032720

In this world, all fall short of Your glory
No man has ever seen You
You sent Your servants for us to know You
Yet You reveal Yourself to those who truly seek You.

No man can’t fake himself,
We are naked before You —
You know our darkness,
You know how to save.

We’ve known you while we were still sinners,
And Your love brought transformation
For we’re surrounded by You...
Your wrath is what we truly deserved
Yet You so loved us and You keep on loving —
Loving us that You saved us.

You don’t deserve our punishment,
You don’t deserve the wrath of the Father,
Yet You yourself died for our salvation,
You died to satisfy His righteousness,

Oh holy, holy, holy are You!
And when we say holy,
There is nothing like You!
You are magnified in the Heavens
And here we are praising You
On earth which is Your footstool.

Who can stand against You?
Your grace is just so sufficient
More than how we breathe the air
And we’re satisfied...
Who can rule more than You?
For in Your uptight hands, You hold us together.

Who can separate us from You?
Your Words are written in our hearts
May we not sin against You...
You're more than good,
There’s no better replacement —
I mean, You really can’t be replaced.

All those times, I've tried to hold my heart
I found it beating in minutes unknown
No words to tell you face-to-face
'Til we've seized this moment
Sending tears in Heaven's rest

Deep within, I have hidden these tears
Of months of pain, so sweet as I'm in vain
Until true love has cast out fear
A love more than earthly's paints
A love, keeping no record of wrongs

I was led to you for a purpose
But now's the time to let go,
To let the Spirit flow
Bringing this crazy feelings into halt
For love was not yet home

I cried w/ countless tears
Three days seems painful years
Where am I? Who am I? All I see is fears
Found my soul searching for You
Leaning for Truth to set me free

But now I woke up in Heaven's rest
As if the pain is all gone
As if it's all done
And now I..

I can overcome
Days of mourning has ended
I can dance w/ Your waves of blessings
This is the joy of pain
The power in Your Cross, I gained
You're more than enough (just more than enough)
Your grace and love, welcomes me in Your arms
You live in me, You brought me home

Again and again, I am restored
All of my days, You rescued my soul
Day by day, I'm born again
Like a child, I died in your embrace
Now, Your breath is my life

And so I sing a new song
This is infinite praise
The sound of surrender
The rythm of grace

0517

I saw you
And your head held high
But was never pride.

I heard you
And your words tore me down
But it was never a waste of time.

I closed my eyes
And I had my eyes open
I can never have you
So now, I disowned you.

Ito ang umagang
Nanaisin kong huminto muna ang Araw nang saglit
Kung pwede bang manatili muna Sya
At ako’y hayaang pagmasdan
Ang kanyang kariktan.

Nais kong bumilad sa sinag ng Araw
At magpasakop sa Liwanag Nyang taglay
Nais kong malusaw ang bawat kamalian,
Ang bawat pagkukunwari..
Pagkat ayoko na..
Ayoko nang magpanggap pa..
Na kaya kong mag-isa
Mag-isa na wala ang mga kamay Nya
Ang mga gabay Nya
Na maging sa gabi’y
Nasisilayan ko pa rin
Ang kanyang anino sa aking pagpikit.

Gusto kong huminto ang Araw,
At ako’y makita Nya..
Kahit isang iglap..
Kahit isang saglit lang..
Kung pwede lang..
Wag Mo akong Iwan
Na sa gabi’y
Ikaw ang magbigay Ilaw sa aking landas
At ako’y yakapin
At ang Iyong sinag
Ang magsisilbing lakas
Sa bawat pagbangon ko sa Umaga..

Sayo ako magsisimula,
At ayokong ito’y magwakas
Na para bang nalimot ko
Ang lahat ng mga misteryong
Iyong ipinakita
Iyong ipanaranas.

Ayokong dumating sa katapusan
Na ako’y walang muang
Na Ikaw ang aking Simula..
Ayokong magtagpo tayo
Sa gitna ng aking mga kamalian —
Mga kamaliang hindi ko itinama
Kahit na pinagbuksan Mo na ako
Sa panibagong Umaga.

Kung ang bawat araw na lumilipas
Ay siya ring mga pahina ng aking buhay,
Bakit pa..
Bakit ko pa hahayaang
Dilim ang magsilbing umaga?
Kung Ikaw naman ang tunay na Simula ng lahat..
Kung landas ko nama’y
Kayang-kaya **** bigyang liwanag
At lahat ng masasaklawan ng aking mga mata
Ay simbolo ng Iyong paghahari.
Lilikumin Mo ang lahat
Gamit ang Iyong Liwanag
At ang lahat ng mga naggising
Buhat sa pagkakahimbing
At mga bangungot na tila walang katapusan
Ay sabay-sabay na babangon
At lalakad sa Liwanag na Iyong hain.

