"breathings" poems
NAY! swear no more, thou woman whom I called
Star, Empress, Wife! Were Dian's self to lean
From her white altar and with goddess lip
Swear thee as pure as her pale breast divine,
I could not deem thee purer than I know
Thou art indeed.
Once, when my triumphs rolled
Along old Rome and blood of roses washed
The battle-stains from off my chariot-wheels,
And triumph's thunders round my legions roared,
And kings in kingly ******* golden bound
Shook at my charger's foot, past the hot din
Of Victory-whose heart of golden pride in wound
Most subtly through with fire of subtlest pain-
My soul on prouder pinion rose above
The Roman shouting, to an air more clear
Than that Jove darks with hurtling thunderbolts,
Or stains with Jovian revels-that separate sphere,
Unshared of gods or man, where thy white feet
Caught their sole staining from my ruddy heart,
Blazing beneath them; where, when Rome looked up,
'Twas with the eyes close shaded with the hand,
As at some glory terrible and pure,-
For no man being pure, a terror dwells
Holy and awful in a sinless thing-
And Caesar's wife, the Empress-Matron, sat
Above a doubt-as high above a stain.
Nay! how know I what hell first belched abroad
Tall flames and slanderous vomitings of smoke,
Blown by infernal breathings, till they scaled
Thy throne of whiteness, and the very slaves
Who crouched in Roman kennels wagged the tongue
Against the wife of Caesar: 'Ha! we need not now
And opal-shaded stone wherewith to view
A stainless glory.' In that day my neck
Was bound and yoked with my twin-Caesar's yoke-
Man's master, Sorrow.
I know thee pure-
But Caesar's wife must throne herself so high
Upon the hills that touch their snowy crests
So close on Heaven that no slanderous Hell
Can dash its lava up their swelling sides.
I love thee, woman, know thee pure, but thou
No more art wife of Caesar. Get thee hence!
My heart is hardened as a lonely crag,
Grey granite lifted to a greyer sky,
And where against its solitary crown
Eternal thunders bellow.
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The hollow wind funneled the voice
of the distant night-train crossings,
awakening a familiar silence
hanging from the vast wilderness sky
A restless heart hearkening the echoes,
imagining a runaway Pullman
flew away off the rails, airborne
on the winged wind headed north
Winter pausing for a moment
in the shadows of familiarity,
as if parsing the unspoken breathings
in an echoless surrendered sigh;
uncertain if tacit words set free
could ever allow a heart broken
to feel whole again
There is no absolving voice
that whispers in a solemner tone :
Death has no mercy ―
love remains marooned in the wake ,..
and it feels like the world’s gone mad
letting time be the arbiter of perpetuity
The fading dream of a motherless child;
a wish to be held maternally
fell to the ground with a thud,
breaking the silence,
dissipating formless as the shape of water
Muted cold lips so full of questions
morphing into fugitive sighs
come the unsettled night;
when shadows disappear like frail memories
that passed too soon to grasp,
thickly palpable as the warm breath
a winter bird alone on frosty branch
There’s no fear in braving the darkness
in the winter wilderness of life borne alone
There’s no way of knowing what you’ll find
down that long empty road back home
Life just flashes by silently before your eyes
through the windshield
of countless miles and miles
And there’s nothing you can do about it ―
It’s like hearing the moment of truth in a lie
when all I was looking for
was how I got here in this now,.. yesterday
only finding a hopeless poet
scribbling slightly stained pages,
spilling a bitter sweet dream ...
harlon rivers ... February 2018
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Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 10:31 AM UTC
There’s nothing I’d rather do
Than watch TV with you on my lap
Sleeping the afternoon through
As the raindrops continually tap-tap
There’s nothing I’d rather kiss
Than that hollow of your throat
When your breathings gone amiss
Cuddling under a cashmere coat
There’s nowhere I’d rather be
Than sitting on the roof at midnight
With you and a cup of pepper tea
Carefully tracing dawn’s first light
There’s no other I’d rather
Than you right now, right here
Even when we lose hold of together
I’ll love you long after We disappear
Nov 20, 2013
Nov 20, 2013 at 10:53 PM UTC
I used to be one of the brightest reds
but now I've turned grey
forced to be numb
grown familiar with the pain
"Is this right or is it wrong?"
