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I found myself alone
With the fountain of fears
I sprinkled myself with good thoughts
People smiling, picture-perfect scenes.

I turned red
There was an instant adrenaline rush
My nerves collide with my veins
With an absence of scientific basis.

The smoke grips me
My eyes got blurred
Colour fades and turned black.

My left hand was drowned
Magnets pushed me
Towards the semi-steel
And wooden handler.

I saw the light
And my eyes was brought to halt.

(6/30/14 @xirlleelang)
Number four, I’ve laid down
On its *break of day
, I’ve stirred
No qualms.. no fears.

Lingered another hour,
This frosty feeling – for I can’t break out;
Gloomed by the* shades of darkness & beam.

The moon.. the stars..
They even smirked at me
Revealing each superb facet, I see.

Single-handedly as *I stroll

Literal or thy my innermost;
Goodbye.. Adieu.. I’m all-in now.

Prospect did last
I thought we’ll go,
But he mumbles “No”.

My thoughts’ voyage
Was battling with languor & torpor;
If only I could,
**I’m not here anymore.
The Journey 2011
0918

I regret completing myself -
I got broken on so many things
And I tried stitching my own scars.

Many times, I found myself lingering on what has gone
Pages truly have turned against us
But I never gave up, I've lost
Even my own grip towards my destination.

Another came in when my door was about to shut,
I thought it was good or maybe it was my way out
But later on, as I ponder alone
And away from every detail I even tried to adore,
I then regret it the thousand times --
For I was competing with myself
And I was tired.

It was tough stirring in this life
Trying to stitch every mess
Trying to lure my own loss
Trying to shape my hope.

It was a graveyard here
While it was paradise on the other side,
I do hope I can be free
I do hope the hurt will come to last.

Days have come
And even ashes dried up
There's not even a second I count not
Everything will lapse,
Everything in their own momentum
When no one knows,
No one has ever depicted the future.

And so here I am under this so old, old tree
Wishing for the last leaf to not fall
Praying one day, the paradise I'll see --
I'll never mess up another life
And when I'll wake up again,
There will be beautiful things.
There will be hope, there will be a joy
I am alive, I am set free.
120815

Siya ngang may pakpak, walang laya
Siya ngang boses ang umaga, walang hininga.

"Pisi Mo'y walang tugon,
Sinumpang lupai'y may butil ng biyaya --
Pukpukin Mo ang pakong may anay na kalawang,
Pagkat Balangkas Mo pa lang,
Ako'y napayuyukod na.
Ako'y marupok kaya't nasilo Mo --
Na-silong Sa'yong pag-ibig."

"Aking paglisa'y pansamantala lamang,
Ako'y magbabalik sa panibagong araw,
Babalikan kita,
Huni mo'y siyang sigaw sa balintawak,
Ika'y patotoo sa Aking pagbabalik
*Kaya't humayong may sigla."
043016

He was a psychopath,
But not like the lead of Sherlock Holmes.
Maybe a scientist,
But his name was not because of Einstein himself.
Maybe a doctor,
Not like Dr. Seuss who's a nature lover.
Apparently, he's Professor X
But he never was laid in his techy wheel chair.

I saw Moriarty
But he's like an agent, sort of a policeman.
He died in a brutal story.
How I wish he was a man as Moriarty himself.

And Mary, she was arrogant
Without a white aura of being a nurse.
She's not a patient at all,
Maybe it's her attitude though.

Harry's hair I don't like.
Sorry, not Harry Styles, I mean;
Remember Hermione and Ron's friend?
Yeah, that Potter sequels I once read all day long.
His a wet-look chap and a hunchback.
And Frankenstein himself tore his life into new,
He fell in love with his co-actor in the circus.
But I see no chemistry in them,
Heights were not good at all.

I wore no veil of movies leaked
But some were simply **bedtime story.
"as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us."
- *
Psalm 103:12 (NIV)
We're all sinners. But isn't it amazing that God has separated us from our sins? Isn't it amazing that as he looks at us, He sees as pure as white sands? And isn't it amazing that we are freed and redeemed? Amazing love it really is.
Minsan magtataka ka
Sa kung paano nagsimula
Ano ang dulot o sanhi?
Paano ang bukas
Kung ang ngayon ay wala na.


Makitid ang daan
Patungo sa kabilang espasyo
Malayo sa drogang gamot daw.

Naryan ang nars
Ang sekretaryang nanghihina
Mga eroplanong papel
Simbolo pala ng iilang humihinga.

Takot at may kirot
Umuusbong ang sanhing nakakasuka
Mga imaheng kilabot sa sikmura
Walang nakaririnig
Mananatiling pipi't bingi
Kahit sandali, kahit sandali lang.

Itim ang kulay ng pag-asa
Naroon ang pangarap
Naroon ang solusyon
Tila nag-aabang
Sa kakarampot na grasya.
Akala ko may cyst ako, lycoma raw tawag sabi ni Doc pero kailangan pa rin alisin.  Second minor surgery in my life.
052120

Ito ang gabing
Ako mismo ang sisira sa pangako ko —
Sa pangako kong ililibing ko ang sandaling
Mistulang nabihag ang buo kong pagkatao
Natapos ang mga petsang hindi ko na mabilang pa.

Panaginip —
Ika-11 ng gabi, naggising akong muli
Nasilayan kita
Nasilayan ko syang humahakbang papalapit sayo
Natakot ako, siguro nga
Wala naman kasing nagbago.

Natatakot pa rin akong hindi tayo magtagpo
Sa aking paghihintay sayo.
Ni hindi ko maitali ang sarili sa pagsambit ko ng “oo.”
Siguro nga, nag-aabang pa rin ako gaya ng dati —
Siguro nga isa na lamang akong
Gamu-gamong alaala ng kahapon
Na sa paupos na kandila’y
Tuluyan na ring maglalaho.
"Just because you're trash doesn't mean you can't do great things. It's called a garbage can, not a garbage cannot."
- *
Yunosuke Shigeta
Nahimbing na ang lamparang iyong tangan-tangan
“Di patas ang laban,” yan ang wika mo
Bagkus ba’t ang gaas, di man lamang nasalinan?
Tinalikuran mo sya’t agad nang pinagkaitan.

Kasikatan ang nais ng nag-aalab **** puso
Mali man ang direksyon, sabay hithit at nakikiuso
Ba’t ba ang nais mo’y iwan ang liwanag?
Ba’t nais na ikahon ang sarili?
At sa dilim, saka susubo ng kutsara.