Masisilayan ko rin ang mga ngiti
Ng pagpupunyagi at tagumpay
Na walang balot ng anumang pagkukunwari,
Walang tampo’t galit
Na bumabalot sa bawat katauhan
Kung saan hubad ang lahat
Ngunit tanggap Mo ang lahat
Ang lahat ng mga nabago ng Iyong Liwanag
Ay kusang sisibol at uusbong
Ng may papuri at hindi parang
Mga paupos na kandila
Na nauubusan rin ng lakas.
Ngunit sila’y tila mga tanim
Na Iyong dinidiligan sa bawat araw —
Mga ginintuang araw
Na hindi gaya ngayong kukupas din..

Balang araw, ang lahat ng salitang
Mamumutawi sa bawat labi’y
May iisang sigaw
May iisang palamuti na ibabandera
At susuko sa Iyong kabutihan.
Ang bawat nilalang
Ay mabinihag sa Iyong kaluwalhatian
At hindi na..
Hindi na mauubusan pa ng Liwanag,
Ikaw mismo ang magkukusang
Punasan ang mga matang lumuluha,
Lumuluha buhat sa paghihintay..
Pagkat nariyan ka na..
Nariyan na ang Iyong kaligtasan.

Ikaw, sa bawat oras
Sa bawat sandali’y
Ikaw pa rin ang maging dahilan
Ng pagtibok ng akibg puso
Ang maging sigaw
Ng aking napapaos na lalamunan.
Ikaw ang maging dahilan..
Ng aking pagtaas ng kamay
At sa ere’y hindi Mo ako iiwan,
Ni hindi Mo ako kinalimutan..
Ikaw, ang Araw at Gabi..
Sayo ang aking papuri!

071424

Kung ang bawat palakpak at panalo ko sa mundo’y
Siya namang mitsa ng paglayo ko Sa’yo —
Huwag na lang siguro; hihinto na ako.

Kalimutan na lang natin ang entabladong ito
At ikahon ang mga bituin sa’king mga mata.
Mga damdaming minsa’y napapariwara,
Ngayo’y kusang inaanod sa hiwaga ng Pagsinta.

Kakatok tangan ang pahiram na hininga…
Palimos ng kahit isang patak ng dugo **** dumanak.
Pagkat kaligtasan ang aking hanap,
Sa isang iglap ako’y magbabalik sa simula —
Sa simulang nalimot at nilumot ng kasalanan.

Ako’y magbabalik Sa’yo, bunga ng yaman ng Pag-ibig Mo.
Sa silid na ang tanging Hari ay Ikaw
At ang Ngalan Mo ang nananatiling may kabuluhan.

Sa’yo ang unang yapak
Habang ako’y nakaakbay Sa’yong Kalakasan
At Ikaw lamang ang aking palatandaan
Na ang pintua’y bukas na
At handa na upang maging isang Pahingahan.

Sinukat ko ang bawat metro't pinagtagpi-tagpi
Sa nakalatay na papel na siyang may lamat
Na minsan kong pagkakamali.

May ilang letrang naging tuntungan
At ang alagang walang buhay --
Ang koneksyon ay tungo sa bukal ng liwanag;
Moderno na kasi kaya't kailangang makisabay
Noong manwal pa lamang, mapagsa-hanggang ngayon..
Teknolohiya'y senyales na ng transisyon.

Matagal nang napaso ang pagal kong mga daliri
Sigaw nila'y tulog sa walang himbing na mga sandali
At sa kursong tinapos, ngayon pa lamang ang simula
Nagising ang pangarap na siyang binigla.

Ang oras daw ay ginto
At minsa'y kailangang habulin ang mga numero
Ngunit sa bente-kwatrong tangan-tangan
Tila hindi sapat.

Muli kong binilang ang nalalabing araw
Tanging ang pangpito ang siyang pahinga
Ganito pala ang katotohanan, wika ko.

Salamat sa huling araw
Na iluluwal muli ang gintong araw
Itataas kong muli ang kapagalan
At ako'y bubuhusan ng lakas at determinasyon.

Sabi Niya nga sa akin,
Wag daw akong mapapagod
Pagkat hindi matatapos ang araw,
May panibago na namang hamon.

