let's take a second to listen
written alphabetically
with a brand-new addition
spliffing delivering
heat, cat on a hot tin roof
sizzling, Messi, dribbling
spit ill sickening
guest visiting,
lend me your ear, listening
shimmering as he shines bright
twinkling, divide, partitioning
locked up, imprisoning
doodle, scribbling
SA drill
spicing  with flavor
seasoning, using my head
thinking of reasons
to justify reasoning
for dazzling,
as we settle in

round 2 smurfed but
not blue, more a colored
hue, repping cape town
awe bru, wake up
disabling snooze
jesters you fools
visionary when I see
first from the back
they all lose
not a masquerade it's all true
deadline my times due
ask mew 2, pokemon
index, it's perplex
get ash too, over
a cuckoos nest birds flew
seeking asylum hes crazy
still frosty so cool
yu gi it's time to
dddd duel


this the part where spazz out
remove doubt, running circles
on tracks, roundabout,
roundhouse kick to chin and mouth
no handout, grind out
red hot
circular rounded
noise drowned out, not shouting for clout
cant recognize skill,
take this pill, it will break
the spell my tracks stackable
not saying this sarcastical
sarcastically or sarcastic
not applicable, resolve soluble
doubt dissolve i'm liquid cyanide
every track i ****, surgeons
precision with a scalpel
so skilful, I sculpture
syllables in rhyme schemes
unseen to the naked ear
class dismissed school bell

so tell all its not all folks
not ****** toons no jokes
not ****** tunes, with lazy tones
I have lampoons, that ******
death squad platoon
you'll be history lying in ruins
surfing these dunes no fear
seeing things as the series turns
with unclear reasons I'm nuclear

I walk among the living
       But I'm dead inside
A saddened void where my heart
  once reside, devoid of all feeling
                 I'm Numb

It's that hateful nightmare again
      It won't leave me alone
        Chasing my happiness
It wants it pictured and framed

      Negatively captured for all
                      Eternity.

I try to keep my flow going
Writing in all kinds of ways
To keep this poetry flowing
Not knowing
How these words bleed from my heart
Yet in life I cannot show it
Am I broken
Or is this a chance that I’m taking
Living life through a looking glass
Through these words on these pages

This war has many faces
Armed with an army
They are ruthless and tasteless
Yet we are fated
To live life in the shadows
When we were all meant for greatness
So start taking
Life by the throat
Let it know you not faking
Make it call out your name
While it’s trembling and shaking
You have the power
So let us stop flaking
Let us march on this world
Like it’s ours for the taking

First track got released on Spotify, any support would be greatly appreciated.

In My Feelings

https://open.spotify.com/album/5k9VvA0ZHbDUBRgNpMjZWS

Have you ever been kicked down then stand up with pride
I have
I had life hating me
Yet still I survived
I still live daily
Without having to hide
The tribulations that I went through
On these healing pages I write
It’s my outlet, to bring all my emotions to life
It’s endlessly part of my strife
Dealing with it all is hard enough
Thank god for my wife
Without her, I doubt I would have ever survived in this life
Pulling me from darkness
When they were about to clamp down with the vice
She gives me infinite strength
To just keep up with fight
To not become part of a twisted world
Who finds chaos ......in delight

The sound of battle sings around me
a voice armored
Deaths favorite track drenched with hope and tearstained destinies cut short silently plays
My name screaming across his cold lips
Do I give my soul already condemned willingly
My demons caged
rattles my spirit from an eternal slumber
Waking a memory of a blessed love waiting in cloaked fear
I stand as if the mountains themselves, has given me their roots
Her scythed love carries me forward as fear chooses to fear
I move with the might of 1000 comrades fallen
Courage lends me its strength
Lashing out as the hatred of the innocent lives lost fuels me
I strike with the force of demons possessed
The blood of my victory seeps from my wounded sword
Cries of a battle won rains tears of elation
Breathing underrated as death screams….
Knowing, I chose to live.

