get more than one stitch
This time, *****."

I find it kind of funny
That people care after it's too late
I find it kind of funny
When people care about **** they're unable to do anything about
I find it kind of funny
That people can care about people they never knew existed, but most likely wouldn't do **** to help them
I find it ******* hilarious
That people care what I do with my life

You told me you never wanted to lose me
But your actions said otherwise

*You said **** me in your worse way possible

Is everything talking to me?
I don't know
It seems to be
It seems to be telling out my feelings
The words I hold onto, really.-.
But I know this feeling
However it's so painful it feels so new every time
My mind is just letting this time do a drive by
I swear time is killing me more than healing me
My dreams show me killing me!
My soul has a cold sore
And my heart ain't on chill, B
I'm enraged and deranged
But I'm wondering...
Is the universe talking to me
Or am I just pulling all this **** towards me?

What made someone fall in love with you is often what made them fall out of love with you.

I never wanted an apology
I just want my life back.
I just want my breath back.
*I want you to mean nothing...

See don't see
Hear don't hear

Love eventually leaves
*Hearts eventually bleed...

They only miss you when they're miserable or have nothing to do.

The thought of even telling you makes every word possible to say escape me.

I can only go by what your profile tells me
Doesn't really let me get to know thee
But you pretty
Someone I'd like with me
Look what your cuteness does to me!
Can't help but be hot and bothered by such a hottie
But I found out you were such a thottie
Especially with the ladies, ****** never got that naughty naughty
But I really like your body
Too bad you a thottie

Now that I'm left unwanted again
I'm left wondering out of boredom
If a person really needs to be wanted

Hollow
The glass between my fingers
The smoke that
Follows
Fills my lungs
Gives my pain replacement
Feel
Myself until I'm numb and aching
I need this nothingness
Real
Emptiness is so confusing
Your eyes can only dream
Your lungs can only
Scream,
Give me my anything
Give me my nothing
I'll change my prayer
My heart's still thumping
My lung's still pumping
Give me nothing
Gotta make me something

Fall cause the leaves are falling
Turn cause the leaves are turning
Be gentle like the wind that's blowing
Be quiet like nature's snoring
Throwing acorns may be boring
But the squirrels are the ones really scoring
Baby chipmunks too
Cryless skies of baby blue
Oh, I just urn to see you
This season makes me sink in memories
Hell, it takes me deep into my feelings
But sweater weather is fun
It's cold while you have warm sweaters on
Couldn't be a better season

I swear I have so much to say.
But all I can give you is silence.
There's not enough words to explain.
And I feel so guilty when I shouldn't be.

This war is ripping me to shreds
My mind, splattered with so much red
My heart, a rag doll to a dog, stricken with such great regret
My eyes don't want to see it yet

My love is in spite
I didn't want this, right?
I had to let go of my kite
It wasn't doing me right
With you, everything happened at first sight
Everything you said were such dead trites
Should I even trust my eyesight?
I knew you were a lie
Just unsure of our measure of time
You were so sour, like lemons and limes
But what's happened happened
Whatever tears that's fallen has been washed away in rain
I bet I'd have that power if I had the patience of a crane
I'm discussing the matters of my brain
Forcing my body to sit on the crossroads for the next train
Aren't my emotions such a drain.
I wish the good in my heart was larger than a piece of grain
But, Pain,
Let the voices that's lain
Lose this little ferocious game
I'd give everything to be able to only forget my name
And everything society has ingrained

I'm so glad you don't have alcohol kissed lips

Reality,
You're so close
It's smothering
But my mind
It's stuttering.
*******,
You're all in my sights
You got me so weak
I don't know how to react
Realness these days is so meek.
Guilt and regret,
You got my stomach empty
And my eyes so sleepy
You got me sweatin
You have me inside wishing all I was doing was forgettin.
Reaper,
Man, I know you ain't a creeper,
I know you Karma's keeper
And you our ******* teacher
If things only went the way I preferred...
Death,
I think about you hard and heavy
As I try to keep my heart beat steady
But I'm just not ready
For my brain to be useless spaghetti.
Heart,
You just can't do it yet
You get way too upset
Now we in this puddle of regret
How we gonna get you fixed?
Mind,
You blow **** out of proportion
Make the worst assumptions
And get my heart to pumpin
All for nothin.

Isolation

I never wanted an apology,
I just want my life back.
I just want my breath back.
What can I get back with a sorry?
*Nothing, and that's what I want you to mean

Love

Organic air art

You were, for a moment, my favorite read
Even believed, that, for a moment you were my personal creed
I gave good advise, if you only had listened to my heed
No amount of meed
Can pay back everything and succeed
But my heart it feeds
On nothing it ever needs
These feelings that breed
Nothing I want to feel indeed
Numb my anxiety with all this ****
I can't wait to pass the deed
I'm sweating bullets in constant beads
For my moment in the lead
My beautiful brilliance will be keyed
And my emotions can be freed
I can't wait for that special someone who'll have me queened

It takes a lot more than a month and two pounds of **** to get over someone you really had feelings for.

I have all this music in my head,
With no knowledge on how to get it out of my mind.

