Dim lights hiding scars
breathing in the smoky haze
Specks of glitter on the wall
a disco ball frenzy

Numbing bubbles freely flow
Crawling to the lowest high
Sweaty paradise
Loneliness whirling around


It smells like *** and heartache.

Do you feel that electric jolt
Between your heart & mine
❤️⚡️❤️

Sometimes I wonder
if the smile I gave you
is long gone
or do you keep it in your pocket and put it on from time to time
in the darkness of the night

It’s as if the bare branches
stroke my hair
with the comfort of Autumn
Each time
the soft, shushing wind
whispers through the trees.
Beneath a milky moon
I find peace
Knowing that
The heat between
me and Summer
Has fizzled out.

I want you to be
My E V E R Y T H I N G
But if I can’t have that,
Will you at least
Be my escape
Every now and then?

I bury my heaving *****
Beneath a carnival of flowers
Until the hope
Outweighs
The fear

I'll Stand
on my tiptoes  
Atop
Of a mountain
To steal the moon
And
Make the world go dark
To light up your eyes

I'll clutch the
cold, soft
earth
In my fist
And sprinkle it
Beneath
Your bare feet
For you
To walk on

I'll pluck the wind
And lock it up
In a mason jar
And pour you
A glass
For the moments
That take your breath away

And if any of these shall ever
Run out,
I will LOVE you back to life
With
Kisses
dreams
And truth.

Slither into the sea
Inhale
The top of a mountain
To swallow,
Sorrowful dusk
Butterfly floats
Heaven is shiny deep
I'd fly if I drown

Broken Mirror
in my mind.
Always to remind.
Trapped
in the dark,
with nothing
but the sound
of the clinking of the shards.
Your animalistic ways,
running fast until
you've caught
your prey.
But I fought,
and still do everyday.
I never asked for this
and I never asked for you,
Just because you're a man
and I'm a woman,
don't be so quick
to assume.
I've kept you
locked in my mind
trying to forget that day,
what gives you the right
to feel it's alright
to suddenly message me
and say "HEY"

I'd give anything
For you
To tell me I'm not crazy.
For you
To
Magnetically
place your hand
On my thigh,
While looking me in the eye,
And sweetly utter the words
"I NEED you too"
To feel the passionate confirmation
Passing from your lips to mine,
As that last color of my soul
Is shaded in by your
Bravery and truth.
Together we can shine.
Together we can conquer.
Together we belong.

Do you ever wonder...

Are my words even heard?
Do they shoot silently in the night like a star...
or
Do they blast with multitudinous force into the festival sky like fireworks,
Crackling through your ear...

Do they matter?
Do they float past your mind,
as easily as a speck of sand swirls
Around the desert...
Or
Do they land steady in your heart fibers,
Impacting your world as heavily as the breath that fills your lung?

Will you remember them tomorrow?
Do they disappear the way that a soft murmur melts into your shadow?
or
Do they tarry, like a chill running down your spine,
leaving behind imprints of my lips to remember them by?

I wonder...

I look into your eyes  
And I see so much love.
The love that you hide,
That you hope the world
Will not notice.
But I notice.
The love you possess
Rises from your perfect skin
Like a morning mist,
That few get to actually enjoy.
You might have told
Yourself you don't want me to,
But
I feel your love all around me
In everything that I do.
I feel it
When my eyes first open
each beautiful morning,
I feel it
With each necessary breath
That I take,
I feel it
With each choice
I blindly make,
And I feel it
When the
Blackness of life
Starts to invade my soul
And it rescues me...
It's always there
Like a quiet shadow
Following me on an empty street,
When the world
Makes me feel so lost and alone,
It saves me everyday....
Whether you know it or not,
YOU SAVE ME...
And I LOVE YOU TOO.

Like embers
Falling silently
Into the sea,
So are you and me.
They don't
Belong together,
But despite
The tragic end,
They collide
So beautifully.

I wanted
To cry out
To you...
But
I can't be
That girl
That cries out
Only for
A morsel
Of your
Attention.
I want to be
So much more
Than that.
I want to be
The girl
That
You hear
In the
S I L E N C E
and already
Know
She's there.

Just as
The worth
of an
Undiscovered gem
Still exists,
She's a hidden beauty.
Like
the inside
of a wave
that curls
Shyly,
Wrapping itself
in it's
Magnificent
Turquoise walls;
It's strong
before it crashes,
then tumbles
into it's desires.
Not many see or appreciate it,
But those who
Dare to brave
the
Wild swirl
of wonder,
Are left with Fascination
And Dreamy eyes.

Some people
Love you
For the way
You make
Them feel
About themselves.

I just simply love you.

The time
I felt
Most like a woman,
I was wearing
A push-up bra
With your head
Between
my thighs...

She's a messy lover.
She's most beautiful
in wrinkled sheets
and unmade beds.
With tangled hair,
chapped lips,
and confidence,
she draws you close.
She's a slow kisser.
She savors
every breath
you draw from each other,
until you're
living inside of her
and her inside of you.
She's the painting
that was never finished,
but is somehow
a ******* masterpiece.
She's a puzzle
that you'll never figure out,
and for that
you'll only desire her more.
She will
tame you with her charm,
frighten you with her truth,
and
make you fall in love with her,
because
you will never find a woman
as
simply complex
as her...