Salamat sa Maykapal
Salamat sa saglit na pahinga
At sa tubig mula sa bukal;
At minsan ako'y tinawag Niya
Ako'y tumango sa layon, may armas ng pagkaligtas
Ang pananampalata'y patuloy din.

Bitbit ko ang puso Niya
Na lagi Niyang bahagi sa akin
Sa banal na kasulatan na bumukas ng pag-iisip
At nang ang buhay ay mapahalagahan ko.

Kung ang direksyon na ito'y balakid sa layon Niya
Mabuti pa't maglaho na lamang
Ang bawat oportunidad, kahit ito'y ikatutuwa ko
Tanging ang nota ko'y Siya lamang
Wala nang iba pa, at kung nasaan man Siya,
Doon ako'y tutungo; doon din ang paghimbing.

Salamat Ama, salamat Hesus at sa Banal na Espirito - purihin Ka!

(6/28/14 @xirlleelang)

070616 #ElNido #BHouse #JGH

May gusot sa kalendaryo ng puso,
Kaya't muli kong binalikan ang eksaktong petsa.
May punit ang pahina,
Kaya't kumuha ako ng pandikit
Para sa may lamat na larawan.

Taong dalawang libo't labing-apat,
Nalalabi ang oras sa libingan.
Hinukay ko sa'king memorya,
Baka sakaling ang ugat ay may nutrisyon na.

Dinampian ko ang sarili ng panyong maputi,
Sigurado akong hindi na mamantsyahan pa.
Pero pagsilip ko'y may misteryong bumalandra,
Ngalan mo'y nakaukit pa rin pala sa tadhana.

050516

I am nobody
For my existence doesn't matter,
Does it?

I am a rebel
I chose to neglect Your thoughts
But I was never in a cellar.

I am a sinner, aint a saint
Red, the color of my soul
Red, the color of resurrection.

I am unashamed
I used to hide in dark curtains
Twirling every tip,
Losing sight towards the Light.

My name, I forget
For now, **I am Sorry.

Plain white in flush,
This clean shining linen has fitted me.

I’m trouble-free now.
I was filled with joy,
For He has clothed me
With both salvation and victory.

I can’t wait but I will..
For His time is as perfect as it is!
For He became my eternal light,
As His own glory shines on me.

Brighter than the stars He is.
More lasting than the sun and moon,
There, his light tenders me with truth;
My sins, he has removed –
As far as the east is from the west.

He who has formed me
Will soon be my Groom.
And in the altar of grace,
I will wait with full persistence.

The Groom Himself will be delighted.
For He knows I became faithful,
And have prepared for that day.

It's the wedding feast of the Lamb,
And a fresh start is about to come!
And saying “I do, Lord”
Will make me a new Jerusalem!

(7/29/13 @xirlleelang)

111822

If I die today, I don’t want a sorrowful service
I know it is quite inevitable and yet I want people
To learn not to lose hope or lose joy.

If there’re words that they will utter,
I pray it’s no longer for me but for those who are left —
Who are truly in need of comfort as living individuals.

Let them play a Worship Song
And remember the goodness of God
And His faithfulness that will endure forever!

For even death should not separate
Every relationship with Christ
But death should add fire to their faith.

I hope they will sing a song for the Lord
And no longer sing me some lullabies
For I would no longer hear them.

If I die today, I want to leave not an earthly legacy
But I want people to remember me
As a follower of Jesus who has finished her race.

If I die, I would no longer run
Coz I have stopped where God told me to stop
And let me see His face as He grants me a “Well, done” hug.

But today, I still breathe the air God has given the world.
Life is a gift and there’s no reason to waste it.
Let me appreciate life by serving my Master with all I have.

Today, I want to keep speaking life to others –
And I’d rather choose to empower them now
Than hearing them later with no ears to sense them.

I’d rather receive rejections today as I speak the truth
Than overhear their late acceptance
When I lie in the last home the world could give me.

Today, I want to move freely – led by the Holy Spirit.
I’d rather move now for the sake of God’s will
Rather than not being able to move anymore
Because my timeline has passed its season.

I know God has planted so many dreams within me.
I know I can do more in this world and I can achieve more.
But I want to learn how to achieve the things
That my flesh cannot attain.

I want to give a smile,
Not to those who may laugh at me when I am at my worst.
But I want to focus on my Only Audience
Who is the Ultimate Judge of my life.

I knew I am inconsistent in so many things
And I have failed my God so many times.
But if He exposed me today, then it is for my good.
I may not understand why and how
But I am sure that my God doesn’t lie.

