She loves me she loves me not
I love her but she loves me not
She has placed my feeling into a bind
I think I deserve it the way I played with her mind
I love her but something made me stop
I became infatuated with another and I think I really love her or maybe not

We have an idea of what love is
We're 2 young souls who barely even knows
Though we are chasing every little thing we see
Like pups who chases after bees not knowing these bees will sting

We play together and lay together
We play fight and we bite
But
Here comes something better they popped into our sight
Now off with something better we didn't try to fight

I love her she loves me not!
Now she loves me and and now I love her not
Puppy love last forever but it really does not.

-V.v.V. Ds

It's this type of imagery, attached with a dark memory
Me and you had the same chemistry
When you left you had to take a part of me
Like a piece of cake but no party please
Not to be rude, so please pardon me
My manners stay in order to support
Your last resort in this Runaway disorder
But, I'm fed up with this ******* now
Turned non supporter I will remain liberal
Cuz liberty is invisible, such a ****** tune
Your despicable, how ******* pitiful,
Something so close to mystical
Prove to be that practical, but not that magical
kind of classical ****
Give me something easy to remember like gifts from December
Though we're broke with no extra tender
and
if that's all she wrote
Please return to sender, here's something I can quote
Forgotten with a puff of that marijuana smoke

-V.v.V. Ds

9/21/09

To give you a regular old compliment
I would deny your complete existence
Your beauty as a person is making me ecstatic
If I were a magician your beauty would be my greatest magic
God gave you many blessings
Intelligence and *** appeal and that’s only two of them
If you were to ask me, would I ever hurt you?
I would say no, I’d never try to,
That would be out of the Question
I would tell you I Love You
Only if I meant it
I can never picture Leading you on
But, I can be your Navigator leading you to a place that you would enjoy
My Heart
To continue my tour, I would lead you to my brain
So you Know 99.9 percent of the Time
Your Knocking at my door to ya special place in my mind
You’re so sweet; I can taste your emotions
Most males can sit there and leave your heart broken
Me I can be your Super Glue to put your Heart back into Motion
This is my compliment to you or even a gesture
I just gave you all my confidence
I hope I leave ya heart and your mind feeling like
A True Angel Feather

A majestic queen that will open your eyes
Her rule is widely known because her soul touches the sky
The room fell silent for whenever she spoke
The heavens would unleash grandeur and hope

She was independent from the start and followed one of her dreams.
That she could be queen without having a king.
Ups and downs is what she had to go through in life
A queen by day and a poet at night.  

Her poems were like hymns that would give you the chills.
A soulful queen that told stories about life being real.
Her people listened in awe for she was their star
and
She led them to peace without straying them a far.

She prevailed with her dreams
and
Beat all of her test
All hail the Queen for giving us her best!

-V.v.V. Ds

I feel it burning inside my chest
This joy to let me know
I'm alive and I'm blessed.
I have done wrong
I must confess
and
I am not perfect
but
I am blessed.
He loves unconditionally
and
always forgiving.
That let's me know
My God is the best

-V.v.V. Ds

***** the demons from my past
**** the demons that lie ahead
Too many heathens within my grasp
Stuck with these demons inside my head
Fire and brimstone is all I see
Demons dance on flaming seas
I hate this being who confides in me
Evil chants and hellish rants
Consumes my will I've lost all chance,
it shreds my hope and now I can't
believe that I've been made to dance
In the darkness I'll waltz through
Maybe I'll jig
Out of this evil tune

-V.v.V. Ds

Stay strong
You may have been defeated
Stay strong
Cuz your fight has been completed
Stay strong
You will heal, those bruises won't last
Stay strong
Your will to fight, will forever last
Stay strong
There are more battles up ahead
Stay strong
Keep calm and don't lose your head
Stay strong
Victory is hiding in the mist
Stay strong
Your hope is mightier than this
So just stay strong.

-V.v.V. Ds

Tear you've forsaken my ego and my face
Why do you make me feel so weak
It hurt so much like the burning feeling of mace

I don't appreciate how you make me feel like a hurricane
but
I 'm not in your category
Tear don't fall onto my chest
Cause you'll place my feelings into so much distress

I thought you adored me,
cause you sat there for so long
When you fell you blatantly ignored my plead
Why is it that no one has a care or a worry

Tear you are no better
but even you Tear
Why have you Forsaken Me??!!!!

