I'm not going to the pizzeria today
Hell no, I'm not going to that pizzeria today
To go in and scrub the dishes
The bleach is burning my skin
And insect crawling on the food
While my time is just wasting
I refuse to wash another bin or tray
I'm not going to the pizzeria today

I'm not going on that sinking ship today
Forget that, I'n not getting on that sinking ship today
We have a sushi place across the street
Another pizzeria two doors down
They also own the bagel shop between us
And when bakery opens, I won't be around
I'm sorry, but I certainly can't stay
I'm abandoning this sinking ship today

I'm resigning from this bad business today
That it, I'm done with this bad business today
The boss ignored the IRS for months
They came, emptied the registers and shut us down
Sometimes there's no money in the bank
So every now and then all our checks bounce
I work for six ours for $8.25, I expect to get paid
That's it I've had it with this bad business today

I'm giving up on this lost cause today
Yes, I'm giving up on this lost cause today
It fell apart when they switched hands
Two parents bought it for their sons
And they plowed it into the ground
One's on coke and the others just dumb
When they're parents come in they have nothing to say
I'm giving up on this lost cause today

I'm not going into work today
I can not go into work today
Where the employees could care less but still try their best
And the boss act like two year old
Where we get bi weekly pay and everyday is slow
And the pizza in the case is cold
I'm giving in my two weeks notice and going on my way
There is nothing that can make me go to that godforsaken pizzeria today

today was a good day.
the first good day i've had in months.
i laughed and smiled and had fun.
it was a day full of loud music and loud voices of the people that i care so deeply about.
the people you introduced me to.
the atmosphere was warm and inviting and for once I felt loved for who i was.
today was a good day.
so, why am i sitting alone in the parking lot at 12:30 crying?
why does it feel like the world is falling apart around me?
today was a good day.
•
today i watched you smile.
today i heard your voice, animated and full.
today i saw the light shine in your eyes.
today my heart leapt when i heard your laugh.
•
today i took the term "fall in love" too seriously.
today my heart shattered after it fell.
it broke because she was the reason for your smile; the reason your eyes lit up.
she was the other half of your "forever and always."
i was tossed aside and ignored like the nothing i'd always believed i was.
thank you for proving my point today.
•
today was a good day.
it felt like a dream.
so, what's causing me so much heartache?
why am i drowning in my own tears; getting lost in my despair?
i'm crying because it was a good day.
a good day without you.
but, nevertheless, today was a good day.

today i don’t hate my face
today the sky is pink and perfect
today i am loved and in love
today i like my body
today i wore a bikini
and people were present
today the little voices telling me i was not worth it were duller
today the fear was less
today i took two steps forward
and only one step back
today i stayed alive
today is another day
but today i survived
which means today will
become yesterday, tomorrow will become today,
yesterday becomes a century ago.
today i survived
so as i look to the sky
now purple and glorious,
i will breathe

Today she told me she made it through every

try out round for

America’s Next Top Model and when

she went home to tell her girlfriend that she made it on the show,

she got her face beat in so bad, Miss Jay didn’t even

recognize her the next day.

She wasn’t on the show.

——

Today is roses,

wilted petals,

flowers from I-don’t-know-where

that have landed in our bathroom,

have sunk themselves in an empty bottle of ***,

two handles on the side,

the better to smell them with.

——

Today I am covered in a museum collection of

bug bites and lumps and

scratches and bruises

and leg rashes

and I don’t know where anything has come from,

not even

me.

——

Today he asked me how the poetry is coming.

I said it is slow.

——

Today I wanted to kiss a boy because it was his birthday,

and I don’t think he’s ever kissed a girl before,

and I think he should

if he wants to

on his birthday.

——

Maybe I will tomorrow.

——

Today has barely begun, is three hours in

was 6 minutes too late to buy

gas station beer

but we bought two cigarillos

and on the drive back,

talked to three kids who had just seen a UFO.

I missed it.

——

Today he threw a tomato at my face,

and it slid off and landed on the floor with a splat as I screamed.

