"findin" poems
Sometimes
siLence
is
thE
key
which
unlocks
The
gate
keeping
one
from
findinG
peace
and
a
sOundness
of
mind.
Jan 18, 2013
Jan 18, 2013 at 3:01 AM UTC
u emerge from the smoke
and merge within again
i ask myself
if you're the same person
inside & outside the smoke
are you?
the haze turns purple
findin yu, gets harder
my rovin eyes..get
not a moment of rest
findin yu &
buildin stories..
distance shortens
between me to yu..
m 'ere
yet i feel
your warm breath
on my cheek..
there are moments
when i want to go
actively insane
this is one such
i can't help myself
can you?
Feb 12, 2011
Feb 12, 2011 at 9:56 AM UTC
■♡■♡■♡■
**It Hurts believing your words
then finding out it is all a Lie
It Hurts knowing a person I love
can become a person
I would Despise
It Hurts being told you are Clean
then findin' out your *****
It Hurts that you feel Entitled
yet at the same time
feel Unworthy
It Hurts knowing you could Die
be brought Back and Die
Be brought Back and Die
It Hurts wondering
every Moment
of every Day and Night
If you are still Alive**
■♡■♡■♡■♡■♡■
~MoonFlower~Fluer de Luna~April 2015
Copyright © 2015 Christi Michaels.
All Rights Reserved.
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 9:35 AM UTC
feet just tappin’ it all out as it comes along
got this down, inscribed in my mind
findin’ more every minute of the day
feelin’ like old-time slang
like easy chords and lyrics
that just spell out my day like i can’t
my words are nothin’, not even
written down the way i say ‘em
just can’t describe today
the way the music can
and that’s alright, ‘cause i’m the one
who’s gonna put music to it
will you play the drums for me?
just need me a walkin’ rhythm
and i’m good to go
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC
In a world that keeps turnin' and movin' so fast
When you can't hold on to nothin' and nothin' seems to last
It's so good to know that love still remains
Ain't you glad that some things never change?
Yeah, same as the sun keeps risin'
every day someone is findin' love
Jun 9, 2015
Jun 9, 2015 at 3:52 AM UTC
I kno you all to well,
Makin' the wrong decision, with men, and start to dwell,
Livin' blendin' collisions within hearts you tail,
In the endin' you forgive him and say it's hard to bail,
I don't know why you let men beat you,
And mistreat you,
Go back and get mad that they had deceived you,
Now you only see the worst in people,
It's rare you see good, 'cause it's common you see evil,
I see through,
This obsession to be loved,
Need a lot now, because before you didn't get enough,
Start to talk to me when things are getting tough,
Your life feels like you are putting through the rough,
In the end all of these boogies make you feel lonely,
Treatin' you just like a piece of pepperoni,
Feelin' hella sad 'cause every girl just wants a pony,
Thinkin' everyday ferry tails are a little more phony,
If only,
Ya prince charming would arrive,
A man who would stand out from all these bad guys,
Someone to focus on what you need in ya life,
A pleasure, to take away all the plight,
I'd fight, and try,
To be a friend,
But the more we time spend,
The more I'm vibin,
Want more than to slide in,
You were someone that I confide in,
I'm fightin'
An inner battle,
To be the raft or the paddle,
Havin' trouble being the queen to you own castle,
Askin' me to be the shepherd to your cattle,
Findin' where I fit seems to be such a hassle,
Problem is I could never even try to trust you,
Known for betraying any man who tried to love you,
Foolin' my self believing I was strictly lustful,
But knew it was somethin' more every time that I touched you,
And it kills me,
The only time you get to see the real me,
Is when liquor fills me,
And I drunk text you all my feelings,
Spillin' my heart out,
Tryin' to negate a fall out,
Conflicted, wishin' your what I envision without a small doubt,
I'm there for you,
I care for you,
When he put his hands on ya, Where were you?
The man behind the scenes,
Hands inside his jeans,
Glamorized in dreams,
You I fantasize with me,
But in the end, I'm just a friend, with you watching Mean Girls and Anastasia,
Answer any call from my dream girl, "How can I save ya?"
All I want is you, I don't wanna be a playa,
I kno you all to well so we'll never be nothin' greater...
May 31, 2013
May 31, 2013 at 11:15 AM UTC
i look at this hole in my shirt
all covered in dirt. hurt
putting in this work
like a growth spurt
findin my self worth
trying but getting ******
by a push over
got me stuck on closure
and now, I'm tripping over
things I'm suppose to
already be over
like the people I'm close to
my inner circle
turning their back like most do
go two facednand act like they don't know
behind your back
attack even thought they know that
they owe you they rather see you black jack
crossed the lines with the bottom line
blood thicker than water but it ain't worth a dime
making changes brought changes over time
certain people making changes
don't change over time
cause when you making change
the people you loved the most
act the strangest at the drop of a dime
so if you think money equals success
experience is going to change you whole mind
soul search and you will find
a gifted hidden inside
a peace of mind that's so devine
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 7:01 AM UTC
You stand in a group of
"friends"
Flaunting your features in
a minidress and and sparkling water
in your hand
People talk amongst us -
Near you, around me.
