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"innocence" poems
#*It is out of the heart’s cavernous longing and furious search for love, significance, acceptance, approval, identity, security, freedom, belonging, innocence, intimacy and transcendence— out of its primordial memory of what was lost to us in the Garden— that we begin to ***** idols for ourselves. Unconsciously we hope they might restore to us a taste of paradise, taking away our fear and shame and isolation. We yearn to go back but, alas, we cannot get in from there. We ache to connect to beauty, to be desired by it as much as we desire it, and Jesus is the only door by which we may enter. He is the Beauty, and all the rest are simply there like pealing bells to arouse our hearts to Him and tell us that He is coming for us. Still, as if we haven’t quite yet heard and believed the message, we keep aimlessly trying to forge a false righteousness through our false gods. When they are lost or the dreams of them unrealized we are devastated, for the shadows, echoes and reflections we had supposed would finally make us feel good about ourselves have been exposed as frauds, and once again we are left to feel naked but without fig leaves to cover us. It is at these precise moments, when the bottom of our false hope falls out, that we are best prepared to encounter Christ in His intimate fullness and most apt to recognize at last that He alone is everything we have been so desperately wanting. It is our boiling point, where the unbearable weight of failed expectation so crashes in on us that we are finally begging God to lift our idols off of us and deliver us from them, pleading with Him to come and capture us, crying out to Him to possess us fully.*#
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Jul 3, 2016
Jul 3, 2016 at 12:58 PM UTC
The Long Way Home
#*It is out of the heart’s cavernous longing and furious search for love, significance, acceptance, approval, identity, security, freedom, belonging, innocence, intimacy and transcendence— out of its primordial memory of what was lost to us in the Garden— that we begin to ***** idols for ourselves. Unconsciously we hope they might restore to us a taste of paradise, taking away our fear and shame and isolation. We yearn to go back but, alas, we cannot get in from there. We ache to connect to beauty, to be desired by it as much as we desire it, and Jesus is the only door by which we may enter. He is the Beauty, and all the rest are simply there like pealing bells to arouse our hearts to Him and tell us that He is coming for us. Still, as if we haven’t quite yet heard and believed the message, we keep aimlessly trying to forge a false righteousness through our false gods. When they are lost or the dreams of them unrealized we are devastated, for the shadows, echoes and reflections we had supposed would finally make us feel good about ourselves have been exposed as frauds, and once again we are left to feel naked but without fig leaves to cover us. It is at these precise moments, when the bottom of our false hope falls out, that we are best prepared to encounter Christ in His intimate fullness and most apt to recognize at last that He alone is everything we have been so desperately wanting. It is our boiling point, where the unbearable weight of failed expectation so crashes in on us that we are finally begging God to lift our idols off of us and deliver us from them, pleading with Him to come and capture us, crying out to Him to possess us fully.*#
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I’m a child and not a bride, but Last month you made me marry you. You know it wasn’t love that made me say yes But the fear of what shape my death could take If I were to turn you down. Of course I had no voice. I could only muse to myself In the dark closet and imagine myself A mother at thirteen: would it be awesome? Would it be dreadful? Would it…? I died of anxiety. Last month you made me marry you. I had no time to discover me for myself: Who I was, what I was, what I wanted to be; I had no time to think before I had to say yes. But it pains my bones to the marrow. I am an unripe fruit for the eating. I am a piece for the show-glass. Last month you made me marry you. I spent nights upon nights weeping over how you’ve Broken me; how you’ve set my life ablaze Like a forest in a wildfire; And now the once-upon-a-time sweet sounding music Of my soul is burnt into silence. I have forgotten the dialect of my soul. I hush. I hush. I hush. I hush. I hush. You have beaten silence into me, And now I have to prepare to moan and wail Beneath your weight, while I watch you helplessly As you bite into my innocence, As you suckle the un-ripeness out of me, As you dig into my childhood and pleasure yourself In the childhood screams you hear from me. But it isn’t the fun that makes me scream. It is the bitter pain of knowing, of remembering That my life ended at thirteen: Broken like a fallen calabash In the hands of a fifty-five year old man.
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Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:05 AM UTC
LAST MONTH YOU MADE ME MARRY YOU
I hope you never reach The day Where you are lost for words Because they're tangled up in Agony. I hope you never reach The point Where your innocence of The world is Robbed. I hope you choose Your friends and Lovers wisely So that you never have to Discover what it feels like To see those who you believed Would take a bullet for you Dance behind the Trigger.
