While trying to write you a poetry piece
My mind found peace
It’s been a while since I let my words touch your soul, so here I go

Every time I think of your existence
I feel your presence
I smell your fragrance and my mind races
To a place where only lovers go
Lately I’ve lost my mind there and I don’t expect to find it anytime soon

Loving you is a blessing
all these years it’s you, my soul has been missing
I write to you these words so that your soul could listen to my whisper
Oh dear lover can you feel me touching your heart, holding it ever so gently
Everyday my heart challenges my soul to love you deeper, and to love you longer
Holding on to hope, trusting that this bond will grow stronger and love forever

A dream a nightmare
All sound the same
Both can make you go insane
Both force you to endure pain
So give me that pen
Let me write what’s within
If it doesn’t please your eyes
Look from within to truly understand

If love is blind then I lost my eye sight the day I met you
I have been blind since my eyes pierced your lovley soul

Heart attack, Falling flat
Getting shot, in the gut
Lethal injection, in the vains
Facing rejection, feeling pain

None compare to your heart being broken
By the one who promised you everything

Tranquility equality
I pray this becomes my reality

Do you still burn for me
Like the fire that has no authority
Burning to its own power
Free to be what it wants to be
Do you still think of me as you do when you flirt with your imagination
Am I still your definition of satisfaction
Am I still the water that quenches your thirst
Do you still love me as you did when your heart skipped a thousands beats just to match mine

Numbers speak louder than words
a thousand to a million
You are still sleeping with your skeletons
Trying to fit in like a blind Chameleon
History hunts your very own existence
Drunk on emotional substance
Abused so many times
190 to be exact, pain you attract
Matter of fact, these numbers **** you inside
Number of lovers in the past one too many
Heart touched by so many,
But inside you feel empty
Number of breakups and makeups
One too many, demoralized and destroyed
Your heart deployed to war with your emotions
It had never returned
Killed in combat
Fighting and dodging Cupid’s arrows
While drinking from the cup of sorrow

Love means nothing
if fidelity does not accompany it
Many love but fall out of love
Many love but run away from love
Many love but cheat on love
So don’t show me love
if you are not bringing fidelity with it

Every time I touch you I am touching a miracle
You are beautiful
Face of an angel and smile of a goddess
My heart you possess
Loving you is simply priceless

If a busy gun takes lives
Then silent leaders do worse
They burn lives, hang knuses on the innocent
Voice your pain or get blessed with a curse
Blood shed Schools
We elected fools
Wrong leaders to lead us
Pushing useless agenda’s
While feeding us propaganda
Halls covered red
thousands of innocent people killed
At the expense of gun reform laws
Watching news with dropped jaws
We sit in silence
while the voiceless die for peace

She popped pills
To catch thrills
Chasing dreams
While searching for something real
Addict is her identity
Chasing highs but end up catching lows
Empty was her heart
She fell in love With something that
tore her apart
Popping pills to feed her ego
This addiction she didnt want let go
Now to the grave she goes

Until the lion tells his own story
the hunter will always be the hero
No one will ever know
The lions point of view
But if you ever do
Pray you that you are not the hunter

Owls only talk at night
Fearing lights
But falling in love with the moon and the stars
They speak of the past as they feast on old scars

Sometimes what I have to write is more important than what I feel
And sometimes how I feel is more important than what I can write

So when those two meet
Poetry is birthed from my soul
Bleeding on paper are my emotions
Which I hope can take control
I have stood for all and I have fallen for all
Stuck in a dream with a heart full of feelings
If someone can make me feel what’s deep in
I promise to try to love again, if not I hope you can catch me while I am falling for these feelings

She knew she lost a king
When all she had around her
were slaves acting like kings
Loving her body instead of her soul
Spoiling her with money and material things
instead of dressing her finger with Gold
Force feeding her fantasy
instead of creating a better reality
Her heart in pieces
she left them all to go love herself again
In loving herself she found herself a king
Willing to take her in
Wounded and destroyed
He vowed to make sure she never cried again

The devil lied
when he told your heart
that it will never find love again
You found me and now you are my everything

Her heart was starving for love
so she feasted on his lies
She couldn’t realize
That his eyes
Were built to tell lies
With her heart full
She became her lovers fool
He played her like a fiddle
While she tried to understand him like an unsolvable riddle
Complicated, and uninvested he was
She fought to keep him while being devastated
He demoralized her worth until she got infected with a universal disease called insecurity
Hating to love him,
while struggling to leave him
loving him openly, while secretly dying slowly