They seem to talk of you -
and only you, not me
Dont mind at all actually
You dont get it.
Protuding at sharp angles,
you're all bones.
Like a corpse stuck in
midstride - you have no
Swag
Legs thinned to paper.
Rib case sketched by the stretch
of your baby blue dress.
You flirt, dance, smirk
at everything that breathes
Sadly, no ones entranced.
Think all should be jealous -
even the homozygous.
Your ego bigger than
Nicki Minaj's **** -
it spans for miles
We talk, enjoy the night
until we hear something
Ugly
"only 115? That's all?
Lose a little more... Quit eating"
They leave, you weep
everyone stares
Afterall, youve just lost
your throne and jewels.
Too diluted with your thoughts,
you would lock yourself in the
bathroom stall
wishing for your fairy godmother
You run outside - tripping,
nearly falling, leaving a glass slipper
Behing
No one seems to care.
I glance at the two at my sides,
lucky to have such friends
Silent understanding passes between
Us
We make outside ~ findin
you cryin like the worlds endin
Holding up your shoe, we walk over
put my hand on your shoulder
Like a rail, hard and thin it is.
"Im sorry", you blurt.
"Dont be.. We'll buy you your own pizza."
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 8:06 PM UTC
I never wanted 2 kiss you,
i just wanted 2 hug u tightly,
so give you warmth of love,
and realise your importance and all above,
the thing is that you've given me a mean 2 exist,
in a beautiful world u gave me which consists,
of your love and your precious time,
and your feel 2 keep me always fine,
i cant count ur abilities because it have no limits,
and the best thing is there is not even single demerits,
my eyes are always on you,
because you are so beautiful that
and i wonder that god make u,
for me.
You are a creation of love and sweetness,
and you love me as i guess,
and this is the best thing,
i had which bring,
an power with in me 2 live for your truthfulness and love,
you are the girl whom i was findin in my way of life,
this is d reason i live and wanted 2 alive.......
Feb 28, 2014
Feb 28, 2014 at 1:20 PM UTC
the manly cowboy
settled in for the night,
after a long day of
pure athletic delight.
delivered the mail
did they,
deliciously slow
as any snail
on the go.
he opened
and read,
that a young brave was
a looking for his head.
so he got to thinking,
i'd better still wander,
way over yonder,
way over here,
so 'n he can a ponder,
ifn' he is still awantin'
to be,
scalpin' me?
never one to hurry,
why ever scurry?
the brave young lad,
or young lad brave,
he,
couldn't possibly be that bad!
i'll give him some time,
and not start to whine.
(and most certainly not in rhyme)
we can find,
i am sure,
just the right cure.
thought the manly cowboy,
think did he.
many a mate,
but never as a date,
he did spend
with many a good friend.
not that he minded,
nor cared, where love was a finded.
nor with who,
nor whom,
that's entirely up to you,
before you are laid to rest in your tomb.
out in the wild,
did he spend,
many a night and day
and not a one,
did go astray.
always polite.
nary a fight.
i'll give this good brave guy
a little time to go by,
just a little to fly.
he will be a findin'
i don't be a mindin'
differences in thoughts
differences in gots.
i might be having a few
but i shall say to you,
'Hey buddy
what do you say?
think we can be friends
one day?'
with that optimistic thought
in mind
he turned to his bed roll,
rolling out in a straight line,
lookin' to find,
only,
a peaceful night's sleep
never hearing a peep.
and a brand new day,
coming up his way.
always curious to see,
ever unfolding,
however they been molded,
life's great mysteries.
with that,
he tipped his hat
over his eyes,
so very gentlemanly.
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 12:34 PM UTC
*
would ye know, would ye really understand
when meanin' itself shall reveal itself
should ye sow, what ye are sowin' right now
or maybe just grow those things ye do like
fears ye be fearin', but truth ye deny
years that'll pass by, experience ye'll say
in those ways ye move, ready to fly
there seems no problem to identify
within those things ye are livin' to know
'n' when ye think no-one is lookin', still
ye keep findin' things to deceive thy own
for there's no struggle in thy days of life
be those very things, thy own disaster
in those things ye keep walkin' after
**
..love always...
*
عرفان بن يوسف © AH 25/02/1439
**
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 12:30 PM UTC
My thoughts could be beautiful if not so skewed
untangible things in very lucrative views
unhappy me
meets
quite happy you
& the cycle continues as we make ourselves lose
The day could never do the job of the night
it would ***** all the time
about never getting things right
always lookin' in the dark
never findin' the right keys
to a door that's unlocked
but still won't open for me
If only the cat had a more noble speech
maybe then he,
could talk sense to me
and maybe
i'd listen
whole-heartedly
for once in my god **** life
i'd listen to the cat speak
and take what he means
about the good and the bad
or
the wise and the lost
and understand that he sees
what he wants to see
because he's a god **** cat
but
that's fine with me.