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Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 2:02 PM UTC
Stay, Innocence
. *Honeybees, birds and blooms unfurl an enchanting spell when spring comes by here Memories waft 'neath burled rustic trellis where flowered tendrils grasp fleshly like the newness a love once tenderly embraced Songbirds in your garden sing of swooning memories rapture.., of velvet eyes,   the fragrant spicy nectar hidden within her walls                             A song of honeyed bees'  sweetest stinger, and the poignant ***** of intoxicating surrender lingers, bemused spellbound by a thorny heirloom rose Sharp beauty beloved like a blameless trap caught blissfully, breathlessly inbetween all you wish for and all your wanton needs Desire 's wellspring an unspoken passion coquet swollen buds adorn blossoming, sensual, untamed carnal grace A picture perfect natural beauty; sunlit chassé … feathered brush, demure blush dancing with basket of lace petal’d perfume For to colour a heart's blank pages rapt in the poesy a joyous ecstasy .., enrapture with rainbow's luscious taste What seems lost is but a tender vestige unfound a passing moments innocence lost to steal away like rumors of gold These silent reveries seep from a hole in my heart,   as if ripe strawberries of yore, gently weeping sweetness when pricked by a thorny rose   The ides of spring do still bleed a timeless ache onto the page ... sweet naivety stung by a mesmerizing dart to the heart Songbirds in your garden do sing of sweetest things immersed in nature's nectar blissful memories sleeping in the petals of a rose* Sung to the wind by a song sparrow — ♪ ♫...✩ ☼✩ ✩☺✩
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Aug 14, 2016
Aug 14, 2016 at 12:08 PM UTC
Songbirds in your garden sing
. *Honeybees, birds and blooms unfurl an enchanting spell when spring comes by here Memories waft 'neath burled rustic trellis where flowered tendrils grasp fleshly like the newness a love once tenderly embraced Songbirds in your garden sing of swooning memories rapture.., of velvet eyes,   the fragrant spicy nectar hidden within her walls                             A song of honeyed bees'  sweetest stinger, and the poignant ***** of intoxicating surrender lingers, bemused spellbound by a thorny heirloom rose Sharp beauty beloved like a blameless trap caught blissfully, breathlessly inbetween all you wish for and all your wanton needs Desire 's wellspring an unspoken passion coquet swollen buds adorn blossoming, sensual, untamed carnal grace A picture perfect natural beauty; sunlit chassé … feathered brush, demure blush dancing with basket of lace petal’d perfume For to colour a heart's blank pages rapt in the poesy a joyous ecstasy .., enrapture with rainbow's luscious taste What seems lost is but a tender vestige unfound a passing moments innocence lost to steal away like rumors of gold These silent reveries seep from a hole in my heart,   as if ripe strawberries of yore, gently weeping sweetness when pricked by a thorny rose   The ides of spring do still bleed a timeless ache onto the page ... sweet naivety stung by a mesmerizing dart to the heart Songbirds in your garden do sing of sweetest things immersed in nature's nectar blissful memories sleeping in the petals of a rose* Sung to the wind by a song sparrow — ♪ ♫...✩ ☼✩ ✩☺✩
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In the digital l-and We l-ive in Mistakenly automatic One pointing at a chest of tools Eyes on i No soul can tell a part a weakling metal Robots robbing robbers rich T-error terrifying t-errorists Artist gods and goddesses Sharing platform to unleashed gifts Mint hue bubbles squeak Fizzy dizzy violet haze World head to toes spins Any day it spins coins in change A quiet girl is sinister Siren of mystery or future Robot is your mirror Peach chin with teeth filter No innocence and glitter litter Guilty until proven the latter A quiet girl a terrorist Error mouths terror twist Terrorist from the orient They hide in between every end Disguises they cover in Racist as problem solving Smile girl watch A fake smile and eyes Skin of steel so is her Heart made alloy How it blazes to the touch when heated Oh it bites fingertips as it's cold Hair resting on the curve of her spine A woman's hair only breaks if it tries to grow What she said Tell me if you can tell us a part Warning tears borne from her crooked eyes Robot and soul Terrorists from t-errorists No soul knows either Tattoos or memory shall identify you
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May 18, 2018
May 18, 2018 at 4:21 AM UTC
Terror in a puzzle piece
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem and he called it "chops" because that was the name of his dog and thats what it was all about his teacher gave him an A and a gold star and his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts. that was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo and he let them sing on the bus and his little sister was born with tiny nails and no hair and his mother and father kissed a lot and the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant and his father always tucked him in bed at night and was always there to do it once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season and that's what it was all about and his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of the new paint and the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars and left butts on the pews and sometime they would burn holes that was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames and the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see santaclaus and the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot and his father never tucked him in bed at night and his father got mad when he cried for him to do it once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem and he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl and thats what it was all about and his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her that was the year Father Tracy died and he forgot how the end of the Apostles's Creed went and he caught his sister making out on the back porch and his mother and father never kissed or even talked and the girl around the corner wore too much make up that made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because it was the thing to do and at 3 am he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly that's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem and he called it "Absolutely Nothing" because that's what it was really all about and he gave himself an A and a slash on each ****** wrist and he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen----
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Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 9:35 PM UTC
The Poem (The Perks of Being a Wallflower)
