Though my smile is as illuminating as the morning sun, it grows dim in the night hours.
Even though my lips are full, they fall flat a lot.
My body is curvy and a nice sight to see, but there are some days I hate it
Though I wish my skin were lighter, I love my two tonedness
I know that the realest people don't have lots of friends, but I wish I had at least one more
See, I'm that girl who knows there's more like her The girls who acknowledge their imperfections But still love their flaws They keep their heads up and make the world their own The ones who are determined to be the greatest The ones who never fully fit in Their smiles go dark but they don't let it stay dim forever The strong women who look the world in the face And say, "You ain't ready for me baby" The big and kindhearted girls who will love you but will know when it's not worth it anymore The ones who dare to believe that they can do anything they put their minds to The missfits who were cast aside But walked back in center with her hands on her hips and kept going forward
Life is something else on its own But I do my best to make it a better day for myself I can't stop smiling I can't stop laughing I can't stop putting in 100 percent every day I gotta keep moving If I ever stop, I'm halting my own progress And I'd rather not make that my own reality #OWL'******br>
Everyone is different No one is the same Everyone has different opinions and viewpoints Even those closest to you Even those who have or are going through the same things you have gone through Your friends Your family Everyone
You are Alone
Your thoughts Your feelings Your ideas Your views Your emotions
It is all yours It is only yours
There is only one you Only you will get to experience how you have experienced your experiences You will never be able to fully relate to someone Unless that someone is you
You are Alone
You may have shoulders to cry into Or faces to laugh with
But just remember No matter how close you are with your friends, your family Just remember
I have this mountain to climb It's a rocky relationship I keep trying hopefully to lookup I descend It's a repeated downwards *****
You know that I will always love you This winding path you taking is directionless It's a dark road, devoid of light You keep throwing punches at the world Your emotions must be in a constant fight.
Open your eyes Please don't ever lose sight the biblical morals I instilled in you It should be glowing and shining bright It's supposed to be infinite I first-hand know life's not easy It will always be an endless plight
I was truly hoping you would never lose your innocence This was a lying might You growing up The choices in life will become more I'm left praying daily for you Hoping you always choose the option that is right.
I will always be here Whenever your heart cannot find The love that is needed To keep the darkness within you aligned
The most innocent sound in the world is a baby's laughter As they grow older they get smarter The World will try and destroy them It will only get harder So as oarents, we take up the plight And pray they turn out close to right
Pulsate your peevish pain through every inch of me, call it love, your preposterous purity pumps in my veins now, I cannot escape your Vice, I laugh that I once Tried.
That is a part of me now. That same sickness satiates Each nerve of mine. That same slaughterous sin sounds like the echo of My bare bones. That slimy sidekick that You call sanctimonious Writhes, sorry in my skin.
Pre-existent Angelface is nothing But a wistful, naïve miracle! She is chained with heavy wire, Remains in my grains. I believe she weeps, out of sheer Celebration, for she is a ferociously forgiving creature Blind to her nature.
My worth is not seen by the harrowing nature of my own eyes I have seen too many lives pass before me They are wilted Jilted by an unrequited dream Lives that are my own because I always place myself inside your heart If I could take the next bus home it would be toward that time when I was 10 I hugged my Papa so tight because he was at my birthday party That would both be the sad and happy time for me Only to experience great loss and great gain and great forgetfulness The fear of neglect is so close to my heart That when I feel any sort of bird born in my cages It is also a trap to set it free There is a song sung before it flies away:
"Premature maturity The never ending running man In one place is a rot on my mind Until it dies of nothing Because my body is where ideas come to grow and die and bear fruit My body is where I am alive for the new roots to plant itself in my skull To listen to the whisper of the woman in my ear She says she is my mother There is nothing to fear"
But why Mama did you leave us? To grow in a place where nobody knows us To belong in a world where you are rejected Your children feeling nothing but loneliness
The back of my head is haunted by a man looking over my shoulder He sees everything I have searched for I find nothing But he finds me without fail He knows everything
That man inside this cage of mine His nose is broken, his grin is crooked like a hunger inside him is restless There is a dark pit I cannot find If I find it I might just get lost in thought Pondering on an idea I can't quite remember My mind treads unto idea upon idea Until the stores have closed It's nothing short of a shame I don't mind your sorries I only mind the explanations
I believe in destiny. Sure I may come off as anti love and non committal but give me the chance to back my statements up.
I’m anti loving someone when you as a human with a beautiful soul cannot see the lighter aspects of yourself. I’m anti loving another person when you can’t find love in yourself. It’s somewhat painful and distasteful to want to receive a perfectly beating heart and give back uncertainty because you can’t love yourself.
I’m non committal because I see it in you. Doubt, fear on what you could find to be true. You shadow these thoughts and let them take over you. You let the past of other people define what you see of me and treat me lesser than them. I’m non committal because your heart is in lust and your soul is charred and blown to dust.
I believe in destiny. I believe that in a world exists two or more of our soulmates. I believe each soulmate is for each specific moment and that a specific two are for a more permanent mark.
Your first soulmate shows and teaches you exactly what your soul has been crying and screaming for. Your second fulfills that underlying pressure the world has put on you about love. But your second may never come, Your first may never leave.
But stay believing in love that is yours and you will be okay.
Im anti love and non committal because if you search for these qualities But can never find them in yourself than that toxicity. That is inhaling the green and spreading it to the lungs of another.
Have you not seen the love that they are portray? All in it’s broken and incomplete manner. How can I be so trustful when love doesn’t reside within ourselves first?
Such symbolic sentences...I fancy them. Situations so strange...as well as how I end them. Simple seeking of silence...useless in its longing. Subjugating secrets...cruel in its withdrawal.
Shall we share the shyness? There is plenty for you... Should we show our shallow shells? We will certainly protect you. Shall we scare the separated sons of servants? They never told you. Should we sell selfish souls? I did not mean to punish you.
Which is just? Maybe all of them, if you must.
Which is right? A few of them, if it helps you sleep at night.
Where is she? Right in your heart, I promise truthfully.
-- Yes, I know. Eventually, there will be writing on the wall.