It was women
like you
who inspired men
like me
into existence

She
was a novel
waiting to be written
a love story for the ages
my only wish
was to be a part of her narrative

Silver lined skies
hues of powder blue
looking through
the passenger window
on the road to nowhere
Sunday morning drives
with my father

Pain
was the charcoal cloud
that draped over me
weighing me down
like a wet packing blanket
until I could no longer take another step
dropping to my knees
only to stare at my hands
pressed against the concrete floor
as the cold hard rain
pounded relentlessly over and over
reminding me to stay down
with no sign of hope
punishing myself
A constant suffering
because I had no control of my mind
and I’ll never know why

I
was in utter loneliness
trapped in between
the walls of my mind  
forced to create a universe
that only I found divine
on the outside
I was just a face with a smile
all along on the inside
her and I were floating
down the Nile

I
was in complete darkness
an emptiness never felt before
then I awoke
without a single memory of the dark
an eerie feeling of death lingering
down to the marrow of my bones
a darkness I fear one day will return

The somber night
left a subtle breath of tranquility
after the sunrise brought a long day
of discomfort and turmoil
a hopelessness overturned
by the nights crisp air
reassuring our heavy heads
as they touched our pillows
before slumber

Candle
burning in the night
amber glow
illuminating the bare walls
that once were covered
with portraits of a love
that was never true

Those
who don’t get it
are those who don’t care

And they
danced and sang in jubilation
although all was not well
they were grateful for every morning
their eyes were greeted by the sun
and that alone was reason enough
for celebration

Don’t
expect me to remember you tomorrow
when you forgot about me today

She tickled
my curiosity
just enough
to keep me
fascinated
with the simplest
gestures of kindness

She said
I had a way with words
a tongue
that spoke to her soul
leaving a sense
of curiosity

I
remember a time
when an imaginary friend
was real
and portable phones were
make believe

All I wanted
before I die
was to leave something behind
a thought
a word
just a little piece of my mind
when it’s all said and done
I hope
you remember me
once I’m gone

We sat
in the back of your pick up truck
holding hands
watching the waves crashing in
the salty wind in our faces
as the sun set
painting our souls gold
words were no longer spoken
we just watched the world grow old

Her eyes eyes
saw me see
what was inside of me
nothing good
nothing bad
just simply that I was sad
what to do
what to say
living life every day
knowing what’s inside of me
on the outside full of glee
her eyes eyes
saw me see
a little part of her
inside of me

Those
who shunned us
when we were in need
will always search for us
that is indeed

I knew
love would **** me
a death I openly accepted
what better way to die
than being madly in love
and feeling alive

She
was a ghost
haunting my mind
as days went by
no evidence
she was there
except
a single strand
of hair

Her special power
was neglect
and I felt it immensely
a feeling I knew all to well
but could never get use to

I am
a hopeless romantic
always looking for a sign
a love like no other
simply divine

She was my beauty
I was her beast
every night together
was a feast
spread her legs
kissed her there
she even loved
how I pulled her hair
ravaged her body
she loved to stare
behind closed doors
we’re the perfect pair

I was tired
of talking to myself
so I decided to write
now I talk to myself
amongst an audience

Oh that smile
how it sent shivers
down my spine
silencing all noise around me
yet creating a chaos inside me
an uncontrollable urge
to kiss thee
and shed thy tears profusely

She
found a warm space
in my heart and mind
where she will be safe and loved
until the end of time

Her voice
cherubs
caressing my ears
singing hymns of praise
until I fell
into a deep slumber

Pain
has no understanding  
why it hurts
it only knows to accompany love
wherever it goes

I
stared endlessly
at her voluptuous lips
her voice
like a smooth jazz
on a rainy day
caressing  my ears
while the raindrops
pelted the window panes
eagerly wanting to taste
the sounds leaving her mouth

My heart
weeps
reminiscing of evenings
spent on the beach
staring into the amber light
that once was a devotion so strong
not even the tides could wash
the stain of our love
away

Dancing
in the rain as a child
memories I’ll never forget
a reminder of life’s
simple pleasures
free with no regrets

She
moved place to place
in search of a new face
every where she went
new relationships
only to be left behind
every time she lost her mind
new place
new face
until she found the one
who played the game
and finally won

Who
ever thought the devil
looked like a man
was obviously fooled by her

Our lips
pressed against each other
in fear of letting go
a meeting of adoration
that never got old

Death
was the gift
we all wanted
but were too scared to accept

Her tongue
spoke words of pain
of a love taken in vain
by a man who drove her insane
leaving her to blame
hoping he suffers the same
intolerable shame

I
want a love
like a  Lana Del Rey song

Lust is when  
you can’t live
without each other
Love is when you
let each other live

Days
Like today
Make it hard to
Say
That my heart breaks
Every time you go away
Until the next time
You come and stay
I’ll cry inside
Every day

I cried
a few hours a day
overwhelming pain and sadness
overpowered by a disturbance
reminding me of everything
I did wrong
and what I could of done right
left alone to tackle
all these emotions
that one day would be
lost memories
of lessons learned

Some memories
were like winter chills
while others were summer breezes
time wasted for many reasons
for all relationships go
through all the seasons

Winter
had a way of
reminding me
that you couldn’t  have light
without darkness
balancing my soul
telling me
to crawl back
into my dark hole

My heart
was broken
Many times
Yet it still beats
As the ocean has tides
It will always find love
Even if there’s none
It will continue to beat
As long as we have the sun  
For my heart will always be
my only One