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem and he called it "chops" because that was the name of his dog and thats what it was all about his teacher gave him an A and a gold star and his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts. that was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo and he let them sing on the bus and his little sister was born with tiny nails and no hair and his mother and father kissed a lot and the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant and his father always tucked him in bed at night and was always there to do it once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season and that's what it was all about and his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of the new paint and the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars and left butts on the pews and sometime they would burn holes that was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames and the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see santaclaus and the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot and his father never tucked him in bed at night and his father got mad when he cried for him to do it once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem and he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl and thats what it was all about and his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her that was the year Father Tracy died and he forgot how the end of the Apostles's Creed went and he caught his sister making out on the back porch and his mother and father never kissed or even talked and the girl around the corner wore too much make up that made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because it was the thing to do and at 3 am he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly that's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem and he called it "Absolutely Nothing" because that's what it was really all about and he gave himself an A and a slash on each ****** wrist and he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen----
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My name is Erin and i was ***** at the age of 7 it has taken me 14 years of my life for those 13 words to escape my hollow mouth the only questions i come to now is why why lock me in that room why take everything from me my innocence my purity my childhood in that room where my family trusted you where i trusted you the night terrors i have to this day still haunt my mind like a never ending drive in movie that plays over and over only the moon in the night sky isnt made to be found here there is no light in these terrors i cant sleep this time of year because every time i do its you in that room locking the door shutting the windows ********** me yelling at me every single night i close my eyes it has taken me 14 years to accept the fact that i was taken by you i have been numb ever since left in the dust rotting away at the core thinking i was nothing thinking i deserved nothing because you took everything but not anymore i will recover from this i am strong enough i believe in myself i believe in my own happiness and i promsie that when i have children one day i will never ever let them rot at the core i will find happiness the darkness will not take over this time
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Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 3:17 AM UTC
The Anniversary of What Started Everything
With an essence of a  sultry indulgence that will entice as often as it excites;        my words seek passage --                        penetrating your psyche,                        as they crawl across your thoughts.                        serenading your mind with                        lustful passages;                        littering your innocence                        with filth --                        saturated in honesty                        dripping with vivid insight;                        conceived through insanity.                        raging with passion.
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Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 10:38 PM UTC
Seduction
#*It is out of the heart’s cavernous longing and furious search for love, significance, acceptance, approval, identity, security, freedom, belonging, innocence, intimacy and transcendence— out of its primordial memory of what was lost to us in the Garden— that we begin to ***** idols for ourselves. Unconsciously we hope they might restore to us a taste of paradise, taking away our fear and shame and isolation. We yearn to go back but, alas, we cannot get in from there. We ache to connect to beauty, to be desired by it as much as we desire it, and Jesus is the only door by which we may enter. He is the Beauty, and all the rest are simply there like pealing bells to arouse our hearts to Him and tell us that He is coming for us. Still, as if we haven’t quite yet heard and believed the message, we keep aimlessly trying to forge a false righteousness through our false gods. When they are lost or the dreams of them unrealized we are devastated, for the shadows, echoes and reflections we had supposed would finally make us feel good about ourselves have been exposed as frauds, and once again we are left to feel naked but without fig leaves to cover us. It is at these precise moments, when the bottom of our false hope falls out, that we are best prepared to encounter Christ in His intimate fullness and most apt to recognize at last that He alone is everything we have been so desperately wanting. It is our boiling point, where the unbearable weight of failed expectation so crashes in on us that we are finally begging God to lift our idols off of us and deliver us from them, pleading with Him to come and capture us, crying out to Him to possess us fully.*#
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Nov 12, 2015
Nov 12, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
The Long Way Home
#*It is out of the heart’s cavernous longing and furious search for love, significance, acceptance, approval, identity, security, freedom, belonging, innocence, intimacy and transcendence— out of its primordial memory of what was lost to us in the Garden— that we begin to ***** idols for ourselves. Unconsciously we hope they might restore to us a taste of paradise, taking away our fear and shame and isolation. We yearn to go back but, alas, we cannot get in from there. We ache to connect to beauty, to be desired by it as much as we desire it, and Jesus is the only door by which we may enter. He is the Beauty, and all the rest are simply there like pealing bells to arouse our hearts to Him and tell us that He is coming for us. Still, as if we haven’t quite yet heard and believed the message, we keep aimlessly trying to forge a false righteousness through our false gods. When they are lost or the dreams of them unrealized we are devastated, for the shadows, echoes and reflections we had supposed would finally make us feel good about ourselves have been exposed as frauds, and once again we are left to feel naked but without fig leaves to cover us. It is at these precise moments, when the bottom of our false hope falls out, that we are best prepared to encounter Christ in His intimate fullness and most apt to recognize at last that He alone is everything we have been so desperately wanting. It is our boiling point, where the unbearable weight of failed expectation so crashes in on us that we are finally begging God to lift our idols off of us and deliver us from them, pleading with Him to come and capture us, crying out to Him to possess us fully.*#
