I don't have the courage to tell you how I feel
But having you around has been so surreal

My heart still skips a beat every time you smile my way
I hope that this feeling never dies away

For one day I surely hope I can convey my admiration
And turn this despair into elation

I'm afraid of the outside
all I see is pain and suffering.
It Scare's me to see the world for what it has become.
Death, theft, and drug's
I can't stand it anymore I'm scared
just want to lock myself away plug my ears and close my eyes
And hope that it was all a dream.
I've always wondered what the world would look like through someone elses eyes is it truly this evil or am I the only one who See's this horror. Do we have a chance of saving this world or is it lost already.

looking around hoping to find a light
only to see darkness has already
closed in around me like a wall
with no escape

I sit alone in the dark thinking
screaming but no sound is coming out
voices that remind me I'm all alone
to embrace the darkness and let it end.

You make me so cranky
So angry
And that's so handy
To stand here and tell
You farewell
And set forth to find
My own peace of mind

Why wish to be normal
Why live by the standards of the world
Acting like robots so that you won't be ridiculed by society
Making the world all black and white
Living a dull and colorless life until the day you die
Why live a normal life
When you can paint the world
In a unique way
Break away
Be yourself
Be unique
And make the world colorful again

Alone in the dark
Contemplating the end
Good bye cruel world
Time to finish this horrible nightmare

She never truly loved me
I was her safety her plan B
The nice guy she can fall back on
My heart belongs to her but her heart was never mine
Will I ever learn to love the way I did or am I forever broken

Life can be so boring
but still I awake in the morning
living daily hidden in the shadow
hoping to escape life's battle
only to lose the fight
in the city of light

The way **** happens sometimes is crazy
It just leaves me feeling so ******* hazy
It's been awhile since we've talked
I really thought I had you blocked
Now out of nowhere you showed up
As if you had forgotten about the breakup
Well I didn't,
as a matter of fact I have finally found someone new
Sorry you had to drive all the way here,
but thank you for passing through
It's crazy the way **** happens sometimes
But it's time to move on from old times

Dear god,
I don't know what to do anymore
There's is too much to ignore
All my emotions are about to explode
At the middle of this crossroad
With no where to go
So please let me know
What it is I can do
Just give me a clue
Feeling lost with no where to call home

I had thought about death on many occasions
To end all frustrations
A simple step it's all it'll take to transcend
Oh it's time to ascend
Time for me to amend for all my sins
I guess this is where it again begins

Feeling so useless
So pardon my rudeness
you can go to hell

Feeling so stupid
But my thoughts are lucid
You can all go to hell

Huh
I guess I feel courageous
I know this will be outrageous
But I truly feel rampageous

So with a shameless mind
And words that are not confined
Do me a favor and kindly go to hell

I keep it hidden deep
It tends to make others uncomfortable
But I don't have the courage to show them
my heart has been trampled on and tossed aside so many times
It's been turned into an ugly void where emotions die
I guess I'm just heartless

Here i go again
I don't know why it has to be you
Even when your with someone else
I can't keep you out of my head
And my heart is even worst
It skips a beat when you text
And stops when you are near
I know what you've been thru
And know that it wasn't easy
So I'll wait till you see
That I am right there beside you
Just hope that It will be enough

You have always believed in me
The way you look at me as if I was a hero
Always happy always smiling
Never any doubt
I just hope that the day never come that I disappoint you
That I can be everything you believe me to be
So that when my time is gone
You're time begins
For you shall be my legacy for ages to come
And be a better hero for someone else

It hurts to smile
But it hide's the pain
I don't want anyone knowing that I am broken
Shattered into million's of pieces
Hoping one day someone will put me back together
Hoping one day I'll feel whole again
Hoping one day that person is you

It's undeniable that I am in love with you
It's understandable that you are not in love with me
I just can't seem to get over you
You're the first thought in the morning and the last of the night
Everything around me just reminds me of you
I just can't seem to get over you
I miss your smile reassuring me that you were the one
I miss you laughing at my jokes even if they were corny
I just can't seem to get over you
I really thought it would work
I really saw my happily ever after with you
I just can't seem to get over you
And I truly don't think I will!