Narating man ang apat na sulok ng kwadra
Hugis bilog ang naging buhay
At panay indayog mo
Parang sirang plaka.

Pagal at walang kamalay-malay
Pagkat mga letra’y inabot ng kamalasan
Nilatigo sila’t naging busal pansamantala
Bilanggong may gitgit sa maling pagkalinga.

Bumuhos ang gaas, nasayang bigla
Ang apoy ay tubig na umusbong nang sagana
Bagkus hinagpis at pait sa sikmura
Abot sa langit na syang nagpapala.

(5/25/14 @xirlleelang)
032417

Tayo ang makabagong henerasyon!
Tama na at bumangon na pagkat
Natutulog ang Diyos at wala Siyang ginagawa.
At hindi ako naniniwalang
May pag-asa pa ang bayang Pilipinas.
Para sa akin,
Bilang isang disipolo,
Bilang isang Pilipino,
At bilang isang anak ng Diyos,
Hindi na tayo makauusad pa.
Hindi na tayo makababangon pa
Ipagsigawan natin sa lahat na
Isang kahangalan ang
Paglingkuran ang ating Panginoon.
Tumayo para sa bayan,
Ipaglaban ang pamilya,
Mahalin at pahalagahan ang sarili't kapwa,
Mas piliin nating
Umasa sa iba at hayaan ang araw lumubog nang wala tayong ginagawa
Kaysa sa
Magbago ng pananaw at magbagong buhay
Kumilos at tayuan ang pananampalataya
Pagkat ang dapat at tama nating gawin ay
Lunurin ang sarili sa hapding dulot ng mundo.
Talikuran na natin ang kapwa Pilipino,
Ayos lang na itapon ang bawat pangarap,
Hanggang dito na lang tayo,
At mali na sabihin at paniwalaang,
Makababangon pa tayo bilang isang lahing may iisang mithiin.
Na makakaya pa nating tumayong muli.
Pagkat ito ang katotohanan,
Wala nang pag-asa ang bayang ito.
Wag na natin linlangin ang ating mga sarili na
Magkakaroon pa rin ng malaking pagbabago.
Kung lahat tayo'y makikibahagi sa pagsulong,
Hindi natin maitatangging
Wala na tayong maiaambag pa.
Wala na tayong magagawa pa at
Hangal lang ang magsasabing
Buhay ang ating Diyos,
Tayo ay ipinag-isang bansa.
Read upwards
010120

Let me not forget where I indeed came from —
That even the blood that runs within me
Was a choice of my Father in Heaven
Who answers my cry and filters even my deepest thoughts.

Let me not forget how my parents worked hard for us to move forward,
That I may be grateful to my ancestors (elders in the family)
For paving the way for us to believe
In Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior.

For as I ponder throughout my days,
It’s like God revealing to me,
“Anak, be faithful in your days
For your generation will benefit
From both your actions and choices”
And so, what can I do away from the Lord?

Let me not forget how the good Lord
Has brought my parents from Romblon to Palawan by His purpose and will.
Their step of faith was a domino-effect
For us to see the glory of God in the time of our encounter —
The revealing of His power and His identity in us.

Let me value even the days that are still unknown to me
The past where they grind for a living —
How they enjoyed walkin’ going to school
And bartering products for school supplies.

God heard their desire not to simply graduate
But granted them land jobs
To which I believe God is glorified.
They tasted being the first generation Christians
For us to experience breakthroughs
Together with the Lord while being patient in His time.

Never did they allow poverty to hold them back
From what the Lord has openly bestowed for us.
We are never rich in material things
But they have instilled in us
The greatest thing we must possess in life
And that is our relationship with Jesus.

Let me not forget how He has lifted my generation (my clan)
To succeed while relying on His Word & sovereignty.
And so during these past few days,
I’ve witnessed how His favor showered
Every member of our clan —
All I can say is praise be to our God!
That wherever we are led,
We’d keep in mind that He is watching over us
And He is always after saving our entire generation.

Let me always rejoice in the Lord
Even in tests & trials of life.
That everything is in His hands
And we are safe in Him.
All the glory and honor of Jesus Christ,
You are the beginning and the end!
In 2020, do reign in our hearts!
032020

You’ve let our doors close,
And one time I heard You
It was so quick but a banging in my heart...
As You say we still don’t know what we’re doing.

I thought it would be the end for us...
For us as one nation and one world
Fall short of Your glory each day
It was never boring in Your presence.

But Lord, here we are with our empty plans,
Still asking for Your undying grace...
You were never upset over us
But You interceded instead.

It was like Your uttered prayer in the Gethsemane,
You’ve proved Your power to heal,
You were so confident w/ Your might to save,
And yes, I will believe over and over again.

We have so much to offer
And we’re no longer counting stars each night,
But each day to rise again,
We’re counting on You.

So Lord, let You will overcome our fears
For this world we never hold,
Even this time we choose to lose our grip
We are one in You.. and so be with us.
1. Jesus Prayed Three Times in Gethsemane

Matthew 26:36-46

36 Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.”37 He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled.38 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

Jesus also came to the point of sorrow and that time was also the time when he actually needs comfort and support from his disciples by being with him. It’s not that he needs them but he wanted them to learn that in tough times, prayer becomes the most powerful weapon.

Reading this now makes me feel that Jesus is still interceding for us up to now. He can actually return now and rapture can actually take place these days for His children not to suffer. But God delays the rapture because He is seeing things higher than what we as human beings can actually perceive. God is actually saving the whole world — He is after saving our souls more than our mortal bodies.

Matthew 10:28

Do not be afraid of those who **** the body but cannot **** the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.

Yes, maybe the world is suffering too much. Not all can find time to worship God right now or see these things happening under the hands of God. There are people who need to work in order to survive each day but isn’t it still a blessing that we have the Lord until now and that we are confident that Jesus will be able to save us eternally.

We can see that in social media, there are too many news and even fake news to which at times, also put and trigger fear to others. But the great news is: Jesus is still here and still available to be called to. It is the greatest time to pray for the world and for the leaders who are above us.

2. Everything is Possible in God but We Are Still in the Waiting

39 Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

When Jesus was praying, I see him kneeling for us and asking Father God to heal the world now but we have to understand as children of God (because of Jesus Christ), that the will of God is not what we ask Him to be His will. We can pray hard right now but the answer is still up to God. We are just to blessed to be heard by our Lord because He sees us in our bent knees.

Jesus was also the reflection of the world nowadays — those believers of God who believes that the will of God shall happen and if it’s His will today, this too shall pass.