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BLESSED be this place, More blessed still this tower; A ****** arrogant power Rose out of the race Uttering, mastering it, Rose like these walls from these Storm-beaten cottages -- In mockery I have set A powerful emblem up, And sing it rhyme upon rhyme In mockery of a time HaIf dead at the top. Alexandria's was a beacon tower, and Babylon's An image of the moving heavens, a log-book of the sun's journey and the moon's; And Shelley had his towers, thought's crowned powers he called them once. I declare this tower is my symbol; I declare This winding, gyring, spiring treadmill of a stair is my ancestral stair; That Goldsmith and the Dean, Berkeley and Burke have travelled there. Swift beating on his breast in sibylline frenzy blind Because the heart in his blood-sodden breast had dragged him down into mankind, Goldsmith deliberately sipping at the honey-pot of his mind, And haughtier-headed Burke that proved the State a tree, That this unconquerable labyrinth of the birds, cen- tury after century, Cast but dead leaves to mathematical equality; And God-appointed Berkeley that proved all things a dream, That this pragmatical, preposterous pig of a world, its farrow that so solid seem, Must vanish on the instant if the mind but change its theme; Saeva Indignatio and the labourer's hire, The strength that gives our blood and state magnani- mity of its own desire; Everything that is not God consumed with intellectual fire. III The purity of the unclouded moon Has flung its atrowy shaft upon the floor. Seven centuries have passed and it is pure, The blood of innocence has left no stain. There, on blood-saturated ground, have stood Soldier, assassin, executioner. Whether for daily pittance or in blind fear Or out of abstract hatred, and shed blood, But could not cast a single jet thereon. Odour of blood on the ancestral stair! And we that have shed none must gather there And clamour in drunken frenzy for the moon. IV Upon the dusty, glittering windows cling, And seem to cling upon the moonlit skies, Tortoiseshell butterflies, peacock butterflies, A couple of night-moths are on the wing. Is every modern nation like the tower, Half dead at the top? No matter what I said, For wisdom is the property of the dead, A something incompatible with life; and power, Like everything that has the stain of blood, A property of the living; but no stain Can come upon the visage of the moon When it has looked in glory from a cloud.
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Blood And The Moon
BLESSED be this place, More blessed still this tower; A ****** arrogant power Rose out of the race Uttering, mastering it, Rose like these walls from these Storm-beaten cottages -- In mockery I have set A powerful emblem up, And sing it rhyme upon rhyme In mockery of a time HaIf dead at the top. Alexandria's was a beacon tower, and Babylon's An image of the moving heavens, a log-book of the sun's journey and the moon's; And Shelley had his towers, thought's crowned powers he called them once. I declare this tower is my symbol; I declare This winding, gyring, spiring treadmill of a stair is my ancestral stair; That Goldsmith and the Dean, Berkeley and Burke have travelled there. Swift beating on his breast in sibylline frenzy blind Because the heart in his blood-sodden breast had dragged him down into mankind, Goldsmith deliberately sipping at the honey-pot of his mind, And haughtier-headed Burke that proved the State a tree, That this unconquerable labyrinth of the birds, cen- tury after century, Cast but dead leaves to mathematical equality; And God-appointed Berkeley that proved all things a dream, That this pragmatical, preposterous pig of a world, its farrow that so solid seem, Must vanish on the instant if the mind but change its theme; Saeva Indignatio and the labourer's hire, The strength that gives our blood and state magnani- mity of its own desire; Everything that is not God consumed with intellectual fire. III The purity of the unclouded moon Has flung its atrowy shaft upon the floor. Seven centuries have passed and it is pure, The blood of innocence has left no stain. There, on blood-saturated ground, have stood Soldier, assassin, executioner. Whether for daily pittance or in blind fear Or out of abstract hatred, and shed blood, But could not cast a single jet thereon. Odour of blood on the ancestral stair! And we that have shed none must gather there And clamour in drunken frenzy for the moon. IV Upon the dusty, glittering windows cling, And seem to cling upon the moonlit skies, Tortoiseshell butterflies, peacock butterflies, A couple of night-moths are on the wing. Is every modern nation like the tower, Half dead at the top? No matter what I said, For wisdom is the property of the dead, A something incompatible with life; and power, Like everything that has the stain of blood, A property of the living; but no stain Can come upon the visage of the moon When it has looked in glory from a cloud.
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I don't mind if you touch them, but maybe she did, I don't care anymore, to me there just a pair of flesh, but to her, they're still innocent, Mine have lost the specialness in the I want you to touch them, Now it's met with I don't cares, For I no longer have what she has, those first time butterflies like i'm shy when I remove my top, when it's the first time I show them off to you, because they're not special anymore, when a time in my life my brest made me happy, were I could look in the mirror and feel good about something, but they became nothing, so now I look and see nothing but a black canvas of disappointment, everytime I stare at my reflection, every time I see my wound, our wound, because that's the one that everyone sees, the rest I made are hidden just for me, and I wish our wound was like that, I wish I could totally remember what happened to my breast, but all I remember was burning right over the year old scar again, because the pain of remember hurt more then my second burn, but the first time you were the one to burn me, and I had hid it so well, but there came a time where I didn't care, and I showed it off, battle scar? call it what you want, if you wanna grab my **** go for it, they have gone through worse assault, if you wanna see them, it's not going to mean **** to me, and I am really sorry that thats hows it's been for me, but it's not my fault my ***** innocence was stolen from me, because of a ***** with what used to look like the end of one of his cigarettes,
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Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 11:31 PM UTC
Grab My ***** I don't care...
