i'm so sorry mom
that he did that to you
and that he's doing it to me

you deserved the world
but it was taken from beneath you
an all-star athlete
with a bright future
descended into drugs
and most importantly love

with an abused child
that grew into a hard edged man
who drank to much
and left without answers

this man we both love
but understand he will not change
he has a sickness
that will never be treated

this man we all love
has so much love
is so pure
yet was forced to be a man
at a young age of toy cars and bicycles

i feel so sorry for him
didn't graduate high school
drank at the age of 13
only to continue bad habits
his father spread to him

such a beautiful soul
that will be forever lost

i am so grateful mom

that you took me from this evil
the evil he didn't mean to create

maybe it hasn't been perfect but it's better than it would have been
away from the drugs
and the *****
and the band

you got your life together

i should understand
that maybe you don't understand
that I'm okay with my body
and i like having curves

Like we accept father for who he is
how he will never change
i should do the same with you

although this life hasn't been "perfect"
i'm still on the way to get a bachelors degree
thanks to you mom

thanks for reading me books
going to all the track meets
and letting me break down in your arms

it ****** me off when you criticize my body
and my clothing choice

but thank you mom
for not dropping into the darkness
and taking me with you

12 days after midnight I found you
You were laughing at god knows what, probably some joke one of your friends made
From across the room, it looked like you didn't have a care in the world
But eventually I realized this wasn't true
As our worlds spun closer together, I learned of your love for cake and puppies and all things that made you smile
And of the dark past that haunted your soul
It was refreshing to know someone so real in this world of Barbie doll girls and boys that didn't know the difference between lust and respect
You made me forget the tragedy of my past
You pushed aside the broken memories of my past and made me feel like I could survive again
You were my lifeboat, my saving grace
You helped me float and forced me to learn how to swim again
And I will forever thank you for being there
12 days after midnight

It starts sprinkling,
Then raining,
And eventually,
It turns into pouring,
Sometimes storming.

Well,
With you,
It started sprinkling when we began to talk,
Then skipped the pouring,
You came in full on as a storm.
Blowing me away with each word you say.

And now,
What are we coming to?
What are we going to do?
Is this rain going to stop?
Or are we going to live our life in a boat,
Saving each other from drowning?

I don’t want this to be another I Love You.
I want this to be something more.

The fallen, bringers of light who died and became angels of the night, they are the air that man breaths; chaos.

So fourth, I was light born in darkness with the healing of the light and the desires of evil. I roam the night in search of withered souls; hearts once made of gold tainted by dark tar. I feed off their darkness, I crave it like a child craves a mothers love.

And so I consume their very darkness, as I removed their demons and make them my own I free them of the suffering and shed light upon their eyes, the shackles now removed they realize their full potential. While I lay here battling their demons and my own; forgotten. As they went on to greatness I was left in the shadows; no one ever bothered to save me.

you are better off
without me than with me.
and i am better off
without you than with you.
you should just save
your time and energy
and let me go,
and i should just save
my time and energy
and let you go.
but you do not want to,
and i do not want to.