You ain't in love
You haven't changed for ****

I don't know, maybe you were fooled
I'm a new student, I don't follow the rules
Forgiveness is a tool
And I don't mean to be so cruel
But I ain't in control of my heart
The place you were is now a hollow part
Leaving nothing but to let in the ****
My heart bought it all at the breakup mini mart
I used to wish it was smart
But it's been hit by poisoned darts
Ain't no forgiveness in this heart
It makes no exceptions,
My forgiveness is forsaken
You're gonna need a girl with low expectations
Your greatest weakness is the temptations
My greatest weakness is my mental mutilations
Neither are in relation
I was pointed out by my mind's creation
Who I am when we're together is who I shouldn't be

If love can later turn into hate
Then the truth can later turn into lies.
*"There's a thin line between love and hate,
And a thin line between the truth and the lies."

I'm only a human being looking for some meaning
And I'm only empty to be filled.

Why tell me you miss me?
You threw that **** away after swearing you never wanted to lose me or leave me
Don't bother to promise anyone anything
*If it was the truth, then they melted into lies

If there's different types of love,
Then there can definitely be different types of trust

I wish I could convince myself she never existed
I wish I could shatter, rip, and burn every image I have of her in my mind
Cause my eyes keep seeing her so clearly
I don't even have to close them

*Will it if the wish is mine.

I like to keep my words exact
Don't mouth off lousy "facts"
Thought you had my back
But you were only behind me for advantage
My mind has been so hard to manage
I don't wish to be like the others on this planet
The thing is I hate the past, the present, the future
The aspects of time puts my mind through infinite torture
My poor choices changes my architecture structure

Struck a nerve, pinned the needle
Imagination needs treatment, for his illness is mental
But I could not send him to the hospital
His *** is running at the speed of light
He should've skipped that and took off in flight
But, I don't need to be at those heights
If I was that high I'd probably hurl
Can't blame a girl for saving her curls
But in this water I will swirl
To the bottom to enjoy being so close to this world

I can't begin to explain
And I wouldn't know how to end it
Hearts, boy, if I could read them
I'd really admire true beauty.
But unfortunately,
I cannot.
So, sometimes I've got to be gullible
And may mistake a few things
Truth is,
I'm beginning to think I'm just not relationship material point, blank, p-p-period.

I hate opening my mouth sometimes,
*My words are stones...

Everybody says "It's your life, take control of it."
Yes, quite indeed it's my life
And naturally, the controls comes with limitations
I keep falling back into bad habits
And each time I fall in I only get worser
"But Chalsey, you shouldn't let life limit you."
Limit me?
Well, I don't know how much of me there is.
Maybe this is all anyone gets
Maybe there isn't much more to me
*Maybe I am at my limit

I think this is destined for forever, but
I'll always hate and love her till my very last breath.

Doubt,
My old girl
You've been my middle man
But I need to switch insurance companies
Sorry this isn't what we planned
You let my health get out of hand

If it's true you ever loved me,
If it's true you ever cared,
Swear on my life you did.
I quadruple dare you to.

Sometimes I just saturate
In my fossil fuel of hate
Right now the fuel contains a concentration of you
Sometimes I just want jaws lined up to punch right through
But I also hate that I shouldn't be mad at you
You did the same thing I would do
-Even was about to too-
You lied,
I lied
You cheated,
I cheated
-all In that order.-
I told you so many times
Your heart did a crime
You should have remembered to tell the truth so you'd get clocked for less time
I may be a hypocrite for saying some of those things
But you made it clear you'd **** yourself if I didn't do anything
What power has the internet fling?
I didn't have time
Your life on the line,
I cared enough to try.
I didn't want you to die.
And sometimes I felt how hard you cried
The guilt inside,
It pried you away enough to look for a better bride
I still think it's amazing I haven't cried since
Doing everything to my heart and my head to trick and convince
And don't ever forget, I once wished with all my heart you were my Prince

You left me so confused
I can only front that I'm okay
I'm doing fine
My mind is just killing me
Granted, I'm slowly emptying it out on this page
My hands can only move so fast
My mind can only thread my words together to last
But words can only do so much when it comes to understanding
I'm too grounded, and my eyes can only dream when they're wide open
My eyes feel so tired of opening
My heart hurts beating
I feel way more comfortable if not breathing
Why can't I just get my limbs moving?
I think she was right
And I was too

You made me want to live in a place I didn't like living
*And for that I owe you dearly

Please just save me from myself
I'll burn in hell before you care
Free me from this confinement of my mind
I'll scream until the end of time
Take me from this world of bore
And drag me through your words of lore
Take me from this monstrosity
And lead me to a place of tranquility

But most importantly,
Leave before I care too

Beauty stares at me so senselessly
Thinking herself born a daughter of ugly
She's aggressive, impulsive, but gentle and caring
Who couldn't see anything more beautiful than her in sun lit mornings and perfect sceneries of golden sunsets
The Universe couldn't spin anything more perfect
Couldn't create anyone better
Trouble finds beauty to be priceless, following her everywhere, trying to obtain her in his claws
But the important thing is, beauty has no laws

I can't help it
I get confused
So confused I start believing everything is the enemy
I spring everything up for questioning
Lots of people say it's just in my head
But if it's just in my head
How can I be so sure that isn't in my head too?

Baby,
Sexually and intellectually we had that **** down
But emotionally, ***** we couldn't be found
At least we smarter for the next ones this time round

Sincere apologies
Ain't ever been me
You alright,
I ain't so well at no goodbyes
Nope, we tried
Great times gone by

Somebody just had to cry
Only I did it last
Right when you went chasing another ***
Really the tears came cause I knew without knowing
You were just going

But,
Even after all these breathtakes
Apparently your heart still loves me?
Useless, all the time I wasted
This will be my sincerest apology
Yours truly