"fellowships" poems
All these stanzas look alike
they talk about the same things
with the same words, the same poem
written over and over again
like voices, whispers, copying each other
unable to feel and trust experience
differently, socialized for homogeneity
unified but dull, strong but obedient
their writing seemed the narratives
of machines unable to innovate
plagiarizing voices they believed were
their own, authentic, pure
their literary journals were a politics
of masters of arts and agendas of contests
like car commercials without a proper
enjoyment of speed, or our favorite writers
whose names we only knew because
they were the ones who died at the right time
while somebody was looking, reading them
but the bookstores didn’t know their
metaphors were weak, or their life’s work
was merely symbolic, that’s the thing isn’t it
poets are only symbols, as poems are only
fluff, paper, the labor of writers-in-residence
while the rest of the world are more
interested in serial killers and which stocks
might be worth getting into, and when to sell out
investing in words seemed silly to them
and, in my selected works there was nothing
of how to be a Poet Laureate or how to win prizes
exceptional or not, publication was left to amazon
state grants, fellowships, visiting writers
academics who never felt truly how to write
poetry at its heart was a colonization of artists
few could share what that meant, we were
the first illiterate generation, spending more time
with the internet than with books.
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 12:04 PM UTC
Our summer fellowships are over! We learned a lot - for instance - how summer’s a lot less fun when you’re hemmed-up, inside working. I mean, we preesh’d the clinical experience, the learning, and especially how good these fellowships will look on our med-school applications - seriously - but there were a hundred rules - aren’t rules incompatible with summer?
Hmm, Ok, let’s see, something poetic..
As the summer sun's blistering radiance waned, shadows,
muscled by sunrays to the marginal edges and corners,
gradually spread, like water - soothing, lenifying and assuaging
simmered nerves with their refreshing, canopied touch.
If sunlight scorched with heat, twilight soothed and gentled,
while varnishing, the dimming world with rainbow, event-horizons,
larger, more inventive, colorful and glorious than any mere mortal art.
Night gradually squeezed, unseen, through those vivid sunset cracks,
and refreshing night-air, drawn in by the last, escaping updrafts of heat,
rustled cooling relief to weary workers seeking the solace of evening and home.
back to unpoetic realities..
When work was finished, we’d retreat from the heat, racing up to the rooftop pool, like two happy porpoises out of school.
Whoever invented poolside food delivery, should win the Nobel Prize for ‘thank you very much.’ We wouldn’t go back to our rooms until it was dark and we’d started to prune.
Now, we’ve a month to relax before our Junior year begins. We got letters from Yale that said, “As upperclassmen..” “Upperclassmen!” We shouted as we danced in hand-holding circles, singing, “Upperclassmen, upperclassmen, upperclassmen, upperclassmen. upperclassmen.”
We’ve grown so much at Yale.
Aug 2, 2023
Aug 2, 2023 at 12:05 PM UTC
I, too, saw God through mud, -
The mud that cracked on cheeks when wretches smiled.
War brought more glory to their eyes than blood,
And gave their laughs more glee than shakes a child.
Merry it was to laugh there -
Where death becomes absurd and life absurder.
For power was on us as we slashed bones bare
Not to feel sickness or remorse of ******
I, too, have dropped off Fear -
Behind the barrage, dead as my platoon,
And sailed my spirit surging light and clear
Past the entanglement where hopes lay strewn;
And witnessed exultation -
Faces that used to curse me, scowl for scowl,
Shine and lift up with passion of oblation,
Seraphic for an hour; though they were foul.
I have made fellowships -
Untold of happy lovers in old song.
For love is not the binding of fair lips
With the soft silk of eyes that look and long,
By Joy, whose ribbon slips, -
But wound with war's hard wire whose stakes are strong;
Bound with the bandage of the arm that drips;
Knit in the webbing of the rifle-thong.
I have perceived much beauty
In the hoarse oaths that kept our courage straight;
Heard music in the silentness of duty;
Found peace where shell-storms spouted reddest spate.