So confused right now
I don't even know who I am anymore
Riding this rollercoaster of emotions
Feeling worst with every passing day
Wishing that the pain will disappear
Contemplating wether to continue living or just give up
I just want to be numb of all this pain
Hoping the day will come soon
Hoping for the end of my painful days
Just end already
Just end

I can never find the right words to tell you
I know I've ******* up in the past
Left you alone feeling abused
To fight your own demons
I know you waited to see if I'd change
But it only got worst
I know
But I didn't want to see
till it was too late for me
You were packed and heading out the door
But the words wouldn't come out

Is true love even real
Day after day, night after night
I search for my one and only love
High and low, far and near
I have yet to come close
It's feels like I'm chasing a fantasy
That only keeps getting further and further away
The more I search the harder it is to believe
That true love even exist
This unexplainable urge to find you has become my nightmare
I find this mythical thing called love to be nothing but a legend
Yet I search not knowing if it truly exist

Life is a dangerous game
You never know what may happen
Just keep on living and hope for the best

So what if your damaged
So what if he thinks your worthless
He may have hurt you in the past
But I'm here now
I won't let anyone else hurt you anymore
I know you can't except my love right now
But time will heal you
And I'll be waiting

I know you see men as abusive and untrustworthy
And that you have given up on love
Thinking that you don't deserve it anymore
But I am going to show you that not all men are the same
And little by little I know you too will come to love me back
So don't give up on love yet
I'll wait for you

I Know it wasn't meant to be
I've been by your side since we were kids
I know all about you
Your fear, dream's, and even your first love
It didn't last long but I was there by your side
Waiting for a chance to confess my love for you
I felt greedy i wanted more
I wanted for you to see me as a man
And it didn't matter what I did
You never noticed the love I felt for you
I just don't understand why I keep waiting to confess
And every time I have a chance
These voices remind me how great she is
And I start thinking
Am I truly good for her
I'm scared I'll lose her if she knew
But I guess it doesn't matter now
She'll be married soon and I am still by her side

To live an honest life can be hard
One little thing can derail and catch you off guard
It is what you do after that can define who you are
And that still can only take you so far
Live each day as if it were you're last
And forget all about the past
Living an honest life is hard

****, I cannot believe this is happening again
It's getting harder to explain
I wish I could just lock it away
And forget about it today

I was always told that god has a reason for me to be alive.
always told that the path I should take will be shown to me
to just have faith and wait the time will come
but time and time again I've lost my way
and time and time again my mind wanders
as I walk aimlessly through the world
wondering what I have done to have lost my faith
but time has shown me that I can't leave God with all the work
I am to meet him half way if I am to truly  see what God has for me
for that is the true meaning of faith.

I know i should not have fallen for you
I know you love someone else
It's just hard to forget
After all it was love at first sight
I still don't know how it all happened
It was all a blur
It hurts just seeing you with him
I tried to move on
I tried to forget
But my stupid heart just won't give up
I hope for the best
I hope to move on
I guess only time will tell

I was hurt, I had thought it would heal fast, but I was naive
someone like me won't need something like love
a person's feelings are scary
having to act strong even when I'm weak
having to smile when I'm hurt deep inside
but I guess it doesn't work that way
being in love can be so painful
it's upsetting to think that to her I just exists
and nothing else

I didn't know what love was until I met you
My heart would hurt Everytime I saw you
Then it would skip a beat whenever you smiled
And nearly killed me when i heard you laughed
It was all new feelings like never before
And I'm too scared to even say it
But I have truely
Undoubtedly
fallen In Love with you

Your love is so hard to obtain
And that **** drives me insane

I love having you near
So please don't ever disappear

Life isn't life anymore without you here
I guess i just have to go to where you are there