3. What Are We Doing? Are we Still Asleep?

40 Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping.“Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. 41 “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

42 He went away a second time and prayed,“My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”

43 When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. 44 So he left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing.

45 Then he returned to the disciples and said to them,“Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour has come, and the Son of Man is delivered into the hands of sinners.46 Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!”

COVID-19 as what Pastor said earlier, isn’t as powerful as we think of it. We are not being selfish here when we knew that many lives were taken by it but disciples of Jesus, wake up! It is the hour, it is the time that we should cooperate more with the Lord. While the world is shaking and while many trembles, let us be more awake and alert for at times like this, we need to be stronger in faith.

Our flesh may be weak and we can actually be affected by the disease or be affected by the news and entertain anxiety and fear but take heart, the Lord has already overcome the world! Let us not fall from the temptation of the enemy that starts in our minds.

2 Corinthians 10:5

5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

John 16:33

33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

And even before this happened to us, we praise God that we have known Him before these things and He already revealed so much to us so that we’ll never rely on what the world says. Coz when we have the right foundation, we’ll never be easily shaken.

Matthew 10:27

What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.

THE LORD’S REBUKE

These past and recent days, the Lord rebuked me,

“Anong ginagawa mo, Anak?”

I was actually reminded as Jesus said this:

Luke 23:34

Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.

And it was as if when Jesus looks at the world now, he is seeing what he is expecting to see but he still knows that there is hope unto us all. And that in this season, many will be saved.

It was a direct rebuke from God, checking things that we do. Do we really know what we are doing? Are we doing the right things? Are we already awake or are we still enjoying sleeping?

Every time I remember these prayers of Jesus and how he prayed for us, I was in an instant self-assessment. I also believe that we, disciples of Jesus hear much these days about the Lord. We will know it by how we truly spend our days these days. God allowed it to remove all the things that keep us busy for us to see what we truly treasure. Remember that God is God. He loves you; so trust Him — trust Him like before coz He is the same yesterday, today and forever! Be a blessing to your home and pray for the world!
And I’m tired of trying to find my own way
And I’m tired of playing the mouse in the maze
Like I’m memorizing the same old phrase
Just repeating my steps to the same old place

Oh, I wanna get lost tonight
I wanna get lost
I wanna get lost in your arms
I wanna get lost
And lose my way into your heart.

Cuz there’s so many voices
Telling me how to get lost in this life
So right now I wanna get lost in you
Lost in you
Before I lose myself
112615 #4:16PM

Minsan, pipila ako sa Fast Food
Pero yun bang pagkatagal-tagal,
Oorder ka't papaasahin ka lang din.

Minsan, magsusukat ako ng damit o sapatos,
Yung tipo mo na, pero hindi naman kasya,
"Okay, hindi yan para sakin."

Minsan, magkakape ako
Alam kong mapait pero sinubukan ko pa rin.
Akala ko kasi sapat na ang matapang lang,
Pero hindi pala ako kayang ipaglaban.

Minsan, magbabayad ako ng bill sa Globe,
Yung nagsabing 'Abot Mo ang Mundo,'
Siya rin palang guguho ng mundo ko.

Minsan, magtetext ako
At lagpas 3sms na't 1KB na,
Tapos wala palang load,
Pati responsibilidad, di kayang pasanin.

At minsan mahihiga na lang ako,
Mahihimlay nang panandalian,
Oo nga pala, 'Walang babaeng nanliligaw,'
**Hindi pa ako basted, Owrayt!
(Waiting sa rendering ng 3D, paasa eh.)
042519

I look up at the sky tonight
And it seems I'm counting the endless nights
Above, You bestow the stars
To which my heart,
In remembrance, defines Your promises
which were never hidden by the clouds.

I saw the roaring and beating of
Every star that represents
Every person, every generation,
Every soul w/ endless tears
Yet has never been forgotten by Your grace.

I see myself sparkling in the sky
And You set hope in my heart
And that one day, all of those stars will unite --
Unite as one as they bring You more glory
You -- You're forever glorified!
041719

Every day it costs me "strength" to see a movie,
But it's much more a reality than an epic fantasy,
I call it "season" as the sun rises:
Birds chirping as an act of worship --
Even nature hymns for your might and glory!
Then, I'll be home -- beat my body
At the end breaking of the dawn.

You set fire like a burning furnace
Sprinkling every thirsty soul
And in Your pages is undying Truth,
Life for those who trust,
Lamp unto every foot, no lost cannot be found --
You're the hope for those who lose heart
And they'll take a stand, as they gain courage on the Cross,
Power is in Your might.

Past is less than a heartbeat
In the sound of the trumpet which awaits
And one day or two, there'll be no boasting of minutes.

You're such a good, good spoiler after all!
You're all-knowing yet all Truths,
You offered to us at hand
What a gift to this generation!

You speak no play, no deception
So real as how the skies depict its beauty -- never lies.
And one day, it is "gain" in the blink of an eye.

It is a joy to enter Your rest
No more tears, no more fantasies
As how the movie rolls --
Just You and the Heavens and all praise are Yours!
This is a movie and it's coming soon!
Jesus is coming soon!
052122

We are called God’s masterpiece –
We are His art in progress.
Each was an abstract of their kind
And only the Artist knows how to interpret it;
Only He knows what we are made of and made for.

When others see the beauty in us,
The credit is not ours but to our Artist.
He made us and He finds beauty in us.

Art is an expression
And God expressed Himself through us.
What kind of Artist is He?
Who made us out of His image.

How selfless is He?
And how loving is He?
No one can even take a glimpse
Of His mindful plans for us.

And so we are meant to create something new,
Something that our soul is passionate about,
Something that boosts our confidence in the Lord,
Something that brings us to the fulfillment of His purpose for us.

To express ourselves in various forms of art —
The art of love, forgiveness, redemption, salvation, and so on.
We indeed are God’s art
And as we continue to align ourselves with Him
That picture becomes clearer each day.
And he said to me, “You are my servant,
    Israel, in whom I will be glorified.”
- *
Isaiah 49:3 (ESV)
032816

Ikaw ang siyang umaga,
Ikaw ang takipsilim at gabi.

Lilihis man ang pagkatao,
Ako'y saksi sa matamis **** mga ngiti.
Nahilom na ang pusong tigang,
Ang pusong niyupi't binulsa't itinapon.
Pero ang pintig nito'y musika pa rin
Sa alon at agos ng kahapon at ngayon.

Ikaw ang alalay ng bagong umaga,
Ang umaga mo nama'y iba
At ang paggising ay kaylayo.

