The most unanswered question!!
What is life, what is our purpose in life? No one has a none doubtful answer and none thinks about it, cause no one can answer it, so we avoid it like the plague...

Have you ever been kicked down then stand up with pride
I have
I had life hating me
Yet still I survived
I still live daily
Without having to hide
The tribulations that I went through
On these healing pages I write
It’s my outlet, to bring all my emotions to life
It’s endlessly part of my strife
Dealing with it all is hard enough
Thank god for my wife
Without her, I doubt I would have ever survived in this life
Pulling me from darkness
When they were about to clamp down with the vice
She gives me infinite strength
To just keep up with fight
To not become part of a twisted world
Who finds chaos ......in delight

They say life is like a box a chocolates
What a crock of ****
It kicked me down, I even tasted spit
Had me in a choke hold
Wanted me locked in a crypt
It’s what you make of it
Instead of throwing a fit
Pick yourself up after you’ve taken that hit

Out the corner I come
Rough and ready
I feel like steel
But just hot and sweaty
I’m putting it up
So you better make yourself steady
I’m coming at you
With a sharpened machete
I know it’s a fight
Things could get messy
I’m warning you now
Against me I’m not betting
I bet now you sweating
Scared and fretting
Believe me
My entire force you are getting

Life might be hard
It’s for you to spark
Your own revival
And not get lost in it’s dark

As bullets rains misguided
Promising futures beheaded for daring to dream of a life bettered
Mother’s tears streaming down streets laced with innocent blood
Greed, the artist of a colorful masterpiece captures sorrows and lost love perfectly with widowed tears
Fathers and mothers all but a saddened mystery to lost children craving their touch in times of need.
Hatred seeps from horrored spectacle as masters of greed pays their toll with the blood of the innocent
Insanity is the call of the day as history’s past lessons imbedded with tragedy and raging rivers of tears completely lost to a generation unknown to its hidden Pandora
With false promise of immortality doomed to repeat it’s never ending self destruction
Insanity ……the repeat of our own demise

The earth shatters
fear cloaks its hidden intent
Scattered earthly regrets, illuminates the darkened night sky
Enraged words of a mother wronged
Molten lava and promised lost destiny’s
Streams down like love lost reunited,
Into the hungry arms of enraging oceans eternally wronged
Fallen stars filled with tears crushes stabbing regrets
lost love and chosen greed
As prayer itself screams for salvation
Death hallowed grip releases the last hope of a tarnished race
The earth’s last word drenched with a fate always known
A word slowly whispered……Armageddon

My love for you a thousand fold cloaks the universe in it's entirety.  
Reincarnations of my future lives has pledged it's loved soul to you
        Your essence my oxygen. a match adorned in heaven
A cocoon of hope, reborn as a phoenix with eternal love shared
     Giving every fiber of my being to you in it's splendor entirely

You are the conqueror of my frailty, my strength your luminescent smile
vanquishing the embedded dark, hidden within my tortured heart

                 I will journey with you to the earths end
                             A question never needed.

I crave to live among the stars
Shed this infected earthly skin
and start dancing on Mars.

Infected with the struggles of the world, the pain and heartache of a earth slowly dying.

We not even trying, We have accepted our sealed fate.

I wish to dance among the stars

I can feel them shedding saddened tears, for a world laced with hate.

I wish to sleep among the serene stars.

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

Lost in space
The silence is deafening
I can hear the sorrow of my heartbeat
The vacuum of it's suffering
Lost in space
The silence is threatening
I can hear......
........ .....Nothing. ........

Enchanted a vision of pure plendour, graceful grandeur.
Like that of a starry abyss
Your eyes beckoned my soul to a journey of promised heavenly delight.
Your smile whispers my name, I immediately find me gasping to breathe.
Grasping in tandem at a  heavenly love we share.
A match adoren in heaven, our souls combined hearts beating as one, it completes us.
As your silken hand rest in mine, with unspoken words dancing around our single world.
The song in our hearts the only music we love and cry to.
When we embrace, I feel you holding as if I am the only one to save your soul.
In this instant, I hold on tighter.