The fire in our hearts cinder and our love will eternally burn
Your angelic face perfectly captured as portraits turn to stare
The radiance you protrude has even my shadow in joyous tears
Your fire flied smile extinguish even my darkest memories
Your enticing voice uplifting me to soaring heights
Your embrace beckons my sweetest dreams to reality
My confidence, your handbag as you carry it to heightened unexplored terrain
These words flows from the lips of our past lives like messages of past love shared
You are my earthly angel!
Your skin my silken robe…
Your healing touch my savior….Your love my reason for living…..you are my gift that keep on giving

Written by faizel farzee

standing in a full moonlight
understanding life a crashlanding
multiplied
even if we were supermen we
walking on kryptonite every breath
is a fight
a path lit by candlelight
demanding we ranting while
withstanding a stamping till you hit bottom
a spanking
superman doesn't die start standing time to stand in
for the things I stand for not for standing
when I impact I'm a meteorite
for my kids, I'll get crucified

while singing them
a lullaby, against life I can't lay down and die
I'm a dog with fight to life I'm a dogfight
They keep missing my understanding leading to misunderstandings all I am is standing outside
calling to be outstanding
running this rat race
while straddling my kid's hands praying they don't let go and watch me fall

from grace my failure realized
Would I be surprised,  these thought suicide
denied I'm Brutus when I pop eyes
while my syllables break decibels amplified
a gun in a knife fight there is only one side
my past I rewrite midnight when its dark outside
silence my solace while I reach for the finish line
while my sound byte outright in your head resides

Art pictured in motion, walking elegance.
Words you give life, monocle syllables
Beauty captivatingly imprinted, portraits stared.

Words gliding from your Cherrie lips, mesmerizingly eloquent
Intoxicated my heart listening, convinced by its eloquence
You my wish granted, an answered prayer.

Boastful our love drenched in splendour, Our love grandiloquent
I loved you in past lives, Aphrodite seems envious.
Saving Grace, pulled my soul from despair.

I look across the room and caught her staring,
What’s this sudden heat
My emotions suddenly flaring
We both instinctively look away and I guess that we are sharing
The same secret I hope that I’m daring,
Enough to look back, or am I just chancing
Should I rather electric slide over there like a man that’s just dancing
Wait what’s this I always here about
I think it’s called romancing,
Something about whining or dining, I think
Man! I need a shrink, or am I just glancing,
At what you *****, and stop with the counseling,
Man this is challenging!
Maybe a ring, what am I thinking
I don’t even know her name, this is demeaning
I look back and my heart just start racing….I mean F1 style
And yes! I know you know the meaning…
And it has feeling, what more do you want from me
At this point I’m reeling,
I turned around… she was gone like a magician, disappearing,
I was left picking up the pieces,
The sound of loss still screeching,
So I put my blades away in my bag clanging,
And hope tomorrow she’ll be inside me, her eyes is just stunning
So sleep soundly tonight lady knowing your shadow is now shading
Together forever… and no I’m not joking, for tomorrow my love….
You’ll be the one choking

Your essence the life blood
      coursing through my veins.
          You are my oxygen
                   My life.

Enchanted a vision of pure plendour, graceful grandeur.
Like that of a starry abyss
Your eyes beckoned my soul to a journey of promised heavenly delight.
Your smile whispers my name, I immediately find me gasping to breathe.
Grasping in tandem at a  heavenly love we share.
A match adoren in heaven, our souls combined hearts beating as one, it completes us.
As your silken hand rest in mine, with unspoken words dancing around our single world.
The song in our hearts the only music we love and cry to.
When we embrace, I feel you holding as if I am the only one to save your soul.
In this instant, I hold on tighter.

You are my guiding light in a darkened world.
My oxygen in world choking
You eridicated cynicality,
I now shake the hand of optimism, I once again wed hope.

The most unanswered question!!
What is life, what is our purpose in life? No one has a none doubtful answer and none thinks about it, cause no one can answer it, so we avoid it like the plague...

