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"bathtub" poems
*here's how it happens the morning after you reach into the drawer where the your t-shirts live to find it austere you'll shrug because you're still drunk & you can't remember when last it was that you had something wet or how long it's been since you made the floorboards blush or why the carpet is upset who wouldn't be the contents to the upended ashtray strewn around the apartment resemble the aftermath of the smallest war to ever take place in norfolk some midnight thief must've made off with the lighter because it isn't in any of your favorite spots maybe you chucked it along with a hundred other things that make noise when they land in the neighbors yard you won't remember putting the refrigerator's belongings in the bathtub or scrawling a buzzard on the bedroom door but then again who would you'll pretend it's spring again before putting on your winter coat to go out front with a cigarette in your mouth you'll hope for a passing stranger to *** a light from or drag yourself to the corner with couch cushion change to buy a new lighter and on your way you won't bother looking back this is just another day on eggshells for no reason another november choking on birthday candles on your way home you step over beer cans the kind you fell in love with and wonder who had the last laugh last night or if anyone said a word at all it might've been another moment of clarity it might have been some idiot savant any adjective that feels like home anything that keeps you thirsty*
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Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 10:30 PM UTC
plain as day
*here's how it happens the morning after you reach into the drawer where the your t-shirts live to find it austere you'll shrug because you're still drunk & you can't remember when last it was that you had something wet or how long it's been since you made the floorboards blush or why the carpet is upset who wouldn't be the contents to the upended ashtray strewn around the apartment resemble the aftermath of the smallest war to ever take place in norfolk some midnight thief must've made off with the lighter because it isn't in any of your favorite spots maybe you chucked it along with a hundred other things that make noise when they land in the neighbors yard you won't remember putting the refrigerator's belongings in the bathtub or scrawling a buzzard on the bedroom door but then again who would you'll pretend it's spring again before putting on your winter coat to go out front with a cigarette in your mouth you'll hope for a passing stranger to *** a light from or drag yourself to the corner with couch cushion change to buy a new lighter and on your way you won't bother looking back this is just another day on eggshells for no reason another november choking on birthday candles on your way home you step over beer cans the kind you fell in love with and wonder who had the last laugh last night or if anyone said a word at all it might've been another moment of clarity it might have been some idiot savant any adjective that feels like home anything that keeps you thirsty*
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the cockroach crouched against the tile while I was ******* and as I turned my head he hauled his **** into a crack. I got the can and sprayed and sprayed and sprayed and finally the roach came out and gave me a very ***** look. then he fell down into the bathtub and I watched him dying with a subtle pleasure because I paid rent and he didn't. I picked him up with some greenblue toilet paper and flushed him away. that's all there was to that, except around Hollywood and Western we have to keep doing it. they say some day that tribe is going to inherit the earth but we're going to make them wait a few months.
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cockroach
I lay in the bathtub soaking wet with water running around my silhouette. Shaking as the washcloth smeared regrets over my skin. The bubbles give my sins a scent. As I vent I leave the shower running so my sobs are the only thing drowning. The constant tapping on my face keeps me awake as I sink into the various stews my mind creates. Weights are lifted with pruning. Peeling of dead skin keeps me from reeling into depression. There is a harmonic progression between the faucet and my face, the scrubbing and my disgrace, the steam and my own embrace. I need this state. The decompression from being bottled up, like a coke, with a smile is worthwhile. It teaches me that the expression of weakness is key in the building of a better Timothy.
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May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 6:48 AM UTC
Intimate Desperation
I am in a crate, the crate that was ours, full of white shirts and salad greens, the icebox knocking at our delectable knocks, and I wore movies in my eyes, and you wore eggs in your tunnel, and we played sheets, sheets, sheets all day, even in the bathtub like lunatics. But today I set the bed afire and smoke is filling the room, it is getting hot enough for the walls to melt, and the icebox, a gluey white tooth. I have on a mask in order to write my last words, and they are just for you, and I will place them in the icebox saved for ***** and tomatoes, and perhaps they will last. The dog will not. Her spots will fall off. The old letters will melt into a black bee. The night gowns are already shredding into paper, the yellow, the red, the purple. The bed -- well, the sheets have turned to gold -- hard, hard gold, and the mattress is being kissed into a stone. As for me, my dearest Foxxy, my poems to you may or may not reach the icebox and its hopeful eternity, for isn't yours enough? The one where you name my name right out in P.R.? If my toes weren't yielding to pitch I'd tell the whole story -- not just the sheet story but the belly-button story, the pried-eyelid story, the whiskey-sour-of-the-nipple story -- and shovel back our love where it belonged. Despite my asbestos gloves, the cough is filling me with black and a red powder seeps through my veins, our little crate goes down so publicly and without meaning it, you see, meaning a solo act, a cremation of the love, but instead we seem to be going down right in the middle of a Russian street, the flames making the sound of the horse being beaten and beaten, the whip is adoring its human triumph while the flies wait, blow by blow, straight from United Fruit, Inc.
