The love we share could
melt away the ice that has
frozen this old heart

3:57 PM
4/2/21

Do you ever feel
strange to be in your own skin-
like a foreigner?

2:09 PM
6/3/22

There are countless ways
to show your love,
each way unique like
every little snowflake,
each one glistening to be seen
in all its intricate beauty.  
Let my love fill your skies
with endless snow like that
of a Christmas morning.

The history of
you and me, it's the saddest
story ever told

6:34 PM
9/7/19

You say
it’s too hot
to see the sights-
that’s okay,
because baby,
none of these sights
compare to the sight
that is you.

The soul is a funny thing-
in one moment, joy,
and in the next one, sorrow.
The landscape of the soul
is as changing as the sea
caught up in a storm of emotions.

I miss someone whom
I've never met before - is
there a word for that?

11:38 PM
17/3/21

What an honor it
is to fill your nights with joy
and everything nice

12:00 AM
25/3/22

I’ve waited a long time
to hear “I love you” echo back.
Maybe I should say it again,
or better yet, never again.
Maybe I should trek deeper.
Maybe “I love you” got lost in the woods.
Bouncing off of trees, falling down,
and spraining its ankles.
Maybe it’s afraid.
Maybe it’s lost in the shadows,
finding refuge in a deep, dark cave.
I’ve waited a long time for "I love you"-
perhaps I can spend a few more
in search of it.

Another year,
another chapter
in this book we call life.
Turn the page and
begin your story.

Sylvie
is deceptive
to the eye and I
am left with nothing
but my imagination.

There are no ordinary people-
everyone has a story to tell,
a dream to chase and a
mind unto itself.
What is your
story?

Nevertheless,
I keep on writing to the dream
of what I imagined
we would share.

It's never the right time
for us,
and since there is more us-
not now, not ever,
I will cherish 'us'
from our past
and from my dreams.
I will cherish 'us'
with my poetry,
and with the photographs
I still have scattered
in the shadows.

they'll save your life-
they'll break your heart.
You don't know which
was better or worse.

Yes,
it hurt,
but not so much
for what you did,
but because of your dishonesty.
You ran away with the moon
and blamed it on the sun.
You left me in
the dark.

I don’t like
that I miss you this much.
No matter how many lies
I tell myself,
I still can't shake
these lingering
feelings.

Sometimes I
think about all the
places I could have gone
but never did,
wondering what versions
of me I would have met
in all of these countless
possibilities.

so much wasted time
chasing temporary feelings
only to tear ourselves apart
for those who aren’t listening.
A million thought out words
only to be lost in translation-
we pray for companionship
but end up with damnation.

There are days where
I miss you so much that
these sunflowers wither and die.
Make your arms my garden and
your smile the sun that
brings them back to life.

In dreams you call me
and I wake up each morning
smiling thanks to you

11:23 PM
13/5/22

What if everything
we ever shared was in my
imagination?

11:39 PM
28/12/19

Of all the places
I don't belong, it is your
heart that feels like home

7:31 AM
1/11/22

Your words
fill me with oxytocin
the way love laces
each and every word you speak.
Your touch
fills me with endorphins
the way your warmth
melts away the blues.
Your beauty
fills me with dopamine
every time I realize how lucky I am
to have you in my life.
Your smile
fills me with serotonin
the way its joy spreads across the Earth.

If you want to keep
yourself safe and content then
never let them in

11:08 PM
15/7/20

Sometimes missing you
hits me like a storm.
Black clouds come without warning,
dampening everything below.
I am left in eternal darkness
that only your light
can restore.

Just as the
dawning sun
kisses the sleeping Earth,
your smile brings
warmth and light
to my
soul.

Once someone breaks your heart,
it's hard to ever let your guard down.
A new person, a new heart-
one that does not beat so blissfully
as it did before the heartbreak.
We overanalyze their every word.
Are they lying or do they
really mean what they say?
Maybe they're hiding something
or maybe anxiety strikes again.
Maybe they will leave at any moment,
it wouldn't be the first time.
Indeed, we try to think outside the box
in hopes to avoid another heartbreak.
In doing so we lose a part of ourselves.

My heart is
a haunted house
made up of many rooms.
Some are filled with books
and antiques from another time
while others are filled
with shadows and demons.
I locked those doors long ago
and threw away the key.

I can’t believe I
trusted you enough
to give you my heart.
I can't believe you
didn't break it.

Time moves more slow when
I am waiting to see your
pretty face again

6:09 PM
1/12/22

The JOY of seeing you again,
of seeing you smile again,
of hearing you laugh again,
of seeing you wake up again,
it floods this soul with JOY
and I am left swimming
in a sea of you.

you were someone else
someone who mastered the arts
of how to break hearts

6:57 PM
15/12/19

Look in the mirror.
If you still see something there,
then nothing else matters.
Other’s blindness to your worth
is a “them” problem,
not a “you” problem.

Nostalgia can be
like your favorite jacket:
it'll keep you warm in times of cold
but can become unbearable
when life starts to burn.

Self obsession
leads to a low opinion
and all that time and energy
could have been spent on
something else.
Get out of your head,
get out of your own way
and get out there.

Sometimes memories
are all we have left,
and yet they are merely a recipe
for chaos
just waiting to happen.

The reality
is that I made myself feel
alone, no one else

5:50 PM
21/3/22

I close my eyes and
suddenly, I am there,
in the memories I try to forget,
where I lost my heart and
have been trying to
reclaim it since.

We choose people
so far from home
but no matter the distance
we never feel alone.

The sunflowers
smile through you.
They know they can live through you
from the aura that you radiate.
They have trusted in you
their power and beauty
because you are it.

All I remember
is that I was young,
dumb and ignorant.
You took me in and showed this heart
a love it never knew existed-
and then you broke me.

I never thought,
I'd miss the rain and
cold of London winters-
the hustle and grind,
of everyday life.
I miss the tube,
the trees and the tulips
of St James Park
but most of all,
I miss you.

I've had a hunch that
it's all been meaningless.
Oh yes,
beautifully meaningless,
every word,
every touch,
utterly meaningless.

Of all the places
I don't belong, it is your
heart that feels like home

7:31 AM
1/11/22

The poison
between us was
the poison
in our veins.

The hardest part
of the year was having
to say goodbye to you.
I did not want to go,
I did not want to leave.
I wanted to stay forever
where you were no longer
someone in my dreams,
but someone in my life.

Some leave,
and when they do,
they take a piece of
your soul with them.
How many more have to leave
until I am nothing
but a shell?

I never did stop
loving you, I just learnt to
do it in silence

1:16 AM
28/8/22

I was full of fear, hurt and sorrow.
I thought I would remain alone forever
as I bore your absence rather than face my flaws.
It took some time, but now I am free-
free from your shadow and spite.
Even more, I am okay with solitude,
for solitude is a better companion
than you ever were.
I can now finally close the door and
embrace the lessons I learnt the hard way.
So much heartbreak was not in vain.