Millions of stars.
Shooting,
Falling,
Granting wishes
All around me,
But only one
Lit up
My sky.

I chased it
Blindly,
Dancing on
The moon,
Swinging on
Saturn's rings,
And searching
Through endless
Galaxies,
But I never
Could quite
Hold it
In my palm
To glow
Brightly in
My hand.

I think now
That maybe
Perhaps
You were
That one star
That my arms just
Weren't meant
To reach.

Close.
Close enough
To be warmed
By your light,
To be changed
By your beauty,
But only to admire
From a distance,
Millions of
Light years away.

Standing near you
Leaves me breathless.
You lean in
And I'm
Intoxicated
By your energy,
A fiery aura
That draws back
Its bow and
Pierces my soul
With its
Dream-laced
Arrows.

Her lips.
A poet's *******.
I crave them
In the most
Euphoric way.
I tremble from
The pink electricity
That passes
Between
Them and my own.
A high that dizzies
My head follows,
As I crash into
Her tongue.
An art so addictive
That I must immediately
Write it down.
Romance fills my pen
As the ink remembers
Every stain
That her lips
Left on mine.

As Dawn approaches
with certainty and confidence,
the worries that
inhabited my mind
through the night
disappear with the
lingering smoke
left circling above
an ashen wick.
A yellow beam
dares to peek
through the
Royal tapestried sky,
sending a joyous jolt
into the fibers of
my soul.
I am awake, I am alive.
The darkness is gone
and a glimpse of hope
seeps inside,
lathered in faith
and the promise
of renewal.
I am a
Survivor of the Night.

The cold locket
She gave you
Slipped from your neck
Falling between
Your bare breast
And down past
Your broken heart

You hugged
Your knees
That they might
Save you
And hold you
Together
For just a
Little while

Staring at your
Reflection
In the
Lukewarm water
That stagnated
At your thighs,
A white
Porcelain refuge
Surrounded by
Moldy tiles
Was your solace

The salty leakage
From your
Forest eyes
Fell faster
Than the
Squeaky faucet
That never stopped
D R I P P I N G

The cool
Air grazed
Your spine
And sent
A peppered
Patch of
Chill bumps
Down your arms,
But you
Didn't seem
To mind

All you
Could feel
Was the
Broken pieces
Of your heart,
S c a t t e r e d
In the water
Slicing your body
Like tiny
Razor blades
By their
Jagged, Uneven
Edges

With one
Flip of
Your toe
You whispered
Goodbye,
As the necklace
That she
Gave you
And the
Pieces of
Your heart
That she
Took from you
Slid down
The drain,
Into the
Place Where
Broken Hearts Go.

You roped me into
Your world,
Filled with wondrous skies
And warmth,
Then tied me to a post,
To lull and wait for
Your return.

A lump of eminence
Swells in her throat,
But she swallows it down
Flashing a shiny, humble smile.
This wild dandelion grows in the sun
and dances to the beat of the wind,
Scattering seeds of peace
And songs of love
In every corner of the world.
She floats among the stars
Crashing perfectly into
Every illustrious constellation.
As she shakes the stardust from her hair
And dusts her glitter-speckled shoulders,
She reaps the benefit
Of her selfless, meaningful offerings.

You're my sacred distraction,
you shake me hard
and shoot me high
into a web of stars,
I hover weightlessly
inside your charming Universe,
until I'm dancing on air
and breathing in your
sweet remedy,
until you've saved me
once more.

Her heart is pure as
Angels dancing in the rain;
filled with wild love
and bottomless dreams.
Her beauty like 1000 Sunsets
enchants my soul,
until I'm tangled up
in her lacy love.

Gentle as a drop of morning dew
Silent as ghosts passing in the night
Strong as Earth's gravitational pull
A treasure hidden in plain sight

Exciting as a stirring storm
Passionate as a dancer's spin
Magical as heat lightning's stroke
Abstract as a Weeping Willow's grin

The world may not know
About the love you give to me
It can be our garden of secrets
That we've sowed romantically

The feathery touch
Of your skin
Is so sincere and warm
My blood starts throbbing beneath.
The bond between
Our hearts
Is strongly entwined
Obtaining a new truth.
Your breath,
Your touch,
Your gaze,
All drive me sanely mad
I no longer choke
On my own loneliness
Because you are my new clarity,
Igniting a flame in my soul,
Jumbling the insides
Of my stomach
In some chaste way.
I'm naive to your potency,
The fool...
Letting your love
Stain my heart
With no regrets.

Glass puddle ripples
Innocence is lost again
Shiny shards on wrists

She fell into the wind,
Dreaming with her eyes wide open,
Dancing on the honey suckle  breeze,
Inhaling  freedom,
Tasting pure laughter,
As happiness tumbled from  her lips.