You are my guiding light in a darkened world.
My oxygen in world choking
You eridicated cynicality,
I now shake the hand of optimism, I once again wed hope.

we have something real
play in my mind a never-ending reel
film star in my story not pretending
its how I feel my heart
you steal transcending everlasting
love, I can't conceal

every time I'm not near
know that I love you without fear,
the only one I hold dear
my dear,
if you caught in headlights
Doe, I will be here
carry you to safety, sincere
you I revere as the premier
every time I call your name
it should be clear
I hope you hear
this my decree a token my souvenir
never will I leave
more precious than times rare
it's all 4 1 I swear

even vanity thinks you fair
lady picturesque you make portraits stare
your silhouette a dream it defeats my
nightmares that became part of what i wear
the dark my lonely despair my savior
in your eyes, i can see that you care

you are a new year I'm luckier for
having met you I see a classic menu

divine heaven the venue astute
where you reside
the light within you can't hide
this love can't be denied
equally, we feel the same
perfect circular equilibrium
in your heart, i confide
united in past lives
lasting things captive
in your eyes you forgive
past sins that give
me a new lease for positives

colored pastel past times
past, the future now
best-loved a love not passive
cindered hearts love burning
learning to be more loving
kissing every part of your olive brown
skin
everlasting lasting forever

not even the grave can rob us
in the afterlife, we'll reminisce
in ceremonies that remedies
our memories with our love recipes
edged in history our only identity
hearts beating as one never enemies
or frenemies we gave our all
devoured all strife
side by side we conquered life
on love we rolled the dice
winning the jackpot more than thrice
gripping my heart my vice

hope the legacy of our love inspires many
dreading taking faiths leap
more a beheading when loving
but for naught it seems, keep the dream
love is everlasting around the corners
the one to complete
and defeat  
lonely nights keep the fight
you will find life delight
unconditional love conditioned
only to love unconditionally
you are deserving believe me
you worth it worthy of loves
words embedded in your heart
as pure poetic art it's written
in your eyes embedded in the stars
your love chart it illuminates
the dark at night when the moon
envy's how bright you beam
light

First track got released on Spotify, any support would be greatly appreciated.

In My Feelings

https://open.spotify.com/album/5k9VvA0ZHbDUBRgNpMjZWS

How can you deny this feeling
I think as I’m creeping
Outside your window watching you sleeping
I hope you willfully dreaming
Of us steaming, our love sharing
Now my tempers flaring
Thinking you ignoring
All this love I’m giving
So stop stringing
Me along this road, I’m hurting
You killing,
My life slowly and I’m sliding
Losing all part of me I’m deteriorating
So please stop faking
I love you with all my heart but you making
This anger uncontrollable it’s damning
My soul constantly tearfully craving
Your touch so stop playing
My hand reaching out to you suddenly stopping
My thoughts disturbing
My mesmerized eyes, now I’m running
Tears streaming…..
Thoughts racing, heart pumping,
legs darting., I’m shaking
thinking, I’m losing me to you willingly
My lungs bleeds for me to stop shouting......
Save me!!!!!!!!

Art pictured in motion, walking elegance.
Words you give life, monocle syllables
Beauty captivatingly imprinted, portraits stared.

Words gliding from your Cherrie lips, mesmerizingly eloquent
Intoxicated my heart listening, convinced by its eloquence
You my wish granted, an answered prayer.

Boastful our love drenched in splendour, Our love grandiloquent
I loved you in past lives, Aphrodite seems envious.
Saving Grace, pulled my soul from despair.

Dew drops shimmering in the crisp morning air
the sun lighting it's path through whispered truths
trickling on the beauty of rebirthed singing flowers.

Birds in a flutter of ecstasy crazed aroma fly's in pairs
singing the song of love in tandem.
Nests build from a future bright with flightlings
breathing in the essence of new lives in thought.

Flowers gleefully reaching towards the heavens
begging to be adorned with the hope of the awakened sun.

Life in a magical array of sounds and colors tickles the senses
of my skin.
living feeling rushes to every part of my quivering soul
with the scent of a new dawn dawns upon me.

The beginning of life a new rises from the cold gladly forgotten.

Spring the beginning of life anew.

