His melody
My melody
Sunshine
Jolly good fakers we are
Jolly good people we not
We gave the world sparkles
But we held no sparkles in heart
We suffered
We lived pretence

His melody
My melody
Darkness
Tears like the desert I held
Hidden tears he shed
Silence he pained
Oblivious I was
Silence he cries
Oblivious I am
Silence he will torture
Oblivious I will be

His melody
My melody
Confusion
He hid his pain
His fake life read by the world
No true form shown
His skin bitten off by societies boundaries.

His melody
My melody
Death
Slowly he fades
Slowly the desert waters
He gave up
He gave up pretending
He gave up giving sparkles
He gave up trying to live for those who saw
Saw the real him

My melody
No longer do I want it
My tears are my remedy
No longer do I hold it

I've lost my Sunshine
I'm losing my love
I'll lose my sanity

Melody

My story.
Where do I begin? Normally people would say at the beginning, but what if the story has no beginning or the beginning has been forgotten. What if every lie is the beginning and truth is the ending, would that complicate life? Or would it be understandable. Confusion is humans main language. Before we speak we confused whether we should or not. Before we say our words our minds are confused whether it's right or wrong. This confusion is accepted if not said, but when uttered is a disgrace. But a disgrace to who actually? Is it a disgrace to those who assume you understand or to yourself for being naturally confused. Anyway that is not the story. My story is dumber and simpler then that. It's the typical boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Okay, its not that simple cause it now sounds stupid. Let me spice it up, maybe you will be able to identify too much spice. He was or should I say is a normal yet complex rubix cube. I could read him till I thought I was smart enough to scrabble him up and set him back again. Yet he has one flaw, a flaw that made him smell like garbage. This flaw was, that he lived flings, loved flings, is flings. His cube had a missing part. The red part. It was all black. Even when questioned his master mind was quick to come up with lies. How we met is forgotten yet lied about. We told the world that we met at school, but what if we didn't. We told them we liked each other. Yet we couldn't drink water without telling one another. The beginning was forgotten. My biggest flaw that he could see is that, I lived love, I love love and I was built on pieces of a buttered heart. Yet I remained with him. He would shoot fireworks of heartaches yet I would smile and pretend I'm not choking on the smoke. He would slice my buttered heart yet I would smile and say you would be a great butcher.. He never understood me and I always let that slide. I was a continuous joke and he the comedian. What was left of me at the end was truth. That no matter what, I am willing to go through it all till I find my Valentine. The world called me crazy. I was confused, am I crazy for believing or crazy because I am strong. I'm made with love. Something unbreakable. No one can take that away. Even He, couldn't

She stood still as life stood before her
Her path unclear
Her memories fighting one another
Her demons sing the hymn her heart beats
Life stood before her with claws that took lives away
She tried to run
Her blood filled with truth and depression
Causing her to stand still
Her mind filled with plans to run away
Her painful memories won
She learnt life had 3 choices
Live, run or die
She tried all and failed all
Living and breathing became hard
She lost meaning and saw a trampled heart
Her heart stepped and bruised by the people she loved
Her body used like a tissue on a hot summers day.
Only purpose is to clean up.
She searched for a place to bury her heart but only found more humans created to harm.
Her blood flowed in disappointment and regret as she ran passed life and met death.
Death gave a warm welcoming hand
With eyes that glittered the face with truth of pain
She knew death stole the identity of life
But confrontations was her weakness
She found a calmness that death gave her
A calmness that turned all good, bad
She ran back
She sat in between life and death for she had nowhere to run
The world she stole the blame from pushed her away
The river that welcomed her with wickedness was rejected due to past teachings..
Now she remains in a world of confusion and accepting of everything.

Can I be happy
Can I see myself smile without you being the reason.
Why do you have to roam around my heart.
Why do you make it seem as if life is simple
Yet
When I see you
You with her
When I want to talk to you
I fear you in her presence
Why should I fear your wrath or pretence
Why can't you just tell me
Why can't you be honest
Why should I suffer under your pretence
Why pretend you my friend
If you only seek what you want such as work
A joke.
You and I are a joke.
Unknown to all and just an atom to nothing.
Love... Love is just a wild fire in Antarctica...