Paulit-ulit man ang mensaheng hindi maisulat-sulat,
Ni hindi maibig ng pusong may yurak.

Hawak mo ang gitarang may ibang sinusuyo,
Nagmimintis ang ngiting
Kailan lamang sa akin ang agos.
Pagkakataon, siya nga namang dibuho na lang
Lanta na ng bulaklak sa disyertong palapag.
112419

Today —
There is a night to reflect on,
As there is a day to celebrate it:
It is love that is pain,
The unspeakable joy
Of the heart of a revolution.

And here —
In this world of cruel men,
It is to love
That is meant to suffer.
And so when you love
with all your heart
with all your soul,
with all your mind
with all your strength.

So is the suffering —
Ever sweeter than the water
Deeper than the well,
Dug into the earth
Where the prophets walked.

But we can die
A hundred times on the Cross,
For there is no love
That does not heal death,
And sanctified is this sky
Under which such a thing as love
blooms.

Risen, we live
When in suffering, we die.
Loving such is the gospel of love
And so we contemplate tonight.
112715

Father, blessed be Your Name
You alone are ever victorious in me.

When I try to do things on my own,
You disarmed me with rebukes
And so I never cried alone.

When I almost lose my faith in You,
I learned what's grace and true love came from You.
Your grace, so sufficient
That it made me call Your Name,
Made me sing, "Yahweh, Yahweh."

You answer when I call
And when I ask You to speak to me,
I open up the pages of our unbroken walls.
You taught me that life on earth won't be easy.

You never came for us to have peace,
Sword You have brought to us
That we may stand firm as You return once again.

Lord, if this is what waiting is,
Let me experience You more.
I wanna die to myself,
That You may live in me continually.

I am part of the Body of Christ,
And Your Body is alive
So let me preach to the world
What You told me to utter.

By grace, Lord,
I'll remember.

Jesus, again, thank you so much
For the cross.. for everlasting life.
Coz when you put in my heart what forgiveness You gave,
I also did try to forgive myself too.

Lord, I love You
Less of me, More of You.
Hallelujah!
Where I escape —
All that is real.

On both sides of the water,
Strange shadows meet
To greet the ****** yet hiding moonlight,
I reflect unknown,
Thrown in the waves,
The water never gives up,
It just takes.

As it flows
With painful motion,
As I run down,
Carrying my sorrows
As all I have,
I run to my Lover:
The dearest Solitude.
God is bigger than our failed ability
To deal with life;
That's why He sent Christ
To die for our sins --
And gave us the power to be victors
As he rose again, giving us *hope.
“Hold your tears back
For as long as you can…”

Admire your surroundings
And the routine that you’ll grow to miss
And as you wait for your name to be called
You unconsciously reminisce.

****** this final moment
This is your second home
Hug this juncture tight,
Hold it and never let go.

Look out to the audience of strangers
And after scanning the place,
Find the tear filled eyes
That belong to the members
They’ve seen your entire life go by
And to them, this day is a reminder
Of how wings have been attached to a clock
And concluding that in fact, time does fly.

“Again, hold your tears
Please, don’t cry
I wish to come and hold your hand.
I wish I was there too,
But Papa’s watching you
And darling, remember
I’m always proud of you.”

(3/21/14 @xirlleelang)
091622

The rain emptied its heavy heart,
And all of them get their crowns in white
Their robes contrast with mine
While some hold their golden wands.

I look up to the sky and begged it to stay still
But the waters wanna bless
The dry coarse land we’re treading in.
And everyone was so thrilled to dance in the rain
To relish their breaks and take pleasure in their poise.

I stood aside seeing their joyful faces
But my heart was also gloomy as I search from within.
Everyone started to leave
And I was one of those who are left with their remnants.

My head is downcast as the rain pours
And I felt discouraged and rejected for a while.
I took what is left with me,
And before they eliminate the printout,
Before everyone else embark on their preceding steps,
There I am – having my moment.

I had no chance to put up a smile
And I stroll with tears
That is about to fall
But as I try to compose myself,
I have to overcome myself again and again.

Even if grief buries my face,
Something sparkly assaults me from within —
That there was someone else who watches over me
Who always claps at me
When no one else does.

Someone up there is granting me courage
Who knows how I worked hard
Until I set foot at this very moment.

And while nobody else compliments me,
He who knows me best says,
“You’ve done a great job.”

From a heavy heart this sunrise,
My sunset was moved by praise.
Here I am calling this day a triumph
And praying for those whom God told me to intervene for.

I knew that I don’t always get the outcomes that I expect,
But He who started my foundations
Will soon bring me to the finish line.
And I will continue to run this race —
Looking at the Gem of my heart.

Truly, humility comes before honor
And honor and praise only belong to my King —
To my King who sees my afflictions
Whether in sorrow or joy,
Let me serve you
With all of my heart, strength, mind, and soul.
I wanna grow old with You
I am living for You
I am serving You
But Lord, it's all because of Your grace.

Like a tree,
I will be rooted in You
Deeper and deeper
Will fall in love with You
The wind will blow
But surely, I will remain
Standing still
Knowing that You are my God.

I will grow higher
Upwardly, You'll see me
Some of my roots
Will be lateral
Grinding itself to the ground of Yours
To Your promised land.

I will be like Redwood Tree
Interconnected with other roots
We'll have the connection of love
Of great encouragement
To strengthen each other
That none may fall.

I will grow outwardly
That I may bear fruits
That will last forever
******* labor oh Lord
May I please You.

I will grow inwardly
There's a hole in me
That only You can fill
Lord, I will love You more
The more empty I am,
The more broken I am,
The more you'll move.

I praise You
And I will rise for You
And flourish the Kingdom of Yours
Help me indeed
Fertilize my soil
Give me the living water
I exalt You!
If you're not losing any friends,
You're not growing up.
050724

Ilang araw na akong namamahinga
At napapaisip ako sa Iyong pagbabalik.
Nais ko nang umuwi —
Nais ko nang magpasakop sa Liwanag.

Ang mga kapagalan ,
Ay magiging luma kinabukasan
At sa pagsipol ng hanging humihinga sa Lilim
Ay mapapawi ang anumang pait
Na mitsa ng pagkagunaw ng bawat pananaw.

Hahalik sa Kanyang mga palad
Na tila walang ibang iniirog —
Walang ibang sandata
Kundi ang pamanang
Yaman ay matatagpuan sa Kanyang mga Salita.

