Oh I get it now
He was your go to
While I was your addiction
You were stuck between two lovers
Pleasing both of us undercovers
A secret agent playing under cover

You comforted our egos
While sharing your heart
No wonder why your heart was torn apart

I need peace more than I need my next breath
For if I leave this world better than I found it
Then I have done my duty
Giving up my life for freedom and liberty
Freeing those in captivity
This is the cry of a soldier
Whose heart is bolder
Sacrificing everything
Feasting on pain while starving for world peace

If you going to hate anything

Hate your ego

Because it has forced you to let go

Of the greatest gift you have ever had

Love...

I wrote this when I was angry - I hate you
I wrote this when I was sad - I miss you
I wrote this when I was happy - I love you

Of all the feelings I had the only constant was - you

You make me feel things
I never knew I could feel
So trust me when I say I am truly feeling you  

You got the keys to my emotions

Lost in a forest full of tourist
Searching for peace
where I can replace hell with heaven
Grown catapillars dance in my belly
As I flirt with anxiety
Fear and death come to comfort me
I guess misery loves company
That’s why pain won’t ever let me be
It needs me in order for it to exist

I love you so much
I love you
Love you
You!!!

Midnight and poetry
Go together like
Peanut butter and jelly

Love is a mistake a lot of us are willing to make
Risking our hearts for heartbreaks
Falling in it like an ocean filled with emotions
Drowning and hoping no one saves us

When I speak poetry
All I see is you and me
Loving each other unconditionally
Healing each other surgically
You are my harmony and I your symphony
Together we sing a sweet melody

No form of anxiety can conquer our therapy
This love is transcendent it builds on our energy
You give me the best of you and I promise
To give you all of me

His fists loved the comfort of her soft skin
He would pound on her
To unlock an emotion
he could never find within
She would take it over and over again
Trading love for pain
As her ego persuaded her to believe
That she could change him
she stayed around him
As he used her
as an emotional punching bag
He showed his emotions
As he punched hers down
Opened new scars, while closing old ones
She was trapped in a love affair
With him and his feelings
Some how his feelings spoke more than he did

It took laying in her death bed
To realize that she couldn’t trade love for pain

Anxiety Pills popped
skin temp dropped
Depression sky rocks  
Mind feels numb
Mellow from popping pills I shouldn’t swallow
One pill, two pills, three pills, this is how love kills, chasing cheap thrills, to end up on reels
Pride suffercated, ego tested
Limits ignored
Emotions battle back
as I stimulate myself with techniques my counselor taught me, they don’t seem to help
as my heart still feels empty, this pain truly has taken the best of me, and introduced me to my inner enemy “me”
Breath in and breath out
Deep inside the demons want a chance to shout
Wrist full of memories
Blood loss reminding me of near tradgeties
Anxiety kisses my neck while depression traces its ***** hands all over me
This is a ******* I hoped to not be in
In the end I *** pure emotions

Hashtag my soul away, so many can see it
I’m waving my hands saying hey look at me
Posting pics, statuses and videos
Can’t do it quietly
I want them all to See
Envy me and make me their fantasy
A few likes on this post is not enough
I deserve to get liked like I’m roylaty
adore me while you stare at the pictures
I spent hours cropping, adding more filters to guard my insecurities
Before I hashtag it, I dress it with perfection
Cut out any ugliness, clean up the mess
Show the world purity
because if they see the negative
their words will expose my insecurities
Behind this screen I found a secured me
That is the side I only want them to see
So I hastag popular tags so they can all see
The better side of me

Time was my greatest friend when I had you
And my greatest enemy when I didn’t have you

It was the beginning to the end
And the end to the beginning

It consumed my thoughts
While flirting with my imagination
Introducing me to deeper emotions

As my heart faced a deep commotion

One does not need to be born of royal birth
to realize their nobality
Their existence alone shows great triumph
Over life’s pain and reality
Deep inside our hearts
we are all Kings and Queens
Destined for a greater good
To serve and protect humanity
We are all of royal blood
Coming from a nation called earth
Fighting for peace and tranquility
While we objectify the laws of gravity
Letting our souls fly into a deep blue sky
As angels kneel when we Fly by

She smiled as he told her it’s over
Between the two of them
She mumbled underneath her breath

“Heart breaks make for good poetry”