Looking into a shattered mirror
seeing the true image of what I am
pained by the fake smile shown
saddest one's usually smile the hardest
we just can't help our self
we are built to hide behind  the mask
we worked so hard to create
just to feel wanted where we don't belong
to feel like we are truly alive in this world
the world we wish we weren't born into

Words can't describe what these feelings are
But I do know it's as rare as an mornings star
I don't actually know how to make you believe
Just know that I never want to see you leave
I would conquer the world if that's what you really need
And for you I do believe that one day I will succeed
You are what I need to be my legacy
So that this feeling can live on endlessly
My never ending battle for you isn't worthless
Yet it seems to always leave me breathless
I just can't believe
you still don't believe

Why is it my heart wants what it can't get
Seeing you from afar isn't enough for me
I yearn for the moment I can embrace you
This love that swells up every time I see you
This neverending love
Yet I know in your eyes I am but another guy
As transparent as the air between us
And yet I can't seem to move on
Love is all I have

Can't stop thinking about you
It hurts so much
Can't eat, can't sleep
I guess that's what i reap
Playing the day we met on repeat
Leaves me feeling incomplete
Knowing that you will never know my true feelings
Even though they are so revealing
Everything about you has me so insane
Your lack of awareness can be so inhumane
But just once it would be great if you can actually notice me
Notice me and no one else

A once in a lifetime love
To never let go of
One that will stay by your side at any cost
When all else is lost
To pull you up when
Everyone is pushing you down
To calm you down whenever
you have a nervous breakdown
When will a love so great appear
I hope she is near
Waiting a lifetime for an opportunity of unity
And yearning for the moment I have you in my heart
And finally have a fresh start

Waiting for you isn't that easy,  but it will be worth it
Just hope that you can realize just how I truly feel
And that one day you feel the same way about me

Seeing you fall for him has been a nightmare
The more he rejects you the more you chase
And it's been a long and painful road to take

And still you don't see who's been right there beside you
But I'm in it for the long run no matter how it ends
Hoping the day will come for us

Since the day I met you
I knew, I just knew
You and I would bond
That for you I would go to the moon and back
That my way of living would have to change for the better
But most importantly I knew you have saved my life forever

I'm scared of myself
Scared of the rage that dwells inside me
The rage that builds up to the point where it just pops
And all hell breaks loose
I'm scared of living with this rage
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore
I don't want to hurt myself anymore
I hate this demon living inside me called rage
And hope that he doesn't break out of his cage
I'm scared

If only life had a reset button
Would I have done it differently
Or would history repeat it self
I Never knew moving forward
from one's past can be so hurtful
Guess I'll learn to deal with it
Adulthood sure is hard

The world at the moment is broken
It's time for everyone to be woken
To be brought to realization
And come up with a solution for our salvation
We can no longer ignore this crisis
And need to stop looking so lifeless
So that one day we can undo what we have wronged
And have this world go beyond

Been wondering for a while
What have I done in life
If I where to die today
What would my legacy be
Would I be forgotten
Or would my name be remembered through time
Not much could be said for me
I am a shy, easily forgotten guy
Living life like a shadow
Scared to make a name for myself
Just another who didn't make it
Just another forgotten with time
Just another with no Legacies

Thank you for not giving up on someone as broken as me
For your kindness truly gave me hope.
It was as if I've been lost and you created a path for me
A small guide back to happiness.
Can't remember the last time I had enlightenment from kind words. Feeling inspired to find a brighter future

Wandering about late in this picture perfect town
About to have a mental breakdown

With all these perfect people in their perfect world
While I live in my own dreamworld

Picturing what this town would look like in fire
While listening to the mightiest church choir

Ruining everything they worked so hard for
Just so that I don't feel like a prisoner of war

Escaping from this nightmare of a place
Will be the Coup De Grace

Then I won't be the mental case
Anymore In anyplace