a girl
growing up.

overthinking
every step
of the way.

pouring rain
falling down
your cheeks

cleaning up
every bit
of sadness
left
in your
fragil heart

no tengas miedo mi amor
despójate de todo eso que te lastima y mírame a los ojos
pone tus manos en mi cintura así yo me siento libre de poner las mías en tu cuello
mírame a los ojos
conecta conmigo y olvida
olvida todo lo que alguna vez te atormento
y sentí
sentime a mi
estoy acá con vos
para mimarte
y para decirte que pase lo que pase
yo voy a estar acá
con mis manos en tu cuello
y ojalá
vos siempre tengas las tuyas en mi cintura

knowing there is no way
i can meet you
being aware of
the distance between us

makes me think
about
how i have put you
in a shelf
where you might not
belong

dreaming about
your perfection
and wishing to meet
someone
like you

like you
there is no you

“you”
is not real


we both know

i made “you” up

like the morning misses the sun
in a sunday morning
like the morning misses coffee
in a monday morning
like the need of your arms
while i cry
like my skin misses yours
every night
like my loneliness misses yours
every second
of every day

I miss you
and I know
I always will

i don’t know why it was so hard to admit. i was in love and i didn’t even want to notice it.

i now see it and i understand. how to not be in love with her. she was everything i ever dreamed. we were so mentally close it was scary for both. or maybe .. just for me.

but now she is gone. disappeared. perhaps lost. and im such a fool.

why did i realize that feeling was love when she is already gone?

i guess i was scared. or too busy falling for her.

quiero que te transformes
en la poesía
que calme mi vida
y que dejes de ser las lágrimas
que me estancan
me debilitan
y me entorpecen
el vivir, el sentir, el reír
quiero que vuelvas a ser
calma en mi caminar
mar en mis oídos
y estrellas en mi cielo

quiero que vuelvas

send me
a sign

to remind me
im alright

and safe
in your mind

desde que me dejaste,
me fui acostumbrando
a tu ausencia

a la falta de tu risa como banda sonora
a la falta de magia en mis días

antes me partías en dos,
de la paz
ahora me partís en dos,
de la ausencia.

me olvido de mi soledad
cuando te imagino
abrazándome en la oscuridad
y mi corazón se vuelve el sol
me abrigas, me das calor

te extraño tanto
no puedo pasar por esto sola

la ironía de necesitarte
para olvidarte

why did i have to lose you to realize i loved you?

i was in love with you. and you is not you anymore. you’ve changed. the you i loved died and now my love is dead. you is dead. and there is nothing i can do to bring it back to life.

the only place where i can be with you again is in my dreams. nowhere. everywhere. innocent and harmful.

i will never forget you. you’ll always live inside me whether i want it or not.

      To you, who is now dead
                           this is my final goodbye
                                                     Rest in peace

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