-V.v.V. Ds

My feelings for you goes beyond measure
So you just want a friend it will be my pleasure
Though we always have been and I really wanted more
I'm just tired of being one of the reasons why your heart is sore
I held on to hope even with  pessimistic tendencies
I'm really glad that you befriended me
I only want to make you happy and
keep you safe I'll do it gladly
I guess fate holds it own agenda
Even if I don't I like, I won't continue to fight it.
I'm sorry for reliving what should have been put to rest
I can't help it because I view you as the best
I'll try not to make it awkward but I can't make that a promise
I know your tired of my games
I'll try to stop all of my drama.

4 days apart that's torture
Sore days for the heart stay loyal
During those 4 days you'll have forgotten me but it's really not a shock to me
You have stolen my heart
I hate that I Love this highway robbery

-V.v.V. Ds

I wonder what the world holds in store for me
The sky is the limit but who knows
Seems like the world has it in for me
Growing up, the world has produced a lot of enemies
I've been pushed to the limit
I wonder why

Its because I'm the nice guy
Who always tries to please
I wonder if someone would do the same for me
Going the distance to lend a helping hand
Giving good advice when no one else can
I wonder is there anyone true

Probably not
Because the way things are going
It's gonna be a dog eat dog world
Survival of the fittest
I wonder, will I make it?
Still, I'm undergoing training
I just wonder

Will the earth withstand bombardment
Shrapnel and fire
Murderous intentions
With some of the sickest desires
Is the end around the corner
I wonder

By using faith and prayer
Will it save us, I hope cause
We all took a dive into sin
I wonder, can we all be cleansed
I say that because some people are pure evil
Hatred has consumed them
I wonder

Where did peace go
I guess it fell up under war
It was stomped out by the people
Who is looking for a score
I wonder did it ever have a chance
All I can do is wonder

-V.v.V. Ds

We are at a standstill
Dead weight
Anvil
Rumbling engines
Gridlocked
In all directions
Blaring horns
No progression
Motionless
Frozen
Roads are smoking
Angry as fire
Smell of burning tires
Freedom
Not for miles
Seething
I'm feeling wild
I hate it
Being held captive
**** this awful traffic

-V.v.V. Ds

This is who I am
The world should be colorblind
because I Love You

-V.v.V. Ds

12/9/09 ·

Addictive like a Cigarette
More beautiful than the evening sky
So painful like a needle directly to my eye
I try to keep it together like barrette
but my feelings is a pitcher who throws it to the outside
Ur sweet
I wish I can stick to you like a fruit fly

I want to let u know how I feel
but if nerves can **** I'm already dead
Emotions all in pieces like a puzzle
I wish this can be said
I feel like a dog ready to bark
but my mind is my own muzzle

Your joy is what makes me happy
Still I have no joy
Head spinning like I just finished doing the El Roy
Never will I take u 4 granted
but not being able to speak
I'm slowly turning into a manic
In which it's a blissful form of depression

Cornered like a boxer
I'm ready to throw this bout
but seeing you in my corner
keeps me from going that route
I may have lost by the judges
Yet I still feel like a champ
cuz I know ur 1 of my cuts-men
Apart of my training camp

As magnificent as you are
I will not take the risk
I will remain silent
and
Let it blow away with this mist
So it can scatter around and never end
I'm happy but not satisfied
I want you as my Mrs.
but since this will never come
I'm happy to still see u as my friend
Not really to the end
but
Ongoing 4ever

V.v.V. Ds

Stuck in my ways things can never change,
I should have more but the days turn strange,
I'm hittin a low spending hard earned dough to roll with satisfaction,
To hand it off making stupid transactions,
It's a standoff against myself
I have great potential that is in a developmental stage
it could lead to wealth
It's hard for me to believe in self
I have many guides but no one to truly follow
I'm losing my head Sleepyhollow
Of course I'll make the choice to have cottonmouth which makes life so hard to swallow
I need my drink of water to wash away everything I did
I'm glad I'm not a father I'm not ready for any kids
**** I haven't found my left rib I know hurt more than anything
I guess pain is the coolest
Time ***** as a Band-Aid
I need a doctor cause I'm wounded
I rather have stitches
than hang around ignorant *******
I need to find a lamp with a genie to grant all of my wishes
**** I took it back to Aladdin but you know what that's not gonna happen
Look my eyes call them red either I'm high or either from the tears I shed
It could be both but there is one I do the most
Not really trying to brag not really trying to boast
Things seem easy cause my reality is on coast
I'm trying to learn the ropes before it all gets tangled
I hate this climb to the top only cuz of the angle
There is a long journey ahead I'll pack light and try to save bread
Cuz a ***** got to eat or a ***** will end up dead.

