Should I drive you from my mind?
Shall I stop my heart?
Or are you even close to me?
Do you play a special part?
I forget to think of you
When I am alone,
And I can't say I like to say
Our names in a loving tone.
I admire you, I know that,
But are you in my soul?
Have I even written your name?
Or imagined us on a stroll?
In fact, am I infatuated?
Or do I fancy it
So that my heart longs to feel,
And yet, it doesn't?
I don't know what I'd do
If you suddenly loved me,
And I don't know what I'd say
If your eyes began to see.
Perhaps my heart's run out of love--
Perhaps I am a yawn:
Too tired to think romantic things
And to friendship go beyond.
Finally, I have defeated
A meaningless urge:
The wish to be your only one,
Under tiredness submerged.
I don't have a crush on you at all. I don't know why I thought I did. What a relief.