He knows I am tired of the pressures life pours on me.
I may find myself drowning in the worries of this world
But these things are only temporary.

I know someday, I no longer need to lie on my bed
To have the rest which I think I deserve.
And when the Day comes,
I will no longer sleep
And I can no longer distinguish Night and Day
For my eyes will only be fixed on the Apple of my eye.

It’s crazy pleasing the world
And running the way people do.
We are all tired but may we know
The rest our Saviour had freely given us.

We don’t need to toil the way we know how.
Coz this time, we will shift from “prison” to “reason.”
And there will be a huge elimination
Of the things that do not matter in eternal life.
And I pray we can distinguish it
Through discernment which is a gift from above.

Society called me
He gave me a name, a bunch of names.
So I walked the eggshells,
Peered through narrow gaps
Where curtains never met
At moon's glow or sun dull.

The pale yellow sunrise wished me Goodluck
I wanted him to be a night
So I closed the windows --
Haunting nightmares even if it's still daylight.

The sharp barks made an odd sound
People had slid wrists and knees scars
Where they too, had once dreamed
Laying themselves on the sofa by the wall.

A man opened my door while it was still dark
And in his hands was a chess board.
He said, "You didn't play well,"
There I saw his clothes -- torn.
His blood was drippin'
kissin' the laminated flooring.

A reverie --
I was in bed the next mornin'
With the chessboard beside me.
"The eggshells are fragile, and so are you"
The man left me a note.
I cried like a child, reminiscing about the old days.

The picture of mama and papa on the staircase,
They quarrel for a penny.
The laughter on the balcony
When my siblings and I had choco chips for midnight snacks.
The melody of the guitar
When my breath runs dry out of tune.

It was all in my memory,
Fresh like a heartbeat reborn.
My flesh was weak,
That's why I had these shutters all day long.

My days of years --
Society in different persona calls me.
And every day, each calls me
In adjectives and in digits.
Throwing me in suspense and horror
But I realized I was not in a movie of terror.

I met this man who had a key to my room
And I wonder why I have let him in.
My house was a disgust when I look at it with my eyes
But when his footsteps left imprints,
He had me in tears.
For the years that I've spent
was simply shredded with fears.

So again, I was looking for this man
But have never seen him.
But I was still searching for him
I am alive in just a chess board game
And how could it be?

Yes, in a chess board game
He had me "checkmate."
I won as he has won and I was reborn --
When I met this man.

112615

Sa kwadradong hawla
Doon nagsipagtirapa ang bawat paslit
Sila'y mistulang sabik sa yakap ng Ina,
Pagkat kalinga'y hindi maupos-upos na kandila.

Minsan sila'y naging malaya,
Si Inay nga pala, siyang nagpaubaya
Tila martir ang minsang naging paslit,
Pag-asa nila'y sa alikabok na sinisipa.

Bagkus ang Inang siyang nagsaplot sa kanila,
Nilisan at hinayaang maibigkis, walang kasarinlan.
At doon sa iisang hawla'y magtatagpo muli,
Sa bentelasyon, sila'y may kakaunting sandali.

Tunay ngang ang paslit ay magiging Ina rin,
Oras niya ngayong kabiyak sa salamin.
Iniwang Ina'y may ikalawang henerasyon,
Sa kanila nama'y may namutawing leksyon.

Maybe you're not that strong
Coz you're not weak enough.

060215

"In the beginning.."

Life sprouts, life blossoms
In the Manual of Life
You breathe unto the dust
And so bodies took shapes
And were crafted with Your embrace.

You rescued us, brought restoration
Your uttered promises,
Always kept.
We learned to trust,
To value the beginning
But there it is,
An unending ending.

"It is finished.."

Your blood was the colour of our soul,
Hearts undarkened, DNA shared.
Our sinful spirit, You cast out
And so the story has just begun.

Our parchment, we not know
Even the curves or the linear,
We've never drawn
But the art of your unmoody grace
Now an artifact of entire being.

---

Who we are is greater than who we were
And what I am is greater than what I was
To look with "Your Past"
Is to envision "Our future"
And so sin lose its power,
It cast no butterfly effect.

Tell us the stories You've wrote
Engrave in us Your pure heart and soul
Heaven calls as Your voice do so,
And so we **answered back.

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You In my brokenness
And no other king could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

I have nothing more
Than all You offer me
There is nothing else
That's of worth to me

And I love You Lord You rescued me
You are all that I want You're all I need

I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You My cares released

In Your freedom I will live, In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

032020

One of these faded nights,
I got awakened with revelations over my pillows.
I heard something I longed to compare
With something already present.

