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"carless" poems
Little bits of litter blowing everywhere, Is it that we are carless? Or maybe we don’t care. Bags and bottles ******* of every kind, A simple picnic our ******* left behind. Bottles of all sizes floating on the pond, If left on the beach will travel far beyond. Polystyrene boxes used for burgers or chips, Are float on our ponds like little litter ships. But worst of all the dreaded carrier bag, Hang from wires and trees like a kind of flag. Just to make sure we spread it far and wide, Cars are used to carry debris to the countryside. Now that we have spread it from coast to coast, We are a famous nation because we litter most. Fish and chips were sold wrapped in newspaper, You could say part of a natural recycling scheme. Pop was bought in bottles with a paid deposit, Kiddies for pocket money collected to redeem. Litter is not pretty it will not go away, Soon we will have nowhere clean to play. Maybe if we learn to take our litter home again, We would see the trees and flowers, Down our English country lane.
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Jul 26, 2011
Jul 26, 2011 at 12:25 AM UTC
Litter
library books; the musty smell floods me with thoughts of its past readers did a girl like me run her finger across this line as i have? will our lines like vines ever intertwine? rainy nights; while the tip-tap and dribble of droplets hit my windowsill, i imagine gusts of wind dancing with one another: carless and free and without destination light touches; the accidental bump of elbows, the awkward entanglement of fumbling phalanges, a gentle squeeze of the hand, a comforting gesture that says “i am here.” now reverie this: you and i, the spines of our books broken, our shoulders barely brushing, the sound of soft and subtle raindrops all things i adore in one simple and seemingly endless moment books, rain, touches, and you
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May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 6:46 PM UTC
things i adore
This current resistance in our duel circuit is measured in ohmmms of my meditated solace, Mediated by the breaker of a once-broken man wary of a blown fuse too burnt to salvage, a lost cause to discard, Replace & repeat with each carless disregard of the whattage we're wired to handle, may a switch on to off when overblown prevent the spark that burns down a home.
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Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 7:21 PM UTC
Current Resistance
**Here you are, all dressed up To take me out to dinner, our very first date Even more handsome than in your corporate office So dapper, dignified, distinguished, so impeccably dressed and groomed In your Armani pinstriped business suit Silk tie, starched white shirt, cufflinks Polished black leather Italian shoes Your BMW waits outside Well, I have news for you.... I changed my mind Yes - changed my mind We will stay home tonight You will cook dinner for me right here You are stunned "ME? I have a reservation at the finest restaurant I know everyone there And I don't know how to cook! I know you're joking.. You must be." No. No joke. Give me those keys to your BMW. Yes – the car keys Take off your Rolex wristwatch No need to look at the time. Time to get cooking. No, don't complain You’re not in your office now And one more thing..... Take off those expensive shoes and socks I want to see the cuffs of your hand tailored navy blue pinstripes brushing your naked toes.... You are irritated, annoyed, frustrated As you obey, resisting all the way You give up your keys with the BMW symbol, Your heavy masculine watch, gleaming polished shoes, still warm from your feet thin black dress socks I know it is frightening for a man like you to surrender his shoes and by the way I do LOVE the shoes... They just don't belong on your feet right now You call the restaurant and cancel Shoeless and carless Suddenly a servant I’ll read the recipe. While you peel the potatoes..... I want you barefoot in my kitchen**
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Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 4:28 PM UTC
Change of Dinner Plans
**Here you are, all dressed up To take me out to dinner, our very first date Even more handsome than in your corporate office So dapper, dignified, distinguished, so impeccably dressed and groomed In your Armani pinstriped business suit Silk tie, starched white shirt, cufflinks Polished black leather Italian shoes Your BMW waits outside Well, I have news for you.... I changed my mind Yes - changed my mind We will stay home tonight You will cook dinner for me right here You are stunned "ME? I have a reservation at the finest restaurant I know everyone there And I don't know how to cook! I know you're joking.. You must be." No. No joke. Give me those keys to your BMW. Yes – the car keys Take off your Rolex wristwatch No need to look at the time. Time to get cooking. No, don't complain You’re not in your office now And one more thing..... Take off those expensive shoes and socks I want to see the cuffs of your hand tailored navy blue pinstripes brushing your naked toes.... You are irritated, annoyed, frustrated As you obey, resisting all the way You give up your keys with the BMW symbol, Your heavy masculine watch, gleaming polished shoes, still warm from your feet thin black dress socks I know it is frightening for a man like you to surrender his shoes and by the way I do LOVE the shoes... They just don't belong on your feet right now You call the restaurant and cancel Shoeless and carless Suddenly a servant I’ll read the recipe. While you peel the potatoes..... I want you barefoot in my kitchen**
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Delightfully force thyself to a cheap coat Frayed winter shelter Sworn fre-nemy of millennial style Who kills itself in gale While the master keeps cozy within your skin Wonder if you’ll ever be so disloyal to dare ask for a bath Then, in irony, Loved and wanted by the living freezed And the envy of the proletarian blanket , shining in its absence-Your presence. Under the carless hands of the master Buttons drop and thread spills as solid blood Doomed to fulfill the unchosen goal Depletion will not be salvation Just a mute shriek living decomposition Hope thy ist warm.