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Love Letter Written In A Burning Building
I am in a crate, the crate that was ours, full of white shirts and salad greens, the icebox knocking at our delectable knocks, and I wore movies in my eyes, and you wore eggs in your tunnel, and we played sheets, sheets, sheets all day, even in the bathtub like lunatics. But today I set the bed afire and smoke is filling the room, it is getting hot enough for the walls to melt, and the icebox, a gluey white tooth. I have on a mask in order to write my last words, and they are just for you, and I will place them in the icebox saved for ***** and tomatoes, and perhaps they will last. The dog will not. Her spots will fall off. The old letters will melt into a black bee. The night gowns are already shredding into paper, the yellow, the red, the purple. The bed -- well, the sheets have turned to gold -- hard, hard gold, and the mattress is being kissed into a stone. As for me, my dearest Foxxy, my poems to you may or may not reach the icebox and its hopeful eternity, for isn't yours enough? The one where you name my name right out in P.R.? If my toes weren't yielding to pitch I'd tell the whole story -- not just the sheet story but the belly-button story, the pried-eyelid story, the whiskey-sour-of-the-nipple story -- and shovel back our love where it belonged. Despite my asbestos gloves, the cough is filling me with black and a red powder seeps through my veins, our little crate goes down so publicly and without meaning it, you see, meaning a solo act, a cremation of the love, but instead we seem to be going down right in the middle of a Russian street, the flames making the sound of the horse being beaten and beaten, the whip is adoring its human triumph while the flies wait, blow by blow, straight from United Fruit, Inc.
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i'm not showering any more frequently than i typically do but every time i step in that bathtub i swear a whole day goes by the water falling turns into soft concrete and the drain stops up and i'm standing ankle deep in a brand new sidewalk soap suds running down my legs and pooling upon an unwalked path and heaven only knows how long before it all cracks and i'm free.
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Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
the unmovable pedestrian of cleanliness
a girlfriend came in built me a bed scrubbed and waxed the kitchen floor scrubbed the walls vacuumed cleaned the toilet the bathtub scrubbed the bathroom floor and cut my toenails and my hair. then all on the same day the plumber came and fixed the kitchen faucet and the toilet and the gas man fixed the heater and the phone man fixed the phone. noe I sit in all this perfection. it is quiet. I have broken off with all 3 of my girlfriends. I felt better when everything was in disorder. it will take me some months to get back to normal: I can't even find a roach to commune with. I have lost my rythm. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I have been robbed of my filth.
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Metamorphosis
It was the time of my Auntie Bee summers    I was small then    She had a parakeet that landed on my head    and a bathtub too    with water so deep!    and legs and claws!    **** thing nearly chased me down the stairs! She lived in slumbery Windsor Locks    where bugs hung-out in the haze    of teenage August    I played in the tall weeds    with a shoeless Italian boy    who ate tomatoes like apples    and cucumbers right off the vine!    He was ***** free and foreign!    We played— reckless, abandoned    behind the gas pump, under the tractor, in the barn       and through the endless fields    I didn’t know....    His name was Tony    I ate pizza with him—the first time At Auntie Bee’s I had to go to bed at eight    but I could watch night flowers    bloom on wallpaper    She came in to say good night    slippered, shadowy, night dress slightly open    and I peeped her *******    like Tony’s cucumbers!    I had never seen my mother’s wonders.... Night spread its wings from the old fan—    a bird of tireless exhaustion    whipped, whipped, whipped to death in its cage    tireless exhaustion    tic-tocking in time to a wind-up clock    stretched out on the whine    of the overland trucks    Route Five through the night of an open window In the grape arbor below— tremulous incessant    crickets    crickets    crickets tremulous incessant—insides of a child    a summer child    not yet ready for the fall of answers Auntie Bee had a daughter—Maureen    I followed her everywhere I could    I was small then--        do anything for a stick of Juicy Fruit I followed Maureen through my dreams    of being sixteen    and woke to Peggy’s “Fever”    while she tied her sneakers    against the mattress by my head I followed Maureen (in my mind)    tanned and bandanned    to work in the fields of shade tobacco    with all those Puerto Rican boys!    She knew where she was going! I was small then ...do anything for a stick of  gum “Mauney! Mauney! Mauney!”    ...through the goldenrod of roadside    through the smell of oil that damped the dust     I followed Maureen’s white shorts    and chestnut hair...to the corner store I followed the way the boys smiled    the way the screen door slammed    on her bright behind    the way her lips taunted and took    the coke-bottle’s green I followed Maureen I swear, I tried for hours to get that right! Must have been Peggy Lee’s “Fever” Maureen ties her sneakers in my face Flaunts her years above my head She has that look— “We kids don’t know nothin” (Little turds” that we be) …followin’ Maureen through the goldenrod of roadside tic-tockin’, beboppin’ “Fever— in the morning Fever all through the night….”