Emotions a raging storm
My heart now mourns
Our futile existence
or are we just pawns
Races clashing, leaving our generations scorned
Our young ones born
In a world of hate, with no exit door
The rich stays rich
Forgetting the poor,

The world is in chaos
Race race to **** race among us
The living unjust
When could we last fully trust
Anything the media falsely feeds us,

This is the plight of my raging words
The world is cursed
And we it’s curse
The world will be saved
When humans disperse
As long as we here
Suffering gets worse
So open your minds to this global verse,

Let the truth be told
Behold
The words I whisper, is truthfully cold
The human race suffers
As we being controlled
Uncontrolled
My emotions waver
As my child’s being enrolled
Into this unforgiving…… world

Eyes getting lost in the night sky, a silhouette of your heavenly body I clearly envision in the stars,
Your eyes alluminate like the sun, flowing hair as red as mars.

A smile that lights the milky way.
A wish on a shooting star,
Is that I never betray,
The love you have given me, this love I'll repay.

Morning light infused with the night sky, this has just dawned on me.
You light my darkened soul, through the darkness I see.
This air that I breathe, without choking on oxygen, your kisses reborn, is the life that I need.

Your lips is my wine, forever drunk I will be.
Getting lost in this everlasting vacuum of hope, in infinite space we'll be free.

These words i bequeath,
Is simply to convey
Our love is everlasting, constantly expanding
Looking at the night sky
On your silhouette I still feast.

I look across the room and caught her staring,
What’s this sudden heat
My emotions suddenly flaring
We both instinctively look away and I guess that we are sharing
The same secret I hope that I’m daring,
Enough to look back, or am I just chancing
Should I rather electric slide over there like a man that’s just dancing
Wait what’s this I always here about
I think it’s called romancing,
Something about whining or dining, I think
Man! I need a shrink, or am I just glancing,
At what you *****, and stop with the counseling,
Man this is challenging!
Maybe a ring, what am I thinking
I don’t even know her name, this is demeaning
I look back and my heart just start racing….I mean F1 style
And yes! I know you know the meaning…
And it has feeling, what more do you want from me
At this point I’m reeling,
I turned around… she was gone like a magician, disappearing,
I was left picking up the pieces,
The sound of loss still screeching,
So I put my blades away in my bag clanging,
And hope tomorrow she’ll be inside me, her eyes is just stunning
So sleep soundly tonight lady knowing your shadow is now shading
Together forever… and no I’m not joking, for tomorrow my love….
You’ll be the one choking

Tears flow like the river Nile enraged
Mournful embraces, as the joining feeling of a future lost unites a weakened family
A mother inconsolable treads thru meaningful memories as the smile of her lost child still freshly lingers with her
A fathers rage distorted, hopelessly punches walls as the embrace of a perfect daughter still freshly lingers
A Family horrifically shaken, as even the stars sheds their mournful tears
Why? A question tread milling through broken down spirits and scarred souls
A eternally loved daughter’s memory, drowning in uncontrollable tears
Tear stained prayer reaching out with a healing hand, as reluctant sorrow pursues a numbing soul
Mournful embrace, the only solace in a wicked life’s tragedy
A promising future, with love in abundance lost in a sorrowful abyss
A life unnecessary lost,
not only the loss of one fragile soul

let's take a second to listen
written alphabetically
with a brand-new addition
spliffing delivering
heat, cat on a hot tin roof
sizzling, Messi, dribbling
spit ill sickening
guest visiting,
lend me your ear, listening
shimmering as he shines bright
twinkling, divide, partitioning
locked up, imprisoning
doodle, scribbling
SA drill
spicing  with flavor
seasoning, using my head
thinking of reasons
to justify reasoning
for dazzling,
as we settle in

round 2 smurfed but
not blue, more a colored
hue, repping cape town
awe bru, wake up
disabling snooze
jesters you fools
visionary when I see
first from the back
they all lose
not a masquerade it's all true
deadline my times due
ask mew 2, pokemon
index, it's perplex
get ash too, over
a cuckoos nest birds flew
seeking asylum hes crazy
still frosty so cool
yu gi it's time to
dddd duel


this the part where spazz out
remove doubt, running circles
on tracks, roundabout,
roundhouse kick to chin and mouth
no handout, grind out
red hot
circular rounded
noise drowned out, not shouting for clout
cant recognize skill,
take this pill, it will break
the spell my tracks stackable
not saying this sarcastical
sarcastically or sarcastic
not applicable, resolve soluble
doubt dissolve i'm liquid cyanide
every track i ****, surgeons
precision with a scalpel
so skilful, I sculpture
syllables in rhyme schemes
unseen to the naked ear
class dismissed school bell

so tell all its not all folks
not ****** toons no jokes
not ****** tunes, with lazy tones
I have lampoons, that ******
death squad platoon
you'll be history lying in ruins
surfing these dunes no fear
seeing things as the series turns
with unclear reasons I'm nuclear