-V.v.V. Ds

I know this august baby and she can be a little crazy
She can cut you a look that will have you pushing up daisies.
Nonetheless she's a good look, that can have your mind crazy
And
that's wild that she can flash you a smile
That's so amazing
It makes you wanna snap a pic and keep it on file
But no erasing
And so,
She is confident like a lion and can move mountains without trying
She is more dominant then the Mayans
She the **** I ain't lying
Truth be told, she is one to behold
On the periodic table she is known to be gold that makes her impressive
Have I mentioned her eyes,
No
now I will address'em
They are clearer than the Blue skies
They make me wanna die........
Whoa correction
they make me wanna dive right in
Cause those eyes are like the ocean
Full of constant commotions
2 gateways to your soul
Full of common emotions
Caution she's been through some **** and she knows life is a ***** because they've met
and she was loving life at the same time with no regrets
You wouldn't say she is lucky but blessed is what she is
Living life on the edge, thank God she didn't slip.

V.v.V. Ds

Pressing these keys to express my emotions
I'll give you all of me, my time and devotion
You are my type of writer the one I was I hoping for
I'll give you my mind because it's not spoken for
My blood is your ink and your ink is my blood
No one will know our bond but only The Good Lord

You know me like the back of your hand with the turn of your platen
We will continue to roll on with complete satisfaction
Letting our love speakeasy
And
You were always my freedom
Allowing me to be me without any reason

So I thank you!

-V.v.V. Ds

Under the cover of stars
Your whispers shift through the night
Your touch so warm
It reminds me of the suns light

Hold me close for a while
I'll never let you go
Cuz your smile beguiled
Me too
You already know

But

I'm afraid that we laid
here for way too long
Cuz of your gaze I'm amazed
That a new day has dawned

-V.v.V. Ds

Inspiration please come to me,
I will lose it if you don't come to me
I wonder is it cause I hold the wrong company,
that makes sense that's why you run from me

Don't make me chase.... I hate to race but if that's the case I'll win first place
Inspiration do you hear me,
I said first place!!

I think you should really fear me
but if not that's seriously okay,
Someone just help me!
Who the hell do I have to pay  

-V.v.V. Ds

I was blocked by this wall for a while because I'm a writer, that is wild.
You would have never guessed a writer like me could make movies like Spike Lee's but
my movies are with words projecting from my mind into yours.
You don't have to pay but only pay attention cause my mind is in a whole other dimension.
The creating of a scene begins with a pen and idea that is ideal but my ideas have yet to come
This is what writers block has done.

-V.v.V. Ds

I'm
Sitting
Quietly
Surveying
My
Surroundings.

-V.v.V. Ds

Unimaginable scenarios
Cross my mind
I really shouldn't think of it
So I crank up the stereo
Still not helping me

The thought of your essence
Continues to provoke my emotions
The sensual vibrations of your voice
is intoxicating my ear drums and
impairs me to believe, that you remain in my presence

Is it that I'm going crazy
So I try chilling with my homeboys
to keep you away but that doesn't work either

Throughout the noise of laughter
the the thought of your eyes overwhelms me
What I see is two very remarkable gateways to your soul
from their i look deeper and I see me
caressing your heart to let you know I am here

When my homeboys had left
I started walking to occupy my mind
Still a failure and I still just don't know why

As I walk I picture you next to me
We holding hands tightly
The smooth tenderness of your hand
Arouses my mind and takes me back
to when you,
slightly grazed your hand over my head as I was sleeping

So I started run and from that
You were still there but you were in front of me
I guess that is a symbol of you trying to escape
your issues before I helped you to face them
and reason for me behind you is because
you will always be #1 in this race of thought
which is my cross country of emotions

So I stopped running and was heading home
but I was right next to your house
You came out and we once we started talking
The thought of you went away
but the realization of you was there
and now I see why I think of you so much

It's because you are my everything
and I could never stand to be away from you
So my mind try to fill the void
I never wanted to think of you
All I ever want is to be with you
To be continued.........

-V.v.V. Ds

I need a handle on things
So I attempt to grip, it slips
Creates a mess, I detest
Something I never ment to access
I try to correct my defect...
Success!!! I have achieved!!!
Well that is what I believed
but
No suprise to me
FAIL!!!!
As I swept,
I missed an underlying detail
With high expenses
Like retail
My anger Intense, Like a liar
With false pretenses
This feeling I tire.....
On to my comfort zone
I retire
To orphan my pain
In hope to adopt
A new brain
To refrain from being a dope....
Something people need to sell
but
It's just not going to happen
I'm saddened by this because
It's Another.....
FAIL!!!!
I see the road that I desire
Yellow bricks I do not see
Oh well to that,
I'm crossing the street
With these pedestrians at my back
How much mellow could this be
Here comes traffic ready to impale

Smack!!!!!!!!

