Resting on the window sill
I gaze into the darkness,
peeling at my thoughts,
inhaling the sweetness of the Summer air.
A purple lightning strikes the sky,
and the thunder whispers,
as the clouds break away.
The warm drops cleanse my skin,
and fill the air with the aroma of newly cut grass.
I count the stars with my journal in hand,
recording my deepest wishes.
And once I'm finished,
the words seem briskly blown away into the Heavens,
each attaching to a star.
I close my eyes
as the calm storm sings me to sleep.

The beat of my heart
drowns out the
s i l e n c e
while you invade my thoughts.
The waves crashing
       inside
of my body
spill out of each crevice
until I'm drowning in your love.
I'm taken to that rugged paradise
where it's just
me and you
feeding off of each other's desires
sinking into blissful oblivion,
Engaging in a passion of
the HIGHEST caliber.
I want to live in your arms,
and die in your eyes,
until the world fades
and it's just us
floating among the masses of stars.

I look into your eyes  
And I see so much love.
The love that you hide,
That you hope the world
Will not notice.
But I notice.
The love you possess
Rises from your perfect skin
Like a morning mist,
That few get to actually enjoy.
You might have told
Yourself you don't want me to,
But
I feel your love all around me
In everything that I do.
I feel it
When my eyes first open
each beautiful morning,
I feel it
With each necessary breath
That I take,
I feel it
With each choice
I blindly make,
And I feel it
When the
Blackness of life
Starts to invade my soul
And it rescues me...
It's always there
Like a quiet shadow
Following me on an empty street,
When the world
Makes me feel so lost and alone,
It saves me everyday....
Whether you know it or not,
YOU SAVE ME...
And I LOVE YOU TOO.

So tired
of being
everyone's second best.
Second rate,  side plate
leftover trash.
Second friend, Second lover
Second daughter, Second mother.
Never first.
My naïve heart
is filled
with ample LOVE,
always ready to give
to the surpluses,
but never on the receiving end.
I get their  leftover love
from a feeding tube,
but not enough to viably LIVE.
I want to be wanted.
I want to be cherished
I want to be LOVED.
In somebody's heart,
I want to be FIRST.

I'll Stand
on my tiptoes  
Atop
Of a mountain
To steal the moon
And
Make the world go dark
To light up your eyes

I'll clutch the
cold, soft
earth
In my fist
And sprinkle it
Beneath
Your bare feet
For you
To walk on

I'll pluck the wind
And lock it up
In a mason jar
And pour you
A glass
For the moments
That take your breath away

And if any of these shall ever
Run out,
I will LOVE you back to life
With
Kisses
dreams
And truth.

Do you ever wonder...

Are my words even heard?
Do they shoot silently in the night like a star...
or
Do they blast with multitudinous force into the festival sky like fireworks,
Crackling through your ear...

Do they matter?
Do they float past your mind,
as easily as a speck of sand swirls
Around the desert...
Or
Do they land steady in your heart fibers,
Impacting your world as heavily as the breath that fills your lung?

Will you remember them tomorrow?
Do they disappear the way that a soft murmur melts into your shadow?
or
Do they tarry, like a chill running down your spine,
leaving behind imprints of my lips to remember them by?

I wonder...

She hid behind a shiny smile
showing the world what they wanted to see
but always a prisoner inside her own body
chained to blood and bones

It won her praise
and it won her glory
Roses bloomed around her
while her soul withered inside

All the sparkly things lost their sparkle
when she stopped writing her own story
It was then in the moment of frailty
she realized she left herself behind somewhere along the way

The porcelain cracked and a brave woman broke through
stitching her heart and emptying her mind
of the stranger that had taken over
and the pain that had sustained

Beginning again vulnerable and naked
trembling with both excitement and fear
Praying that the world would accept her
as she introduced that girl that had been hidden for so long

Stones were thrown
and enemies crawled out of their alleys
attempting to drag her down
and crush her new found dreams

But a force field of love and acceptance
from those special souls that always knew who she was
carried her on it's shoulders
not allowing her to lay back down

A garden of confidence and self-love grew inside her
A hero was reborn
and so was the jolly
that had died with her long ago

Her smile is authentic now
and it shines brighter than ever before
A natural light that heals all who
are illuminated in it's glowing path

Merry songs escape her lips
and effervescent words flow from
her fingertips to the blank paper
as roses bloom inside of her

She's a prisoner no more.

It’s different with you.
Your words
penetrate me
Like spindles,
Leaving my heart
Writhing in
Delightful misery.