At walang silid na makakalimot
Sa mga burda ng Kanyang pagkalinga.
Lilisan at magbabalik —
Paparating na Siya.
05222021

Hindi ko mapigilan ang himig na humihele kasabay ng Iyong tinig.
Kumakatok ang Iyong presensya sa puso kong walang laman kundi ang pagkauhaw --
Nauuhaw buhat sa mundong mapagbalatkayo.
Sa mundong sapat na ang musika ng mga palamuting may hangganan.

Sa aking pagpikit ay umuusad ang Iyong mga pangungusap,
Bagamat walang tinig sa paligid
Ay namumuo pa rin ang habilin **** tangay ng hangin.
Maging mga kulisap ay walang naggawa't nanahimik na lamang.

Batid ko ang Iyong alok na ako'y tuluyang lumapit sa Iyong paanan,
Ang trono **** ni minsa'y hindi pa nasilayan
Bagkus hanap-hanap ng puso kong pagal sa paghihintay.
At kung ito ma'y panaginip, hayaan **** ako'y manatili.

Kinabig ko nang saglit ang parteng kaliwa ng aking dibdib,
Baka sakaling ang sarili'y natuluyan nang mahiwalay sa aking katawan.
At baka ako'y hinagip na rin kung saanmang lupalop --
Kung saan sa Iyong presensya'y mananatili akong akap.

Nais ko pa ring abutin ang pangarap **** inilaan
Ang sinasabi nilang imposible
Bagkus Sayo'y natagpuan ko ang katuturan.
Ang hiwaga na hindi maipaliwanag,
Ang hiwaga na tanging Sayo lamang nahanap.

Sa bawat pahinang hindi ko kayang tapusing maisulat
Ay nais kong habiin ang aking nararamdaman,
Itong pakiramdam na hindi ko masukat;
Pagkat Ikaw ang aking Pahinga, Sayo ang paghinga.
Their whiskers were transparent
Funny how I cut some
Fluffy their furs are
Oh those sleeping li'l ones.

Heat strokes each other
Not the negative one
Enduring the cold day
Pleading the sun to strike.

Eyes are stones
Luxuric, melted with every grip
Oh the cold breeze
Washin' their fears away
Mama would come darlings,
Stay put and let not the bugs bite.
022724

I found no butterflies when I’m with you,
But there is peace and silent thumping
As I see the calmness of your face.
And your so, so sweet smile
Radiates from the core of your spirit —
Eradicating every pain my heart has.

I don’t shiver when you hold my hand,
And it no longer bothers me
When you ****** me from my old self.
Neither got no goosebumps when you speak.
But when you lead me to the One I love —
That’s when I know I love you the most.

And when my eyes can’t see you,
When I no longer blink as I count one, two, three.
That’s when I know I’m at the edge of my own cliff
And I’m ready to dive and submit
Where the Spirit ignites my vision —
Bringing me to a great heights of my faith renewed.

I don’t make every second count itself —
But I can simply put the verses of my heart
To the invisible jar of hope and start praying…
And never lean on my own understanding,
Never place myself in the drowning emotions
But to bring praise and melody in such harmony.

I won’t deal this this pace
But I won’t shut my doors too.
When the time comes, I will understand
That the best version of me can lift up another soul.
Maybe when I’ll cross this road again,
There’ll be flowers everywhere.

I hope and pray —
But His will be done! The glory is His!
031224

Gusto ko nang magwala,
Gusto ko nang kumawala —
Hahanap ng pluma
At kakatha ng isang tula.

Isa na namang piyesa
Susulpot na parang bula,
Mawawala nang kusa
Lilisanin ang mga tugma.

Alay ko ang aking awit
Minsang mga bala’y mapanakit.
Isisigaw na may dawit
Ang sukli’y kaakit-akit.

Ilang libong mga salita,
Papalibutan ng mga katha.
Isang araw ng pagkukusa —
Isang obra ang maipipinta.
021722

I ponder the days that passed by,
And how I wish I could go back in time
But here I am – testifying the things
That God has done in my life.

Amidst the messy place,
He started answering one of my prayers
And it was an old prayer
And truly His timing was unpredictable.

When God answers,
It is never on our timetable
For He exceeds our understanding,
He exceeds our expectations.

I woke up in His arms today
And I’ve felt that I was in His hands
He carries me and He covers me –
He protects me and He will redeem me.

Tears I pour out on His shoulder
Even if everything seems imaginary.
I saw Him lifting my head
Like a father telling his child,
“It will be alright.”

He says I can trust in Him
And in Him, I can lay all my burdens.
One day, He will set me free
And He will drive away what is plotted against me.

Oh Lord, I find strength in You when I am weak,
I find favor in Your eyes for You have never left me.
I found hope in Your promises
And heaven and earth will pass away
But Your Words will never come to an end.

You speak no lies against me,
You know me so well, my Lord
You keep me on my feet
And I have nothing to boast about.

Lord, You are my Saviour even from the very beginning
And Your truth was never a lie
No one can imitate Your greatness
No one can take You away from Your throne.

I can hear You everywhere I go,
When people encourage me, I see that it is You.
And when they pray and lay their hands,
It is You who touch me.
Ain't blemished with blood
There're queues of personas
Trying to nick every motion and shift
Every angst of the heart
Until they're hopes sink in.

On those blue and hard things
They find comfort from each infirmity
There're linings all over
Maneuvering every groove
Shaving the people out
To the finished and whitened stucco.

Gold steels are not embroidered
The hand of the room
Looks inviting
With warmth and fondness ,
Some drives in
Unlocked and melting every delusion

The sky speaks
The clouds has no mutual feelings
Acting odd and remarkable
No rainbow to be seen.

Blonde arrows
With every breath one takes
With every move one tries
Choosing to hold close the lacks
Accepting every fault
For indeed, at the latter days
**The Healer Himself was the Way.
Now waiting for my turn in the Hospital. Too nervous, but the Lord gives me peace. My friends (both earthly and spiritual friends) told me to go for a second opinion. I was scheduled to undergo my second surgery in the afternoon. Yes, today.. But I thank the Lord. He knows what He is doing. I pray and claim that all who are here will be healed by the Lord. Thank You Jesus! My faith has made me well!
041921

Gusto ko nang gumaling —
Paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa utak ko
Paulit-ulit kong panalangin.
Pero naisip ko rin,
Kaya ko bang gumaling nang walang gamot?

Sa paghihintay kong hindi nakapila,
Sa paghihintay ko sa oras kong itinakda —
Sa oras ko nang pagsalang..
Gusto ko naman sanang
“Magaling na ako
Bago ako mag-undergo ng test.”