I don't mind if you touch them, but maybe she did, I don't care anymore, to me there just a pair of flesh, but to her, they're still innocent, Mine have lost the specialness in the I want you to touch them, Now it's met with I don't cares, For I no longer have what she has, those first time butterflies like i'm shy when I remove my top, when it's the first time I show them off to you, because they're not special anymore, when a time in my life my brest made me happy, were I could look in the mirror and feel good about something, but they became nothing, so now I look and see nothing but a black canvas of disappointment, everytime I stare at my reflection, every time I see my wound, our wound, because that's the one that everyone sees, the rest I made are hidden just for me, and I wish our wound was like that, I wish I could totally remember what happened to my breast, but all I remember was burning right over the year old scar again, because the pain of remember hurt more then my second burn, but the first time you were the one to burn me, and I had hid it so well, but there came a time where I didn't care, and I showed it off, battle scar? call it what you want, if you wanna grab my **** go for it, they have gone through worse assault, if you wanna see them, it's not going to mean **** to me, and I am really sorry that thats hows it's been for me, but it's not my fault my ***** innocence was stolen from me, because of a ***** with what used to look like the end of one of his cigarettes,
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love is not made of giving and taking in equal parts it is not a favor for a favor i owe you nothing love is not a compromise reached after long deliberation it is not hurting on Monday and healing on Tuesday love is not touching because you will leave if i do not it is not feigning naivety when you see me cry love is not the untimely squandering of innocence it is not the suffocating grip of guilt it is not your unwelcome touch love is not love is not love is not
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Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 11:15 PM UTC
love is not
precious innocent soul skipping rocks on cobblestone roads vulnerable untarnished pure no residue of earthly soil return me to that naiveté unburdened by layers of fake masks and perfect capped teeth in narcissistic societies but I shan’t grasp at ethereal edges of nebulousness and ephemeral innocence i shall endure what I abhor a master’s soul cannot be forged in paradise wisdom’s essence ‘tis not pristine white hints of ivory tinge the effervescence of the sage’s breath ©2016janetaylor
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May 4, 2016
May 4, 2016 at 11:53 AM UTC
hints of ivory
I love the innocence present even we are being naughty
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Aug 9, 2015
Aug 9, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC
Innocent Naughtiness
Could it be that I substitute lustful infatuation for love? or mistake an act of kindness for trust? Using his words to define me, i mean refine me, leaving the real me in the dust Can you really blame me for being attracted to someone who shows interest in my existence Someone who is persistent, consistent and whose smile breaks my resistance It's a real feeling I get of satisfaction through common conversation of nothingness The willingness to waste time with me means something to me if not everything for me because time can not be given back Sorry your interest in my existence was nonexistent, guess in the 90's being a father was wack. Respect from hoes was worth more than respect from your daughter If it was up to you, if you were her, you would have probably said "abort her" You knew I was a girl and that I'd be your first daughter but that wasn't enough for you You had 9 months which turned into 1 plus twenty now you're begging for my heart to attend to it's broken it needs amends too, a man too? So I'm looking at guy after guy to cut into some deep hurting pain from my past Not realizing that they can't give me what I'm missing cause I can't miss what I never had I asked God for a brother but I never got em When I was 8 I wanted to meet my Father but I never saw em After that, just like everything you cant change in life, you learn to accept Accept and move on not accept and dwell in it Yet I found myself looking for what I lacked in a male figure in a young boy I didn't know it yet but my innocence he would destroy How can you be sure about love and if you're in it, if there is no demonstration clearly displayed to see How can i be sure that he loves me for me, not what i give or what i can be but everything that I am if I haven't truly accepted me for me I long to feel love from a man who created me with his ***** Not physical love from a boy with a toy in it ***** I'm talking something long term Deeply invested in things that cannot be returned or given back Like time, memories, laughs, tears, words, or the lack...thereof
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Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 4:42 PM UTC
Fatherless Child
Could it be that I substitute lustful infatuation for love? or mistake an act of kindness for trust? Using his words to define me, i mean refine me, leaving the real me in the dust Can you really blame me for being attracted to someone who shows interest in my existence Someone who is persistent, consistent and whose smile breaks my resistance It's a real feeling I get of satisfaction through common conversation of nothingness The willingness to waste time with me means something to me if not everything for me because time can not be given back Sorry your interest in my existence was nonexistent, guess in the 90's being a father was wack. Respect from hoes was worth more than respect from your daughter If it was up to you, if you were her, you would have probably said "abort her" You knew I was a girl and that I'd be your first daughter but that wasn't enough for you You had 9 months which turned into 1 plus twenty now you're begging for my heart to attend to it's broken it needs amends too, a man too? So I'm looking at guy after guy to cut into some deep hurting pain from my past Not realizing that they can't give me what I'm missing cause I can't miss what I never had I asked God for a brother but I never got em When I was 8 I wanted to meet my Father but I never saw em After that, just like everything you cant change in life, you learn to accept Accept and move on not accept and dwell in it Yet I found myself looking for what I lacked in a male figure in a young boy I didn't know it yet but my innocence he would destroy How can you be sure about love and if you're in it, if there is no demonstration clearly displayed to see How can i be sure that he loves me for me, not what i give or what i can be but everything that I am if I haven't truly accepted me for me I long to feel love from a man who created me with his ***** Not physical love from a boy with a toy in it ***** I'm talking something long term Deeply invested in things that cannot be returned or given back Like time, memories, laughs, tears, words, or the lack...thereof
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i am innocent i am not a ****** i have not been stripped of my innocence i have been stripped and teased and pleasured i'd love to see the look on a republicans face when i say *** is fun
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May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 7:01 PM UTC
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I am lost in my own germination. I miss the innocence of adolescence, I miss the days of being a seed. Nostalgia stemming from maltreatment, roots of disdain running deeper and deeper as they absorb the negativity of my surroundings. The sadistic nature of being has instilled terror in my heart, a terror of the future— for I’m not ready for my contempt of existence to flower. I preferred being a seed. As I blossom, I grow consumed by feelings of self-doubt, tears falling, like petals in the springtime, Will I survive the winter? I preferred being a seed. The strong winds of life rip me up by the roots. I am slowly wilting and withering away as days pass, unaware of when I will be trampled underfoot. I remember the days of being a seed. For remaining a seed would have been easier than blossoming in a world slowly and aggressively plucking my petals. I am nearly barren.
