I want to get drunk one last time
Just to know what I would say
Intoxicated words come out so much easier
Than trying it the sober way
I want to tell him I love him
I want to tell the truth
I want to feel like everything is acceptable
I want to talk to you
I want an excuse to come clean
About everything I have felt
From love to hate
to anger to lust
to that time I wanted to **** myself
I want to share things I am too scared to share
I want to hold him tight
I want to thank you for breaking my heart
I want to share incredibly sad things in the dead of the night
I want to be brave
I want to talk a lot
I want someone to listen
And not just laugh it off
I want to get drunk
So I can be who I truly am
But alcohol is bad
And I am clean
So I will filter these thoughts for now

Wake me up
When this year is over
Or better take me back
To when I was not growing older
Dreaming of the days
That have yet to come
What it will be like in high school
What it will be like to be in love
Because now all I want
Is to be clueless again
To the pain of getting old
And the depression gained
By wanting  to be thin
Let me travel back
To when I was unaware
Of the stress of paying bills
And having to know what I want as my career
I want to travel back in time
To where problems did not exist
And the biggest thing to worry about
Was whether or not
I had fed my fish

I never would have thought
In a million years
I would find myself thanking
The boy who caused my tears
For the heartbreaks and the lies
Broken promises
Second chances and tries
For causing my heart to shatter
After repeatedly picking up the pieces
All on my own
Making me question if love was for me
Denying any boy
Who showed the slightest interest
Because I did not think I deserved it
I just wanted to be alone
For lying to me constantly
And making me believe
That if anyone was truly honest
It must be a dream
You changed my course of happiness
And made me want to sin
Drink away the pain
And never let you back in
I wanted to forget your name
And your forest green eyes
I wanted to kiss a boy
Who would not tell me lies
Once I sobered up
I came to believe
You were never good enough
To love someone like me
So thank you for my tears
And your expensive lies
Thank you for pushing me on a path
To meet the boy with green eyes
To tinder a relationship
Into the brightest of flames
To love someone worth trusting
That makes me want to dance in the rain
Thank you for the pain
You have caused me
Without experiencing you
I wouldn't be in love with Garrett Hedley

If ever I see
A pink little plus
On a stick covered in ***
I may cause a fuss
You were not in my plans
But you will not be called a mistake
You will begin to grow
And your life, I will not take
You were made out of love
Although, not our intention
I will raise you how you were made
And I will not forget to mention
How beautiful you are
As you wrap your fingers around my thumb
And I will show you the stars
And I will teach you of love
I cannot end a life
Because of selfishness for my own
You may be tiny
But you will soon grow
I will love you all my days
Even if I have to do it alone

-Successfully Broken

He starts a fire in me
And watches me burst into flames
Kisses me with passion
And shows me love does not have to be a game
He plants flowers in me
And watches as I bloom
Holds me in his arms
And promises me our love is not doomed
He undresses me with words
And makes me want to write
Treats me like I am worth loving
And makes me want to be alive
He is the rising sun
He is the starlit sky
He is a better person than I can ever be
He is the reason I still try

-Succesfully Broken

His breath reeks of the cigarettes
He'd rather kiss than me
When he leaves it is like a cloud of smoke
Brushing against my cheek
He has to get high
To not feel so low
But it is hard to look in his green eyes
As someone I do not know
Falling in love with a smoker
Is far from a beautiful thing
So do not tell me it is not a big deal
When I have to kiss a chimney

-Succesfully Broken