I crave to live among the stars
Shed this infected earthly skin
and start dancing on Mars.

Infected with the struggles of the world, the pain and heartache of a earth slowly dying.

We not even trying, We have accepted our sealed fate.

I wish to dance among the stars

I can feel them shedding saddened tears, for a world laced with hate.

I wish to sleep among the serene stars.

They say life is like a box a chocolates
What a crock of ****
It kicked me down, I even tasted spit
Had me in a choke hold
Wanted me locked in a crypt
It’s what you make of it
Instead of throwing a fit
Pick yourself up after you’ve taken that hit

Out the corner I come
Rough and ready
I feel like steel
But just hot and sweaty
I’m putting it up
So you better make yourself steady
I’m coming at you
With a sharpened machete
I know it’s a fight
Things could get messy
I’m warning you now
Against me I’m not betting
I bet now you sweating
Scared and fretting
Believe me
My entire force you are getting

Life might be hard
It’s for you to spark
Your own revival
And not get lost in it’s dark

The earth shatters
fear cloaks its hidden intent
Scattered earthly regrets, illuminates the darkened night sky
Enraged words of a mother wronged
Molten lava and promised lost destiny’s
Streams down like love lost reunited,
Into the hungry arms of enraging oceans eternally wronged
Fallen stars filled with tears crushes stabbing regrets
lost love and chosen greed
As prayer itself screams for salvation
Death hallowed grip releases the last hope of a tarnished race
The earth’s last word drenched with a fate always known
A word slowly whispered……Armageddon

Emotions a raging storm
My heart now mourns
Our futile existence
or are we just pawns
Races clashing, leaving our generations scorned
Our young ones born
In a world of hate, with no exit door
The rich stays rich
Forgetting the poor,

The world is in chaos
Race race to **** race among us
The living unjust
When could we last fully trust
Anything the media falsely feeds us,

This is the plight of my raging words
The world is cursed
And we it’s curse
The world will be saved
When humans disperse
As long as we here
Suffering gets worse
So open your minds to this global verse,

Let the truth be told
Behold
The words I whisper, is truthfully cold
The human race suffers
As we being controlled
Uncontrolled
My emotions waver
As my child’s being enrolled
Into this unforgiving…… world

I know you feeling this
written alphabetically
spit subliminally accurate
abacus counting syllables
in reverie, ya missed his spits
unseen this ships a blip
speeding over your head
changing lead as he flips
the script he elevates
off he lifts celebrate
as he spits his wits
court him off guard
na, case dismissed
five finger clench
balled into a fist
punch at the fence
so I don't slit my wrist

dream I had
reaching must be mad
sober I'm glad
follow this yellow brick road
a none jumping toad
carrying a heavy load
not even a passing fad
skill  rad
boys a baddy
be mike have a fight
tyson ask larry

ok here we go
another lesson
class in session
teachers, written alphabetically
spits ill, verbal turrets
spits sick, leave with seizures
epileptic, flash so quick
wits is blits, words illusions
magic, pony, never 1 trick
race horse takes podium
no 1 pick, popsicles
trying to ice me
don't give a lick
armoured my skin thick
weapon my pen dipped in ink
a lion with a crown I am king
thoughts provoke
provoking your perception
of cardinal sin
I run on this treadmill backward
going nowhere fast
still, win
silence can you hear the pin
dropped in a haystack
sea lost in an ocean
like ops, it's missing

They say it's better to lose so you know what to do next time
Ok fine
What if you lost yourself in chaos & the exit you can't find
The person in the mirror seems to have fallen behind
I think I lost its blueprint, I lost its main design
I feel I'm constantly battling on the frontline
Life's wars, hanging on by a lifeline
life's buffet, on me it hungrily dine
I don't see the goal line, I cant see, I'm blind
Is there light in this world, does the moonshine
blinded I'm constantly stepping on land mines
With the voices in my head I'm entwined
telling me I'm not worth any shine
I have no spine, my existence asinine  
leave me alone, I don't want to die
I need to find the light, I need its guidelines
I'm being consumed, fighting, but still in decline
Will it ever change, will my mind ever revive
Until then, skating, I'll stay on the grind