There were customers.

——

Today I had to explain why I keep

leaving people.

I have to be alone, I said.

——

Today I dressed for myself.

Thank God.

——

Today I listened to country music and covered my ears

because they hurt but also it hurt

to not listen to it with my Dad in the truck, driving

anywhere

but today I picked a boy up and taught him how to swing me around

and he picked me up and spun me in his arms and

I think that’s how you do country.

——

Today my cis, male, white, Mormon, wait-till-marriage-to-have-*** English teacher

talked about **** shaming

and the patriarchy

and he gets it

and thank God.

——

She is auditioning to model, again.

There is no one to take her face away.

today I woke up crying
       today I went to the gym
    and I forgot why I ever stopped going
today I told my friend I loved them
    and that we all have doubts, it's human
       today I ate my feelings through another salad
   and I told myself that it's okay, this is okay
today I walked around the lake
    and thought about how long it'd take to drown
  today I will apologize to my old best friend
I told them I wasn't good to them back then
  today I told my therapist I'm spiraling, and he said it was okay
     He said we are all struggling. Just trying to figure it out because no one's got it figured out
   today I was excited to keep learning
today I was not
  And I told myself that it was okay
   today I couldn't get of bed because I felt nothing towards school
   But I did get up eventually
but today I saw myself as someone capable of doing so much better
   and today I woke up with purpose
      and forgot why I ever stopped believing.

Today is being good today
and I knew the reason why
had this feeling in my bones they say
can you tell me why oh why
today is being good today
today is being good

saw a rabbit reach the other side
was that the reason say  
passed the slither of the moon at dawn
as I saw it make a smile
today is being good today
today is being good  

passed a cat as black as black
as it crossed my very path
felt the sun warm me in my heart
wow I feel the love
today is being good today
today is being good

so am sharing all my vibes with you  
enjoy this very day
cos today is being good today
for me ..but .....especially for you

Today was a bad day
With one conversation, everything I am shattered
Today is a bad day
I can't even pull myself out of bed
Today is a bad day
I'm drowning and I can't get out of my head
Today is a bad day
Happiness eludes me at every turn
Today is a bad day
I painted a picture of my future… and it was nothing but black
Today is a day
For the first time I don't feel quite so gray
Today is a day
I felt warmth in the smile of a friend
Today is a day
I walked out into the world, and I noticed color
Today is a good day
I leapt out of bed
Today is a good day
For once, I didn't want out of my head
Today is a good day
I asked myself for love… And I loved back.
Today is a good day
I found the peace in forgiveness
Today is a good day
I learned happiness is like dust
Today was the best day
You see, I painted a picture of my future… But this time, I was smiling.

My mom once told me to never discuss politics or religion with someone you love.
I believed her but it never really sunk in.
Today it did.

Today I watched my friend praise a classmate when they gave the right candidate.
Today I was jokingly told that my classmate couldn’t speak to me when I said I had no opinion but favored the other side.
Today my neutrality was wrong.
Today my answer wasn’t good enough.
Today I learned that someone I previously thought was joking, wasn’t.
Today I felt worried and trapped and overwhelmed.
Today I questioned my future and the future of my country.
Today I realized my classmates were against me.
Today I realized it’s not politics anymore, its life and death.

Today it became real.
Today we voted.

Oh boy, I'm happy today.
How can I not be,
when today I have awaken?
Or, that I'm able to see the sun one more time?
Today I'm happy because I can make someone else happy.
Today I'm happy because I get to be with family.
I'm happy because no matter how many I have,
I am grateful for the life I have.
Today I'm happy because I have food to eat,
and a bed to sleep in.
I'm happy because no matter what I know I have people who love me
as much as I love them.
Today is another day to be happy because you don't know
if you may fall in love.
Today you might have the probability of meeting the person
which whom you're going to spend the rest of your life with.
Today is another day to be happy just because you were able to make it
till one more day.
Today I'm happy because you are alive.
Today I'm happy because no matter what, God loves you.
Today I'm happy just because I love you, and no matter where you are
Today is a day to be happy with."

