Absence is a way to remember me
I wonder if that's just what you think

Your actions tend to get a reaction
Shocked when it isn't what you expect it to be

Think about it all
Before you blame it all
On me
Can't see you're in the wrong
Thinking it's okay for this to be

Contrary to popular belief when I speak on these things
I know the world doesn't revolve around me

Hey how ya doing
I am boredom
Don't read too much into this
**** it dear
I am boredom

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
it's only been a minute

**** it I am bored
but not in a way
where I wouldn't speak to you
under other circumstances
you're actually pretty cool

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
**** it
dear I'm sober

Not a thing written in months
my muse has left me
like a scent in the wind
something simply sweet
has abandoned me

In my lonesome, I hear whispered lines and words
but as I turn to hear these lovely things they flee, escaping me
Woe is me, woe is me

Alone with simply sweet fleeing things

My soul weeps

Words, they're stuck and stumbling, from the tip of my tongue
numb lips unfrozen
when your image runs across
My tear stained reddened eyes!
Can I call this love a cancer?
Can I call this love a cancer?

Cuz I breathe in your laughter and smiles like smoke!
And I'd happily smile and choke!
If its the last thing I see, before I croak!
Can I call this love a cancer?

My heart its been so cold!
If I had a dollar for everytime someone told me they loved me, Id be broke!
What makes me so special, an abundance of self-doubt
Can you rip out your eyes and trade with me?
Ive ripped out mine so I could take yours
and see what you say you see
What you seem to believe
you see.....
In me!

The faults of men (males)
And the sadness they create
With the words on their tongue
or tone in their voice

The way he touched her hair
how his hand lingered there
as nostrils flared
and you knew when he was close
It wasn't the scent of you he inhaled

The sin in his eyes
and how you could see it begin there
Before anything awkward began

The fault of man and how his soul glittered in the back in his eyes as you wept and stared
and let you know......

You were no longer mine.

I now remember on this bus ride
I used to look to the sky
see the clouds float by
now I keep my head to the ground
and I've been down
I've been down

I remember I used to keep my head in the clouds
and let my mind roam around
but sooner or later
you can no longer pretend
What's around, whats around
and it gets me down
it gets me down

But I'll still say I love you
I haven't lost hope in life just yet
and may we stay true
to the best that they can see in you
the best that they see in you

When the sun hits
You shine with a stronger light in your eyes
then the stars in the sky
More than a well within you
You're an uncharted body of water
That none have yet to discover
I've never learned to swim
without eventually causing myself to drown
But when I'm this close to you
I'm not afraid to flow with your current
One day I hope to get to the depths
where no one's eyes have been
I want to become king of Atlantis
I want to understand how to live
with the sea and understand it's needs
I want to be quite like Poseidon
let go and breathe
You're like no person above

You are the ocean

I dream of witches
And when I would find them
They'd always cast a spell.

But never would I fear
I should not be here
Demons belong in hell....

Her screaming says it all
someone must fall
blood moon please save us all
As vision turned to black
there was discord and bells
heavy lust as we all fell....

but never fear
we should not be here
demons belong in hell...

We'll judge you when we're high
when we're high
You're a creature, you're divine
You're my comfort love
you are fine

I will judge you in my mind
I will judge you in my mind

You're a story you're a lie
Educate me when you smile
Beauty thank you that I'm high
Darling thank you that I'm high

So I could judge you
in my mind
Sort of like a magazine photo
I'll stare at late at night
So I could love you till I die

Fully in my mind when we're high
when we're high
You're a creature you're divine
You're my comfort love
you are fine

I will judge you in my mind
I will judge you in my mind

You're a story you're a lie
Educate me when you smile
Beauty thank you I'm high
Darling thank you that I'm high

So I could judge you
in my mind
So I'll convulse you
In my mind
So I could love you till I die

Fully in my mind

A raindrop from the sky
A cruel mimic
of what happened to my heart
How far it fell when you left my heart

Im slipping away,
I just hope you're going through the same

The same way
right to the bottom of the sea

Like a raindrop from the sky

My soul is set on
'visible'
when
I'm in
the shower.