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Aug 24, 2016
Aug 24, 2016 at 11:30 PM UTC
I Follow Maureen
It was the time of my Auntie Bee summers    I was small then    She had a parakeet that landed on my head    and a bathtub too    with water so deep!    and legs and claws!    **** thing nearly chased me down the stairs! She lived in slumbery Windsor Locks    where bugs hung-out in the haze    of teenage August    I played in the tall weeds    with a shoeless Italian boy    who ate tomatoes like apples    and cucumbers right off the vine!    He was ***** free and foreign!    We played— reckless, abandoned    behind the gas pump, under the tractor, in the barn       and through the endless fields    I didn’t know....    His name was Tony    I ate pizza with him—the first time At Auntie Bee’s I had to go to bed at eight    but I could watch night flowers    bloom on wallpaper    She came in to say good night    slippered, shadowy, night dress slightly open    and I peeped her *******    like Tony’s cucumbers!    I had never seen my mother’s wonders.... Night spread its wings from the old fan—    a bird of tireless exhaustion    whipped, whipped, whipped to death in its cage    tireless exhaustion    tic-tocking in time to a wind-up clock    stretched out on the whine    of the overland trucks    Route Five through the night of an open window In the grape arbor below— tremulous incessant    crickets    crickets    crickets tremulous incessant—insides of a child    a summer child    not yet ready for the fall of answers Auntie Bee had a daughter—Maureen    I followed her everywhere I could    I was small then--        do anything for a stick of Juicy Fruit I followed Maureen through my dreams    of being sixteen    and woke to Peggy’s “Fever”    while she tied her sneakers    against the mattress by my head I followed Maureen (in my mind)    tanned and bandanned    to work in the fields of shade tobacco    with all those Puerto Rican boys!    She knew where she was going! I was small then ...do anything for a stick of  gum “Mauney! Mauney! Mauney!”    ...through the goldenrod of roadside    through the smell of oil that damped the dust     I followed Maureen’s white shorts    and chestnut hair...to the corner store I followed the way the boys smiled    the way the screen door slammed    on her bright behind    the way her lips taunted and took    the coke-bottle’s green I followed Maureen I swear, I tried for hours to get that right! Must have been Peggy Lee’s “Fever” Maureen ties her sneakers in my face Flaunts her years above my head She has that look— “We kids don’t know nothin” (Little turds” that we be) …followin’ Maureen through the goldenrod of roadside tic-tockin’, beboppin’ “Fever— in the morning Fever all through the night….”
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this is how it happens it's the last day the temperature will be above thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit until February you're not looking at the date it's just the end of November the middle of the night in the middle of a road at the end of November the hum of this small town hurts your ears you're stuck in a dream where everything you see turns into a weapon this is how it happens you knocked back sharp, amber liquid to make this place feel a little more okay and it only worked halfway no matter how soft the edges are you bruise your hips when you run into them in the dark you're ******* on your fourth cigarette when a police officer pulls over and asks how you're doing today in the too-bright white of the headlights the sick taste of Red Stag sticks to the roof of your mouth the mouth that you're moving into a smile the mouth exhaling plumes of smoke at the ground you're okay "i'm okay." you don't tell him what you're really doing you're really taking all of your thoughts about stopping your pulse for a walk you don't tell him you've been chasing ambulances all night long please, officer don't leave me alone, you don't say he tells you to have a good night and drives away and this is how it happens the moon smiles at you with every single one of its tiny, sharp teeth nobody but your cat finds you in that bathtub nobody but your cat watches you rise from red water watches it drip drip drip from every chasm carved in your left arm nobody but your cat saw the soft animal of your soul shiver from the cold that day it's the first day the temperature dropped below thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit inside your chest
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Dec 7, 2017
Dec 7, 2017 at 9:48 AM UTC
i tried to **** someone once
this is how it happens it's the last day the temperature will be above thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit until February you're not looking at the date it's just the end of November the middle of the night in the middle of a road at the end of November the hum of this small town hurts your ears you're stuck in a dream where everything you see turns into a weapon this is how it happens you knocked back sharp, amber liquid to make this place feel a little more okay and it only worked halfway no matter how soft the edges are you bruise your hips when you run into them in the dark you're ******* on your fourth cigarette when a police officer pulls over and asks how you're doing today in the too-bright white of the headlights the sick taste of Red Stag sticks to the roof of your mouth the mouth that you're moving into a smile the mouth exhaling plumes of smoke at the ground you're okay "i'm okay." you don't tell him what you're really doing you're really taking all of your thoughts about stopping your pulse for a walk you don't tell him you've been chasing ambulances all night long please, officer don't leave me alone, you don't say he tells you to have a good night and drives away and this is how it happens the moon smiles at you with every single one of its tiny, sharp teeth nobody but your cat finds you in that bathtub nobody but your cat watches you rise from red water watches it drip drip drip from every chasm carved in your left arm nobody but your cat saw the soft animal of your soul shiver from the cold that day it's the first day the temperature dropped below thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit inside your chest