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Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:39 PM UTC
Cheap Coat
Words that weigh cause migraines and I can't remember the words you said to me the ones that haunt me like a killer with a knife I remember the feelings though the pain that sliced my young heart I became really good at letting it go just brushing it off my shoulder shoving it down deep in my soul but now as I keep saying what I feel the suppressed feelings are coming to surface Emptying the closet of insults only reveals the darkest ones at the bottom and your name is marked on all of them and I can't help but get teary remembering them holding myself as I close the door a little girl shouldn't have to hear that shouldn't have to worry about her hair the way she dressed the way she talked the way she stuttered why didn't you love me? why did you pick on me? you showed love and affection to everyone else people refused to think we were related because of how socially inept i was couldn't you see that i was lost? looking for you to grab onto me and hold me to tell me how beautiful i looked just being me? but instead you pulled my hair and ripped my clothes threw out my favorite overalls Sometimes you would rub my back and call me sweet sarah you would make me feel loved and how loved i felt i wanted those moments to last forever and in my mind they do when i'm sad it's those times i remember but it doesn't wash out the darker ones and how i thought once dad got involved they would stop but he only encouraged your malicious thinking the slightest mistake was my biggest regret *carless, heartless, ***** rude, disrespectful* those words mean nothing now they are cliches that you say but ring no meaning at least they used to now everything is like a fresh new slice opening myself up again revealing my healed wounds i thought i could do this i thought i could show you what hurts more what hurts more than seeing fat on my bones or horrible makeup on my face the words of children never mattered it was the words of my mother my mother who preferred my sister my mother who thinks im useless a good-for-nothing waste of space unless i provide a service i might as well leave and i want to leave don't think i'm here by choice threaten me mother say you'll hit me tell me again how you will take everything away show me your anger because you are obviously untouchable you can clearly control me but one day you won't and i won't care but i really hope that you do
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Sep 9, 2014
Sep 9, 2014 at 12:31 AM UTC
Migraines
Words that weigh cause migraines and I can't remember the words you said to me the ones that haunt me like a killer with a knife I remember the feelings though the pain that sliced my young heart I became really good at letting it go just brushing it off my shoulder shoving it down deep in my soul but now as I keep saying what I feel the suppressed feelings are coming to surface Emptying the closet of insults only reveals the darkest ones at the bottom and your name is marked on all of them and I can't help but get teary remembering them holding myself as I close the door a little girl shouldn't have to hear that shouldn't have to worry about her hair the way she dressed the way she talked the way she stuttered why didn't you love me? why did you pick on me? you showed love and affection to everyone else people refused to think we were related because of how socially inept i was couldn't you see that i was lost? looking for you to grab onto me and hold me to tell me how beautiful i looked just being me? but instead you pulled my hair and ripped my clothes threw out my favorite overalls Sometimes you would rub my back and call me sweet sarah you would make me feel loved and how loved i felt i wanted those moments to last forever and in my mind they do when i'm sad it's those times i remember but it doesn't wash out the darker ones and how i thought once dad got involved they would stop but he only encouraged your malicious thinking the slightest mistake was my biggest regret *carless, heartless, ***** rude, disrespectful* those words mean nothing now they are cliches that you say but ring no meaning at least they used to now everything is like a fresh new slice opening myself up again revealing my healed wounds i thought i could do this i thought i could show you what hurts more what hurts more than seeing fat on my bones or horrible makeup on my face the words of children never mattered it was the words of my mother my mother who preferred my sister my mother who thinks im useless a good-for-nothing waste of space unless i provide a service i might as well leave and i want to leave don't think i'm here by choice threaten me mother say you'll hit me tell me again how you will take everything away show me your anger because you are obviously untouchable you can clearly control me but one day you won't and i won't care but i really hope that you do