It was actually last night,
But my eyes were still shut
So I can’t recognize if it’s a dream or not.

It’s not a sweet sound
Nor a horrific one
It’s not even as long as my breathing per second,
Not even as short as the whisper of the wind.

But to recall —
I was like, “Is this the time?”
I’ve heard it but I was not sure where it came from,
I was never sure if I truly woke up or not.

So today, it was different
But I’ve got reminded of God’s promises
That He’s coming back so soon —
So soon that one will no longer his/her name.

You swell some strain on me,
You, middle kingdom!
Eradicating small detachments,
Of both sailors and marines.

They were ranked on islets and reefs,
With an integer of nine –
There in the island next to me,
I’m sure, you know who Spratly is.

Always wanting such detachment
To be eradicated by your own;
Now stationed
On a World War II era landing ship.

Your toy-ships came near me,
With 9-kilometer of the LST.
“It’s there illegally,”
How adamant that be!

I’ve tipped you off already,
Surely will I stand firm!
Then, you’ve countered me on! –
Opting for the ******* of more skyscrapers;
Those that are on stilts;
Now nearby two Reefs & a Bank? –
Nearby my darling Palawan Island!

“There is no room at all,”
For the negotiation on some point,
You’ve declared.

Oh, here’s my friend, U.S.
Left us with course of action to try;
Everyone calm down,
Be less provocative.
For often, he flies over;
Probing some stuffs.

You are the biggest offender, my friend;
In this dispute, you show no sign of slowing;
Or backing, down.
But hey, I won’t give up!

(9/9/13)

Nangungusap ang mga mata
Kasabay ng paglagas ng mga utal-utal na salita
Walang kuwit, walang tuldok
Pilit na binubuksan ang mga pusong nililok ng galit at tampo,
Walang katapusan ang kani-kanilang mga pangungusap.

Nababalot tayo ng hiwaga
At ang ating mga puso'y napupuno ng mga lasong
Sinulsi ng kirot ng kahapon.
Lumipas na --
Nilipasan na tayo ng ilang mga umaga
Napuno na tayo ng mga agiw sa paghihintay.

Iniisip natin sa kung papaanong paraan ba
Maihahayag ang mga palamuti sa ating imahinasyon.
Paano ba natin masasabayan ang lumalagablab na galit?
Na ibinubuhos sa atin gaya ng may kumukulong tubig sa takure.
Paano nga ba tayo mananataling walang pakiramdam
Hanggang matapos ang delubyo ng poot at paghihiganti?

Umiiwas tayo sa hanging mapanakit
Ngunit tila ba hinahabol tayo kahit tayo'y nakapikit na.
Walang hikbi at walang kamalay-malay tayong minamanipula
Ng mga pagkakataong tumutukso na tayo'y talunan na.

Ngunit sa lahat-lahat ng mga ito'y
Pipiliin nating tumayo pa rin
Bitbit ang ating mga bandila
At kahit pa sa ating pananahimik
Ay kusang sisigaw ang mga tala para sa atin
At mas magliliwanag pa ang mga ito.

Ang mga makakapal na ulap
Ay makakaya na nating hawiin
At magsisilbi itong palatandaan
Na tayo'y  hindi magpapalupig
Sa dikta ng tadhana at panahon.
Pipiliin pa rin nating maging tama
At ang lahat ng mga pasakit ng nakaraan
Ay magsisilbing pabaon natin
Sa kinabukasang henerasyon.

Kaya ko, kaya mo --
Kakayanin natin,
Kaya natin, kasama ang Panginoon!

"Nandito ako"
"Hindi kita iiwan"
"Susuportahan kita"
"Nagtitiwala ako sayo"
"Kayang-kaya mo yan!"
"Laban lang!"

Paulit-ulit kong sinasambit sa'king sarili nang pabulong,
Tila nagdarasal ngunit ang totoo'y
Hindi ko na rin alam kung hanggang saan pa ba ang dulo.
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Wala na naman akong laban sa ihip ng hangin,
Sa ihip ng panahon.
Wala na naman akong laban
At ang buo kong pagkatao'y
Kusang dudungaw sa aming bintana,
Hahagilapin ang araw,
Nasaan nga ba ang Silangan?

Gagayak ako nang walang patumpik-tumpik,
At sasabay ang agos ng tubig sa bawat butil ng aking luha,
Para bang humihinto na naman ang oras.
Walang kasiguraduhan na naman ang araw na ito.