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i. the curly, green-haired leo with the cry-baby tattoo on her left calf; fish net stockings and loud guitar playing and menthol cigarettes. driving through the park at 9 pm, ***** shots, the white house with the a-frame roof, hugs that made your heart feel as warm as she did crying as i left my room again to be intertwined with a girl who did not love me, but i wanted to; months pass, lonely car rides with one-sided conversations and seven years gone, quiet disconnection that made you feel as cold as i did ii. brown eyes, brown skin, round glasses and chicago streetlights. holding each other close on the subway lakehouse parties in the beginning of spring and pisces season and tarot readings and soft kisses on the train. holding hands at the aquarium, sweet poetry and calm and a sense of oneness that made you feel important hurt for the third time a panic, a loss i held their heart in my hands and let it fall harsh unimportant i still carry the guilt on my fingertips iii. short hair. freckled cheeks, i fell in love with the way the skin crinkled around her eyes when she smiled. an apartment, a home built around our lips touching wrapped in blankets on the couch, dense smoke and her hand on my leg while she drove. chinese food and waking up against her chest and laughing so hard my ribs hurt crashing. her anger withering away my heartstrings; pain and crying alone in the bathtub moving away drunk tears on the interstate punching my thighs in place of the way her words made me hurt
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Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 11:27 AM UTC
people i lost last year (and how i lost them)
i. the curly, green-haired leo with the cry-baby tattoo on her left calf; fish net stockings and loud guitar playing and menthol cigarettes. driving through the park at 9 pm, ***** shots, the white house with the a-frame roof, hugs that made your heart feel as warm as she did crying as i left my room again to be intertwined with a girl who did not love me, but i wanted to; months pass, lonely car rides with one-sided conversations and seven years gone, quiet disconnection that made you feel as cold as i did ii. brown eyes, brown skin, round glasses and chicago streetlights. holding each other close on the subway lakehouse parties in the beginning of spring and pisces season and tarot readings and soft kisses on the train. holding hands at the aquarium, sweet poetry and calm and a sense of oneness that made you feel important hurt for the third time a panic, a loss i held their heart in my hands and let it fall harsh unimportant i still carry the guilt on my fingertips iii. short hair. freckled cheeks, i fell in love with the way the skin crinkled around her eyes when she smiled. an apartment, a home built around our lips touching wrapped in blankets on the couch, dense smoke and her hand on my leg while she drove. chinese food and waking up against her chest and laughing so hard my ribs hurt crashing. her anger withering away my heartstrings; pain and crying alone in the bathtub moving away drunk tears on the interstate punching my thighs in place of the way her words made me hurt
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Pink bubbles Flow from the bathtub All sizes Yet the same Soaring like mighty eagles Then they just go POP!
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May 16, 2015
May 16, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC
Pink Bubbles
As a bathtub lined with white porcelain, When the hot water gives out or goes tepid, So is the slow cooling of our chivalrous passion, O my much praised but-not-altogether-satisfactory lady.
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The Bath Tub
. By open window She towels herself with me Moon cries in bathtub .
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Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 9:37 PM UTC
Coveting
It is awful to feel sickened by the thought of myself So is sobbing in the bathtub while the water hits my body And soon my tears blend in with the ***** water It is awful to avoid mirrors and to always look down To hid from who I would see if I did It is awful to scream into my pillows every night Hoping no one will hear the cries Or staining my wrists with sharpie To remind myself to stop eating And to stop being me Or living in my dreams of other peoples lives Than facing the reality of mine Self-hate is awful But so am I
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Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC
Self- Hate
Every action starts something in motion As does every spoken word It doesn't matter the action And it doesn't matter if it's heard A simple movement moves a mountain Sending snow cascading down A simple spark might start a fire That can create ash of a whole town Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend Remember every action causes something To react in answer to the cause The end result might go unnoticed The end result might be a loss A simple phrase might make a nation Go to war where thousands die You can change the way things happen A little thought, if you just try Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend The world is constantly in motion words are used and things are done But regardless of these actions We'll still continue 'round the sun An object resting will stay resting But will react to a force It only takes a finger ripple Or a pebble thrown to change the course Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend.
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Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 8:14 PM UTC
Make a Ripple, Start a Wave
Every action starts something in motion As does every spoken word It doesn't matter the action And it doesn't matter if it's heard A simple movement moves a mountain Sending snow cascading down A simple spark might start a fire That can create ash of a whole town Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend Remember every action causes something To react in answer to the cause The end result might go unnoticed The end result might be a loss A simple phrase might make a nation Go to war where thousands die You can change the way things happen A little thought, if you just try Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend The world is constantly in motion words are used and things are done But regardless of these actions We'll still continue 'round the sun An object resting will stay resting But will react to a force It only takes a finger ripple Or a pebble thrown to change the course Throw a pebble in the water Make a ripple, start a wave The end result is always greater Than the effort that you gave A finger ripple in the bathtub Sends a wave from end to end A simple change in wind in motion Can take a bridge and make it bend.