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Today I saw the sky Drowning in the rain I saw the world's negligence And felt our worlds pain We as a species Disconnected from our earth Comfort found from possession Instead of family by the hearth I saw our world crying From the pain we have caused The Forrest stripped to nothing The northern ice now thawed And as we turn a carless eye To our world and our mother Neglecting all we've been given Provided for like no other All in life we need.. Was not created by man We have simply forgotten How to live off of the land One day rapture will come Not biblical but for sure And mother nature will abandon us.. Like our species has done her. Our world is dying.. And resetting.. Is the cure.
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May 27, 2015
May 27, 2015 at 6:23 PM UTC
Our world is dying..
I really don’t, Not an ounce, Not anymore, Not evermore, I don’t care. I don’t care that I’m short, I don’t care that I’m stout, I don’t care that I’m poor, I don’t care much about. What’s to care for? Who’s to care for? We’re carless little bees, Buzzing away at the lost honey, When someone is spraying our hive. Ask me if I give a **** Ask me if it is true, You’ll come to learn and realize, That even this poem doesn’t rhyme, And I don’t care.
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Jan 2, 2024
Jan 2, 2024 at 11:51 PM UTC
I Don’t Care
keeping it low key in order to show me how far I've got to go, the twist in it like the roads but the destination, started, was hidden in the dark with creepy crawlies in place of its heart flaking on the opportunities that seem more like social hassle no time for carless action, as it passes by the days but the sun continues to rise again uncontrollable urge to venture out these cigarette buds will leave a trial of my journey come right to me, and lie next to me Kyle. be next to me lay heavy on my body, you're nothing i can't hold I've traveled long and yet the journey's been short but what is up has been sideways for quite some time and the trail ahead continues to whined up and over, back and left sums up to less steps to take to it, to you, to me however, i tend to repeat history expand and conquer like lava and men my heart unfortunately tied down to the bitter end
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Aug 23, 2013
Aug 23, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
untitled
Numberless voices are everywhere but those that are calling there sound is rich and thick with telling They travel farther distances they are as arrows shot from a heart agitated possessed and driven by Anxiety they are not casual but come with bleeding in them they are relentless frantic they will not be Denied their words are almost spelled out heavy deliberate they build on themselves they are timeless Sadly the one being called will pass from earthy view then mercifully dreams will draw them to you in Darkness from this encounter you draw comfort from these soft images a flutter of dove wings stir and You still your voice from its calling punctuated with progression of tears so onward the calling searches The waste places or the finest streets in cites of renown it cuts like a keen sharp sword indifference falls In heaps before its powerful force the called doesn’t always hear the actual voice but there is an Unknown troubling a quiet discontent that pervades the quiet hours the distance or time is never Considered it’s the nature of trying to warn the mind that can’t know the danger who would life is at its Best you won many struggles you stand at the top of the heap but in victory sometimes the most carless Acts emerge they threaten all you have achieved the warning signs are missed the calling rises higher It must reach even the heights that you feel are impregnable never knowing you are in quick sand traps Designed perfectly for you the scale would tip to total disaster but the calling weighs a constant Pressure keeping the scale level the world keeps adding material gain but love is the greatest asset it Never finishes second it comes in all forms it has armor the sword already mentioned and wisdom that Doesn’t bow to foolish surmising you are the object of desire that has no end or beginning just a Constant it was with you at birth it never leaves sometimes it is forced to plead it finds no shame in this You’re worth more than the world what is going to end such longing trust and care only when you visit Only in dreams
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Oct 25, 2012
Oct 25, 2012 at 6:25 PM UTC
The Calling