****!!! I didn't intend to

FAIL!!!!

V.v.V. Ds

I am thunder
When I speak from my core
You will hear me
there is no doubt that u will hear me
I am violent and will tremble this earth
So you can understand
You can't judge me
If you try I will reign down on you
and I will flood your gutter of a mind
Wash away every aspect of doubt
That I am king
I am the flash of light
That is known as lightening
I will blind you
In the blink of those eyes
That profoundly gaze in the event of my demise
I will have written away all lies and gossip
I am too powerful
I am the dark clouds of Anguish
That will fog your mind
and I am the wind
that will blow away your sanity
Leaving you breathless
You can try to shelter yourself
from the oncoming Hail I bring
I will pour out....My soul
just to end this drought
I will form off the puddle of tears
from torn down goals
I will rise from the heat
of stepped on dreams
I am no ordinary storm
Now you have something to fear
Look towards the sky
and Sea that u have just witnessed
The Perfect Storm

-V.v.V. Ds

Comically
Laughing
Until
Time
Crashes
Ha.

I
Have
No
Quarters
****
Games

-V.v.V. Ds

The other day I wished for death
Empty shell I have nothing left
So much on my shoulders
At times I wish this heart turn colder

So depressed I'm ready to leave
I think this world can do without the likes of me
Have I really hit the bottom

My mind has so many problem
There is no way for you to solve them
They keep evolving
The weight of the world
I'm tired of hauling

The future looks bleak
This pain is too unique
It's not easy for me to speak.
So I'm done
My poem is complete!

-V.v.V. Ds

Half truths
Creates whole pain

Finish the story
I'm curious
I have nine lives

I love folklores

Anger has become my best friend
Having my back like no other
Shielding me from my pain
Burning away the sorrow
I let my fury engulf me in flames
Boiling out insecurities
Allowing me to be reborn
I am the Phoenix
Fueled by pent up anger
A flaming bird ready to break free
Setting everything ablaze in front of me.
Scorching the weakest parts of my being.
I let my anger consume me until there is nothing left
This is what I do best dropping ******
To disintegrate all bonds
Im such a wildfire

-V.v.V. Ds

We can go the distance
With uneven earth beneath our feet
Carrying the essentials of life
Which is ourselves to be precise
That's all we need for our journey

There is no exact destination
Think of this as an extended vacation
We can visit the wonders of the world
Plus
We have mountains to conquer
Oceans to Sea
Sands to hallucinate in
Meadows to admire

We can eat in China
Though, I want McDonalds
It's all about the experiences
That's all that matters

Building up mental pictures
Memory postcards for the future
Let's just travel the world
Even as I try to pursuit you
My traveling partner

Here I am
Always here
but I still feel gone
Here I stand
On both 2 feet
No I feel too **** weak
Here is my trust
protect it
That is a must
Here is sorrow
That I embrace
I wouldn't recommend 4 you 2 borrow
Here is fate
In which I seek
let me check up under your feet
Here is life
I don't want it
Why?
Cuz this ugly world
I know will continue to taunt it
Here is strength
In which you can't have
Why?
It's too late it already died
Here is death
It is the only thing that is left
Here I remain
All alone
To continue on and deal with all this pain
Here is joy
something I've never known
People damage it like a cheap toy
Here is the end
I've reached my peak
I am the pen, that just ran out of Ink

-V.v.V. Ds

You write in me like a diary.
I hold everything in like it was written in my soul
Half of it I wish I didn't know.
I'm the safest place for words
Even if I find them to be absurd
I'll hold my words in, right along with yours
Leaking your secrets that you entrusted into me
Would prove to you that I am not the right company
Plus I really don't need you hunting me
No worries though my lips are vacuumed sealed  
They won't speak cause they are like statues
Still
I will be the lock to your diary
Nothing will come out of me, can't you see
If you don't then... Why'd you even trust me.

V.v.V. Ds

Complete me darling
Reality has blocked us
I'm missing my piece

I took a leap into something deep
I do believe
I foolishly
and
brutally have ruined me.
I'm not the gambling type
Yet I'm all in
And it felt so right
but
I lost in the end

My choice was risk I can admit
I have damaged this beyond repair
I will declare that this is rare
I spoke with fear at the tip of my tongue
Hope hung near
but
It was no use
I just realized it lived on a noose

Feather emotions
Float into oblivion
Where did my heart go

Along for a ride
I didn't pay for; No fare!
Hop in to hop out

In between the lines
I see the hesitation
Mark my words, "I know!"

-V.v.V. Ds