Her heart would be the ink
To write this story
Of how he thought she was his one and only
She cheated because, she felt his love faded
When next to him she felt so lonely
When he kissed her
he kissed the entire mankind
She admitted to never being holy
Sleeping with demons, and pleasing others
A savage at most, her motto was that she will never be tamed
Too wild to love
Too broken to fix
A victim of subjectivism
Only to be exposed for lacking loves definition

Edger Allan Poe inspired me
Shakespeare educated me
Maya Angelou raised me
These writers created a beast in me
A beast of emotions, words that lack definitions
Only existsting in my expressions

Ideal to the common citizen
I write with a pen full of love, curiosity and pain

Emotions that have gone blind, to common sense, and swallowed a pill full of ego

I realize I am worthless without this pen and this pain

I write of love as if I feel it
I write of Justice as if I need it
I write of human behavior as if I need to fix it

If I am to die let my words live on within your emotions when you read them
Forever and ever I hope you feel them

Steve - Hey

Steve - Hey

Steve - Hey how are you doing?

Steve - Hey I’m just trying to get to know you.

Steve - Wow so it’s like that?

Steve - You won’t even give me a chance?

Steve - I know you see the Facebook messages.
                            
Anna - Hey sorry I don’t feel like talking. You are not worth my time or attention.

Steve - I’m good now.

Steve - I found me another lover.

Steve - All I wanted was your time and your attention, but you placed my heart in an emotional detention.

Steve - To me now you just another potential lover I could of loved and cared for. But you loved your ego more.

Anna - I’m sorry.

Anna - At the time you wanted me I was busy.

Anna - I want you now though, even though you have another lover, I envy her. Your persistence showed me you were worth my time. But my ignorance encouraged me to ignore my heart and feed my ego.

Anna -  Now it’s sad to watch you go.                                                  

Anna - I wish I knew better and did better. Now loneliness comforts my ugly mess.

Steve - I guess this is goodbye, because with persistence I also come with, love, patients and loyalty. I am glad I never gave you the best of me.

Steve - My lover truly deserves all of me. My time and my energy, my flaws and insecurities. Thank you for letting me find the best of me.

Steve - You were the light that had to shine in me for me to find the best of me. Your rejection brought out a better version of me.

Steve - Love stings like a blind bee it can kiss anyone and make them feel it slowly. For those it never kisses their hearts forever remain lonely.

Life is a bulletproof vest full of stitches
Shot at on every block
While opportunity knocks
Misery rocks as it seeks company
When it does it also invites empathy
Sometimes empathy shows up
And other times  it doesnt

The Homeless hug blocks for comfort
While the fortunate beg for time
Is this all worth it?

Is dying rich more valuable than living broke?
Or is living broke more valuable than dying rich?

I ask this because a wound cut deep knows know value of who it hurts

Pain is ignorant, it knows know race or social economic status
It’s only agenda is to break us or make us

When death comes for us
No bulletproof can save us

Loving you is like poetry
It never seems to end

I metaphorically fell for you spontaneously
I found your analogies of love to be lovley
Your words tore my emotions down
And you discovered the real me

By now most would flee
but you stayed and fell for the real me

If love is poetry
then you know
you would have to rhyme with me
You are my headache and my therapy
My Sad and happy

My one and only

T.V. Screens telling us visions
But yet we do not see

Shelves full of bibles
But we do not read
Wonder why we are unholy

Twisted thoughts while seeking clairity
No wonder why we don’t see clearly

Living in a world that’s full of fantasy
Stomachs full of ******
Seekers of love but still feel lonely

Rain drops amaze her
The sound of Gods tears hitting the ground
Make her wonder what is he crying about

A thousand Hearts chase after her
But she still claims I am the one

Deep breath as she tells me she is my lover
I pray to God to never lose her
For if I do, that will be the last time I breath

Poets know anxiety better than they know themselves

Words inspired by pain while trying to learn how to love themselves again

Since they sometimes can’t feel love
They write about it
Read about it and make others feel it

That way they can still experience it
Through those going through it

Poets know anxiety better than they know love

I feel 2 weak to be too strong
How long did I hold on? 2 long
She played my heart like a violin
Twisting and plucking 2 strings
2 many feelings for me 2 just leave
I tried and I tried, I kept coming back 2 her
My heart wouldn’t let me go far
Now here I stand hoping she wouldn’t keep me waiting for 2 long