I sit here and wonder if I'm gonna hear from you today
It's been about a year now. I don't think you're about to change, today.
And if it's okay, I'm gonna go on about my day.
'Cause you were never here anyway.
Yeah, I hope that's okay. Better be okay.

It was my birthday, today.
No messages from you I'm only a phone call away.
You're too involved with your new life just like back in the day.
You're still the same, today.

You tried to ruin our lives but here's what you didn't know
Yeah we're still doin' okay today.
Sometimes I sit here and wonder about you
But not today, no not today.

I'm sick of all these tears, dad. Why did you have to be that way, those days?
But look at who I am now look at what I've learned from all those days.
I've graduated high school and you weren't here today.
Because you don't care about anyone except you, these days.

You tried to ruin our lives but here's what you didn't know
Yeah we're still doin' okay today.
Sometimes I sit here and wonder about you
But not today, no not today.

I'm grown up now, dad, where were you that day?
I fell in love and you didn't even get to come that day.
I was walkin' down the aisle with the man who replaced you.
Cause you weren't there all those days.

Lookin' back now dad, if you were there all those days
I wouldn't be the woman I have become today
You taught me a lesson, dad, that I never thought was possible.
You live for who are and you make of what comes your way

Thanks for not bein' there those days.

Today I'm not angry on you for letting go,
Would've been nice to keep you though.
But I'm not upset anymore,
I'm calm , I'm cool and level-headed,
And I'm ready to move on.

These old ratty ways,
           Aren't cutting it anymore.
Your unresponsive and aloofness,
           Ain't working anymore.

Today I'm not waiting for your call,
Cause I realised;
I don't need you for my happiness at all.
I wanted you, Like people does.
But I can live without being felt useless.

Today is a better day!
Today I'll face anything,come it may!
Today I'm smiling for myself,
Feeling more respect for myself.
Today I'm controlling my own heart.
Today I'm not falling apart.
Today you are not constantly on my mind.
Today I can see the world outside.
Today I'm feeling the much needed relief.
Today I have only myself to believe.
Today is what it's supposed to make.
Today I'm stopping this chase.

Today...
2018
Today...
Day Number 70
Today...
I hurt today
Today...
I work today
Today...
Is a different day
Today...
Will end different than yesterday
Today...
I won't cry
Today...
I won't yell
Today...
I will smile
Today...
I will be happy

Today.

Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.
Today our thoughts and prayers are not enough.

Today, I am invincible
No one and nothing can harm me
I am looked upon in awe and desire
Why? Why is today my invincibility?
Because today, I am naked, in the sense
that every scrap on my body
reveals just a little more than the last

Today, I am sensual
Everyone sees me
Everyone wants me
Why? Why is today my sensuality?
Because today, I am naked, in the sense
that every inch of my body
sways in a way that turns you on

Today, I am touchable
Everyone reaches for me
grabbing for anyplace left uncovered
Why? Why is today the day I am touchable?
Because today, I am naked, in the sense
that every part of my body
leaves imagination a thing of the past

Today, I am invisible
Nobody sees me
Nobody reaches for my skin
Nobody longs to touch my body
Nobody grabs and gropes or yells demeaning things
Why? Why is today my invisibility?
Because today, I am naked, in the sense
that I am not naked at all
I am raw in who I am
I've given away the other me, who is groped and touched and told how absolutely sensual she is
Today, I am me.

I was born yesterday
Not today
I might die tomorrow
Not yesterday

I was born yesterday

The past is past
The past is a mistake
The past is a dreadful place
The past is a place I want to forget
The past is yesterday
I was born Yesterday

Not Today

Today is the present
Today is the new opportunity
Today is a better life
Today is a miracle
I was born yesterday
Not today

I might die tomorrow

A tomorrow is a mystery
A tomorrow is a new chance
A tomorrow is what could be?
A tomorrow is a new day
A tomorrow could be a death
I was born yesterday
Not today
I might die tomorrow

Not yesterday

You know my error
Not my reason
You know my path
Not my obstacles
You know I am weak
Learn that I can be strong
You see my forehead
with mistakes
Not my palm
with hard work...