Naisip ko, sa ganitong estado pala’y
Gaya pala ito ng paghihintay
Sa pagbabalik ni Hesus..
Na ang nais ko lamang
Ay matagpuan Nya akong “magaling na”
Sa anumang sakit at sumpang dumapo sa akin.

Sa bawat pagsikat ng araw
At sa bawat pagsipat ko sa bagong buhay,
Ang tanging lunas pa rin
Ay ang presensya Nya..
Walang ibang kasagutan
Sa paghilom ng aking pagkatao
Kundi Sya’t Sya pa rin naman talaga.

Hindi ko naman pwedeng madalian
Ang oras ko tapos hindi pala ako handa
Hindi pala ako naghahanda
Sa pagbabalik Nya.
Yung wala pala akong ginagawa
Habang naghihintay ako sa pagdating Nya.

Isinasariwa ko kung ano ba dapat
Ang laman ng puso ko.
Dapat kasi hindi ako maligaw ng landas
Lahat kasi ng “dapat” maggawa ko..
Pero hindi eh..
Gusto lang ng Panginoon
Na maging totoo ako sa sarili ko,
Maging totoo ako sa Kanya..
Hindi ko kailangang itago
Yung mga kamalian ko sa buhay,
Walang pagpapanggap.
052816

Career is calling me,
Ringing for several times.
My thumping heart says,
"These're your dreams, why not give it a try?"
Lingering deep down on my marrows,
An illusion of deception,
An escape to higher dimension.

Yes, I want to be who I wanna be,
But when not in Christ, it'd be a shattered me.

Calling isn't ringing at all,
But he's bumping down my inner soul.
He's not my type but there's something in him.
That waiting becomes a rest that's a prerequisite.
I'd required so much for myself;
At times, rest becomes a chapter to close
I'd to wipe every single misfortunes of old
I'd rather face this moment of yes to His call.

Praying to God led me to found the key,
The gist to a rebel who's vault is in an alley.
Dreams of old, faults of such degree
Of burnt, unwrapped -- an ambushed stealing of me.

"What have you done?"
One voice tamed the thousands,
Bring halt the aphonic mimics of who's legit.
Found myself showered w/ crystal-clear tears.

Awaken, tattooed the psyche of self;
Trashes became a view, floating with the unrest ocean.
I hear no breeze nor its whispering fears,
But fear itself, a coated-candy of trampled gears.
And I'll throw my weakness
Into your greatness
If this broken heart is all you want
022024

I hear the slow whisper of the air I breathe —
And then, I breathe in the Heaven’s atmosphere.
You call me in a different kind of peace,
An elevation where I had never climb up yet.

I see the beauty that I once forgotten —
Even the joy that sprouts within me…
The pressure of this world will no longer drag me
To the depths of where I’m not supposed to be.

I am more than myself
Coz there’s greatness in me.
And it’s You who see the value
Of my real identity.

You chose me
Even before I began to had my eyes on You —
That blazing fire that met the hunger of my soul,
And so I began to thirst for more of You.

You gave me purpose
In this dying generation…
My flesh decays with the worldly desire
And even my bones will not enter
The rest and the Place that my Spirit longs for.

There’s a gift You give —
A fresh start with Heaven’s dew.
As the rays of the sun kiss my skin,
And I will radiate as the morning does —
To radiate from inside out.
Waking up, there’s a Rhema in my head, “ New Dew.”

*It’s something resembling dew in purity, freshness, or power to refresh.

Hosea 13:3
Therefore they will be like the morning mist, and like the dew that passes away early, like the chaff that is driven with the whirlwind out of the threshing floor, and like the smoke out of the chimney.

The miraculously refreshing and reviving effect of dew upon the plants in the Holy Land prompted Isaiah to use it as a figure of resurrection (see Isaiah 26:19) and Hosea to use it as a figure of repentance (see Hosea 14:4–5).

Proverbs 3:19-20
The Lord by wisdom founded the earth,
By understanding He established the heavens.
By His knowledge the deeps were broken up
And the skies drip with dew.

Deuteronomy 32:2
“Let my teaching drop as the rain,
My speech distill as the dew,
As the droplets on the fresh grass
And as the showers on the herb.

Hosea 14:5
I will be like the dew to Israel;
He will blossom like the lily,
And he will take root like the cedars of Lebanon.

Psalm 110:3
Your people will volunteer freely in the day of Your power;
In holy array, from the womb of the dawn,
Your youth are to You as the dew.

Genesis 27:28
Now may God give you of the dew of heaven,
And of the fatness of the earth,
And an abundance of grain and new wine;
092216

To every comma, I'll pause;
To every period, I'll stay;
To every question mark, I'll wonder;
And to every exclamation point, I'll get excited.
You welcome me w/ the warmth of Your Words,
So, Hello Poetry!

Is it easy to let go of you?
When I know, You're my life.
When I know, I need Your every Word.
When I know, I learn from You.
Can I truly say Goodbye Poetry?

Imagine a world without words
A world full of miseries & Mysteries
Reading actions, mixed w/ emotions.
Imagine a world without language,
A world that's too hard to understand,
Or maybe I would be a nomad now.

If I stop writing,
It's as if I'm drawing myself to death.
I would face empty pages,
I would sing empty phrases
With my dying lips.

If I stop greeting you "Hello"
Still, I wouldn't be able to say "Goodbye."
I would rest in my grave,
I would put hymns in my wandering soul.

And so there'd be no goodbyes,
Instead, I'll say, "Hello Poetry!"
And see you around!
032016

Hello Poetry, will you hear my cry?
Can you put my cup into your table of mystery?
Or simply leave out the rest of the words?
Like the stitches you pushed me to wear
Whenever I mix the sugar in pain.

Hello Poetry, will you marry me?
Can you count the uncounted stars
And remain in silence whenever we kiss in the rain?
Will you pour out the wine and give me cheers?

Hello Poetry, will you be my Superman?
Who'll catch me when I fall to the pit of your romantic stanzas?
Or hang me up until you see me in tears of the ocean so deep.

Hello Poetry, will you shoot me in my weakness?
And wrap me up and sing me a song so delicate to my ears.
Will you teach me to punch curiosity of the world's psychopaths?
And tear up my bones until I pursue my calling.

Hello Poetry, will you answer me?
See how crazy I am, wandering in the desert of your magic.
Or is it an aroma of how you allure me to your depth?