Numberless voices are everywhere but those that are calling there sound is rich and thick with telling They travel farther distances they are as arrows shot from a heart agitated possessed and driven by Anxiety they are not casual but come with bleeding in them they are relentless frantic they will not be Denied their words are almost spelled out heavy deliberate they build on themselves they are timeless Sadly the one being called will pass from earthy view then mercifully dreams will draw them to you in Darkness from this encounter you draw comfort from these soft images a flutter of dove wings stir and You still your voice from its calling punctuated with progression of tears so onward the calling searches The waste places or the finest streets in cites of renown it cuts like a keen sharp sword indifference falls In heaps before its powerful force the called doesn’t always hear the actual voice but there is an Unknown troubling a quiet discontent that pervades the quiet hours the distance or time is never Considered it’s the nature of trying to warn the mind that can’t know the danger who would life is at its Best you won many struggles you stand at the top of the heap but in victory sometimes the most carless Acts emerge they threaten all you have achieved the warning signs are missed the calling rises higher It must reach even the heights that you feel are impregnable never knowing you are in quick sand traps Designed perfectly for you the scale would tip to total disaster but the calling weighs a constant Pressure keeping the scale level the world keeps adding material gain but love is the greatest asset it Never finishes second it comes in all forms it has armor the sword already mentioned and wisdom that Doesn’t bow to foolish surmising you are the object of desire that has no end or beginning just a Constant it was with you at birth it never leaves sometimes it is forced to plead it finds no shame in this You’re worth more than the world what is going to end such longing trust and care only when you visit Only in dreams
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I feel love trip on the stairs carless footfall of a suicide damsel I see love fail in comfy chairs the silence of a Netflix series I taste the end of what seems like a lifetime of omelette Wednesdays I hear love crackle with all the excuses of working late phoned from pub car parks it's faint call from the bedroom door "are you coming up to bed soon love" the click of the refrigerator door ***** of another cold one the psst of a bottle opening giving it's solemn "no"
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Nov 30, 2022
Nov 30, 2022 at 7:22 PM UTC
death of a suburban relationship
The Calling Numberless voices are everywhere but those that are calling there sound is rich and thick with telling They travel farther distances they are as arrows shot from a heart agitated possessed and driven by Anxiety they are not casual but come with bleeding in them they are relentless frantic they will not be Denied their words are almost spelled out heavy deliberate they build on themselves they are timeless Sadly the one being called will pass from earthy view then mercifully dreams will draw them to you in Darkness from this encounter you draw comfort from these soft images a flutter of dove wings stir and You still your voice from its calling punctuated with progression of tears so onward the calling searches The waste places or the finest streets in cites of renown it cuts like a keen sharp sword indifference falls In heaps before its powerful force the called doesn’t always hear the actual voice but there is an Unknown troubling a quiet discontent that pervades the quiet hours the distance or time is never Considered it’s the nature of trying to warn the mind that can’t know the danger who would life is at its Best you won many struggles you stand at the top of the heap but in victory sometimes the most carless Acts emerge they threaten all you have achieved the warning signs are missed the calling rises higher It must reach even the heights that you feel are impregnable never knowing you are in quick sand traps Designed perfectly for you the scale would tip to total disaster but the calling weighs a constant Pressure keeping the scale level the world keeps adding material gain but love is the greatest asset it Never finishes second it comes in all forms it has armor the sword already mentioned and wisdom that Doesn’t bow to foolish surmising you are the object of desire that has no end or beginning just a Constant it was with you at birth it never leaves sometimes it is forced to plead it finds no shame in this You’re worth more than the world what is going to end such longing trust and care only when you visit Only in dreams
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Nov 17, 2011
Nov 17, 2011 at 6:10 AM UTC
The Calling
The Calling Numberless voices are everywhere but those that are calling there sound is rich and thick with telling They travel farther distances they are as arrows shot from a heart agitated possessed and driven by Anxiety they are not casual but come with bleeding in them they are relentless frantic they will not be Denied their words are almost spelled out heavy deliberate they build on themselves they are timeless Sadly the one being called will pass from earthy view then mercifully dreams will draw them to you in Darkness from this encounter you draw comfort from these soft images a flutter of dove wings stir and You still your voice from its calling punctuated with progression of tears so onward the calling searches The waste places or the finest streets in cites of renown it cuts like a keen sharp sword indifference falls