I was born yesterday
Not today
I might die tomorrow
Not yesterday

I smiled today....
I smiled today because I remembered your smile. How infectious it was like a plague but was able to cure a sickness, a smile that came with a glow in your eyez.
A smile that was contagious and was guaranteed to make me or others smile. A smile that was a sight for sore eyez.

I laughed today....
I laughed today because I remembered how your laugh sounded, how it was music to my ears in a uncontrollable hysterical sense.
To the point where our faces turned red while holding our sides so our ribs don't split.
How your laughter echoed in a room as the sound was intertwined with mine.
And how such laughter was filled with happiness and joy for that timeless moment in time.

I frowned today....
I frowned today because now all I have is the memory of your smile.
I time travel in my thoughts searching for that sight and realize how life is so fragile.
I don't see it physically, I can only see it with my eyez closed.
Hoping that I never forget how it looks as my memory fades when I grow old.

I cried today....
I cried today because your laughter can no longer beat my ear drum.
I can no longer hear the vibrations of your voice, I now have to imagine the sound of your laughter because you’re gone and no longer to hear from.
I cried today and those tears were lead from a frown.
Remembering how your laughter was hysterical made me cry hysterically cuz I can no longer hear that sound.

But..... Today, I smiled.
I smiled today because of you and it's been a while....

Today I am tornado
Tomorrow I am storm
Today I am destruction
Tomorrow Phoenix born
Today I am the fire
So from ashes rise
Today I am the truth
Tomorrow never lies

Today you are my never
Tomorrow you're today
Today I give you nothing for
Tomorrow to take away
Today you are the beauty
Tomorrow well who knows
But still you tend the garden
Where all tomorrows grow

Today I fight my demons
In my way which might be slow
So tomorrow can be freed of
All today's incipient woes 
I hack Today's full veins
And fill tomorrow's cup
So I may plant tomorrow's morning
And watch the day grow up

Tomorrow there is darkness
That started here today
And all because tomorrow's 
Are just too far away
And so I sit and think of
How to best disrupt the norm
And so
Today I am tornado
So tomorrows just a storm

Today I woke up,
and put my pants on backwards.
Today I sat down,
and drank coffee out of a pipe.
Today I got up,
and ripped my socks wide open.
Today I ate food,
and it sat with me like an elephant.
Today I laughed,
and my makeup smeared.
Today I cried,
and I **** near bust a gut.
Today I got bored,
and then I stopped being bored.
Today I went to sleep,
and I stopped calling it "today."
Today I dreamed,
and I couldn't move well.

Today went just as I expected.

Today…I am focusing on Today!  For it is my experiences, reactions, and Loving that will determine tomorrow,  Its my Loving today, My forgiveness today, My joys today, My seeing the facts of my Life today and working with them all today.  My, not judging today.
“The past is a point of reference and the future hasn’t happen.  It is today…NOW that I must Live, Love, be Happy, etc… and tomorrow will fall where it may.”
Today I asked myself; “if this was your last day here, what do you want it to be like?” (That’s how I talk.)  So, I looked at what I have to do today…I want it to be joyous, Loving, sharing with others, helping others, laughing, celebrating, receiving and giving, blessings, telling others of the wonders in our life, eating, singing, dancing, surrendering, letting go of stuff, opening up to all the good, grateful, thankful and Blessed!
I stopped there and leave myself open to what the afternoon and night will bring.

FOCUS ON YOU TODAY!
Where we start today will determine where we end tomorrow…open up and let it be in a different place and moment…

How to conquer the world when you are manic and preserve it when you are depressed.