He walked towards her
With a mysterious look..
This look held so much
But she is incapable of reading
He kept coming
She kept failing to read
He stopped
She couldn't breathe
He looked away
Her heart slowly decays
Slowly it sinks in
She's not his
Nor
Is he hers

He backs away
This painful look
He had a word written on his face
Insecurity
Their biggest enemy
She was once under it's foot
Now
He lays under insecurity

Heartache
Stress
Tiredness
Pain
Heartache
That's their cycle

He is no longer mysterious to her
But his pain is mysterious to him

How
How can it be that the prince of love
Is now a slave to insecurity and pain
Once love held so much
Now
It means so little

The story behind it is lost
Fake stories arise

Love
Value
Worth
Meaning
Lost in a battle.
A battle uncalled for
A battle unannounced

He walked away..
He is no longer mysterious to her.

They both carried what they call


A broken heart, with a smile

Can we fly?
Can we fly away from our pain?
Can we fly and touch the moon, for the sky doesn't interest me
Can we sit in silence and bathe each other in our breathes.
Can we just be ourselves?
Why do we have to sacrifice ourselves for others when others create art works of wounds on our backs?
We keep holding ourselves down.
We satisfy the world and never ourselves
We always ready to clean up the dirt people leave around
We stopped flying before we reached each other
We stopped laughing hoping to meet and share each other's joy
We always see through each other's mistakes
We forget we human
We heroes to all, and villains to our hearts
I wish we could have done better rather than letting it all hurt us
****** I am
Handsome you are
Sad I am
Unknown your feelings
I'm a bottle filled to the brim
You're a pool waiting for more water
You accept all
While I cry, hoping you wouldn't
I wish the world was..
I wish the..
I..
No reason for wishing when you absorb all bad
I no longer want to wish...
I will fly
My wingless self, will fly away from you
~ MJ

Falling for the taken

The little wood set a light in her heart.
Her little hope of love burning brighter than ever.
A story of regret at the beginning.
She fell for his smile
His scent
His warmth
His words
His heart
She walks blindly on the paths he drags her
Her smile is, till pain do them part.
The intensity of the fire
Spreads wildly causing happiness to all and scars to heart
She fell for the taken heart.
Her first regret.
Everyday he is with his one
She holds the tears that will send their fire to death
She chokes on her words of love
For once, she hoped to be read.
Her wall made of dust.
Their flame keeps burning her.
She wills him to love his one as she holds him tight
Her skin melts
She feels the pain but enjoys the heat
She pains but loves
She refuses to let her mistake go
She refuses to water the flame of her love
She fell for the taken.

The heart of the taken

Under my skin
Cyan blood flowing through my body, sending my heart on a drumming quest for a feeling
A feeling that wants to escape through my knife tattooed wrist
We fall in love and hurt one another.
We live with hidden emotions.
We live with a camouflage hiding scars from the human satellite,called eyes.
Falling in Tim Kuilmine, creating a comfy home for the lovers of solitude

I fell into this safe haven, knowing that no one dared to enter the world of the hurt
Until life sent a Prodigy into my hollow life
He was the moon on my sleepless nights
He was the sun shining on my cloudy day
He is the rain that kisses me on a beautiful stormy day
This Prodigy came into my my life like a feather causing mass destruction

I hated this Prodigy who took me out the comfort of my hole
Who made me laugh when depression clawed under my skin pleading to be released through my wrists
He caused a hail storm of emotion when he hugged me
Here today gone tomorrow i chanted
But he was here today and tomorrow
He made me stop giving the demon a path to dance from my mind to paper
I started seeing stars after months of solitude and clouds
Prodigy became VY Canis Majoris.
Greek Gods never understood him for he was sent to save Proxima Centauri

My love for him as my depression turned into insecurity
But he saved me
For now

There we go
Here we are
Hand in hand
Smiles greater then the milky way
Happiness unmeasurable

Him and I
Our laugh contagious
The world unable to hold us back
The dark night gives us stars to dance with

Him and I
Our happiness never gathers dust
Our smile is the highest currency
Baby we magic

Wait...

Did you hear that
Our hearts armour has fallen
Free at last
Now we dance
Now we kiss
Now we love
All stop signs demolished
Every red light means love

Fairy dust we create
All steel knives I carry
Melted
Moulded
Baby I present
The Eiffel Tower