As bullets rains misguided
Promising futures beheaded for daring to dream of a life bettered
Mother’s tears streaming down streets laced with innocent blood
Greed, the artist of a colorful masterpiece captures sorrows and lost love perfectly with widowed tears
Fathers and mothers all but a saddened mystery to lost children craving their touch in times of need.
Hatred seeps from horrored spectacle as masters of greed pays their toll with the blood of the innocent
Insanity is the call of the day as history’s past lessons imbedded with tragedy and raging rivers of tears completely lost to a generation unknown to its hidden Pandora
With false promise of immortality doomed to repeat it’s never ending self destruction
Insanity ……the repeat of our own demise

Tears flow like the river Nile enraged
Mournful embraces as the joining feeling of a future lost unites a weakened family
A mother inconsolable, treads thru meaningful memories as the smile of her lost child still freshly haunts her
A fathers rage distorted, hopelessly punches walls as the embrace of a perfect daughter still freshly lingers
A Family horrifically shaken, as even the stars sheds their mournful tears
Why?
A question tread milling through broken down spirits and scarred souls
A eternally loved daughter’s memory
drowning in uncontrollable tears
Tear stained prayer reaching out with a healing hand
as reluctant sorrow pursues a numbing soul
Mournful embrace, the only solace in a wicked life’s tragedy
A promising future, with love in abundance lost in a sorrowful abyss
A life unnecessary lost........
not only the loss of one fragile soul

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

As fireflies infinite lights a darkened sky
The memory of a perfect love freshly lingers
Her honeyed kisses I still taste with every breath I take
Her touch of healing still warm against my mournful skin
Her angelic face depicted in the stars
a wave of untainted emotion storms my soul
Our souls unbreakable promise to be entwined for all eternity
With every moment spent apart tears me to tears
A punishment unmistakably unbearable
The only solace a voice recalled…
The words drenched with hope dripping from her lips in ecstasy
         .....I love you…

Cold as the winter Snow
Demons of my dreams
Why?
Won’t you leave me alone
Allow me to grow
You weighing me down
With your burning brimstone
I can’t condone
Taking the little good I have
To the trash it gets thrown
I wish to break free
And let the good in me flow
I wish to disown
This feeling’s so cold
Please, I beg you to just let me go
I’m through with this horror show
I think that it’s time
To resurrect …..my halo

The moon reflect your silhouette in the night sky
Why?
Are you haunting me, I feel I could cry
Heartbroken,
You left me to die
I plead, no beg of you,
please leave my mind
You still a part of me
In my soul you reside,
I can no longer cry
Someone please save me!
Why’d you leave me behind
God you should have taken me instead
In her place I would have died
Please help me!
This misplaced rage I can’t hide….


Loneliness is killing me
I can’t go on, it’s with you I should be
We for eternity, is a promise we share
Slit wrist,
Wait for me my love
I’ll be right there.

As stormy feelings tears me deep
The last words you whispered tears I keep
God called you to his side
I don’t understand…This raging feeling I can’t hide
The promises of love shared
Now just scarred memories that I bare
Emotions flowing twisted and cold
I cry, no crave, your love your touch your soul
This empty feeling undying severed my heart
What happened to the notion we’ll never be apart
How do I live this life, how do I move on
I still need you, I still love you
Or are we just pawns
Broken hearts represents our stars
Your sweet lips on mine seems now so far
As a perfect union now broken apart
My love for you will never die…
I promise for you I eternally cry.