....No one really makes me happy anymore
More like half smiles to a face broken in many places
by unfallen tear streaks
and frowns
Emitting noise just to see if it would be heard
Saying I love you, just to see if
I believe the words
coming from my own mouth.
I said I'd stick around
but those machines inside are running
down
down
down and soon the energy
keeping me up
is going to run out
So I should start running now....?

She said "You have lips like clouds"
Like something only an angel would know, ya know

I believe you're magical, a fact you've shown
I've read so many books, so would know
I just thought you should know

I wasn't willing
to share, to share
trying to open your heart, oh boy don't you dare

I want you in
in the most intricate way
Im sprung and spinning
like im caught in a web

I see you there
I see you there
I see you there
I see you there

I don't wish to have you back
Only to feel that same lightheartedness, without the weight of the world on my shoulders
because someone special
was
just
here

I never look to the sky
I never admire natures wonders
I don't find the sweetness in a baby's laughter
or the reckless abandonment of fun with mans best friend
I sleep to this vision
I wake to it
I live to see it, while my breath is held
I yearn for it

Oh how much can the heart give?

How much can I express, before I no longer live?

Do you know how precious it is?

Oh my dove, the love I now have for your smile, my dear

Ive finally looked at the sky

Lay awake and sing along to the songs you like to sing
Hit repeat

Feel a sting, unexpectedly
Which it makes you think
about how such a beautiful thing
fell and crumbled at your feet

Looking in a mirror
I can only blame the one looking back at me
I need to sleep, I need to sleep
But Im too scared
to dream

I ask myself so many times,
"Why are you here and what do you stand for?"
To have someone so good and amazing in my life
just seems so wrong but how strong, how strong
You must be to stay here and stay as you are

There's no reason for me to admit the obvious
who am I to deserve such a miracle in the form of you
In the real world, it's never supposed to work out like this, am I dreaming it this?
I mean you told me you love me!
How real could this be? Im suffocating in my disbelief... I'm suffocating in what you've called nothing special, when I've seen nothing short of perfect...

I've been sick with this fever of confliction
Wanting to say the three words, the same three words you've whispered in your sleep, and in my dreams, but what holds me back is my fear

The fear that you won't react the same way I do
When I hear them, not that you'd reject them
but soon that you'll realize I could never amount to the man you believe I could be, no
never do I believe that could be me...

I remember every moment we shared
every time you showed me you cared
I tried my best to be the best I could for you
I'd drop all of my life to prove what I mean

I'll somehow overcome my gears
I never want you to go, I never want you to leave
I want you to stay with me
I want to hold your face in my hands and admit even though I'm nothing
I'll fight to be everything

Just so you can hear me say I love you
You'll tell me you love me
and we'll both believe

When you spoke
I listened to your words
And against my better judgement
Let them sink into my heart
And believed every single part

Call me naive if you want
I just opened my heart
Call me a fool if you want
I've felt it often enough


Well...that was just my mistake...
I should have read between the lies

What exactly, is love?

A flickering candle that can be snuffed,
or a volcano that can only erupt when there's too much pressure on it...?

What is true and what is pure?
Does it count if it's out of hate or spite?

Does the spoken three-word saying, actually mean anything?

Can you have it and so easily take it away?

If that is so....then whats the point?

If you know it to be true in your heart, if you want it, then why avoid it and pretend it never existed?

In this moment I noticed
it was rare I'd have a hopeful response

My greatest belief was in disappoinment
against my will I lost faith in hope

And until it comes true
your words will always be false
until you make it come into fruition

The seeing was my believing

You ain't see nothing
You ain't see nothing
How could you even say that
How could you even say that

There's no one better
There's no one better
How could you even say that
How could you even say that

If I ,could see through your eyes
Well then I, could live a life

You ain't see nothing wrong
With me
There's no one better
than you

Something makes you
Something makes you
perfect.....

Like an empty cavern
This hollow secret place was once barred and closed off

Till you stepped in like a miner
with your lamp of words and touch

You turned this place into your home
little did I know, day by day
You'd dig in close
And chip away at me
more and more

Till the day you cast me like a die in a game
I couldn't yet know I was to be a pit stop
on your road to find a place to go
I was not the knight that had come to rescue you, if only it were so
I went from being a lonely soul
To now understanding what more the world could hold

I know it wasn't the end goal
But my naivety
Left me without a way to know that I would be
a paper castle in a storm....