I was captivated by you, coz over and over again
I hover into your words, that I became a lover --
A lover of speech and intent;
Of your soul so determined
To push me into the limits of my vocabulary.

I am in love.
I love you, Poetry.
I am your Poet.
Naglalaro tayo,
Pero hindi parang biro.
Mayroong taya,
Pero hindi alam kung sino.
At walang tayo,
Pero sana’y parehas na manalo.

Sisilip ang pusong walang pagkukunwari.
At sa tikas at dunong ng iyong pananampalataya,
Pawang gabay sa nauuhaw na sandali.
Ang baryang sentimo’y itinabi nang kusa,
Pagkat umuusbong ang pagsinta
Sa para sanang taglagas na paghinga.

Nais kong siyasatin ang maamo **** mukha
At ang pagkukumbaba’y batid kong patas at di ulila.
Iyong mga kamay, yapos silang mga uhaw
At ang tula’y binalot ng pakikipaghimagsikan.

Dukha ang pag-ibig ko,
Bagkus hindi mamamalimos.
At sa mala-larong pag-iibigan,
Magwawagi rin tayo.

Sapat na ang nalalabing mga sandali’t
Armas nati’y ibibigkis pa rin sa Langit.
Pagkat hindi lilisanin ang Harding may bukal ng pag-ibig.

Tataya ako’t hindi ka muna gigisingin
Sa himbing ng paghikbi’y, ako’y gapos ng katotohanan.
Sinta, hintay lamang; pagkat matatapos din ang laro
Gigising tayong muli’t bibihisan ng pagsuyo.
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You're not just a Giver of answers
But You alone are the Answer;
I sometimes doubt my future
As I fear it too,
Yet You provide a way out,
A light beyond my feet
You are my certainty.

Of all the pleasures of the world
I once took satisfaction
In fact, I've let myself be drowned
But it ravels me into its depth.

Your heart shall be my heart
I pay no more tribute to my idols
To my once lustful eyes, pride and anxiety
I give to You, oh, grant me forgiveness.

The grain You bestowed me,
Put them in my heart,
That I may cry for hunger,
And thirst due to drought.

Oh, Lord let me mourn
But turn the mourning into dancing
Dance with me, oh angels
Let's praise the Holy King.

Put oil in my forehead
As a sign of Your anointing
Cover me with Your blood
Oh, I shiver with Your eternal grace.

The wine, You share with me
It taste no liquor
But it soothes my Spirit
Oh Spirit, come down
Ignite the passion within me
The feast is now,
Oh the joy of the Lord, fill me in.
022524

Kalakip ng bawat “oo”
Ang mapapait na “hindi” ng Tadhana.
Kung sa’yong palad ko ikakahon ang sarili’y
Mauubos ako sa sarili kong lakas
Habang sumusuntok ako sa buwan.

Mananatili akong aliping
Nakagapos sa sarılı kong mga pangarap
At marahil ito ang maging mista
Ng tuluyan kong pagkabulag
Pagkat sarili ang aking naging Lupang Hinirang.

Ni hindi masasaklawan ninuman
Ang bawat sumisirit na imahe sa aking balintataw.
At walang sinuman ang makapag-papahele
Sa akin hanggang makaidlip
Pagkat iba ang ritmo ng Pagsintang aking kinapapanabikan.

Kung sarili ang magiging lason
Ng aking pagkalimot sa aking unang sinumpaan…
Ay mas nais ko nang tuldukan
Ang bawat silakbo ng damdaming
Hanggang lupa lamang ang kasarinlan.
080316

Hindi ako
Yung taong matapos **** iwa'y
Pupwede **** balikan kung kelan mo lang gusto.

Hindi ako
Yung porket may nararamdaman pa sayo'y
Ihahain ang pag-ibig nang katulad ng dati.

Hindi ako
Yung mananatiling martir
Na kahit nasasaktan na'y iibigin ka pa rin.

Hindi ako
Yung papatawarin ka na lang ng bigla
Buhat sa napakalalim na sugat na iyong iniwan.

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Hindi ako
Pero sa pagbalik mo'y
Kaya pa rin pala kitang yakapin
Nang may buong pagtitiwala.

Hindi ako
Pero patuloy kong nilalatag ang sarili sa Ama
Nang maging tama ang puso't
Masunod ko lamang Siya.

Hindi ako
Pero tiwala ako sa Kanya
Kaya't patuloy ka pa ring minamahal.

Hindi ako
Pero ang paghilom Nya'y walang kapantay.

Oo, hindi ako
At nagpapasalamat ako sa Kanya
Na patuloy akong binabago.
Hindi kasi ako perpekto,
Hindi rin perpekto ang pag-ibig ko sayo.
At may takot akong mahalin ka,
Pero sa pag-ibig Niya,
**Naroon pala ako.
Napakabuti ni Lord.
0118

Hindi Ka lumipas —
Naalala ko noong nakaraang taon
Ilang araw buhat sa ngayong pagbibilang ko
Bago pa sumulyap ang mga pampakulay sa kalangitan
Para magtagisan sa pagbungad sa paunang ngayon.

Hindi Ka lumipas —
Halos itim na lamang ang kulay sa kalangitan
Na para bang ang pag-asa ay kinitil na ng sanlibutan
Na para bang ito’y nobelang pawang paghihintay na lamang
At nang subukang gapangin ng putik ang pangarap ngunit hindi —
Hindi Ka pa rin lumipas
At muli **** binigkas na Ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat
Na ang lahat ay walang kabuluhan
Kung ang Ikaw ay ibabaon sa limot at tatalikuran.

Hindi Ka lumipas —
Gaya ng mga butil ng luha sa aking mga mata
Na ang pagsusumamo ay tila araw-araw na pag-aakyat ng ligaw Sayo
Na maging ang umaga ay tila Simbang Gabi.

Hindi Ka lumipas —
Nang dungisan ng mundo ang mensaheng laan Mo
Ngunit sabi Mo’y tapos na ang lahat
Malambot pa sa bulak ang sumalo sa bawat pagkabagsak
Walang katulad ang Iyong mga yakap,
At heto ako — mas natutong sumandal sa nag-iisang Ikaw.

———

Hindi Ka lumipas —
Ilang beses **** hinayaang masaksihan ko ang pagsagwan nila sa agos
Ang paglipad sa ere na tanging Ikaw lamang  ang sumalo
Na para bang ito na ang huling mga katagang bibitiwan ko —
Ayoko na
Pero hindi —
Pagkat nagkakamali ang dilim sa paghasik ng kanyang sarili
Pagkat ang Liwanag ay panghabambuhay
At hindi tayo kakapusin sa oras
At hindi ito isang “sandali lang.”