In heaps before its powerful force the called doesn’t always hear the actual voice but there is an Unknown troubling a quiet discontent that pervades the quiet hours the distance or time is never Considered it’s the nature of trying to warn the mind that can’t know the danger who would life is at its Best you won many struggles you stand at the top of the heap but in victory sometimes the most carless Acts emerge they threaten all you have achieved the warning signs are missed the calling rises higher It must reach even the heights that you feel are impregnable never knowing you are in quick sand traps Designed perfectly for you the scale would tip to total disaster but the calling weighs a constant Pressure keeping the scale level the world keeps adding material gain but love is the greatest asset it Never finishes second it comes in all forms it has armor the sword already mentioned and wisdom that Doesn’t bow to foolish surmising you are the object of desire that has no end or beginning just a Constant it was with you at birth it never leaves sometimes it is forced to plead it finds no shame in this You’re worth more than the world what is going to end such longing trust and care only when you visit Only in dreams
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I use to be obsessive and content at a certain point now Im carless now the shrill doesnt dig into my marrow just my skin Im not drained of every ounce of blood just exhausted in thought my burning passion is in my esophagus and I will hold my tongue until your dead fatigued from my mind and up and gone I'll sway you on a rope in front of me to torture myself every now and then because Im twisted in violent serene ways Ill give you a high with my sensitivity Ill curl up like a infant next to your knees and ask you to sing me your favorite lullaby as a child that is what I will rest to and hold out on all your most accepted memories because I will make them mine and steal them like grains of sand from the playground cover your eyes when I walk by you dont speak and block out the noise because I only plunge and the refusal its what makes me light the candle let the wax burn my thighs and Ill meditate to the songs of your soul while staining my insides with coal
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Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 9:05 AM UTC
Yes
In the eye of a storm I saw your face held you close and felt the brightness within. Kissed your lips and whispered we could be so much more than this. Tinsel and sparkle could never shine as bright as you. Your carless lips and quiet abandons left broken hearts and vacant eyes full of ruined hands and misspent love.
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Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 8:39 AM UTC
Tinsel and Sparkle
I love you and hate you when you smile so wide that your teeth gleam like a row of piano keys your eyes get a glow and I wish I could join in and laugh along with your genuine happiness I want to wear that carless smirk and get away with ****** with a cute smile the way you do you charmed the hell out of the whole world its a good thing your cute kid because your a piece of ****
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Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC
heartbreak kid
My galloping love Untamed to these treacherous hills Steady the unraveling nerves That fall like petals From these outstetched stems You once relied on Emotions culminate atop this crest To the enjoyment of the howling wind Brushing cascades to the north I feel your presence crashing into me Like the carless crescendo Exciting My broken heart Your smile dances around my head As a sultry chasse inviting memories abound Of the prancing ******* Beneath our swimming souls And our warm blooded bodies Falling in love Like a tender tompé into my arms I can feel your touch A subtle Yet electric brush of comfort As the pouring rain smears around me Casting clouds into shadows Like your hiding just out of sight No matter the distance traveled Or the places you call home I will always be holding your hand To mend a bond gone aloft But not forgotten Until the sun and moon Forget how to play I will cherish what we shared With a key around my neck To our locket of love And everlasting friendship For you
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May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 8:54 PM UTC
Turquoise December
Resolution, An answer. A new year, A new cancer. Don't want to change, Just want to add, All those things, I wish I had. Not looking around, My life is too cluttered. Done wasting time, On every single ****** Realized that I despise most people and most words, Everyone's thoughts so irrelevant, I just want her.     Can make no sense to everyone, Not supposed to please your mind. My life style so carless and reckless, All I can do is smile. Is there something wrong with me? I'm sure there is. Doesn't matter much though, The doctors wouldn't know where to begin. Resolution, A question. Stop signs, Are but suggestions.