Dec 11, 2011
Dec 11, 2011 at 12:24 AM UTC
I've got a lot of questions
And I've learned a lot of lessons
But the relentlessness to ask 'em
Always keeps me guessin'
You learn things better the hard way...
Should I starve today
and spend my money on the lottery?
Or buy a 12 pack and attack another artery
Every day it's gettin' harder for me
But it's feelin' like there's a part of me
That's startin' me to realize
things ain't really like they oughta be.
People's justification and rationalization
Keep me tuned in on a station
findin' life even more evasive.
and I find myself just wasting
all my patience on just waitin'
and thinking in contemplation
When I awaken...
Will I still wander while I wonder
And wonder while I wander
How much longer
it'll be
'til we grow strong enough to see
that what we actually believe
isn't fact
and we've been decieved
everyone will be relieved
That we just need to plant a seed
And a new garden will grow
Like it did so long ago to make today
And in our day and age
It seems that things will never change
But change today or walk the plank
Steady movin' up the ranks
Until I stopped and thought in thanks
to the conclusions I draw and then erase.
Listen to my inner dialogue it says...
Only reason we're breathin'
Is cuz while others were bleedin'
People were seein' the treason
And called together a meetin'
To declare authority
A reason of ignoring me
A reason of exploring the seas
A reason of cuttin' down trees
where animals used to breathe and live free.
Instead we lock 'em in cages
or shoot 'em with 22 gauges
It's so outrageous
Our worth is based on our wages
We **** to get some bills
with a buncha old guy's faces
And sit back in amazement
With a smile on our face-lift
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 2:46 PM UTC
Letting go of you means
letting go of so much more
you don't understand.
Don't expect me to change on demand.
This is by far my
biggest emotional release.
It wont be anything like taking off a fleece.
I feel it unwinding,
each memory rewinding.
Old times that cant help remindin'
how hard it is at findin'
real love.
At one point I thought
you were from
above,
but then I realized
you fell
& you were supposed
to fall to
hell.
You rung my bell,
now I've got this story to tell.
You're another demon to fight.
while the rest
keep me up at night.
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 1:23 PM UTC
What's to do?
The little kids lookin and findin
And talkin to
Eachother
And the heros they always
Find
When they need to find heros
Or they make heros
And go on with what it is they must do
In order
To stay free
--
Life is simple
When ya quit
******** around
--
Ya do what ya gotta do
You become heros
Ya
Make heros outta eachother
Ya
Stay
free
.
Because?
.
Because ya gotta be free
Apr 28, 2013
Apr 28, 2013 at 6:21 PM UTC
My first mistake,
was fallin' in love.
And now I'm findin' it hard to fall out of love.
I'm hooked.
My second mistake,
was gettin' too closed.
And now it's hard for me to be alone.
I'm yours.
Now and forever more.
It has never been hard for me to show my feelings.
This sayin' about, what a man ain't supposed to do?
Has never been one of my guided rules.
I'm yours.
Now and forever more.
When I think about it.
I made no mistakes in lovin' you.
It was my choice to do it.
Just like it's mine.
To show you just how much I adore you.
Now and forever more.
Dec 19, 2012
Dec 19, 2012 at 10:33 PM UTC
the sun's goin down
as my journey begins
surfin the desert wave of the milky way
on a leather saddle
the wind whistlin harmonies to my lullabies
the stars guidin me to nowhere
the horse's tail swishin
my home village fadin
further into the distance like a tumbleweed blowin
i'm leavin for the desert
you'll find me findin myself
straw in my lips as i hum
my breakup blues
- p. winter
Sep 12, 2017
Sep 12, 2017 at 7:01 PM UTC
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/)\
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)
/(\
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•. •
Once more another lonely evening
Everybody doin what they really don't
Want to do
//
Findin a way to make everybody STOP and say
Hello
( You know
Like kids do )
But we gotta go thru this big Corral
like we are Horse Flesh
( or somethin )
Why don't we stoppin doin it
Just GET OUT !
•
We really don't have think nothin is free
We don't have to SELL ourselves !
We don't have to think we gotta BUY
Each other
///
We get what we are looking for
( together )
///
It's really NOT a
CORPORATE WORLD
/////
( well REALLY
we know it .IS
a corporate world )
BUT NOT REAL REALLY
////
I mean
WHY DONT WE KNOW TO JUST GO OUT
AT NIGHT
GO OVER TO THE PARK
MEET EACH OTHER
SHARE SOME HAPPINESS
KMOW ONE ANOTHER
MAYBE FALL IN LOVE
WHATEVER
///
NO !!!!!
///
Walk the streets
Find the sad lonely bar
BUY drinks
WATCH BOUGHT FOR
CELEBS ! ON TV!!!
LIKE IDIOTS !
( and other idiotic things )
And
Never ask why !!!!!!!
•
**** !
We might even talk politics
Make peace
And not NEED
government or police
So we'd not need to argue about them either
••
And then
In a decent and sane world
OIR POETRY WOULD BE SOMETHING ELSE
//
So
It's not about living in a GOOD MIND
it's about living in a GOOD WORLD
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 1:03 AM UTC