Time is so rude
But determined in its agenda
It never stops for anyone or anything
It disregards all of our feelings and emotions
It never moves back or fast forward  
Time only exists in the present
We were born to embrace it and enjoy it
While we still have it
The rich can’t buy it, even they can’t afford it
The poor seem to struggle more with it
Which do you value more?
Time or peace
What good is peace without time
And what good is time without peace

                                                               ­        - Tuffy M

Those who laugh at the caterpillar
Will one day envy the butterfly

It’s not the beginning that defines us
It’s the ending that makes us

Fly butterfly, fly
Go own acres in the blue sky

Aching bones, morning soreness
Hit the alarm, ignore the snooze
5 am my body aches, it begs for sleep
I must continue, fight this pain
Even when it hurts I must find a way
This pain I must get through

Set after set
I lift metal, jump hurdles, curl bells,
Aching bones speak to me
begging me to give up
Ignore that last set, try again tomorrow

Here I go, knees shaking, back aching, palms sweating, fingers swollen, head spinning
I lift that last set because I am a warrior, a soldier, a fighter and not a quitter

The greatest thing my past has ever done for me is let me experience it

With out it

I would never know what it feels like to

Cry, smile, laugh, leave, hide, stay, walk, run, ignore, grow, hurt, be hurt, overreact, comeback for more

Because to not want more
leads to a sad note left at the edge of your bed

Titled suicide note

So for life sake I thank my past for everything

Tree leafs fall
as summer goes away
My heart goes astray
Goodbye summer
Goodbye warm weather
See you after three seasons
I loved you with no reason
lungs breathing, soul shinning, heart beating
with you I lived a thousand lives in one season

Pride dug a hole in their relationship
Deeper and deeper they dug
Silence was the casket they fell in
No echos of love
Endorsing anger as their new form of emotion
Blaming each other like old fools
Manipulated souls
Feeling destroyed
as pride became their voice of reason
Leaving no choice
Obeying it as they both chose to be (right) no love (left)
Promises ignored
Both robbed of happiness
Pride introduced them to emptiness
Both stressed and depressed
Seeking validation for their emotions
Turning to negativity to find satisfaction
The devil between them
Comfortably cuddling with their souls
Creating a divided union lacking a destination
pride left them Lost with no direction
Pride destroyed their beautiful connection
It destroyed their promises and hopes for a bright future
Suffering to see the sunlight while living in darkness

Read carefully
You might find yourself in my poetry

Love carefully you might End up breaking me ever so gentaly

Speak freely you might be the one to set me free
From my pain and agony

Tell me I’m lovley because you might be the only one to see the real me

Got you all me give
I will give you all of me
Me love
I will always love you
Reciprocal be always should love

(read that backward)

People are quick to send your family condolences
Quick to say “sorry for your loss”

Feeling bad for you
but smile as long as it wasn’t their loss

Hold off on sending you roses while you are alive
But quickly stuff them in your casket
When you pass

The love they fail to express while you are alive
Becomes the regret that inspires the tears In their eyes

Please re-read this
when you feel different about our love
Yes I still love you
And yes I will always love you
But right now you are falling deeply in love with your comfort zone
I hate to make you choose
but it’s either me or your comfort zone
When you are ready to keep falling
just step out of your comfort zone
And you will see me below
Ready to catch you as you fall

She told me she loved me
While only using emojis
That’s when I knew she had the best of me
Hipster love, was so cool
To me it was therapy
Falling deeply as she saw the best of me
Forcing me to face my demons
Which came by the millions
But together we slayed them
She was my drug and I was her addict
I needed her in order to feel high
When she left depression came to comfort me
We song rock and roll
which later turned into blues
Melodies so deep they touched my soul
Abusing my emotions while she blew me
Hearts and kisses, pretty soon I would make her my misses taken her off of Cupid’***** list

Love is the sound of your voice
Without it I would go deaf

Poetry is like a tree
It faces all four seasons
But yet it still finds a reason to keep standing

So if you have words that should be spoken
I urge you to please keep writing
Your words just might keep me from dying
Whisper love in my aching soul
Stitch my broken heart, protect me from this everlasting fall, and these never ending emotions which I can’t control

thou art my lover,
for thou holdest my heart..
my heart rings to your voice and beats to thou touch..
gazing my eyes on you gives me an emotional rush, my body it excites, my soul it satisfies
for tonight when I lay my head I shou lay it on your soft chest, my love in you I invest