I pray
To heaven
To hell
Erase my soul
So another
May take
My place

It seems like a thing of the past
A dream far gone
Eyes closed with nothing to come
Smell of vanilla floats
Eyes still closed
But the dream wont come
Restless turns
Eyes open
Vanilla gone
Now there's red
But no rest

They say it
Over and over
Its suffocating
Air think and hot
Like the blood
That boils
Under my skin
Again and again
I'll do anything
Even stop breathing
Just to make it end
I cry I wish
But nothing works
Useless
Runs around my head
Now and forever
They say
Useless

Dark cold
I hide under the desk
Eyes red
From the screams
Tears burn
As they fall
Little bits of light leak
Like fairy dust
On my skin
In the dark so long
It burns to touch
But I dont feel pain
Still nothing at all
I reach for more
I'm being selfish
But I want to feel
Something anything
I touch the fairy dust
But there is still nothing
So the tears
Continue falling
Burning
But still no pain

Its cold
Lonely
There is no light
Where I have gone
Alone
In the dust

Sitting here
Crying
Feeling
Nothing
Alone
End it
God please
Take me
To the black sea
Just for me
Sitting
Waiting
For death
On
The edge

I wake
To thunder
Crying
In a bright sky
Try
Don't cry
Sleep
Wake up
Work
Sleep
Don't cry
For today
Is a long day

Impossible
I try
But to no avail
To trust is to love
And that I cannot feel

It hurts to watch
Others trust
And turn to dust

Eyes closed tight
On a winter night
Cry away
With all your might

I told you
To trust is to love
And that I cannot feel

In and out
It hurts
Close your eyes
Beg
Plead
For it to end
It won't
Because
No matter what
You will always
Breathe

Life seems to go up and down
Like a mountain
The sun will rise and fall
As will the moon
Both
Like a kiss on the cheek
Or a stab to the chest
The kiss soft and warm
The stab twisted and cold
Dawn and dusk
A mix of light and dark
As both and all
Take from another
They betray us all

I want it to stop
Everything
Breathing, hearing, seeing, feeling
I want nothing more than to be void
I'm meaningless, pointless
No one knows I feel like this
No one asked
I wish someone would
Anyone
A friend, loved one even a stranger
Someone
I tried to end it
No one knows
No one asked
There's a gun under the mattress
Loaded
I held it
But couldn't do it
I think about it
Everyday
But I can't do it
Because I'm useless
Nothing
Void

Run
I can't breath
They are looking at me
Hide
I want nothing more
Than to die
Fight
A swing a miss
If only for a kiss
Fear
For my life
I refuse to live
Like this

My chest hurts
Why can't I stop
Are you ok?
Smile say yes
But know in your heart
It's nothing more than a lie

Alone
For hours
My face soaked
Red from tears
People come and go
I try and be quite
So no one will know
I bite down
Choking the tears back
And alone I cry