I had a close friend send me a text a few weeks ago
Reminding me how to breathe and that I had to get out of bed,
I thought if she could have read my mood from the west coast
As I rotted in cotton comforters in the east, I must have been pretty obvious
Maybe it’s because we have been friends for ten years or because
I plaster every up and down online to vague audiences, I cast out my emotions
Like frayed fishing line, trying to catch even a glimpse of someone who relates.
But when this friend texted me she said something that might help balance out
The high-highs with the unbearable lows is writing how I feel when I am both.
I did my best to put the feeling of flying at 100mph upside down with wings made of silken sheets into words but the minute I did they turned into wings of concrete and I lost my focus again. And so I went to answer my friend and I said ‘here is how to conquer the world when you are manic”

I am caffeine therapy,
I am engulfed in energy
I am yellow, I am green
I am everything all at once,
I feel everything all at once.
I’m gonna save the world,
All of it.
Today.
try and stop me.
I woke up at 4am to watch
the sun swallow the indigo horizon
One last time before I go out and save the world,
Waking up early always gives me so much more time
To save the world, and I want to save the world.
I am yellow, I am green. I am everything at once.
I wash down amphetamines with coffee and I am
Narrow energy. I am traveling a perfectly paved road
Home to a messy room but that is okay because I’m
Going to save the world today.
I am a math equation stuck inside the text book
From the semester I dropped out;
I am heat energy dancing inside shattered beakers,
I am potential energy ready to become kinetic,
I am energetic and today, I have the heart to save the world.
I started by reenrolling in school because you need a degree
To save bees. That line might have been a joke but I did sign back
Up to finish my degree and this time I won’t ever feel low again,
How could I when there is so much to be happy about?
I am laughing so loud my neighbors are asking questions
And my friends think I am doing better and I tell them I am.
I feel it in my skin that I am better and recovery feels like
Holding hands at sixteen and iced tea in the summer,
And this is easy!
I am yellow, I am green. I feel everything all at once.
I am floating between causes and altruism is an ideal
Slithering its way through my veins, and today I am going to save the world.
After signing back up for classes I spread out my day like magazine clippings
I might never put onto a dream board because I will most likely forget about them
And my dreams make better notes in my iphone where I can see them
As I obsessively check my contacts to see who I can talk to today.
I am yellow, I am green. It is noon and I am flying.
Here is how else I will save the world.
I will clean my room and I will go to the gym
And work off three weeks of sweets with three hours on the treadmill,
I forgot how good it feels to run and I know that this is the last time I will ever give up.
I run on a track that loops back in on itself because I know that if I were to run outside,
I would get lost because I am everything all at once and there is just so much to look at.
I am yellow, I am green. And today I am going to be a wildlife photographer,
And an artist, and when people ask me what I want to be I tell them
I am going to work for the United Nations and that I am going to save the world,
And they believe me and it’s almost funny for a minute until I realize
I have yet to start saving the world. I woke up at 4 to save the world and I was sure today was the day, I felt it in my heart like poprocks the very first time or your first real kiss, I felt it and it was real and I lost track of that feeling and now I am scared that I might never save the world,
What is happening?
I am yellow, I am green. I am potential energy locked inside a pendulum
Hanging from a chemical tree that only grows each time it loses a leaf,
I am staggered progress dressed up like empathy,
I am yellow, I am green.
I am fleeting energy
The kind you watch spark a few times
On telephone lines turning pink behind July sunsets
And its gone before your friends can see it too.
I am yellow, I am green
I forgot to shower every day this week but
I am too tired to get out of bed,
What is happening?
I was supposed to save the world today
I’m so sorry.
I am drinking as much caffeine as I can without
Making my heart feel like it will push its way
Through my bones and out of my chest
Though being able to feel in my chest again
Might not be so bad. I am stuffing smoke  inside my chest to fill it up
I am doing my best to keep feeling inside the skin I wear when I can feel it
Going numb
I wish
You could inject caffeine right into your veins,,
I reread texts from last night where transitioning
Felt like fist fighting recovery, her having one up on me,
I am crimson, I am silver, I am fleeting energy.
I’m so sorry. I thought I said that before
And I might have but I forgot, today I feel cloudy
And I stumbled through steel wool tall grass to make it
Out of bed today and the weight of every single mistake
I have ever made feels like it is going to break my spine
Right in half, I don’t know if I will make it through today.
I wish someone would save me today.
I am crimson, I am grey. I need someone to save my world today .