I’m not afraid of dying
I’m afraid of not living while I am alive
Because to me that’s worse than death
That’s a slow suicide
As death welcomes me into its cold arms
Comforting me with doubt, while forcing me to reject faith, ignore hope, and embrace fear
Shed a million tears
open old scars and feast on regret  

I’m not afraid of dying
I am afraid of giving up on my future  
Because to me that’s worse than death
That’s emotional torture,
as I watch my heart get eaten by vultures
Serenading my past and giving it meaning like I don’t have a future, it abuses me by feeding me stress, anxiety and depression like my past needs me to impress it
I’m just trying to move past it
It has a hold on me, it’s taking control of me

I’m not afraid of dying
I am afraid of ignoring love while it shoots me with Cupid’s arrow
As I feast on my ego and drown in my sorrow  
Lover after lover I reject like I don’t know
Searching for that idol
while I worship my insecurities
The closer they get the further I ran
Because I can’t let them see the worst of me
I never loved me
how can I let a stranger in
When I am not comfortable within

I’m not afraid of dying
I’m just afraid on living without a purpose
Loving without a purpose
Caring without a purpose
Trying without a purpose

I just want to live a life with a purpose!!!!

They laughed at the caterpillar
Now they admire the butterfly

Their laughter became their sorrow
Pain and agony, they now swallow
While choking on their own egos

Success and Beauty takes time
laugh now cry later
Cry now laugh later
The story is yours to tell
Like tall tales
All fails if pain doesn’t exist in the mist

Of the many ways to deal with pain
you chose ******
Numb you became
Sitting in a corner
while conversing to your inner demons  
Asking them why they exist
They reply, you created us out of fear
Now we are here
You summoned us, with every hit
To activate them you inject chemicals in your veins
Chasing highs while waking up to lows
Taking hits
Ending up with a face full of blows
Nose full of blow
Glass table full of credit cards
used to cut the dope, emotions in a noose tide in a rope

An addict at best
at worst dead and buried alive

There is plenty to see
But looks like you are stuck on fantasy
Emotions floating at sea
Hiding from reality
You overdosed on insecurity
High on the feeling of uncertainty
Struggling with trust issues
It’s hard to let go of your past
So you invited it into your future
Now it takes control of your ego  
Battling with depression
your conscious robbed of tranquility
Got your emotions mixed up
you tried mixing peace with anxiety
Too blind to see that you left your heart at sea

Chasing big dreams
While flirting with nightmares
Don’t you know that these scars
created an ocean full of tears
I drown in my own emotions
While conversing with depression
Anxiety taps me on my shoulder
While shooting down my ego
Pride it forces me to let go
Empty I feel
while holding on to the place where my heart used to go, chasing a fix
While my mentality is broken to pieces
Looking for peace while drowning in agony

I will never ask you for anything more than I ask for your (time)

Because without that I will never know what it feels like to call you (mine)

Time is precious
time is golden
time is everything when you have it
and painful when you don’t have it

You promised to never leave but you did
You promised to never stop loving me
but you did, now I sit here alone and lonely
You promised to always be by my side
But you left without even a goodbye
Was I that horrible of a lover
that you had to go find another
I wonder if he knows about me
and how much of a disaster I was
For loving you too much
needing you too much
And trying to look after your lonely heart
Cherishing you like an art piece with value

I loved you
but now I wonder if you loved you
In your lies I found your value
I found a missing soul
A broken heart, and an insecure being
I’m not here to judge you
But here to tell you
That one day love will find you and judge you

Bodies sold at a retail price
To hearts which are colder than ice
She sold her soul and pride for money
While inside she was dying alone and empty
Beaten and bruised badly
She took every slap boldly
when it came to scars
She had one too many

She a victim of her insecurity
He an addict addicted to ****** gratification
*** driven with no particular destination
At home he had a wife who lost her passion
So prostitutes became his substitution
Seeking them in the day, seeking them at night
Just so he could fill that empty spot

***** at a young age,
so she fornicated with rage
Anger in her eyes
fear in her heart
pain on her mind
Numb to pleasure
she only smiled when she saw dollars
Wore dog collars
as man acted like they owned her

A property for hire between her legs
Men would love her and touch her, hurt and destroy her, abuse her and mistreat her and no one would defend her

To her love and pain all felt the same

Procrastination
is a destination
in which
potential
goes to die

You are more than                          Enough
Sometimes I think           For          Me you
                           Are too much
First you were my crush now you are my




        Love


It’s scary to love you sometimes
The feeling of uncertainty, forces me to feel insecurity, but your love comforts me
And you gave me pages to write in your book of love               Fantasy

I took the pages and wrote us a Novel, now we read about love and what it means to be lovers