Our love was sealed with a kiss
                 From heaven

Looking through my window pane
Tear stained, I loved you
What a crying shame
You Left me, like I’m the one to blame
I Always had this notion that we both felt the same
What you said, caused so much pain
why then drown in disdain
Fog cleared from this window pane
My Spirits lifted, like by a crane
Is this all I have to say
Is there more anger to obtain
I'm Not angry any more
I’ve grown in strength, without decay
Your picture smashed, what a beautiful dame
These conjured words I say today
Is simply to convey
We over,
These feelings.....
A smashed covey on display
My heart’s over you.... ok
Moving on is never easy,
I’m over you memories faded
You just a jaded
Part of my life forgotten

Tears flow like the river Nile enraged
Mournful embraces as the joining feeling of a future lost unites a weakened family
A mother inconsolable, treads thru meaningful memories as the smile of her lost child still freshly haunts her
A fathers rage distorted, hopelessly punches walls as the embrace of a perfect daughter still freshly lingers
A Family horrifically shaken, as even the stars sheds their mournful tears
Why?
A question tread milling through broken down spirits and scarred souls
A eternally loved daughter’s memory
drowning in uncontrollable tears
Tear stained prayer reaching out with a healing hand
as reluctant sorrow pursues a numbing soul
Mournful embrace, the only solace in a wicked life’s tragedy
A promising future, with love in abundance lost in a sorrowful abyss
A life unnecessary lost........
not only the loss of one fragile soul

Early morning icicles hitching a ride on a chilled wind
                                  ....so cold

My thoughts tread-milling to the memory of a  faded history of continued decay and chaos
                                  ......so old

My cards stacked with life's hate, i heard it whisper, it despises me
                                     .....I fold

These words spinning in my head, luminescent colors cloaks the fiber of it's being, unaware of it's true power
                                     ....so bold


As we exchange the words of wisdom with our tongues entwined as one, selling my soul to you willingly
                                 ..........i'm sold

advise of old wisdom, told by the ageing pillars of all our
communities, conveyed the colorful lives lived
                                   .......i'm  told

i scribble and tear these pages, words screaming for me to release them from the cages within my mind, seeping onto these pages,
line by line
                                   ......it unfolds

As fireflies infinite lights a darkened sky
The memory of a perfect love freshly lingers
Her honeyed kisses I still taste with every breath I take
Her touch of healing still warm against my mournful skin
Her angelic face depicted in the stars
a wave of untainted emotion storms my soul
Our souls unbreakable promise to be entwined for all eternity
With every moment spent apart tears me to tears
A punishment unmistakably unbearable
The only solace a voice recalled…
The words drenched with hope dripping from her lips in ecstasy
         .....I love you…

The moon reflect your silhouette in the night sky
Why?
Are you haunting me, I feel I could cry
Heartbroken,
You left me to die
I plead, no beg of you,
please leave my mind
You still a part of me
In my soul you reside,
I can no longer cry
Someone please save me!
Why’d you leave me behind
God you should have taken me instead
In her place I would have died
Please help me!
This misplaced rage I can’t hide….


Loneliness is killing me
I can’t go on, it’s with you I should be
We for eternity, is a promise we share
Slit wrist,
Wait for me my love
I’ll be right there.

Remember!  the conversation we had? I clearly remember,
It was raining that night.
I asked if it was her that you chose, You stuttered
On your face i saw fright
I did not want to fight, i pushed you away
you grabbed me, then held me tight.

I felt like being swallowed by the earth under my feet,
You lifted my chin, looked into my eyes
God! you smelt so sweet
Slowly you whispered, you all i will ever need
i got lost in that eyes,  for a second all the rage did subside

I then remembered that this happened before, I remember the lies
i felt this saddened emotion,  from my soul it arise
The truth you telling me, a masquerade,
It's always in disguise.