Maybe

Maybe* she won't cry today,
And maybe he won't lie today,
And maybe life goes on today,
But maybe I'll be wrong today.

Maybe I'll be strong today,
And maybe tears won't fall today,
But maybe he'll break down today,
Because maybe she won't die today.

Maybe things get better today,
And maybe I'll write the letter today,
Maybe I'll sign my name in ink,
But maybe that's a permanent link.

Maybe that's too much for me,
Maybe "attached" is something I don't wanna be,
And maybe it'd be painful to watch,
Over the years; Death's painful march.

And maybe she'll go down today,
And maybe things won't be okay,
And maybe he'll give up and say,
That maybe he'll just run away.

But maybe I'll just cry today,
Maybe that's a better way.
Maybe that's my job today,
Maybe I'll just try to be okay.

Because maybe it's important to grieve,
And maybe it's okay to leave,
A little room to be left for me,
A little time to simply breath.

Maybe I should put myself first,
And maybe it wouldn't be the worst,
To maybe just take care of me,
Instead of being the one in lead.

*Maybe.

Today SOMEONE took their own life
Today SOMEONE gave life to SOMEONE
Today SOMEONE has been killed
Today SOMEONE was *****
Today SOMEONE got kidnapped
Today SOMEONE was lost and SOMEONE was found
Today a soul of SOMEONE was saved
Today a soul of SOMEONE was sold
Today SOMEONE has changed
Today SOMEONE remained the same
Today SOMEONE got hurt
Today SOMEONE fell in love
Today, Today, Today
SOMEONE
The list goes on
the good, the bad and the ugly
There's a SOMEONE for everything
Just read the statistics
SOMEONE ....
Well cheers to SOMEONE today, for better tomorrows
and becoming SOMEONE good!

Tick Tock

It's time to wake up.
It's time to burn
It's time to use the kaleidoscope of life.
It is time to flow and create weapons to spread love.
It's time to close the bibles and not talk about idols.
It's time to stop begging for mercy.
It's time to let the girls dream.
It's time to stop regretting lost things.
It's time to use time.
It's time to let the sun burn my skin.

Tick Tock

It's time to wake up
Today we will not go home.
Today we are going to be happy girls in white dresses.
We do not want to look pretty today.
Today we are going to be naked for our skin to breathe.
Today we go to the land where everything is good, where we can scream.
Today we go to a place where people do not talk about the things we do for fun.
Today I want to stop hearing people complain.
Today I want to count the coins that we do not know for what.
Today I do not want to hear people flaunt.
Today we're shaving our heads.
Today we're going to let people blow.
Today we will dream while the moon controls our dreams.
Today we just want to appreciate how the sea is blue.

Today,
I woke up,
And for the first time since March,
I have contemplated the pros and cons
Of ending my life.

Today,
I woke up,
And realized that there are parts of this world,
People in this world,
That would have been and would still be
Better off without me.

Today,
I woke up,
And no snoring puppy,
No purring cat,
No cawing crow
Could penetrate the deafening silence
That has taken my soul hostage.

Today,
I woke up,
And I realized that there are things you've never seen
That I wish I had never seen.

Today,
I woke up,
And thought of all the ways
I am not enough.

Today,
I woke up,
And gave names to all my failures and faults.

Today,
I woke up,
And saw how far I still have to go.

But

Today,
I woke up,
And for the first time in my life I realized
That I am worth something.
That I don't deserve to feel this way.
That there is no sin I have commited that is so great
To earn the ire of a world that never loved me.

Today,
I woke up,
And realized that there are people whose hands I will never hold again,
But the shade of their eyes
And the spark in their smile,
Will forever be held in my heart,
Wherever they may be,
Whoever's hands they may be holding
Or whoever sparks their smile next.