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Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 11:01 AM UTC
Budding Existentialism
At the corner, a girl child from the UK another soft drink she chugged Whilst the girl woman in the Sudan, the heavy *** on head she lugged She walked eight miles, braving **** to fetch unclean water from the well Whilst in the UK, the girl bought designer clothes to make her feel just swell God where are the waters of life? To end their strife At the mall, the boy child ate his third Hershey bar In Malawi the boy man’s stomach had extended too far Malnutrition had sealed his fate God where is the cereal? To make their lives non-ephemeral Down under, the son celebrated with family, presents and cake his father’s 100th milestone Whilst in war torn Syria, a son, now orphan buried his young murdered father, in ground without a gravestone God when will the fighting cease? To give them a chance of peace Is this God’s confusion? That though we are all made the same, some people their innocence shattered are headed for a terrifying fate whilst others fully satiated and secure, sip their drinks, polish off and request another plate Or does God if he exists not love the weak and oppressed?
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Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 6:25 PM UTC
Is this God's confusion?
i have slept restlessly for  nights now, reliving the events that have conjured within the past 72 hours. i think to myself, how would anyone want to bring another into this world knowing the pain they will endure? yes. you will feel pain, indescribable, chest filling, body aching pain from your head to your toes. i wont try to paint a perfect picture of this world and let you down. hating me every moment for the things i never said. you will be beaten down by others, torn away from the connection you thought you had. you will sit in a coffee shop alone, biting your lip with anxiety, and he will call you in the dead of night pleading for you to keep him company once more. you will miss the way you looked at the world, with innocence and purity, reliving every moment of suffering and rewriting its pages. you will invest your heart in people, things that will only let you down. but sweet child this suffering that you feel will be soon over. it is how you overcome these situations of awkward confrontation and scandalous betrayal. because one day a bee will buzz past you and you will jump up and down like a child again, tugging on the end of your own dress, smiling. you will laugh once again because the perpetual love you feel from those who surround you with positive energy will fill the gaping hole of disappointment that the world has so willingly handed you. like i said, i will not paint a perfect picture for you, because every artist has their flaws, but they cover them oh so well. and you should never have to carry that kind of burden. love always, me
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Nov 29, 2016
Nov 29, 2016 at 8:07 PM UTC
to my future daughter
i have slept restlessly for  nights now, reliving the events that have conjured within the past 72 hours. i think to myself, how would anyone want to bring another into this world knowing the pain they will endure? yes. you will feel pain, indescribable, chest filling, body aching pain from your head to your toes. i wont try to paint a perfect picture of this world and let you down. hating me every moment for the things i never said. you will be beaten down by others, torn away from the connection you thought you had. you will sit in a coffee shop alone, biting your lip with anxiety, and he will call you in the dead of night pleading for you to keep him company once more. you will miss the way you looked at the world, with innocence and purity, reliving every moment of suffering and rewriting its pages. you will invest your heart in people, things that will only let you down. but sweet child this suffering that you feel will be soon over. it is how you overcome these situations of awkward confrontation and scandalous betrayal. because one day a bee will buzz past you and you will jump up and down like a child again, tugging on the end of your own dress, smiling. you will laugh once again because the perpetual love you feel from those who surround you with positive energy will fill the gaping hole of disappointment that the world has so willingly handed you. like i said, i will not paint a perfect picture for you, because every artist has their flaws, but they cover them oh so well. and you should never have to carry that kind of burden. love always, me
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I was a caterpillar , before I became a butterfly . The pain I had to endure in order to transform into the beauty I am today . This is my tale . In the forest there was, My cocoon wrapped in the finest silk, With a power to live in a colorful world. To dream and conquer goals. A Vivacious soul spinning in the purest silk Growing and maturing as I spun. Wishing for freedom with my beautiful wings, Counting the days to be free and soar as a lively butterfly until You winded into my community Lured my queen and her uneven monarch. Tempted to sabotage my purity. For that you, Lured yourself into my vulernable cocoon with that trust, you decided to disrupt my process. How can one man ruin my nesting site? And I had faith in you , to be a figure I never had. I wanted. My heart ached for it. I needed it. To be loved . To be nurtured. To never be like those stray dogs looking for a home. This was the moment . Where.... Innocence stripped, heart captured. My Freedom gone. You were naive to comprehend On what you were doing... You would stab my cocoon with your sickening poison . Over and over you stabbed . Ruptured the veins of my