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time is an infinite stream of possibilities may this blessing flow to you across time through love I pray for you, the me of my past who struggled and lost your way in depression. May this blessing find you across time to you, from me the you of the future, to the 26 year old that I was in a moment in time, where I was lost. May you find your way out of despair and hopelessness, and may you find the courage to set the radio outside of the filled bathtub.  I know suicide seems the only way out, but you have so much to live for. I am you of the future, as I speak to you of my past.   May my love and hope travel across time to help you find joy in that little moment, where you turned on the radio to make sure power was flowing before you electrocuted yourself.  But in that tiny moment, reggae music blasted through the speakers bringing a spark of joy and rhythm into a dark moment, where you could not distinguish from the true and false. May you find the wisdom to know that your pain will not last forever and all wounds heal with time, even heartbreaks.  I know, because I am in this very present moment the future self of you.  I know that your present feels bleak and each day feels more painful and pointless than the day before.  It feels like the whole world is against you and people who are supposed to love you only judge you and ridicule you.  Somehow it feels like who you are is not enough and you are sick and tired of feeling this way. May my love and hope travel across time.  Love is infinite and collapses the space that separates us.  May my blessing find you through this dark moment and many to come, so you may know and experience joys, sadness, and full specturum of emotions with an open heart.  You will someday embrace pain as one of your greatest teachers, because it has lead you to the other great teacher of life, love.  May you have the courage to really live, so you may face death, another great teacher.  May you live and die with love, and not with fear and hatred in your heart. May this blessing travel across time in that infinite place in your heart, where hope will rise out of the heavy despair that is pulling you down to depths of pain that goes deeper and deeper.  Somehow, pain upon pain becomes comforting, and you begin to be trapped in yourself.  All you can see is this moment. May my prayer and blessing find you and guide you to a future you cannot imagine in your present, but you would not want to miss.  Thank you, I love you.  I'm sorry for ways I failed you.  Please forgive me.   May this blessing of hope and love find you across time and space to bring you home, so you and I can live in that infinite space of love in our hearts, where we are connected to life flowing through and in us.  May you find your way to me, to the now that is always being created.
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Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 1:03 AM UTC
a blessing to my younger self
time is an infinite stream of possibilities may this blessing flow to you across time through love I pray for you, the me of my past who struggled and lost your way in depression. May this blessing find you across time to you, from me the you of the future, to the 26 year old that I was in a moment in time, where I was lost. May you find your way out of despair and hopelessness, and may you find the courage to set the radio outside of the filled bathtub.  I know suicide seems the only way out, but you have so much to live for. I am you of the future, as I speak to you of my past.   May my love and hope travel across time to help you find joy in that little moment, where you turned on the radio to make sure power was flowing before you electrocuted yourself.  But in that tiny moment, reggae music blasted through the speakers bringing a spark of joy and rhythm into a dark moment, where you could not distinguish from the true and false. May you find the wisdom to know that your pain will not last forever and all wounds heal with time, even heartbreaks.  I know, because I am in this very present moment the future self of you.  I know that your present feels bleak and each day feels more painful and pointless than the day before.  It feels like the whole world is against you and people who are supposed to love you only judge you and ridicule you.  Somehow it feels like who you are is not enough and you are sick and tired of feeling this way. May my love and hope travel across time.  Love is infinite and collapses the space that separates us.  May my blessing find you through this dark moment and many to come, so you may know and experience joys, sadness, and full specturum of emotions with an open heart.  You will someday embrace pain as one of your greatest teachers, because it has lead you to the other great teacher of life, love.  May you have the courage to really live, so you may face death, another great teacher.  May you live and die with love, and not with fear and hatred in your heart. May this blessing travel across time in that infinite place in your heart, where hope will rise out of the heavy despair that is pulling you down to depths of pain that goes deeper and deeper.  Somehow, pain upon pain becomes comforting, and you begin to be trapped in yourself.  All you can see is this moment. May my prayer and blessing find you and guide you to a future you cannot imagine in your present, but you would not want to miss.  Thank you, I love you.  I'm sorry for ways I failed you.  Please forgive me.   May this blessing of hope and love find you across time and space to bring you home, so you and I can live in that infinite space of love in our hearts, where we are connected to life flowing through and in us.  May you find your way to me, to the now that is always being created.
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worthless I should hurt less I'm still loving you I'm putting stars in my eyes hearts in my mouth I'd love to eat you out but you keep dancing around I'm no toy to play around with stop putting me away we should make out kiss and don't tell we should go out If no one is around come lay down my heart feels like a million bubbles exploding every time I hear your voice bubble baths in your bathtub what do you think should I hold your hand holding my breath
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Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 6:05 PM UTC
soap, bubbles, hands
and when fireworks stop cracking on the night sky and when the stars refrain from blinking down at streetlights guiding the path to our future and when you kiss me goodbye with burning lips and my own are unscathed whilst my neck is blooming third-degree burns, flesh melting on the site and when the sun turns to moonlight because its own flames have known no heat and when i will stop finding metaphors about firefirefirefirefirefire and when every winter you'd put us through ceases its frozen barricade and when i stop discovering myself hovering over the edge of a lake donning memories that refuse to drown and when i stop wishing there was some possibility of drowning myself in the bathtub - i will finally have the guts to say i don't love you
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Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 12:56 AM UTC
falling out of love
And then the night comes flooding in, like a spilled beer. Fear is a rabid bat; fatally infecting. Loneliness is an ice cube in a bathtub melt- ing slow- ly. Love is a flat toad in the road of life. Hope is a broken dish, an empty pocket, a shattered dream. Life is a sparrow in the cat's mouth, an abscessed tooth, with no antibiotic. It's a whale in a frozen ocean; an eagle in the city. Insanity is digging for the courage to continue day after day after day.