Today,
I woke up,
And I forced myself to move
And I forced myself to shower
And I forced myself to take my pills and drink some water
And start my day.
I forced myself to listen to music that doesn't make me want to rip my heart out.

Today,
I woke up,
And I knew in my bones that
I am more than my past,
And I am more than my pain,
And I am more than anyone ever expected me to become.

Today,
I woke up,
And looked deep into my brown eyes,
And counted every streak of yellow, every flare of red, every speck of black.
I took in a deep breath and reminded myself
That I am a work in progress,
But I am coming along so beautifully.

Today,
I woke up,
And remembered that the most important thing
About being strong,
Is surviving.
I remembered that I have crossed through hell and high water
And back again
And my skin is still mine,
And my bones are still mine,
No matter who has tried to take me from myself,
That I am still my own, if nothing else.

I remembered that the strongest and most important thing I can do
Is walk right by death,
And look my demons straight in the eye and say:

*"Today, I woke up."

WHEN I LOOK BACK AT YESTERDAY
I KNOW
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY

IT DOESN'T MATTER
WHAT YOU SAID THE OTHER DAY
I KNOW
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY

SOMETIMES WE DON'T KNOW
HOW TO LIVE
FORGIVE FOR TODAY
FORGIVE FOR TODAY

I GIVE MYSELF TO FORGIVE
I DON'T WANT ANGER OR SADNESS
SOMETIMES WE DON'T  KNOW HOW TO LIVE

I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU
SAID THE OTHER DAY
TO LOVE SOMEONE IS TO FORGIVE
FOR TODAY

WHEN I LOOK BACK AT YESTERDAY
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU SAID
THE OTHER DAY
I NEED TO FORGIVE FOR TODAY
SOMETIMES WE DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE

''FORGIVE FOR TODAY''

A part of me died today
A part of me died today
You ripped my heart out from my chest
Stuck a needle in  the left side
Like you knew what you was doing
But, you didn't
You killed the bottom of my heart
Part of me died today
Part of me died today
You took a drink of that *****.
Took a drink and spit out those words
Those words hurt me so
That another part of my heart died today
I tried so  hard to not let it happen
But it died before I could stop it
Stop the hurt from drying up more of my heart
Part of me died today
Part of me died today.
I one day will bring them back to life.
To beat like it once did
But, it's not beating today
My heart that is
Hopefully tomorrow or  week from now
A part of me died today
Right in front of your eyes
A part of me died
As you looked at me with that look
I knew you didn't care
That part of me died today
Part of me died today

Today
I am a happy man
Because I have friends that respect me and loves me
Today
I have God in my life that keeps me alive all the time
Today
God keeps me company at night so I don't have to alone anymore
Because I hate to be left alone
Today
I have a mental illness and I think I cope very well with it
Today
I am having the winter blues that doesn't want to go away
Today
I am mature now than 20 years ago
Today
When I cry I cry much less than I did many years ago
Today
I learned to love and trust myself
Today
I am a better man that I was years ago
Because today I am a Christian
And I do pray more often
Today
I still have my anger issues to take care
Today
I get mad at myself more often
Today
I feel that I have less patience with people

Grant me peace today,
that I may convey calm compassion and understanding.

Grant me joy today,
that I may be one less troubled soul amidst a sea of fear and pain.

Grant me a generous heart today,
that I may be the source of sustenance and supply.

Grant me courage today,
that I can lend strength to those who may be failing.

Grant me serenity today,
that I might hold and anxious hand and speak words of comfort.

Grant me strength today,
that I might shoulder someone’s burden who is faint and failing.

Grant me clarity today,
that I might give wise and acceptable counsel.

Grant me patience today,
that I may endure the less-enlightened and those who harm.

Grant me endurance today,
to keep the bigger goal in mind and avoid the distractions of pettiness.

Grant me love today,
that I can see others without judgment, and with compassion – whoever they are.


© 2012 Michael Hunter