innocence . To break my finest silk . Purity banished. Stabbing your poison was Making my cocoon useless , worthless , unwanted, colorless, I tried to run and I tried to scream but I was devoured by this poison It was the love I deserve. Couldn't escape , numb to the pain For every poison injected, I began to Question God? Where was he ? when I shed out a tear of help. Where was he? when my cocoon was destroyed. Was I loved God? when I muffled help in your name. I hated myself , I stay in my cocoon afraid to see my future. I wasn't going to be a beautiful butterfly Battered Butterfly My life seemed to be colorless No one wants a battered butterfly My life.... It seemed it had ended when poison sunk onto my helpless body . No one wants a battered butterfly Imprisoned to these chains. Being poisoned every night by different Predators. Oh God.... Those predators ... Battered lifeless little butterfly Was I ever loved in my nesting site? But then again nobody loves a battered butterfly How can I reach to heaven when I was worthless. Believed I was a vile ***** Tricked into a poison of hell. Battered Ugly Butterfly ***** Little butterfly*. There was no light in tunnel There was no holes in my silk To escape this poisonous nest. Why? Because I believe nobody wants save a battered butterfly How can the man I trusted ruined me. I thought you could be the one to complete my lovely monarch . To complete the missing piece. But you continued to misuse me. To haunt me. To barricade my heart To own my soul But one thing I can truly say You never once won over me. You never imprinted my change. I endured your pain That was a sign of God To show me what strength I am capable of. That was the light that I found, You had no control to inflict pain anymore. Because I became impervious to your pain. I am a beautiful butterfly reigning over my monarch with no thought of you. That is my freedom
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May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 2:25 AM UTC
Battered Butterfly
I was a caterpillar , before I became a butterfly . The pain I had to endure in order to transform into the beauty I am today . This is my tale . In the forest there was, My cocoon wrapped in the finest silk, With a power to live in a colorful world. To dream and conquer goals. A Vivacious soul spinning in the purest silk Growing and maturing as I spun. Wishing for freedom with my beautiful wings, Counting the days to be free and soar as a lively butterfly until You winded into my community Lured my queen and her uneven monarch. Tempted to sabotage my purity. For that you, Lured yourself into my vulernable cocoon with that trust, you decided to disrupt my process. How can one man ruin my nesting site? And I had faith in you , to be a figure I never had. I wanted. My heart ached for it. I needed it. To be loved . To be nurtured. To never be like those stray dogs looking for a home. This was the moment . Where.... Innocence stripped, heart captured. My Freedom gone. You were naive to comprehend On what you were doing... You would stab my cocoon with your sickening poison . Over and over you stabbed . Ruptured the veins of my innocence . To break my finest silk . Purity banished. Stabbing your poison was Making my cocoon useless , worthless , unwanted, colorless, I tried to run and I tried to scream but I was devoured by this poison It was the love I deserve. Couldn't escape , numb to the pain For every poison injected, I began to Question God? Where was he ? when I shed out a tear of help. Where was he? when my cocoon was destroyed. Was I loved God? when I muffled help in your name. I hated myself , I stay in my cocoon afraid to see my future. I wasn't going to be a beautiful butterfly Battered Butterfly My life seemed to be colorless No one wants a battered butterfly My life.... It seemed it had ended when poison sunk onto my helpless body . No one wants a battered butterfly Imprisoned to these chains. Being poisoned every night by different Predators. Oh God.... Those predators ... Battered lifeless little butterfly Was I ever loved in my nesting site? But then again nobody loves a battered butterfly How can I reach to heaven when I was worthless. Believed I was a vile ***** Tricked into a poison of hell. Battered Ugly Butterfly ***** Little butterfly*. There was no light in tunnel There was no holes in my silk To escape this poisonous nest. Why? Because I believe nobody wants save a battered butterfly How can the man I trusted ruined me. I thought you could be the one to complete my lovely monarch . To complete the missing piece. But you continued to misuse me. To haunt me. To barricade my heart To own my soul But one thing I can truly say You never once won over me. You never imprinted my change. I endured your pain That was a sign of God To show me what strength I am capable of. That was the light that I found, You had no control to inflict pain anymore. Because I became impervious to your pain. I am a beautiful butterfly reigning over my monarch with no thought of you. That is my freedom
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It's in moments like these where the universe is revealed I find myself wandering the infinite land searching for a lover and a friend The moments of peace where freedom is revealed tales of Gods and Goddesses New music my last hope my first trip away from home I am me ! can't you see? i'm real not a normal human i'm just meat Why am i here? dazed chasing desires and dreams i could shake the ground beneath your feet but things don't look always as they seem Lets sail this ship to escape our past Sins that killed the innocence while the demons laughed It's in moments like these i fly high and dance with the stars where i'm back to the womb but for others it's just the tomb.. Words Of Harfouchism.