I ask myself everyday
while you are unaware of these conversations in my head
that I am caught up in this fray
if you could only see the way the way
you tell me endless stories about her
like the gleam in your eyes and
how your smile grows wider
every time you mention her name
inimical to your happiness
there is an ache in my chest
yet I do not blame you for my heart’s distress
how could you be so oblivious?
why can’t you realize? why can’t you see?
why won’t you pay me enough attention
and look at me properly?
you leave me with no choice
but to stop myself from jumping off the cliff
only to fall into nothing but misery
as I fill this paper with the
breathings of my heart
tears blur my vision and they fall drop by drop
I’m all by myself again, nothing new
with a question left in my mind:
am I in love with you?
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 5:08 AM UTC
The collateral coaxes of God on Man,
Bring forth the froth of Goth on sand.
When existence means meaningless breathings,
Why do we try and see the reasoning’s of dreams.
Because the faces inside of these traces;
Memories of the outcast on the plains of the membrane.
Taking to the stars in a ship of bars,
Withholding the pain from exploding, while somewhere my mother is tokin’
And it goes faster and faster than fast, and these lines take on the attack,
Of a thousand gazelles in flight to tomorrow’s past fright.
There is no truth just perspective and respectively speaking I’m speaking about respect.
Abhor me as you adore me; please me as you use me, take me as you break me.
I am the ocean as I am the sky, blue crashing on white, trying to live my life,
But I’m failing at every turn and it burns and there is no learn only do and do not.
This life is a series of failures entwined in a not so heavenly knot,
And its okay as long as I’m dead, I say sir let’s travel to the bay, and maybe by the end of the day…
I’ll find my one true love in a tub of emotional regret and without worry or fret,
I’ll take her in my hands and kiss her with my face, just givin’ her a taste…
Of a man wondering if painkillers can take away the heartache.
Apr 21, 2010
Apr 21, 2010 at 10:14 PM UTC
Those breathings of the softest hours turn
On golden leaves that fall away
Your kisses upon my neck will still burn
When heaven’s stars meet
The light of day
Half-awake, I still stand a breath apart
Remembering a budding flower
Lovely angel wings flutter in my heart
Recalling those sweet
Love filled hours
Among the things moving the waves along
Are my tender visions of your hands
A gentle grace with moves so strong
My ebb and flow
At your command
A dove’s wings sweep across this flaming blush
Spreading like the rising sun
Upon a chest of happiness a burst of rush
Softly hints of an eternity
Of two becoming one
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 11:01 PM UTC
They told me.
Told me this is right.
I never thought to disagree.
Until we began falling from this lofty height.
I don't know how we got here.
Or where to go.
I can't tell you why my pulse is racing.
While my breathings slow.
I think this has been some sort of accident.
The kind you drive by really slow.
Never has the air between us been less passionate.
You smile, but all I see is the anger just below.
I've watched this love wax.
I don't think I can stand it to wane.
I try to hold harder the more this retracts.
Stuck in this whirring profoundness I can't explain.
I want to stop, but again and again it's all deja vu.
We are surrounded by moutains and molehills.
Perpetually waiting for the other to come through.
Held to some truth that constantly self fufills.
Yet, I just can't bring myself to leave us behind.
I cling, I fight, I pray, I hope, I wail.
because love is patient, love is kind...
They told me love will never fail.
Apr 29, 2012
Apr 29, 2012 at 3:37 AM UTC
Some people wish for a myriad
of things, music on a record
their own personal rock band
a mansion, a pool, being the chief
inspector.
Making money, a yacht, dream of a
big family, nights at an inn. Lots
of clothes and shoes and their own
marriage, a wife who will never
leave him.
*If I could have just one wish, I'd
want to be in any room, just one
place, you holding me with your
arm, and a fan on in the background
so I can hear your breathings
pace...*
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 7:24 AM UTC
In my family
If your lungs don't **** you,
Your heart will.
My lungs don't work
To full capacity,
And my breathings heavey.
But my heart is clenched
Within a fist, crushed and twisted,
Only getting every other hit.
My lungs can't breathe,
And my hearts been abused -
Question is which will **** me first?