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Jan 8, 2013
Jan 8, 2013 at 4:48 PM UTC
One of One
A few minuets ago, Moments ago, Seconds became slow And I saw a ghost. Ahead in the dark, Stood under street lamps, She jarred my imagination To an interrogation of path banks. I knew she wasn’t real, I had placed her there; A smile concealed, revealed Beneath her golden hair. Walking towards me,
 knowing, foreboding, A grin of sweetest glee, She starts m’heart choking. Reaching out to hold Like we used to The mist, is’t carless cold As she passes through? Features, faces, all fall from existence; I look around, shameless, I saw her at a distance. Now gone, A ghost; Alive, I’m undone; My love the host.
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Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 9:07 PM UTC
Host of a Ghost
Forgiveness It's Non-Existent I'm Heartless & Carless You're Hurt & Torn Now I can't sleep Thoughts of you on my mind Pillow flooded with regret and I'm drowning The fragrance you loved, to me now stinks and the scent of betrayal in the air it really ******* stinks I opened my mouth and didn't think I said words I didn't mean I'm sorry That I hurt you It just felt you didn't care about me the way I cared  for you
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Oct 1, 2017
Oct 1, 2017 at 1:40 AM UTC
Forget It
There's nothing really to be said. Even though here you are, Wondering what's going through my head. Don't break a sweat because I said what I've already said. It's the same beat and rhythm that we jam out to everyday. Except you thought it'd be better to tune it to your liking. Just sit back, Relax, Cause it's a way we live. Dig? Cause that's what we've always been about. Carless and free. So don't tell me I don't know what you're thinking. Funny how we think we live and dance the same thing yet we dance all differently on a up or down beat. Sometimes I feel like I'm jamming with the wrong guy. Yet he could somehow follow my lines and ties that I've been providing all of y'all since I started to learn how to rhyme in my spare time. Truthfully being said, that's a lie.
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Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 10:41 AM UTC
Rhythms and Beats
Ha No body Cares. Just sayin. It's all about you. Take it or leave it fool flushed ***** If they bring you down, leave'um, if they bring you up conceive them.. but move on. Stagnace, is debilitating...just branch out and grow. You wanna stay the same fine, peace be with your soul. I'm getting mine fast or slow. Each person I meet plays an important roll. I honor that because I love me and whatever I attract or detest says something.. speaks volume in this life of misfired garbage. I'm here and now. I want the simple finer things. But your all hung up on these deformed ideals...getting wasted away like zombies.. Is it Armageddon? The end of the world where you choose to eat the shinny fruit, cause your all ******* Don't wanna get your hands ***** so you eat of a mans filthy riches.. and in the parameters of the English language I've got run in sentences... And whatever else stumps you from the truth. **** structure **** taught belief.. **** ***** for ***** sake.. forget word and spoken reason. Words are discrimination. Words can't even touch true evolution. But we all try so hard to make them work... And I'm done you silly *** folk. I stay silent and a loaf since the rest of the word is just living to stay a float. POST
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Sep 4, 2016
Sep 4, 2016 at 8:01 AM UTC
Carless Grotess
money is about priorities, and this may not be apparent until you barely have enough to get by. to many children, it is like magic. it appears in other people's hands and gets you things you WANT. not until you are a teenager do you realize that there are some things you WANT not just for fun, but because these THINGS shape your life, are essential to your way of life, and are felt as NEEDS. a car. lipstick. phone. then money becomes abstract, once again. credit card. student loan. car loan. it's what people do. no one sits you down and helps you figure out how much those student loan payments are gonna be in 10 years with such and such an assumed salary. with so and so bills. you are 18. you don't have a clue. the illusion will eventually come crashing down. the abstract becomes concrete, and the math doesn't add up. that's if things go well. what happens if things don't go as planned, as they so often do not? you may just plummet into an unfathomable hole. (it's really not as hard as you might think.) and in this state, you realize money is about priorities. if you have no credit cards, and no savings, you only have exactly what you earn. and what you earn may not reflect your years of experience, work, and education. then what? you choose. you prioritize. and i don't mean, oh should i go to the bahamas