There was a sun
Not enough time to wonder where the clouds went
My friends said I still don't hang
I picked time with you over time with them
Only because this was a different kind of light
I got a chance at a different kind of sight
A world where hope wasn't just a word others told you to hold
I ended up swallowed in what was and not what it had become
The clouds returned
And then again, came the rain.

I bet if she looked at you in the same way

You'd offer up your heart to her

right out of your ******* chest

Sometimes I feel like a spectre
drained of all my joy like I'm at a party for dementors
Ooo sometimes I feel so restrained
ooo sometimes the prison is my brain

Patronus
I'm phoning
please come light the way

Patronus
I might be folding
I'm trying not to lose your face....

Every single day
A life fades away
And every time I read an article
I wonder if one day someone will read my name.

Ive done alot of thinking on my own
been looking for a way to turn it off
this is where I tell you things have been hard
this is where I just brush it off
this is where I smile and throw you off
and like always this is when I see
I pulled it off
and we're back to how you are
how things for you went wrong

I don't want your eyes on me
Sometimes I wish someone could see
I don't want your eyes on me
sometimes wishing I could just leave
keeps me going

I kinda smiled while listening to a song
noticed this guys always writing about loss and love
It caught me a bit off guard
only because it's a pretty nice thing to write about
and for me it's been awhile

That's not to say I haven't been happy
there's a moment atleast once a day
where the thought of you chases the sad clouds away
and even when I'm down you can turn a frown into a smile

in your arms I can turn my brain off
in your eyes I can see a knight in shining armor
if I spend too long pressed against your lips
the world stands still, pausing all my thoughts

I can admit I'm in love
I can admit I'm in love
I can admit I'm in love

The sooner you accept
that they won't see you for who you really are
the sooner you can bottle it all up
and
pretend to be who they want you to be

I keep forgetting to refrain from taking purchase in your words
You wound me and don't notice
Like I've noticed, your eyes
The way they hold me, still
Your smile
Your embrace
Oh boy, I love. You.
All of you
Everything.
Ah. I didn't expect to hear that
I forgot
Once again, a wound.

I wait, you show
I smirk, you smile
We walk, hands reach
Grab hold, just joy
That's lovely.

Depths of the mind
Feelings arise, and fade
Like a wisp of smoke
Something peaks over the horizon
A conflicting emotion

Along the lines of something and nothing
Amidst a battle of my dark
and the yearn of a glimpse of your light....
I'm not alright

The hardest part is the start
when you're unsure
as you stare into their eyes
are their feelings pure
are their intentions honest and clear

what kind of bed do your words rest on?
am I just another life to be led on
another soul to be fed on
another heart to be stepped on
which side of the scale will we ride on

it's hard to question the good
it's hard to expect the bad
it's hard to give up on the past
it's hard to wonder if this sweet feeling will last

I think I'm ready to heal
I think I'm ready to feel your words
I think I'm ready to heal
I think I'm ready to open you up to my world

So here's your ticket
Fly in, fly in, fly in
don't you dare make me regret it

Through your tears
And my actions
Our fire went out
Our fire went out

your voice echoing
we're better than this
when you've broken down
when you've broken down

Though I have found
A life without love
just feels like I've drowned

Your heart now in a home without doors
this experience constructed your decor
Out of memories
Guilt, blame, and shame
A spell left behind keeps
you locked away.....
Maybe someone can release you
someday

This is about the woman that I love
well more on how she makes me feel
The thoughts that fill my head
when she's near
and when I'm far

detaching is part of my schedule
it helps me stop my mind from overflowing
a temporary peace
that's needed, but I wanna breach that dam

I've gotta admit, I'm coming to realize
how heavy the past can be
like infinite internal suffering
but why is it that you can make me feel like I'm floating
Like I'm above all the negativity that feels imbedded within me

I'm more afraid of how much happiness i feel I've attained
I'm even more afraid of chasing you away
when I say the things I say

I wanna be who you see when you look at me...