Ever wished to be a bird
Travel around the world with no need of being told the beauty of places
As you reach your vulnerable stage, everyone is there
Words of protection promised
Words of eternal love tattooed on the heart
Everyone showing you what you can become
Each gift possess the piece of freedom they lost
As you reach your fledgling  stage
Your need to travel grows stronger
You start feeling the rope of life place itself on your neck
Life whispers
Promises are easily broken
Tattoos fade
You are not who they want you to be
Forced to fly but fear of rejection from the wind creeps under your wings
Everyday , pushed closer to the edge
Every push tightens the rope
Your need to travel disappears
Your need to survive becomes important
No longer wanting to travel
Seeking a way to fly away
Every attempt made when not being pushed tightens the rope
The rope feels amazing as you suffocate try to please all
The twigs stabbing your feet as you forever on edge
Welcome to the stage of learning to fly
At last the wind shouts fly my child
The higher you go the tighter the rope
Your heart breaks it's armour as you reach the top of the tree
Your iris turning white as the joy is too much to handle
As breathing can not be done
You fall
That moment of freedom is what we search for but we never remove the rope that society and family made.
Fly little bird
But first free yourself

Dear Insecurities.

Insecurity, my old friend.
I did not request for your coming.
Nor was your arrival the cause of joy.
Insecurity, my old pal.
You and I go way back.
From the day I understood words.
Fam, we lost connection when I met Confidence.
I heard that you and Confidence fought over me, and I see that you won.
Insecurity, I need a favour.
I need you to go.
Go far and bring Peace for me.
I always push you away and you keep pulling me in.
As ancients say opposite attract.
You messed up my mind
You messed up my life
You the most ****** issue in life.
Insecurity, you cute and all but I don't want you.
They say let go of what you love, but what do you do to the things you dislike?
I can't keep you, Insecurity.
This what we have, is poison.
You slowly killing me
Please leave.
Kind Regards
Mercia Jorge

Hold my hand, Destiny
Walk with me down the aisle
As we walk,my story will be told
I've lost many
The ones you see,remained
We've clashed and crushed
But forever their here
As I walk down this aisle
I see who I've lost
I see whose forever
Blood has been spilt
But the heart beat forever
Courage
Love
Blessings
They are to me
Pain
Annoying
Hurtful
I was to them.
Forgiveness is our chain
Chained together;we are forever
The man I walk to
Is my man forever
We've hurt
We've burnt
We've cried
But never died
Him and I
Are hotter than lighting
Him and I
Stole confidence from the mighty lion
Him and I
Are bulletproof
He fell in love with me
His proud to be in my psychotic world
I fell in love with him
His world is my safe haven
But thanks to you.
Thank you destiny
Without you I would be blind
Without you I would be naive
But here I stand with gratitude towards you.
You are my ultimate friend.

Sweet, sweet broken mirror.
Shattered we both are.
You've seen all who have stopped by
None know the secrets you hold
I see myself, my broken self
I tell you my secrets
I show you my tears
I trust you.
Broken pieces, still work
Broken me, not woke
I sing for you my sorrows
Only you know how to sway in silence
Sweet, sweet broken mirror.
You show, what the world fails to see
You show what I refuse to see
I stand before you, Mr Shattered
I wish for your embrace
I wish for your words
Broken mirror, I trust you more than myself
Thank you mirror
Thank you for taking my heart
Sorry for shattering you
For now I see, you reflecting my heart
~MJ

We all have masks on, we only allow who we dont mind being hurt by to remove it.
Everyday is a new day to create a new mask
Every night is a cold windy night to cool down while overthinking
The pleasure our mind gives us when we need silence, overthinking
Yellow little sunshine pour into my molded frown and burn me to smile cause my wounds are burns for my fake happiness. Yellow meet sun
Orange fruit give me your sour taste to help me realise the bitter sweet truth lies within me. As i hold in the truth hold hands with yellow and burn me as you help yellow brighten the sun.
Red eyes given when thinking of you. It's the colour that flows out of my body as i lie on the bed of needles, each point as sharp as my feelings for you yet hidden to the naked eye and painful for the oblivious body
Green grass the effect that calms the mind. An ingredient that kills my lungs and frees my mind is green too. I should let you go yet you give me so much comfort that the world fails to give. My opinion right.
Blue ocean. The only place i want to be, for the ocean i would leave everything. For the ocean i will forget everything. My weakness.

I told you the truth
You pained.
I apologized
You never told me if you forgive me.
Was it wrong of me?
Should I have lied to you instead?
Regret is what keeps me awake
Knowing I have ruined what was good with truth..
Was our friendship ever meaningful?
Or just a flame meant to be burnt out?
Formality ain't for us yet you use it.
I bear in me the last burst of fire.
For your friendship

I'm fine.
Please believe me when I lie.
I'm hurting deep inside.
I'm crying every night.
I'm not alone, but in need of loneliness.
I hate silence, but I would rather have silence than invite my best pal insecurity.
I'm fine
Please believe me when I lie.
~M.J