or iceland this summer? i mean, shelter. where can i live? can i afford to live anywhere on my own? transportation. if i don't have a car i can't get to work. if i can't work, i can't live. food. how can i make this little bit last 2 weeks? pay the electric or the gas? because i can't pay both. cable? internet? pick one. new clothes?! ha! doesn't make the cut. doctors?medicine? good ******* luck with that one. someone asks you to go out, for a birthday, just for fun. you break into a cold sweat trying to figure out if there is any possible way to act like a normal human being and go out. there might not be, and you will have to say no. the government would like their loan money. it's simply not possible. it's christmas. what are you gonna do, not pay rent for a month in order to get presents? and you hear people give you ridiculous advice for a situation they have never experienced. just don't have a coffee. or color your hair. just get another job. because they don't see that what they are suggesting is that you take away the smallest, maybe only pleasures in your life. or that you are literally one costly repair away from being homeless. carless. jobless. it spirals quickly. and if your masters degree can't get you out of poverty, but has actually made it worse, what is the answer? sometimes it doesn't matter even if you do all the right things.
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Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 9:09 PM UTC
when money becomes real.
money is about priorities, and this may not be apparent until you barely have enough to get by. to many children, it is like magic. it appears in other people's hands and gets you things you WANT. not until you are a teenager do you realize that there are some things you WANT not just for fun, but because these THINGS shape your life, are essential to your way of life, and are felt as NEEDS. a car. lipstick. phone. then money becomes abstract, once again. credit card. student loan. car loan. it's what people do. no one sits you down and helps you figure out how much those student loan payments are gonna be in 10 years with such and such an assumed salary. with so and so bills. you are 18. you don't have a clue. the illusion will eventually come crashing down. the abstract becomes concrete, and the math doesn't add up. that's if things go well. what happens if things don't go as planned, as they so often do not? you may just plummet into an unfathomable hole. (it's really not as hard as you might think.) and in this state, you realize money is about priorities. if you have no credit cards, and no savings, you only have exactly what you earn. and what you earn may not reflect your years of experience, work, and education. then what? you choose. you prioritize. and i don't mean, oh should i go to the bahamas or iceland this summer? i mean, shelter. where can i live? can i afford to live anywhere on my own? transportation. if i don't have a car i can't get to work. if i can't work, i can't live. food. how can i make this little bit last 2 weeks? pay the electric or the gas? because i can't pay both. cable? internet? pick one. new clothes?! ha! doesn't make the cut. doctors?medicine? good ******* luck with that one. someone asks you to go out, for a birthday, just for fun. you break into a cold sweat trying to figure out if there is any possible way to act like a normal human being and go out. there might not be, and you will have to say no. the government would like their loan money. it's simply not possible. it's christmas. what are you gonna do, not pay rent for a month in order to get presents? and you hear people give you ridiculous advice for a situation they have never experienced. just don't have a coffee. or color your hair. just get another job. because they don't see that what they are suggesting is that you take away the smallest, maybe only pleasures in your life. or that you are literally one costly repair away from being homeless. carless. jobless. it spirals quickly. and if your masters degree can't get you out of poverty, but has actually made it worse, what is the answer? sometimes it doesn't matter even if you do all the right things.
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a wet street is not similiar to rain but it's a sign that it has rained fever's not flu but it's a sign i woke up with my hands soaked in wine and begging you two things: 1- excess 2- not going home can we have only first dates where we can always be anyone else? can we exchange habits? close my eyes between your legs i love burnt bread, black coffee and butter and swimming through time towards time like in a midnight carless highway fever's not flu; it's desire's errands it's a trip you tell no one it's a page or a screen. it's a sign, how would you describe it?
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Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 10:04 PM UTC
decreate