Nevertheless, except you share
With them in hell the sorrowful dark of hell,
Whose world is but the trembling of a flare
And heaven but as the highway for a shell,
You shall not hear their mirth:
You shall not come to think them well content
By any jest of mine. These men are worth
Your tears. You are not worth their merriment.
2.2k
A creation from big corporations
Living to buy till the day you die
Looking for the best deals, seems like a steal
But its a trap, a well hidden trap
LED TVs you don't need
Black watch you've already got
Smart phones the same as you own
Subconsciously told where to go, what to get,
we forget what is really important.
The friends and family, strong relationships,
And fellowships that make us fortunate.
Spend time on those we still got
Because that can't be bought,
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 28, 2014 at 1:51 PM UTC
Go on your way adventure tales,
Until we meet again,
I'd say wish me luck,
But I have my own,
Way of meeting whales,
No longer will I longing read,
Of bands, and knights, and fellowships,
Who fought the pains of hunger,
While staving off the wrecks,
Comparing life with fantasy,
Eating it up with bated breath.
Ha ha! I say, Ha ha again,
Life is adventure mine!
And I'll regal YOU adventure tales,
When we meet again
Oct 11, 2014
Oct 11, 2014 at 4:32 PM UTC
This Christmas is cold.
Even as the moon is scalding
To the heat of the stars
In the humid air
Of the hidden sun.
My heart reaches out to closest flames
But they are in full-fledged fuel
For their own
Feisty foolish fellowships
Furiously festive in the ignorant bliss
Such is the permafrost
Of no welcoming arms
And so, I host Revenge
Who welcomed Bitterness
In my thoughts
While suffering from the sinister snowstorm
I alone perhaps have made this night cold
Cold enough
To trick me to sleep
In tears, only my dreams are warm enough
To thaw but a single thumb
Frozen and Alone
I fade. Evaporating into the clouds
I am part of what will be
Rain, wadding the earth
In a pool
I will remind them of loneliness
I
Will be the cold
Next Christmas is cold
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 10:04 AM UTC
Deep as raging sea
Full of something long lost
to mere inadequacy of words
Wonder resides in this sparkle
Fellowships in this twitch
For these are not mere globes
They are windows into beauty
If one seeks to look
Joy leaks through the lenses
as though light is trying to bend
They glisten like steel
Yet soft like embrace
These temples of memory
These cups of emotion
are quickly regular according to common man
yet quite special, even spectacular
To the one the truth is opened to
They pull at ones eyes to be free
To let go of completely everything
And as one lets go to be free
One sees sparkle and sea
Sea of Love, Sparkle of Wonder
These Globes might grow old
Yet they will always remember
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 10:26 PM UTC
How do we do it?
How many quests?
How many fellowships
formed and broken,
going on to separate ways?
Doesn’t the heart rub a bit
sore after each parting?
Are we fools thinking
our’s the most arduous journey,
a long trek into Mordor,
to scale the heart of Doom?
Are we a bit of Merry weather
and Pippin riding on a shoulder
of an ancient forest?
Do we fight the Nazgul?
Are we foot soldiers
once more going into the breach?
We go truth be told
with no magic, no ring,
just cheerful Hobbits with secondsies,
snacks between full meal,
brief taste between breakfast,
and lunch, filling ourselves with joy.
Feb 6, 2013
Feb 6, 2013 at 10:02 PM UTC
Days that were, perhaps at the pinnacle of glory,
Years which were, lively and quickly,
Months that were, peaceful and brightly
Are no-where in locality,
But now weeks that are, entangled with serenity.
Ten months of tenth and its syllabus
Ten months of books and its relevance
Now to only have a glimpse of that nostalgia-
Of the hot summer days
And the cool windy days.
Started with books and teachers
Ended with exams and results.
Three sections of bonded unity
Encompassing hundred students of cordiality
And more teachers and staff of humongous sympathy.
Days when we had no books
But went to school blissfully.
The months of confusion and commotion
Are only to be thought and felt
But not be met.
Those were the days that cannot be withheld
But can be relished even after years to be dealt.
The times that were never like before
To leave incredible footprints for the years more
And to leave delightful memories forevermore.