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 7:41 AM UTC
Float seeds in the wind strewn about haphazardly;
indifferent winds ask not direction to course
Change asks not permission to become ―
like a blind-folded pilot looking for a place to land
At least dandelion wishes shoulder the weight of hope
and it makes no difference to the wind whose dream
it holds or seed it bears to randomly cast away
The color of a mustard seed of faith
that moves mountains remains unknown ―
Freedom is as weightless as a hole in empty pocket
with nothing left to lose
Who decides who's a **** and what's a flower;
such definitive power beholds responsibility—
the most visible kind of strength,
that, used to oppress others,
is itself born of weakness.
On this island earth, in an ocean of emptiness,
a grain of sand and seaweed are washed ashore,
alone together, by the strength of a tuning tide
Float seeds in the wind strewn about haphazardly;
spindrift flying on the wing of tide-change
as indifferent gales ask not direction to scatter
Terrestrial seeds lay unheeded hole up in impalpable silence,
embryos of yesterday dwelling in infrequent sighs
that enter lightly those unreckoned songs
the breathings of the heart fail to sing
words in the wind
Apr 24, 2018
Apr 24, 2018 at 11:38 AM UTC
oleander pale
in love with the scarlet
ardent against the gale
empty walls
chipping their paint
arms of war
had settled stains
tinderbox broken
for a half-assed light
baneful prayers
and their volume's height
artlessly, the breathings
of a craven deep in night.
Aug 4, 2014
Aug 4, 2014 at 4:22 AM UTC
On a warm Tuesday,
the scorching April fire ball helped me paint
4 feet 11 sized short canvass
Sunburnt tan color was poured all over me
The porcelain white skin of mine
Was gone and couldn't be described as faint
A salmon coloured glow
Stained my pale cheeks with its own hue
While a real smoked salmon
Came back to its home inside of me down there
Pair of black buttons on the upper part
Of the canvass
Mirrored the icy calming blues
As I looked at them adoringly -
and unexpectedly got splashed at
Discovering the hidden wonders under
I met a weird creature
A star, but is orange
Living in the blue crystals
Instead of spending its whole life
Floating in a jetblack background
Current was strong!
My foot was numb!
I couldn't swim up!
So I held onto the long muted yellow rope
And went back with heavy breathings
Sat on a wooden brown furniture
Stared at the big gray and greens
Parading on my sight
Passing by real fast
While I am on a humble white boat -
Everything happened,
While I am on a humble white boat
Which introduced me to his friends of different colors
I lifted the corner of the red line upward
Revealing the not-so-pearly whites
And looked at my artwork
Which I shall call
Happiness.
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 12:15 PM UTC
I woke up suddenly.
As I felt weighing pair of eye staring at me.
It was yours.
"Why?" I asked.
"Nothing." You replied cooly.
I want to go back to sleep.
Yet I cannot.
For---
Your eyes, smoking.
Lust.
With your hair messy like that.
Shirt buttons come undone.
Revealing the body of my beautiful man.
My breathing shallowed.
Your smile shadowed.
Fighting the urge to touched you first.
I lost the battle with your next words.
"Make love to me."
I reached out.
Aimed for your lips.
Closer.
Closer.
Breathings harder.
Close-e-r-r-i-n-n-g-g-g-g
My alarm sounded.
It is morning.
Oh my.
Another helpless dream.
Feb 11, 2015
Feb 11, 2015 at 3:24 PM UTC
.
The looking at you
Destroys my mask
And a sun ignites
Heating the blood
That was buried
In window flesh,
Slits break, lid of eyes,
The souls’ shutter.
The breathings with you
Lays me asunder
To bedrooms starry
Where faith succumbs
Only to be reborn
In spooning after love,
The fae body spirals
In positions foetal.
The touching with us
Rakes the ghost moon
Which lies within truths
Dark as reddest rose
Rising in thorny stalk
Where treasure is sunk,
In cavities of chest,
Beat hearts shudder.
.
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 1:45 AM UTC
running
sprinting
as fast as you can go
oh no don't fall, don't trip
"oh, you stupid **** what's wrong with you?"
breathe.
stop.
breathe.
Don't stop.
keep pushing.
as the oxygen escapes,
your smile is forever eternal,
forever
immortal.
as the life escapes your eyes,
as the breathings comes to a stuttering, slow stop,
your flame dies out.
your light gives way.
the voice is silent.