You have decorated
My soul
With the yearning
Of what we could be
and with the pain
Of what we might not be.

I’m gripped tightly
To your essence,
Hastily Drinking
the magical elixir
That you exude.

I will never let go…
Unless you tell me to.

Some people
Love you
For the way
You make
Them feel
About themselves.

I just simply love you.

Broken Mirror
in my mind.
Always to remind.
Trapped
in the dark,
with nothing
but the sound
of the clinking of the shards.
Your animalistic ways,
running fast until
you've caught
your prey.
But I fought,
and still do everyday.
I never asked for this
and I never asked for you,
Just because you're a man
and I'm a woman,
don't be so quick
to assume.
I've kept you
locked in my mind
trying to forget that day,
what gives you the right
to feel it's alright
to suddenly message me
and say "HEY"

I gave up everything just to be with you
and ended up losing it all.
You flung your narcissistic charm at me
and my heart caught every bit of it willingly
like a young girl hungry for the spotlight

Kisses, roses, and promises you handed me
The kisses were shared, the roses they died,
and the promises were lies.
You lured me in with your big brown eyes
leaving me breathless and wanting more
You gave me more and then you took it away
and I fell to my knees in anguish.

A love that was doomed from the beginning
but I took that blind leap anyways believing in magic and trust
You betrayed that naïve girl who wore her heart on her sleeve
and left her to rot in the dust

I sulked in my bed sheets, craving death
peeking over the covers awaiting the grim reaper
It was a tragic year.
But then I started to grow
and I started to heal.
The world suddenly seemed so clear.
I fell in love with another face...that face looking back in the mirror.

I gave everything up. I lost it all. But I finally gained me.

A sea of rain
And a dark
Black mass
Covers the world;
A drunken eye
Sees it all;
But the heart
Forgets
As the cold
Gray pellets
Destroy it all
And we don't
Realize
Until we're
Swept away.

It’s as if the bare branches
stroke my hair
with the comfort of Autumn
Each time
the soft, shushing wind
whispers through the trees.
Beneath a milky moon
I find peace
Knowing that
The heat between
me and Summer
Has fizzled out.

I bury my heaving *****
Beneath a carnival of flowers
Until the hope
Outweighs
The fear

You roped me into
Your world,
Filled with wondrous skies
And warmth,
Then tied me to a post,
To lull and wait for
Your return.

Let me live in the sky,
among the marshmallow clouds,    
Departing from
this nocturnal nightmare
where my innocence
is disgraced.

Glass puddle ripples
Innocence is lost again
Shiny shards on wrists

Do you feel that electric jolt
Between your heart & mine
❤️⚡️❤️

Your eyes burn right
              Through
                         My heart.
Until the Ashes blow away.

I want you to be
My E V E R Y T H I N G
But if I can’t have that,
Will you at least
Be my escape
Every now and then?

Dim lights hiding scars
breathing in the smoky haze
Specks of glitter on the wall
a disco ball frenzy

Numbing bubbles freely flow
Crawling to the lowest high
Sweaty paradise
Loneliness whirling around


It smells like *** and heartache.

Running wildly up
The mountain side
Straight up to the stars
Skipping on galaxies
And soaking up moon beams

Collapsing dreamily onto
Cloud Nine
Floating through
The hazy remnants of
Our life before each other

Twirling clumsily
Into a sequin dotted sky
Holding onto
One another
As our hearts beat fast
Until they’re melded into one

Your passion is
Strength for my body

and

Your love is
Sustenance for my soul.

The first time I saw you
I was instantly ****** in
Bewildered by you
And in adoration of your
Pink velvet and curls
The way you spoke
To the crowd,
So truthful and brave
Was such an emotional turn on.

The next time I saw you
I was sure that I wanted you
I was ******* enamored by your presence and blushed at the sight of your
Speckled freckles
Your pure laugh plunged me deep into a whimsical world.
I had never been more certain
Of what I was feeling

The first time we talked
My entire body was shaking
So overwhelmed by the
Flutters of my heart and
the chemical intoxication that
You stirred inside of me

And since then I’ve
f
a
l
l
e
n
Fallen so deep into
a euphoric galaxy
Filled with wonder and hope
Of everything that we could be.

I’ve fallen madly for you, my lady.

Beautiful souls with a pastel glow,
That leave a trail of hearts wherever they go.
Ink-splashed words
That mean more than they say,
Black and white photos
Of those that couldn’t stay.
Lyrics that warm you like
a stoked winter’s fire,
The world’s finest artwork
willing to inspire.