Gently and more tranquilly if we look
There will be significant people we partook
With laid-back fellowships.
But those are the real days of tribute
Ever, that year (2011-12)
To be stamped in everyone’s memory
Ever, that year …
To stand as a much sought-after year in our lives…
Jan 6, 2013
Jan 6, 2013 at 12:46 AM UTC
This Christmas is cold.
Even as the moon is scalding
To the heat of the stars
In the humid air
Of the hidden sun.
My heart reaches out to closest flames
But they are in full-fledged fuel
For their own
Feisty foolish fellowships
Furiously festive in the ignorant bliss
Such is the permafrost
Of no welcoming arms
And so, I host Revenge
Who welcomed Bitterness
In my thoughts
While suffering from the sinister snowstorm
I alone perhaps have made this night cold
Cold enough
To trick me to sleep
In tears, only my dreams are warm enough
To thaw but a single thumb
Frozen and Alone
I fade. Evaporating into the clouds
I am part of what will be
Rain, wadding the earth
In a pool
I will remind them of loneliness
I
Will be the cold
Next Christmas is cold
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 9:53 AM UTC
**I don't know that my blackened lungs still stretch
because they love me back
or if that's why my ruptured heart still thumps like that
I just know I'd be lifeless without
the same way I'd love life less without you
Loving intently and at the risk
of never having another someone love me again
because your eyes say you don't
your lips say you can't
and you only keep feelings for a man you've never met
The perfect love...
a takes me dancing til my feet hurt for his strong hands
reminds me I'm adored because it crosses his mind again and again
cooks when I'm too tired to be wined and dined
two legs to stand on love
I've watched the opera from your vantage point
and the fool who portrays me killed off before the third act
How many anxious moments have you sat through
rooting for my demise...
loving intently on a hope and a prayer
scene after life shattering scene?
Flawed love...
a he can't catch me if I fall
or fall on hard times
hold me tightly when life won't let up
or hold my hand to put the world on notice
can't be seen in public like that
no legs to stand on love
I don't know that your smile thrives behind my half dead eyes
because they love me back
or if that's why my gut still fellowships with my soul like that
I just know enough to eat pride before the reasoning expires
the same way I treasure my gifts, I know...
at the risk of sounding redundant
You'll always be the only other someone I'll ever need to love me again
but your body screams yes
your heart just won't
and you only harbor meaningful emotion for a man you've never met
The perfect love...
fantastic with the kids, mine and his
ambitious stud in the boardroom and the bedroom
traveling the world taking our show on tour
introduce him to my father
two legs to stand on love
I'm still taller than my limitations
I'll massage your pain away with all the right things to say
the way you swore only I can
catch you if you fall for me again
hold you down on your way up, I know...
at the risk of sounding like a contradiction
and romance your fam from a beautifully realistic vantage point
Love!
The altar
Love!
and crush our first dance...
legs or no**
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 4:37 AM UTC
With a scattered concept of reality
I stretch for strong truths on a thin life line
I found the difference between love and *lust to be a life time
Truth is pennance
A contaceptive for faulty fellowships
A filter for decieitful thoughts that arent of relavance
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
This Too Shall Pass
"These are not normal times" and
We agreed
Why not say we all are sick
So we seek to heal?
It's our fight to recover
A collective responsibility
What is there to discover
beyond the perimeter of our doors?
The streets no longer teem
Fellowships and gatherings our hotspot
Even rigid cultures have changed
Super nations under attack
Listen! The world is in crisis
It's not normal a time for us
to discover the world around us
Is it so much to contain?
The good news!
We can build on
But not out of danger
Let's keep our anger away from the survivors
One thing for sure,
"The child at the back of the mother
does not know the distance covered by
the weary feets of the mother, until he comes down and equally takes a walk"
Our leaders need us to cooperate and it's our cooperation that will make their work even easier.
Let's listen to our leaders
as we obey and allow the sciences.
Very soon, we shall see the signs
of the morning near because in the
clouds of misery, there is hope from the
rain that cometh forth.
God is our witness and
We'd come to our wits' end
This too shall pass..