How dark the world as night still approaches, I look at graves
our morals we ghosted.
Left infested infesting our spirits, digesting our light in decay its invested.
Are we wicked? Or Bested?
By the trickery of the world molested. A feathered pillow lie our heads we rested.
Standing on the precipice of breeding pessimists born into a age of information yet still ignorant.
Oppressively with kids needing therapist.
To cope in a world of divided ugliness
This where the drug reaches, grabs hold until you defeated beaten broken to pieces, Leaves
Alone, lonesome no one knows loneliness as it knows you.
This a lying truth obscured by the lies in truth with the untruth that it brings. Lies without wings, a melody of deceit.
Thoughts butcherer till our ends we meet.
This the sad reality, life our chauffeur while we strapped to the passenger seat.
All we truly have, are  our own beliefs and that beating vessel in our chest. A pulsating heartbeat

How can you deny this feeling
I think as I’m creeping
Outside your window watching you sleeping
I hope you willfully dreaming
Of us steaming, our love sharing
Now my tempers flaring
Thinking you ignoring
All this love I’m giving
So stop stringing
Me along this road, I’m hurting
You killing,
My life slowly and I’m sliding
Losing all part of me I’m deteriorating
So please stop faking
I love you with all my heart but you making
This anger uncontrollable it’s damning
My soul constantly tearfully craving
Your touch so stop playing
My hand reaching out to you suddenly stopping
My thoughts disturbing
My mesmerized eyes, now I’m running
Tears streaming…..
Thoughts racing, heart pumping,
legs darting., I’m shaking
thinking, I’m losing me to you willingly
My lungs bleeds for me to stop shouting......
Save me!!!!!!!!

My love for you a thousand fold cloaks the universe in it's entirety.  
Reincarnations of my future lives has pledged it's loved soul to you
        Your essence my oxygen. a match adorned in heaven
A cocoon of hope, reborn as a phoenix with eternal love shared
     Giving every fiber of my being to you in it's splendor entirely

You are the conqueror of my frailty, my strength your luminescent smile
vanquishing the embedded dark, hidden within my tortured heart

                 I will journey with you to the earths end
                             A question never needed.

This letter I write to you, with my heart turned to stone
Empty this cave of sorrow, without your guiding light
This empty dark abyss, no longer feels like a home
Your voicemail on repeat, craving your voice
Bereft of choice, I scream at my phone

I love you! You the air that I breathe
Your name sweetened my life
Now a suffocating vice ,  I choke when I speak
Our love severed, by our bond it bleeds
From the broken promises it seeps
Cuts left wounds deep, left defeated and weak
Trying to remove the knife you stabbed me with
Tears me to tears when I feel

I thought our love was unique

You lifted the veil from my eyes
Happiness I no longer see
Replacing your love with hate
So I can finally be set free

This final letter, the beginning of peace
Breathe, I wipe my saddened tears
Erased from my scars, as I click delete

same as your mom, I will always love you,
in two minds accepting you into this world
currently in the grips of war,
with every passing day, humans become worse
perverse, we have become cynical,
clinical in being tyrannical, it's what I observed
have no fear, I'll lay my life on the line to protect yours
I'm being sincere, you a blessing that brings light
the good in me you ignite, with hope you made me reunite
for you the world I'll fight, if they interfere

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

want you to know, in this world there will always be pain
sometimes it's inhumane, cry, there's no shame
it's what makes us stronger, eventually it fades
we'll create music together, as our escape
never give up, no matter what anyone says
you will always be great,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

I'll give you what it takes
be there every step of the way, till you can take your own step
fly away,
I curse the day, I'm not here to stand in your way
here to love, support and guide you, till you find your sun amongst the grey
till find where you belong amongst the human race
I'll be by your side, till the day you find your place
If the worlds ever becomes to much to bear becomes grizzly
bare its teeth, loses grace
I'll always be there, if you need to find you
with open arms I'll embrace

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

If the card you been dealt becomes cruel
by chance I couldn't be there to see this through
know that I love you, always strive for the best version of you
to your values always stay true, I'll be with you every step of the way
from heaven I'll be smiling down on you,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you