You win.
You draw me in.
I'm trapped again
inside this Heavenly Hell.
A lovely, torturous place
where visions of what was
and what might be
dangle like hooks
that pierce my heart,
A solitary utopia,
where stained glass dreams
slosh throughout
my whimsical mind.
I enjoy
the ******* burning
of the sensual fire
that destroys me
in the most magical way
until I
once again
fall from your grace.

The wiry thorns around
Your heart
Keep everyone out.
But I risk the pain
And reach inside
Tearing my flesh,
Because the prize is
Worth far more
Than the suffering
I endure without
Your love.
I'd do
Anything you ask
To hear your heart beating
Once more with affection.
The closed-off
Little girl hiding
Inside
Can be free.
I want to hold her
Until she feels
Whole again,
And softly kiss
The woman that resides,
As her icy blood
Begins to pump again;
To the beat of  TRUE LOVE.

It's too late.
You're already in.
In my skin,
Crawling around,
Throwing in my face
The very truth
Of the deterioration
Of my existence without you.

I tremble
In your presence
And am consumed
By every line on your body.
I trace them with my eyes
And long to feel them
With my fingertips.
An aching erupts from
Inside of my body
And a fire blazes
That I never want to
Extinguish.
My heart is cradled in
Your infinite eyes
And I want you to
Hold it for eternity.

A sea of rain
And a dark
Black mass
Covers the world;
A drunken eye
Sees it all;
But the heart
Forgets
As the cold
Gray pellets
Destroy it all
And we don't
Realize
Until we're
Swept away.

When I'm tumbling through
my DARKEST of dreams,
a vast blackness
of unwavering fear,
Your evanescent glow
flashes in
my hazy iris,
until I'm gently pulled
into the safety of
my haven of tears.

So tired
of being
everyone's second best.
Second rate,  side plate
leftover trash.
Second friend, Second lover
Second daughter, Second mother.
Never first.
My naïve heart
is filled
with ample LOVE,
always ready to give
to the surpluses,
but never on the receiving end.
I get their  leftover love
from a feeding tube,
but not enough to viably LIVE.
I want to be wanted.
I want to be cherished
I want to be LOVED.
In somebody's heart,
I want to be FIRST.

I know I'm
just a flower
in your garden
of admirers.

But I hope
you see
the difference
     between
a Wildflower and a Rose.

Let me live in the sky,
among the marshmallow clouds,     Departing from
this nocturnal nightmare
where my innocence
is disgraced.

If given the chance,
we could make fireworks,
I'd ignite
the fire beating in your chest,
and create
a beautiful E X P L O S I O N.
I'd taste the sizzle on your tongue,
a searing blaze glowing in my mouth.
Wrapped up in our own fervid inferno,
we would
        melt together,
into a galaxy on fire.

Somewhere in the somber,
Your breath fills my lungs,
Shimmering me with unbridled
Moonlight.

Uninhibited by her
Brilliant pain,
She swims through
Her tears,
A sparkling River
Of life and madness.

Your eyes burn right
              Through
                         My heart.
Until the Ashes blow away.

When you're stripped down
to nothing but your raw soul,
is when I love you most.
When your eyes
delicately plead
for me to love you,
and your hips ache
for me to taste your horizon.
I want to drink from your lips
Like a casual sinner
on a Sunday morning,
and leave you needing more.

The beat of my heart
drowns out the
s i l e n c e
while you invade my thoughts.
The waves crashing
       inside
of my body
spill out of each crevice
until I'm drowning in your love.
I'm taken to that rugged paradise
where it's just
me and you
feeding off of each other's desires
sinking into blissful oblivion,
Engaging in a passion of
the HIGHEST caliber.
I want to live in your arms,
and die in your eyes,
until the world fades
and it's just us
floating among the masses of stars.

She wraps herself up in a blanket
and tucks herself in at night.
So alone in the world,
as the cold creeps around her,
and anxiety possesses her body.

She's watched her sister poison her body
with candy from the gutters.
She's watched her mother paint her own wrists
with a knife.
She feels helpless and at times hopeless,
aching for a positive change and a chance to be free.

She sees the world beautifully
and that light burns inside and flickers in her eyes,
yet the pain she sees around her takes her hostage,
and drags her around like a puppet on a string,
and like other weary souls she slips through the cracks
of secondhand pain.

Strong in her confidence,
and confident in her strength,
she graces the world with **** wisdom.
The glow in her eyes matches the
simple beauty of a sunrise.
The art from her mouth
and the wisdom from her fingertips
educates my body and satisfies my mind.
We are an ******, philosophical collision,
as the world spins around us, blurry yet clear;
and the sacredness of the unknown shatters.
We are left breathing in beautiful, familiar air,
and with the touch of a kindred soul.

I want to bask in your presence,
and revel in your smile,
meditate in your peacefulness,
and sing with you a while.

I want to share with you your glories,
and weep with you your fails,
praise you in your Heaven,
and suffer with you in your Hell.

I want to observe you in your spotlight,
and draw the curtains when you're not,
Be your sidekick in your rebellion,
and lie for you when you're caught.

I'll greet you in the morning light,
with my blurred line of wants and needs,
If the Universe grants my wish,
so begins the journey of you and me.