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Aug 5, 2021
Aug 5, 2021 at 12:06 PM UTC
And then the Night Comes
A mother whispers into the fire of Night I hold a match I hold Yarn I Am Wool Shrinking to the formation The intricate designs of your rib cage of your brother's belly of your Grandfather's waist Am I simply a fool? And Who Doth I ask This question too? A Torn book A tattered sonnet of Man's sore feet blistered eyes that are Green That are Brown That are Blue I Lay with myself Tonight I am Awake I am Loud In your Night I Am the Janitor beneath the hardwood floors of your Dream I am the Poorly Waged Electrician With Shoes that resemble an old dog I Light Your Highway Your Street Your Morning coffee your cigarette Am I The Child? I fall in love with women I see on the streets Their Wavy hair like a French sea Her pale complexion the Brown Glimmer in her eyes And I paint on her on Tombstones On Coffee Mugs and on carpets rolled up for the Dumpster At Nights I prefer to dream awake and sit with a BathTub of words of stories that melt like cheese that stiffen like Ginsberg **** that Shriek and Strum like Tom Waits stomach when he starves on backroad streets And when I cannot reproduce I make love to a woman And a poem is made and I kiss her and my lips say 5 am and I wish her not to go But the Dog is waken by Robins by the Pigeons by the digestion of night to day by the Greek Gods and Goddess' Light That Falls down like long hair of woman you have so longed for and you kiss her chest And there is no Death There is no Sleep or ****** addicts or gasoline or paved roads or shaved faces or mothers or Dostoevsky or Beethoven There is just her and you run your fingers across her skin through her hair She is the bottom of the Ocean You are a homeless crab a Shellless Clam falling down down down to the bed of the great ocean and there she lays With a reflection of Youth and Beauty And her complex simplicity makes me think of me as a boy running behind brick collapsed business buildings Kissing a girl behind church Buying Icecream with Josh in Winter That's what a woman does She erases Death from the palms of your hands and your thoughts and you sink to the bottom and you watch the Coral The other fish swimming along and you laugh Because you do not know Death And Death does not know you.
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Apr 28, 2013
Apr 28, 2013 at 3:16 AM UTC
child
A mother whispers into the fire of Night I hold a match I hold Yarn I Am Wool Shrinking to the formation The intricate designs of your rib cage of your brother's belly of your Grandfather's waist Am I simply a fool? And Who Doth I ask This question too? A Torn book A tattered sonnet of Man's sore feet blistered eyes that are Green That are Brown That are Blue I Lay with myself Tonight I am Awake I am Loud In your Night I Am the Janitor beneath the hardwood floors of your Dream I am the Poorly Waged Electrician With Shoes that resemble an old dog I Light Your Highway Your Street Your Morning coffee your cigarette Am I The Child? I fall in love with women I see on the streets Their Wavy hair like a French sea Her pale complexion the Brown Glimmer in her eyes And I paint on her on Tombstones On Coffee Mugs and on carpets rolled up for the Dumpster At Nights I prefer to dream awake and sit with a BathTub of words of stories that melt like cheese that stiffen like Ginsberg **** that Shriek and Strum like Tom Waits stomach when he starves on backroad streets And when I cannot reproduce I make love to a woman And a poem is made and I kiss her and my lips say 5 am and I wish her not to go But the Dog is waken by Robins by the Pigeons by the digestion of night to day by the Greek Gods and Goddess' Light That Falls down like long hair of woman you have so longed for and you kiss her chest And there is no Death There is no Sleep or ****** addicts or gasoline or paved roads or shaved faces or mothers or Dostoevsky or Beethoven There is just her and you run your fingers across her skin through her hair She is the bottom of the Ocean You are a homeless crab a Shellless Clam falling down down down to the bed of the great ocean and there she lays With a reflection of Youth and Beauty And her complex simplicity makes me think of me as a boy running behind brick collapsed business buildings Kissing a girl behind church Buying Icecream with Josh in Winter That's what a woman does She erases Death from the palms of your hands and your thoughts and you sink to the bottom and you watch the Coral The other fish swimming along and you laugh Because you do not know Death And Death does not know you.
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I keep telling myself that if I lay here long enough something's gonna swallow me and it's not because my heads been somewhere else lately it's because I sleep on the floor. Even when I don't. I sleep on the floor. The mattress has holes because mattresses get holes sometimes when you don't have blankets to cover them and you're too cold to put the cigarette out on anything other than yourself or what you have to sleep on now. Last year I'd spend every day in bed with a little bag full of drugs and a map to the bathtub just in case I forget what I took two seconds ago because I think it happened yesterday and I take more. And then I'm shaking, not because I'm cold this time. I'm seizing and nobody is home because everybody leaves me for preachers or church or a campfire or someone prettier. This part is foggy. I remember again a bathtub, an empty hotel bathtub and my mother and I say mama did you leave the door open on purpose and she says I went to church. She went to church. She went to church. Bathtub. I sleep there. Even though we are in a hotel I sleep in the bathtub because I like the way my anxiety sounds when it echoes. I like to hear it. Play it back. Memory. Back to the only house I've ever lived in alone. I'm seizing. I stop. I hear you. I somehow forget that it's 4 in the morning. It's my birthday now, nobody knows but it's my birthday now, teen years behind me but still a teen year drug addiction and you tell me to look out the window so I do. And the sky's on fire. I don't fall asleep again for three days but the sky's on fire. And so am I. And so are you. And I don't want to go back to the place I go to when I see the faces but I put myself here. I push and push and push and then I act surprised when something falls off the edge. I'm alone now. Even when I'm not. I'm alone.
