In Africa is where you built your  home.
Giving life to everything you touch
Making every African a proud offspring of the soil
Your beauty is so spellbinding no one can turn a blind eye to
Perfection is what you deal with you know no mistake
Everyone wants to have you, everyone wants to own you.
You're so precious not even money can buy you

Envying you they took you abroad
Forced you to settle in an unknown place
Ripping away the confidence you've engraved in the hearts of your children.
They tried to make you surrender
They taught your children to hate and destroy you in order for them to use your tears to build their empire

Yet you still remain calm and majestic
You claim your throne and rule with passion
You don't hate nor do you discriminate
You make sure your presence is known and respected by the world
My dear melanin.

A face that is emotionless
Is more dangerous than a venomous spider
For the spider knows not how to hide its intentions
But an emotionless face tells no story
It holds power over your mind,heart and action
It also knows ******* you
Slowly and painfully.

I want to know myself
I want to explore myself
I want to search my heart
Exploring every curve,
invading every room's privacy
I want answers to unasked questions
I want accurate answers to rhetorical questions
I want to have conversations about topics that are ignored and hidden
I want to drink coffee with the Lord
and let him fill my empty mind
with wisdom to understand life.
I want to know what is pain, hate, depression, and discrimination.
I want to understand their origin
I want to fight bad guys
I want to succeed
But how can I
when fear is all that I know.

Welcome to the happy side
Here we bury our pain
And let our childish side flourish.
Here we grow
Under the sun absorbing it's rays.
Here we sing, dance, laugh and make plenty mistakes.
We feed the earth our joy,
We give it it's brightness,
We appreciate the little we have.
We walk together in the journey of life
Because a long trip is enjoyed
When you have your friends with you

This world is crual
This world is evil
They don't really care about you
They only care about themselves
When hard times knock at their door
When they feel alone
You take your time to comfort them,
they act like they love you
Like they appreciate you
But when you're stuck in a hole
They pretend to be blind
When you shout for help
They hide their ears
When you drown in your tears
They develop aquaphobia
And when you give them love
They take it and never return it.

Comfort my dear friend please forsake me
Turn your back on me just like earth does to the sun
Free me from your hold and let me welcome a new dawn.

Hallow and empty is my heart
A blank space that refuses to be filled grows
Craving the unknown to quieten the voices in my head
Words meant to heal me
Like the medication hidden under my bed
Laziness opened doors to apathy
My worst nightmare invading my reality
No words to reason what's going on in my head
Having everything appreciating nothing
Blackness covering my eyes
Unable to see the blessings in front of me
Gratitude is what's needed but no one is seeking it.
Don't worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has it's own problems to worry about so they say
Yet worrying about the past is what we specialise in

A mesmerizing red rose
So fragile with no guardians
Refuses to die, to give in
For it acknowledges the priceless history it possesses
Its petals ever so bright
Its redness blinds you
Ready to show the word the historians who shed their blood for it
For us all to rejoice and appreciate the little we have.
It's thorny stem growing strong showing the world all that it endured
Manifesting its strength.
For the rose is the heart of this land
Through it we shall all know what true beauty is

Inspiration is the fire we need
To keep our inner candles burning
And our passion flowing
It is the one that motives us to act
Without shame being allowed to hover over us
With it all judgments turn into ashes

How often do you wonder
about the thunder
that shakens your heart
making it pump fear all over your body?
The roar of the gods that compete
with that of your stomach?
The stomping of the legends that
send people fleeing to their huts
to protect what is dear to their hearts,
the electronics that make mother nature cry tears of acidity?

How often have you counted the stars
that are said to hold the spirits of the superior
and wonder why they too hide from
the thunder that screams terror to the ears of the deaf,
and ask yourself where the deemed inferior spirits lay?
for the legends are in heaven
were else the superior are in dead stars that later degenerate

How often do you ponder about God's endurance over one's behaviour
knowing that his wrath could destroy all living beings
and ask yourself why He remains calm like the flow of the river

How often do you ponder about humanity and ask yourself
where the evil that surrounds us comes from
and when will we be cured from it.

I'm back
Back from being stapped behind by those I called my friends
I'm back
Back from being bullied my mental state is unstable it needs a walking stick.
I'm back
Back from being suffocated by prejudice my anxiety is kicking
I'm back
Back from the crowd that screamed their chatters, gossip ringing in my ear
I'm back
Back from my failed suicide attempts which reflect the failure I am
I'm back
Back from running into the mist hoping to find my long lost soul
I'm back
With my soul attached
I'm back.

You left me
In the cold dark world
Told me to be kind and compassionate
Deceived me with your sweet melodic voice
Told me to treat others the way I too desire to be treated
You held my hand with your warmth radiating around me
I thought I'd never know the cold
It turned out that I fooled myself

I'm not crazy nor am I shy
I'm just insecure and ungrateful
I'm not living in my own world
nor am I giving little thought to things
I'm simply trying to hide my low self esteem from the world
I'm not strong nor am I intelligent
I'm simply good at hiding things and very observant
I'm not the nicest person you've ever met
I'm just excellent at portraying an image
that is accepted by society
Most times I don't show my true colours
I just show the personality that I think you think is best for me
Just to get a couple of thumbs pointed up
and a fake smile from you in order to increase my confidence