Thanks to you I walked out of my


Comfort zone

And now I don’t feel alone

Thanks to you my heart will never feel


(Alone)

We fell in love with shooting stars
Wishing that our love would go far
We had stomachs filled with butterflies
While we believed in beautiful lies
We looked up at the skies,
wondering what Love looked like before we looked into each other’s eyes

Forever seemed too long to pray for
So we prayed for tomorrow and hoped to live for an eternity, while loving each other deep into our dark fantasy

If you are going to leave
Leave

If you are going to love
Love

I am asking you
please don’t do both

Because you can not
break and fix a heart at the same time

That’s called emotional abuse
And my heart...
doesn’t have the time for that

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A mother throws away her new born baby

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A wife abused and beaten daily

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A father told he is not allowed
to see his child
Paying child support, while his role as a father is deported, any mistakes he is reported

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A girl told she is not pretty enough to be loved
Comforted by insecurity, abused physically and mentally, wounded emotionally

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A boyfriend proposes to his girlfriend while she walks away leaving him on one knee
Left to face his pain and agony

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A lover sees his lover fall in love with another lover, when he knows that should of been his lover, heart broken as he knows it’s all over  

Nothing hurts more than rejection
A mother told she will never be a mother
Because her womb won’t let her
All she wanted was one son and one daughter

I’m not good at saying (good)bye

So let me just start by saying (hello)

If tomorrow never comes
I hope to die with your shadow
For today you made me feel wanted and loved
Your heart I will now follow  

Yesterday and everyday before yesterday was a struggle
because for many years I lived without you

Many years of pain and passionless desires

Now that I found you
I’m not good at saying (good)bye

Love seems a bit more frightening in anticipation

Sometimes overwhelming with a million expectations

When in reality all it wants is total appreciation

It sends all of your emotions to one destination
Hoping your soul is ready for a lifetime of altercations that potentially lead to satisfaction

It pulls you out of your comfort zone
Just to make you it’s own

She had reasons to leave
but never did
Her love was stronger, so she held on longer
He signed her death warrant with every punch to her face and ribs
Breaking her bones,
while building her wall of insecurity
Emotionally and physically abusing her daily
She couldn’t leave as he held her heart hostage
Loving her with rage
Stuck between pleasure and pain
Broken deeply to a point where it all felt the same

If I’ve never told you I adore you
I adore you

If I’ve never told you I need you
I need you now more than ever
Today and forever

If I’ve never told you I appreciate you
I appreciate you, I value you, because I can’t see my life without you

If I’ve never told you how much you mean to me
You mean everything to me
you are my world my heart
and the fuel to my soul

Without you I would fall

Hey lover
Please don’t give me your forever
If you don’t believe in forever
Just give me all of your tomorrows
Love me in pain and in sorrow
Where ever your heart goes Mine will follow
For I am a part of you and you a part of me

I am your shadow and you are my tomorrow

Eventually all wounds heal
Look deep down and see that you will prevail  
find the power to stand still
In the mean time face that fact that

Soulless pits of emotions burn of worthless passion

I love you’s said with no validation
Just words no action
No love, love is a verb not just a word
Confusing your past to your future
Like solving a puzzle with 3 pieces missing
That’s why you can’t see the picture

Please don’t Love me prematurely
Love me when you are ready
Because this love is too broken to be broken again and again and again

I’m addicted to your existence
My love is deeply rooted in your heart
When I die bury me next to your ashes

This way your love could arise and reincarnate
In my soul as my lover who never left me

To live and not have loved is a tragedy
So if you are going to love the best of me
learn to also welcome the worst of me
Because as you fight your insecurities, I fight my dreams to never end

I fight to never wake from this lifelong fantasy

The price of admission to love is craziness

How crazy are you willing to be in order to prove to me that you love me

If not insanity, then please let me be

Toughest thing I have ever had to do was grow up

besides that everything else has been easy

Life is mean
it will beat you up till you give up and die

But while it’s beating you up all you can do is keep on trying

Blah blah blah!!! one day at a time, wipe those **** tears and keep going

Who said it would be easy, well tell them that they were lying

Truth is, I don’t know the truth anymore
I’m just living this life while lying in truth

While having Deep rooted emotions,
that seek validation of my actions,
I am 1 in 7 billion guests on an earth filled with insecure hearts and lost minds

Those that think they know the truth lack vision and those who are blind know too much to tell us what they see

Growing up ***** the living daylight out of our souls
while painting a beautiful smile on our faces full of holes

While directing us to a floor
that’s dug 6 feet under

Addicted to silence
so we get high to distance
Leaving no room for forgiveness
While we thrive off of our ignorance

Only true love can fix this