Oct 18, 2013
Oct 18, 2013 at 9:37 PM UTC
I saw them decorating the whole place,
& decorating me;
the thing to be sold,
the burden which since my birth they did hold,
the burden from which today they will get free...
I saw them giving me so many blessings,
& also listened to their relaxed breathings,
Cause their biggest tension is soon going to end,
In my whole life after those seven rounds I found them most relaxed...
I saw them giving my hands in the hands of a boy, to me a stranger,
I wonder are they the same who kept me away from boys, from that lover?
I saw them packing in my bag
so much of gold & insurance paper of the new dowry's car,
but they forget my love, my guitar,
I saw people asking them -
"Does she know cooking?
Is she good at house holding?"
But nobody bothered to ask,
Was I still breathing???
& at last tearing they took me to a car,
& told me,
"Take care of your new family,
& your husband"
the one who has got a new servant!!!
As I looked in the car I saw them smiling cruelly,
& as I looked back,
I saw them smiling,
& those momentary crocodile's tears ending,
I saw them relaxed & calm ,
Having got freedom of the biggest burden & a very big duty...
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 2:40 AM UTC
Today, it was the heavenly touch of yours,
Sometimes we experience the extremely
Good and bad things in life,
But today what had happened to me
Changes my reason to survive;
We were together in fronts
But, did nun…….
His eyes were totally shy
When I sited just his nearby;
I hugged him tightly
He wrapped me nicely,
His lips were about to say something
May be my hands were in his stroke,
Happy swallowed his incomplete answer
Back to the bottom of his throat ,
He invested a minute to think of what is going on,
I didn’t reacted what has gone,
The touch he gave to me
was adorable for me,
I cant elaborate that min of time
I just closed his fingers in between of mine;
I was shivering , he was fine,
The presence of our soul we were missing,
We were not in our control
We had left our everything before,
We were not individuals today
We were a soul,
Our breathings were in each other
I didn’t thanked of further;
I was totally engrossed in him
I know we were not doing any sin,
It was our love that we’re on each other
It was our time that we were together
And now I spend a bit of time without him
‘coz yes.. yes.. yes …. I Love Him.
Love you pratik
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 4:15 AM UTC
Let moon beams sail from the sky
while cotton clouds waste in the sun
white egrets slumber in the march
see the sunken shadows laying still.
All is, was and will be sets quietly
let time breath again in your chest
allow the naked truth to come freely
on the fields of your wider tomorrow.
Pray awake upon this your dawning
lay hold the flower of your delight
step lightly on the grass that waits
you shall walk this way but once.
Like the ringing of a note moves on
so life is a circled flow you will travel
life is a procession of hours you spend
let the knotted thread of death unwind.
Given from our Fathers in Ivory towers
for sacred truths, which must be lived
the breathings of man is a Godly virtue
timeless air, filling your soul with light.
Into the breast of the beast…a man
forgiveness, a sorrow learned imperfect
pushed to the utter ends, we forgive
and enter into the newness of Christ.
BB2015
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 7:43 AM UTC
Finally gone are the pages that turn,
The hallways that wind and the stage of concern,
The day has depleted stress and my pain,
I'm relaxed now and have calm to retain,
Worlds and stars and planets arc spinning,
My eyes are closed softly and breathings beginning,
My reckless abandon has finally died,
as awoken my dreams dance forever inside,
Free me so neatly away in the finite,
Infinite expansion and fires of Twilight,
The gems of a treasure chest glimmer in water,
as streams crickle slowly creeks sippeling saughter.
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
I'm having the same fear again
But yet I don't wanna be comforted
I'm experiencing the same thing again
But yet I don't want you to see me uncollected
I'm having the same heavy breathings again
But yet I don't want you to know how I am unhealed
I'm having the same dreams again
But yet I don't want to tell you in those dreams you visited
I'm standing on the same spot again
But yet I don't want to inform you that even a little I didn't moved
I'm having ghosts of my feelings again
But yet I want to show you to forget is what I tried
It's ********
******** that I'm in the same mess
It's ********
******** that I'm in the same madness
It's ********
******** that I have the same tears!
It's ********
******** that now I'm looking for the same beer!
Do you know how?