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Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 9:14 PM UTC
even when we're not
I keep telling myself that if I lay here long enough something's gonna swallow me and it's not because my heads been somewhere else lately it's because I sleep on the floor. Even when I don't. I sleep on the floor. The mattress has holes because mattresses get holes sometimes when you don't have blankets to cover them and you're too cold to put the cigarette out on anything other than yourself or what you have to sleep on now. Last year I'd spend every day in bed with a little bag full of drugs and a map to the bathtub just in case I forget what I took two seconds ago because I think it happened yesterday and I take more. And then I'm shaking, not because I'm cold this time. I'm seizing and nobody is home because everybody leaves me for preachers or church or a campfire or someone prettier. This part is foggy. I remember again a bathtub, an empty hotel bathtub and my mother and I say mama did you leave the door open on purpose and she says I went to church. She went to church. She went to church. Bathtub. I sleep there. Even though we are in a hotel I sleep in the bathtub because I like the way my anxiety sounds when it echoes. I like to hear it. Play it back. Memory. Back to the only house I've ever lived in alone. I'm seizing. I stop. I hear you. I somehow forget that it's 4 in the morning. It's my birthday now, nobody knows but it's my birthday now, teen years behind me but still a teen year drug addiction and you tell me to look out the window so I do. And the sky's on fire. I don't fall asleep again for three days but the sky's on fire. And so am I. And so are you. And I don't want to go back to the place I go to when I see the faces but I put myself here. I push and push and push and then I act surprised when something falls off the edge. I'm alone now. Even when I'm not. I'm alone.
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i have one foot in the grave the other in an abandoned bathtub i light a cigarette and stare into the void buddy holly is rolling lumpy black cigarettes over the sound of grown men crying five bunnies crawl out of his eyeglasses and maggots are anchored to his chin you cannot disturb the gypsy bathing in her own river of tears you cannot break the silent wonder i have one arm in a sling the other in a windmill
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Jan 10, 2012
Jan 10, 2012 at 7:47 AM UTC
five bunnies
I may have forgotten some things about you but there are some things I could never forget They are ingrained in all I do... I wear green as much as I can It's my favorite color because it shows off my green eyes that I inherited from you You always said my eyes and smile are my best features I can still see your long legs in the bathtub Bent in like a happy frog just trying to relax Yet you still had time for a conversation with me I wish I would have inherited those long legs of yours :) I wash my face with nozema because when I smell it I think of you When Christmas comes around I buy Andes chocolate mints and make spice tea because they both remind me of you As long as I live and breathe you will always be remembered I love and miss you always ~ Dear Mama Merry Christmas
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Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 9:30 AM UTC
Dear Mama
rite like Dylan/past the point of no return all my life wanted to rite just once like Dylan. but too set in the errors of my way to complement/compliment a master of the phrase, the original tunes I hum’em all plagued and plagiarized and yet pleasing head the Head over to the refrigerator, arrive in one piece, but totally not remembering why I came this way, cause i am way way past the point of no return Oh yeah oh yeah cool brother Corona light to succor the soul, while roasting body slow in a lavender bubble bath and it ain’t even noon and no no room for company, this solo wonder-boy tripping alone pay my bills in the bath, winnow the widow-maker reading list, good ****** on a free sundaey and there ain’t no football to watch and autocorrect authority don’t like ****** it only godded one D, as if He needs two D’s to mess us up better the Corona doing magic trick disappearing so fast and here i am certified past the point of return and there ain’t no more beer in the general vicinity so now the time to summarize my little darlings; don’t break beer bottles in the bathroom, don’t pay your bills in the bathtub when u gots 53.42 in cking, don’t take your iPhone unsheathed into the same vicinity all you will be left with is maxed out cc’s, messes you want not to tangle with, brain leavings of a bad poem half write, it isn’t even bad dylan mimicry but confirmation you passed the point of no return and u happy hum don’t think twice it’s alright it is all on my cover photo
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Jan 28, 2018
Jan 28, 2018 at 12:11 PM UTC
rite like Dylan/past the point of no return
rite like Dylan/past the point of no return all my life wanted to rite just once like Dylan. but too set in the errors of my way to complement/compliment a master of the phrase, the original tunes I hum’em all plagued and plagiarized and yet pleasing head the Head over to the refrigerator, arrive in one piece, but totally not remembering why I came this way, cause i am way way past the point of no return Oh yeah oh yeah cool brother Corona light to succor the soul, while roasting body slow in a lavender bubble bath and it ain’t even noon and no no room for company, this solo wonder-boy tripping alone pay my bills in the bath, winnow the widow-maker reading list, good ****** on a free sundaey and there ain’t no football to watch and autocorrect authority don’t like ****** it only godded one D, as if He needs two D’s to mess us up better the Corona doing magic trick disappearing so fast and here i am certified past the point of return and there ain’t no more beer in the general vicinity so now the time to summarize my little darlings; don’t break beer bottles in the bathroom, don’t pay your bills in the bathtub when u gots 53.42 in cking, don’t take your iPhone unsheathed into the same vicinity all you will be left with is maxed out cc’s, messes you want not to tangle with, brain leavings of a bad poem half write, it isn’t even bad dylan mimicry but confirmation you passed the point of no return and u happy hum don’t think twice it’s alright it is all on my cover photo