Tears and anger cloaks me, like the dark in absence of light
i pull myself lose from your lifeless grip,
This just doesn't feel right, you not even holding me tight

I'm looking at this stranger standing in front of me
Unrecognizable, he starts to slowly speak
shut up! shut up!
all you do is lie, i gave you my heart,
Please! I don't want to cry

Is she worth it? I will die for you! look how i cry for you?
All the promises you made, This was all lies too
You ripped out my heart, stomped on it with your shoe
Do hear what i'm saying? You broke me in two

I'm sorry, is this all you can muster?
I gave you my life, my soul, What about her!?
What did she ever do!? to ever deserve you
did she stick to you when you were down, i thought our love was like glue

I guess this was a lie also, this also wasn't true

                          As you turn to leave,
                emotions a sunder, you din't look back
                   tears my companion,  I fall to my knees.

Love is the essence and fuel of the heart
Love conquers all if you believe in it's might
It's feeling that's joyous and always seems right....

What about the love that hurts, the toxic love
Some live for, where pain equal pleasure
In their heart they know that they still have love for one another, but they are heartbroken, the pain never heals,
It's constantly raw

What about serial killer stalking his pray, he fell in love with killing, this is type of love we love to hate.
And we should, this is a twisted kind of love
We have condemned this
It has been sealed by fate.

There's many types of love in this world ruled by greed
Let's embrace the pure love and hope it never bleeds
If it turns sour you will never be free
Let's pray that all prayers then, makes it to heaven safely.

so sick of this rat race
pull ahead get pulled back
by peoples hate smiles fake
good died
evils taken its place
truth you have to face, a dying breed
morals are being replaced

no matter how hard I try to live
nothing I do is good enough
inside they breaking all my stuff
feel like this life is getting rough
tough but I feel like caving in
seems everyone consumed by sin
trying to set my shine to dim
cant break i need to  save me

walking in a twilight zone
eerie feelings I must disown
trying to break me, I'm not alone
have a love that's so strong
lifts me up when I'm  down
live as a optimist that is a risk
life's trying to spin me around
I'm no clown screaming holding a fist
ready to fight, till my last breath
i know i'm right,
why should i conform to norms,
when I posses the light
have insight
to fight the dark
when it tries to bite
modern night, any evil i will smite

this where i confess life's heartless
nevertheless wont digress
no recess got to push for progress
negativity I got to suppress
ill feelings I disposes
wont feel the effects
wont bring me to my knees
have love still feel blessed
nonetheless I'm destined for success
wont stress, not a request, i impress
play this game time for chess
this board I will possess

why do they keep hunting me
I'm not fair game, insecurities
makes them lame, cant face themselves
so play the blame game, they cant face the shame
living in lies not to feel ashamed
its too late you made your bed
face the sins in your head, its your regrets
feel its effects, never forget
placed your bets, did the crime
now face the time
cant reset, try to make amends is the best bet

yet the ones you wronged, is now dead
my conscience clear yours complex
you will only heal when you accept
with deceit you are possessed
I severe ties cant stand the lies
now you nothing but pests

your story ends
book shortened, hurt a person considered
the best of men, for yawl he did everything
yet you destroyed him in the end
hope at night you scream his name
in terror because pain
did this **** for worldly gains
cant take the **** to the grave
narcissistic yawl insane
do you have empathy, what a crying shame
the time cant be reclaimed
hope heaven lose your names

Life equivalent to a runaway roller coaster.
It is a scary ride
At times you feel like letting go
Befriending the grim reaper
So he would call you willingly to his side.

Just like the fishmonger
These thoughts are selfish.

What about those left behind
The ones that truly love you
That has always been by your side
If you do not see them, please open your eyes
You are not alone, you have courage inside

Get your thoughts out the stormy clouds
Dry your saddened tears
Let the darkness see light, if only for a moment
let go of the numbing fears
You will soon realize, you have not yet drowned
To the darkness, you not consensually bound
Just open your blinded eyes
To see the love that is all around.

In the darkest hour, you will always find a smiling face
This is the nature of the human race
We might be killing ourselves and the world slowly
Drowning it with all the hate, we killing it unhurriedly
One day it will suffocate
We still built to adapt, so never give in
You are stronger than you know, exhale all the toxic thoughts
Let all the elegance in heart start your sing