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Nov 5, 2014
Nov 5, 2014 at 2:41 PM UTC
The Womb
finally this moment is here, I've been watching and waiting, I've been hearing it all along in between your words, in the center of the stories you tell so eloquently, so clever, so wise there is light in your right eye, some shadow in your left eye the evening light is sweetly illuminating the magnitude of loneliness some feelings need at least two people in order to be bearable you sat and listened you looked deeper into your body language receded, obscured itself like the moon sometimes there is no need for words something more important needs to be created in between bodies and minds, the flow of connection, of true partnership the waves started, the waters of loneliness surfaced you cried your tears and I cried mine as I listened to the silence of tears I understood: this was the moment for a few simple words: I see you, I am here there is no falling deeper than this for now truth, this scarry creature, was there in your flesh and mine your loneliness was like a sea without horizon but the shiver of depth  like a voice without screaming, a bird without flight perhaps this tango with tears will fill your lungs with innocence as you imagine a new horizon, a new architecture for happiness
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Jul 10, 2023
Jul 10, 2023 at 1:47 PM UTC
encounters (1): loneliness
Static, memories Emanating, separating   The postcard- perfect Still life speaks From its storied past. Invisible, to drift Among   The florid aphorisms, Ending in Deleterious debris, Aftermath of The inevitable. Empty room, echo hollow Tabula rasa - Carpet clean, quite candid in it's Return to callow. Consciousness athirst, Absorbing phenomena Effervesce, inquisitive Ideas foment, Sealed inside a question. The what - Against the narrow Scarcity, And fatigue of should. A tender malleable Youth, Betrayed, under An assumed decorum - Residue of truth, Flattened emotion Privations of a self Unheard; Misplaced affirmation, Buried pathologies   In architecture Fear manifests symbolic. Harboring apathy The lunacy of pious Pedigree, Import contagion, Fetters of benignity Doubt and indecision   Into ****** Cognizance, Fallow spirits Seep fumes of decay, Credulity bleeds a human stain. Social edifice, inoculated   Heirs of neurosis; Palpable, sensual pain And transience, though Tacit - remain, Our haunted history, The blind hyperbole, Maudlin Forbearance, this haven, A portrait Of immaculate condition, Nurtured with precision Under sterling pretense. Provincial domicile - House beautiful, Savage irony - Unseen treasure Innocence unabridged, Faces, tiny creations; Compliant vessels Wounded,   While modernism murmurs   Its promise. Brave New World, In a late model sedan, Domestic ranch on a Corner lot, Suburban natives, Silence means security. The misunderstood Speak louder - Consumerism beneath     Unvarnished ambition, Never could Repair the brokenness within... © 2011 & 2018 W. S. Warner
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Oct 20, 2011
Oct 20, 2011 at 5:38 PM UTC
Hollow
Static, memories Emanating, separating   The postcard- perfect Still life speaks From its storied past. Invisible, to drift Among   The florid aphorisms, Ending in Deleterious debris, Aftermath of The inevitable. Empty room, echo hollow Tabula rasa - Carpet clean, quite candid in it's Return to callow. Consciousness athirst, Absorbing phenomena Effervesce, inquisitive Ideas foment, Sealed inside a question. The what - Against the narrow Scarcity, And fatigue of should. A tender malleable Youth, Betrayed, under An assumed decorum - Residue of truth, Flattened emotion Privations of a self Unheard; Misplaced affirmation, Buried pathologies   In architecture Fear manifests symbolic. Harboring apathy The lunacy of pious Pedigree, Import contagion, Fetters of benignity Doubt and indecision   Into ****** Cognizance, Fallow spirits Seep fumes of decay, Credulity bleeds a human stain. Social edifice, inoculated   Heirs of neurosis; Palpable, sensual pain And transience, though Tacit - remain, Our haunted history, The blind hyperbole, Maudlin Forbearance, this haven, A portrait Of immaculate condition, Nurtured with precision Under sterling pretense. Provincial domicile - House beautiful, Savage irony - Unseen treasure Innocence unabridged, Faces, tiny creations; Compliant vessels Wounded,   While modernism murmurs   Its promise. Brave New World, In a late model sedan, Domestic ranch on a Corner lot, Suburban natives, Silence means security. The misunderstood Speak louder - Consumerism beneath     Unvarnished ambition, Never could Repair the brokenness within... © 2011 & 2018 W. S. Warner
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*Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Chops' because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed alot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Autumn' because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed alot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it. Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it 'Innocence: A Question' because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at 3am he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly. That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it 'Absolutely Nothing' Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each ****** wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen*
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Jan 11, 2013
Jan 11, 2013 at 2:04 PM UTC
Absolutely Nothing by Osoanon Nimuss
*Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Chops' because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed alot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Autumn' because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed alot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it. Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it 'Innocence: A Question' because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at 3am he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly. That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it 'Absolutely Nothing' Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each ****** wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen*
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