How hard is it not to think of you?
Do you know how?
How I tried to tell my heart not to beat for you?
Do you know how?
How I'm trying to get you off my mind?
Do you know how?
How I'm doing my best not to see you in the crowd?
Do you know how?
How hard I tried to ignore the fact that I miss you?
Do you know how?
How it hurts to force myself not to love you.
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 7:53 AM UTC
4 years since the clouds rolled in.
Dooming all my soul.
3 years since it could of won.
Almost snapping the silver chord.
2 years since the physical pain stopped.
No more ****** nails.
1 year of gentle torment.
Breathings easier now.
4 months since my last tear.
I'm holding pretty strong.
19 years of wishing I spoke through it all.
1 day of realisation I can have it all.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 2:29 PM UTC
Gotta let your senses overwhelm you
Gotta feed on carnal feeling,
Let those open wounds breathe through
Embrace the skin's red bleeding.
Feel love's cold sting singing
Feel Spring's flower's leaving
Even the smile that she's leaving.
The changing of the seasons.
Breathe in
Breathe out
Let pollen and dust into your ash and tar,
Look up at night, appreciate the stars.
And reach out
Far.
Farrer than far,
The space out there feels no spring,
It thinks our Earth is so bizarre,
The loving of these seasons.
The loving of these feelings
These bleedings
These breathings.
Pull it into our tar,
Pull the stars and farther,
Let the star stuff bleed you.
Let your human see through
Breathe through to glitter dust.
Pull similes to us,
Filter out the rest.
The space out there feels no love
No cove of blood and gut,
And could we teach it, yes,
But.
Let us breathe it first.
May 17, 2017
May 17, 2017 at 12:33 AM UTC
Stay with me for a short time,
Just for a couple of words,
Just for a couple of smilings,
For a couple of easy nods.
Stay with me for a couple of strophes.
I’ll pour two glasses of wine.
The one that, remember, used to prepossess
You and me both for a while.
Stay with me for a short time
For a couple of sportive jests,
For a couple of bootless guitar accords,
For a couple of stupid shy footsteps.
For a couple of silver-tongued tender breathings,
For a couple of sweet and tremulous words.
Stay with me, please, for a short time,
At least for a couple of epochs.
Jan 23, 2025
Jan 23, 2025 at 4:11 PM UTC
Red ants crawl up my skin
biting away what’s left
I thought I was fine by now
I thought I wasn’t scared of ants anymore
My breathings gone hard
Eyelids daring to close at anytime
I can’t go now
but I can’t let them take all of it away
I can't.
Oct 19, 2018
Oct 19, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC
The manly one
I hear the loud voices coming up the street
It's late and dark
I've been alone in this house for hours now
Scared and lonely
But enjoying the silence at least
But it's over now
I feel my heart race my palms get sweaty
And my breathings is soft and shallow
You get closer
I run to my bed and cover my head
I'm safe in my bed
Wrapped in my blankets like a protective layer
Hiding behind my dear old friend dragon to protect me
From what always happens next
It starts before the door opens
He grabs you by the throats and gets in your face
A twisted mangled mess it is right now
He's mad and it's your fault....again
Like every weekend
I lay in my bed and listen to the accusations
I listen to you saying no and whimpering
Your so desperate in these times
Desperate for peace I guess
Desperate not to fight
Desperate not to be slapped again
But you always have a defensive desperation in your voice
We know he's angry
But nothing you say or do is going to make him stop
His rant of manly power followed by
A few manly hands on her thin
Frail body
You must of felt so empowered
How could you stand over a crying defenceless
Woman on the flooor
Cowering into a cupboard
Begging for you to stop
But you have no mercy for her
You're angry and going to teach her a lesson
Silence
That's what I hear now
Nothing but the sound of a **** being smoked
And the sounds of my crying beaten mother
My heart sinks
I feel sad and begin to cry
I want to check her but I know I can't
I can't move my body I lay there paralysed
Trying to breath through the pain
When all I wanna do is hug you and tell you it's going to be ok
The pain will go away
But I don't
I'm 9 and just a kid
Scared and lonely crying in my bed
May 13, 2017
May 13, 2017 at 8:29 PM UTC