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it was the Cubist who created the space and color that everywhere today assails our eyes in    uniform architecture and monotonous design; the various branches of modern art through tedious & exhaustive experiment      & research creating a massive cultural sinkhole whose banal discoveries unveil for all the sameness of form, line and color; Quote from Gorky's 'Camouflage', 1942: I like the heat; the tenderness; the edible; the lusciousness; the song of a single person in a bathtub full of water.                            I like Ucello, Grunewald, Ingres, the drawings and sketches for paintings    of Seurat and that man Pablo Picasso;                I measure all things by weight.                In text for MoMA, describing the 'Garden in Sochi' - series,                26 June 1942 I love Mougouch, Gorky's wife.                What about papa Cézanne; I like the wheat fields, the plow, the apricots, those flirts of the sun.    And bread above all. My lever is the purple; About 194 feet away from our house in Armenia on the road to the spring my father had a little garden with a few apple trees which had retired                              from giving fruit; this garden was identified as the _'Garden of Wish Fulfillment'_ often I had seen my mother and the other village women exposing their naked bosoms, taking the soft, dependable ******* in their hands & rubbing them on the rocks; above all this standing an enormous tree all bleached under the sun, rain & cold,  deprived of leaves. This was the Holy Tree [quoted in 1942] In text for MoMA, describing the 'Garden in Sochi' - series, 26 June 1942 I don't like that word 'finished'.     When something is finished, that means it's dead, doesn't it? I believe in everlastingness; I never finish a painting –   I just stop working on it for a while. I like painting because it's something I can never come to the end of; sometimes I paint a picture, then I paint it all out.    Sometimes I'm working on fifteen or twenty pictures at the same time; I do that       b/c I want to – b/c I change my    mind so often; The thing to do is      always to keep starting to paint;      never finishing the painting [quoted in 1948]
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Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 4:39 PM UTC
Արշիլ Գորկին, տանիքի այծերը
it was the Cubist who created the space and color that everywhere today assails our eyes in    uniform architecture and monotonous design; the various branches of modern art through tedious & exhaustive experiment      & research creating a massive cultural sinkhole whose banal discoveries unveil for all the sameness of form, line and color; Quote from Gorky's 'Camouflage', 1942: I like the heat; the tenderness; the edible; the lusciousness; the song of a single person in a bathtub full of water.                            I like Ucello, Grunewald, Ingres, the drawings and sketches for paintings    of Seurat and that man Pablo Picasso;                I measure all things by weight.                In text for MoMA, describing the 'Garden in Sochi' - series,                26 June 1942 I love Mougouch, Gorky's wife.                What about papa Cézanne; I like the wheat fields, the plow, the apricots, those flirts of the sun.    And bread above all. My lever is the purple; About 194 feet away from our house in Armenia on the road to the spring my father had a little garden with a few apple trees which had retired                              from giving fruit; this garden was identified as the _'Garden of Wish Fulfillment'_ often I had seen my mother and the other village women exposing their naked bosoms, taking the soft, dependable ******* in their hands & rubbing them on the rocks; above all this standing an enormous tree all bleached under the sun, rain & cold,  deprived of leaves. This was the Holy Tree [quoted in 1942] In text for MoMA, describing the 'Garden in Sochi' - series, 26 June 1942 I don't like that word 'finished'.     When something is finished, that means it's dead, doesn't it? I believe in everlastingness; I never finish a painting –   I just stop working on it for a while. I like painting because it's something I can never come to the end of; sometimes I paint a picture, then I paint it all out.    Sometimes I'm working on fifteen or twenty pictures at the same time; I do that       b/c I want to – b/c I change my    mind so often; The thing to do is      always to keep starting to paint;      never finishing the painting [quoted in 1948]
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Happiness bled all over my bathtub. Silliness dried at my feet. But maybe it's just the parts that we're made of. Maybe that's all that we mean. And dreaming suddenly preferred me. And themes suddenly addressed me Mirrors and make-up, tripped over playing cards. Drowned in the chivalry, Heroes and worshiped gods that were made up, furrowed their brows at me. And dreaming suddenly preferred me. And themes suddenly addressed me.
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Sep 4, 2016
Sep 4, 2016 at 12:39 PM UTC
Suddenly Preferred Me