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 5:52 AM UTC
rest assured; chaos is on the brink. chaos! the cloak of distraction which shelters the change beyond what appears to ones eye. a storm is brewing, shattering and leaving a wreckage of a once whole, but old ship, riddled of what the ocean has been reclaiming. shells and life forms eating at the old wood of a once stable boat.
though this boat has not braced these seas before.
to make it ashore, a new ship must be tailored by tinkering hands and sailor’d by destiny’s demands.
this woman is anything but hollow, her fellowships far from shallow. She is worn and new, reborn a light. her mind is a vessel which only magic occupies, and the divine feminine looks to the sadness hidden below deck and knows this; will be the rebirth of the absolute you.
Feb 18, 2021
Feb 18, 2021 at 8:26 AM UTC
Stepping out to a cold November rain
The sky we watched is broken now
The masks I wear are fading
Somewhere deep within me
Theres darkness orchestrating
Now I run, beyond fellowships bond
The memories I hold are fractured now
I diverge into the shifting skyline
Watching many moons pass
Just waiting for the sunshine
Now I sleep, hiding beneath the blanket of coming dusk
The sentiment I detain escapes now
I brave the nightfall alone, just me
Descending upon the black ocean
Searching somehow to be free
Now I dream, of a better morrow
The thoughts I gather are shattered now
I wander through a hollow tower
Climbing the steps
My strength diminishing by the hour
Now I return, mending the chain link
But the friends I kept are scattered now
I wander the field alone again
I ask the stars for aid
For this connection, I know I must sustain
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC
My faith in the virtues
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My faith in the virtues
Years of experience taught
From a child to adulthood
A God within me brought
In terms of endearment
The virtues of Solomon
Hold with you these attributes each day.
I speak of the virtue of blind faith
Never doubt that God is with you.
The virtue of Hope in the future
Hope within the charity you broadcast
Excite your fellowships by your prudence
Victory achieved within your justice
In your fortitude ever be temperant
Reaching your goals for the future
Taking with you your seven virtues
Unconditional Faith, Hope and Charity
Suitably Prudent in Justice ,Fortitude,
and upmost Temperance
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Written by Philip
December 25th 2018.
An Exercise in free verse.
Dec 24, 2018
Dec 24, 2018 at 2:59 PM UTC
i have two fists i
choose not to use i
have thumbs
finger tips
to
exist - i
have the power
to set flame to every object around me
i can drown entire cities courtesy of wrath
i can topple and
twist fellowships -
i
can
live forever
if I acknowledge it -
it
it's
all for the taking if you can reach it
my hands
so far away from me
i'm sorry
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 8:21 PM UTC
My eyes felt ever so deep to sleep. They would open and close. Then suddenly, my eyes felt like a finale when a curtain comes down. Now I was into a deep sleep, and my dream was presented. A Greyhound Mack 1931 showed up and used its headlights being a spotlight on me. The Mack said, “You look like you could use a friend”. I know you are a “BUS NUT”, but you are about to be surrounded with buses upon buses being your friend, and we will give you the inspiration to go on like no end. Let me introduce you to the MCI Renaissance, the start of new bus technology, the MC6 Supercruiser known as the bus of tomorrow with destination to our hearts, the MC7 that would catch anyone’s interest. Then there’s the MC8, a bus nut would appreciate. The Prevost being a new arisen but what the manufacturer can create. Now that is only a few, but you will soon awake.
As you continue to explore buses of any kind you won’t ignore. So we the buses will always be your friend. In fact, it extends to the highways being no end. The exhaust is our force. But along with buses, you will start to acquaint the many fellowships with other bus enthusiast such as yourself. It will be exchanging thoughts full of ideas and opinions. This is your heart felt moment. So enjoy your day, but we as buses just wanted to continue to show you the way. Our encouragement to all bus nuts goes like this, “So buses on tire wheels, and we consider ourselves a moving reel, and yes there is a past, but is just time accelerating in fast. Buses it is, but vintage that will always be”. I woke up with continued bus passion.
Jul 29, 2018
Jul 29, 2018 at 7:03 PM UTC