Hindi Ka lumipas —
At ayokong palipasin ang kahit isang pintig ng sinasabi nilang “sandali lang naman”
Pagkat sa oras na ito’y hindi Ka lilipas —
At tanging ang pangalan Mo ang mangingibabaw
Sa susunod pang hihiranging mga araw
Kahit pa sabihin nilang nagbago na ang lahat.

Hindi Ka lilipas —
Kahit pa tabunan ng pangungutya ang Iyong kasulatan,
Tanging Ikaw ang magiging bukambibig.
Kahit pa hindi makakita ang mga bulag
Ay ipagdidiinan pa ring Ikaw ang magbubukas ng bawat paningin
At walang dilim na kayang sakupin ang Bayan Mo, Ama.

Hindi Ka lilipas —
At sa bawat pagtaas ng Bandila
Ay Ikaw ang mananatiling may tiyak na katuturan
Na ang mensahe Mo’y ipangangalandakan
Saanmang dako at sulok ng mga Islang hinati ngunit Iyong ipinag-isa.

Hindi Ka lilipas —
Tulad ng mga ulap tuwing ang ulan ay titila
Tulad ng tubig tuwing huhupa ang baha
Tulad ng ilaw at init ng kandilang inapula.

Hindi Ka lumilipas —
Gaya noon, hanggang sa huling hampas ng segundo sa huling pagyukod ng araw.
Maghari Ka —
Hanggang sa huling pagkurap na kasama Ka.
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Nanghinayang ka kaya inayos mo;
Pinilit mo kahit hindi pinili ni Tatay.
Inayos mo nang sarili **** lakas,
Kaya napagod ka; eh lalong nasira.
Hindi ka naman eksperto dyan,
Kaya wag kang magmagaling na alam mo.

Hindi porket sanay ka ay okay na yun.
Hindi naman pinapaayos sayo,
Sinabi ba ni Tatay na gawin mo?
Oo, tamang nagkukusa ka
Pero di lahat ng pagkukusa nakabubuti.

Ilang beses ka bang pasasalo kay Tatay?
Hindi ka ba napapagod?
Kasi kung ako lang, awang-awa na ko sayo.
012717

Uso raw ang pilahan sa dilaw na hintayan. Aalis ako -- aalis nang panandalian. Hindi ako mamamahinga at oo, babalik at babalik ako sayo.

Ayokong maniwalang ito na ang huling sandali sa pinakasandaling pagkakataon ng una't huling pagpili. Kalilimutan ko muna ang kahapon at kasalukuyan at magsasabit ng bandila patungong kinabukasan -- paaalabin ang puso na may panalanging walang paghinto hanggang sa dulo ng pinakadulo'y pananampalataya'y di mabibigo.

Ikaw ang piyesang paulit-ulit na babasahin, ang tulang kakabisaduhin at kahit pa lumiko patungong Timog ang hanging mula Norte, sana'y sa pagbalik di'y ako'y iyong salubungin -- salubungin pagkat kakaiba ka -- iba ka sa kanila; oo, ibang-iba talaga.

Pansamantala -- ika'y di masisilayan ngunit mananatili sa bawat piyesa -- sa bawat piyesa kung saan tayo'y iisa. Tinig mo'y sapat na; tila nalalangoy na maging himpapawid; tila nalilipad na ang karagatan -- oo, parang hindi angkop, pero ganoon ang pag-ibig, minsa'y di mo wari kanyang pagsakop.

At oo, hindi kita bibitawan pagkat ang tayo'y nakatali -- nakatali sa sinulid ng ating pagmamahalan. Itago natin ang kanya-kanyang gunting pagkat ang ating antaya'y bukas na -- bukas at sa susunod na paggising.

(Agwat lang, antay lang -- hindi pa panahon)
Para sayo, magbabalik ako.
072116 #Psalm74&77


Who's roaring in power?
Who's fighting our every battle?
Who's the Great "I Am"?
Everyone who has breath, praise the Lord!

You're beauty we've never seen,
But isn't He the Most Beautiful?
And so He shouts, "Move!" --
"Move from defeat to victory!"

His final breath is now alive in us.
What a powerful Name!
He says, "My child, arise,
I have risen, isn't it more than enough?"
"He is not here, for he has risen, as he said. Come, see the place where he lay." - Matthew 28:6 (ESV)

There's no greater joy than to feel God's embrace as He dwells in us. Sometimes, we stop searching; sometimes, we become impatient. Sometimes, we simply entertain our so-called "great loss," and even denies what's the cost of the Cross.

If the enemy's words aren't lies, why're we still in pain? We're only secured in Christ; no need to pretend we're strong enough. Yes, lies hurt but the Truth will truly set us free. Hope is in Christ and has become our anthem -- to sing a new song each day.

And that power that raised Christ from death: it's more than magic, more than we could ever imagine. It has never been a trick. And as we've experienced the cross, we can never ever unlearn that genuine love of God for us. And so we need His presence for us to know His will - to see the place where He'll bring us to.

Thank God, for we can endure. Writing this down, oh.. Lord, thank You for who You are! In Jesus' Name, Amen! Amen!

(Thinking of those unforgettable faces I met as I walk with my Jer. 1:7 L.V. Sometimes, God sends people to us; sometimes, the other way around. Strangers who gave us quality materials to be firm in Christ. I love you all in Jesus' Name!)
071116 #8:28PM

No matter how fine my aggregates are,
I still feel incomplete.
I'm not that strong,
And alone, I'm easy to break.

You could feel my cracks and leave me to banishment,
But You showed me the other face of strength.
Never did I know that there were three hollows within me,
Until I experienced those cracks
that made me lose my own strength.

The hard rock was shuttered,
And many times, I felt so useless.
But there You are and picked me up,
You carried me and reshaped me into a new me.
With tools, I had never known,
You accompanied me to reach my uttermost  potential
And yes, I have known my purpose.

You filled my holes with who You are
As a three-in-one God
And now, I have acknowledged how vital it is
To allow your reinforcement
In order that I could stand still.

You're not just testing my resistance and foundation
But stretching me to the fullness of Your expertise.
You can unused me and break me if You wanted to
But You had Your goodness and grace extended
In order that I may live.

I know, I would be hurt
But I know I was found by You,
And I was made by You --
I was made for You
Seeing those hollow blocks in construction, they remind me of who I am and whose I am now, reinforced for the glory of God! I feel blessed.
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