Araw-araw ay nag-aayos ako ng uniporme ko,
At ayun, magbibilad sa initan gamit ang aking lumang motorsiklo.
Kukunin ang selpon sa aking bulsa, magpapa-load
At maghihintay ng sandamakmak na mga utos.

Minsan, napapagod ako
O sabihin na lamang nating madalas,
Na sa bawat pintuang kinakatok ko'y
Daig pa ako ng nangaroling
Sa bilang na mga baryang iaabot sa'kin ng tadhana.

Minsan iniisip kong
"Ganito na nga lang ba?
Paano ang bukas?
O may bukas pa nga ba?"

Minsan naman, nakaririnig ako ng masasakit na salita
Pero minsan parang mga bala na lamang itong
Hindi tumatagos sa aking ulirat,
"Manhid na nga ba ako?
Sabihin mo, Tadhana."

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Pinagmamasdan ko na naman ang mga kamay ng orasan
Kanina pa o hindi ko na malaman
Kung kelan yung huling "kanina,"
Naghihintay ako ng saklolo,
Kasabay ng huling kumpas ng mga kamay
Ng naiiwan kong kaibigang de-baterya..
"Dito na lang ba magtatapos ang lahat?"

Nagbibilang na lamang ako ng oras,
Ng hininga
At baka hindi na nila ako maabutan,
At doon ko huling nasilayan ang mga aninong iyon,
Wala na akong maintindihan..
Wala na akong marinig pa..
*Ito na marahil ang huli.

012116 #Genesis

"Ikaw na siyang tagapangalaga ng mga tupa,
Habang ako'y hamak na ligaw lamang,
Sa lupaing yaong paraiso sa inyo.
At kagandahan mo'y
Siyang bukas kong may sigla."

"Ginoo, ako'y hanga sa iyo
Pagkat tupa ko'y iyong diniligan.
Ni hindi mo sinadyang ako ang unahin."

"Hayaan **** pagsilbihan kita,
Kahit pitong taon pa.
Giliw, ako'y maghihintay.
Mabilis lang ang araw
Sa pusong tunay na nagmamahal."

"Paumanhin, tila nabalewala ang iyong pagpapagal.
Kaya mo pa bang ako'y ipaglaban?
Kung hindi ma'y, sana'y sambitin mo
Nang maarok ko ang tugon mo."

"Sinta, ako ma'y subukin pa
Ng pitong taong muli.
Ipaglalaban pa rin kita,
Pagkat pag-ibig ko'y hindi limitado ng panahon."

"Salamat pagkat ikaw ang kabiyak,
Puso mo't lakas, tila'y napagod.
Hayaan **** ako mismo
Ang siyang magbigay kapahingahan."

120715 #4:30PM

Just a thought,
To where everything’s ******,
Eyes in leer – flameless –
You are Beauty.

Open eyes, open skies
Open realm, open lies.
White as snow, I was
You’re the apple in spells.
As I lived, I have died too.

With rustic munitions,
You gashed my heart out.
With your circles in hoax,
You murdered me.

A sunless morning,
A moonless night,
An air so humid,
An unsalted oceans.
For in time so impeccable,
Befuddling in misdemeanors,
You’re the Beauty who’s a Beast.

Just in time,
**Forgiveness is an erudite.

071216 #6:53AM

Before you,
My life was just the way it was,
Everything was in its motion
And I do know,
Love isn't void.

Then, you became that revolving planet,
Away from your own axis.
My heart was in collision
For I thought you're just in time --
Just in time to carry my loads,
To breakfree me with a non-universal smile.

But after love has conquered its fear to love again,
I was stomped and that love,
You tore it to be invisible.
In you, it became impossible.

The moment I did stop for awhile,
Was also tht moment I thought I lost the fight.
And the way I've known love
Was intended to forgiveness,
To cuddle myself freed.

I have loved you
And I held you for too long.
Yet, just in time, I have to let you go --
Just in time,
Real love will be bound by its own.

The voice was snow crunching
Beneath my feet
Early February
And leaves were wheeling over,

Fresh cut grass
It was rain tiptoeing
In spring,
It’s as gentle as breeze.

Breathe in the air
Bend like the reeds
Let the razors take their place
But neither be empty
Nor full of tons of mist.

Forever I shall wait
Let you be the groom
Our hearts shall be engaged
Not by the golden or silver rings that last
But by the binding of eternal life.

Then, I shall say, “Yes, I love you too,”

(2/21/14 @xirlleelang)