crescent moon
hanging over the hill ~
moonlight tale

Pitter patter, pitter patter
Not of rain it's my heart
When it showers it dreads their patter
My ears echo their patter
Long after they cease to pelt
Not even its breeze
Can give some peace

Today, I have no words
Qualified enough to describe
The depth of my pain
I have no words
Huge enough to describe
The emptiness in my heart
I have no word
Worthy of the thickness
Of the darkness drowning my soul
I have no words
Colorful enough to express
My desires for each day
That hurries by without their fulfilment
Or for the wishes I have for tomorrow
No words deep enough to form my fears
Of what the future holds
I pray, dear father that you look deep into my heart
And find the words that my lips cannot form
Soothe my worries
And grant my supplications

Freedom is walking barefoot
In the morning drizzle
Taking a leak while at it
Purging your mind of all its cares

Freedom is taking a stroll
On a bright moon day
Imagining you're the brightest star
On which men make their wishes

Now I'll sing of my greatest fear

Of the taste of the realm of nothingness

Teasing and taunting like a missing limb

How I dread its incessant pull

Into the passage between here and there

Nothing more agonizing than that chill

Gnashing beneath the hovering darkness, a

Ne'er ending nightmare of infinite nothingness

E'er threatening possession of my mind

Such is the miracle of a near-death your

Soul is never here or there

No agony is greater than the yoke
Men fastened round my love
Her lines they bounded with metres
Her flow they have blocked with patterns and rhymes
Her end they constrain with rules
I crave the freedom to paint her as I deem fit
She's born of my thoughts and feelings
Sorrow would be less so
If there were rules to grieving
I'm breaking her rules

fluttery fronds
of a palm tree –
another noel

My tears are dried up
like the rivers in
harmattan

They are sealed
in the inner sanctum
of my soul

Now, you must cry for me
for I've no more
tears left

I shoot higher
After every fall
Like an Indian
Rubber ball

I had dreamt
Life would be all sweet and colourful
A little challenge here, a little grief there
They keep the journey real and meaningful
I had prepared to be strong
Rise above all hurdles
Ignore all hassles
Who knows what happened to that dream?
'Cos it's farther than it seems
So far I can't catch a glimpse


I've never really been happy
Not as I dreamt
I've had more grief than joy
Not what I saw
I've not attained all I'd imagined
Not as I thought
All I desire is a life so simple
Maybe not as simple as it sounds
All I have is not as I dreamt
All I am is not as I thought
Now, I'm dreaming I might deserve
Nothing more than I am
Only I've got more than I deserve


Who knows what happened to my dreams?
I wonder where our dreams go

in the night breeze
all my cares and worries
seem like nothing

You ignite my heart
like a ray of sunshine
after the morning
drizzle

I am acting the part
As stated in life's script
I'm acting my part
Smiling and keeping on
So the others
Can act their parts
Of lingering not and moving on

I drop my part
And shelf the mask
When I'm alone
I drop my part
And hang the armour
When the honest me
Takes over the weary me


Then, I drop the act
And hopefully pray
That I don't loose myself
In between the parts

Here goes the little bird
The little bird with wings of rainbow
Tweeting behind my window
Not a care in the world
How I wish I'm the little bird
I'd free all my cares to the wind
I'd twirp and chirp till I'm rid of my sorrow

the color of love
      is
you and I
a perfect symphony of
      sound
falling endless like
  rain sprinkling
a piece of forever
silently etched into
the capsule of
        time

I've known pain
I've known fear chilling than the harmattan air
Pain, fiercer and harsher than the whips of a thousand horsemen


My soul sank deep into the river of pain and fear


I sought refuge in the ***** of the younger dawns
I hid in their embrace and they comforted me
I dreamt of the rebirth of her garden in all its glory
I felt the healing miracle of the morning sun when Eva
bathed in her warmth; and I saw her inhabitants,
came alive with the songs of the birds, and fluttering flowers in the breeze
I've known pain;
Nameless, faceless fear


I sunk deep into their depths
And they hurt no more

I'm a woman
I'm more than a man
I have his blood and bone
I'm shapelier, sexier and fairer
I'm weak and strong
I'm patient and impulsive
I'm a woman
I'm more than a man
From the taste of the fruit
Till sunrise tomorrow
I'm the face of the deceiver
The root of evil
A haughty heart
I'm the cause of the failed love
The broken home
The ***** china
I control  the mind of
The defiant child
The wayward son
The estranged husband
With a straight back
And a square shoulder
I bare them all
I mother them all
I'm a woman
I'm more than a man
Reincarnation, I await you
If you were to come
A woman I would be

Flying flower with wings of
Black and golden yellow
Danced round and round
The candle light
It fluttered and hovered
Little did it know
That the light
Would take its life
Even as it fluttered
One last time
And went still

Sleep took its flight
I embraced the light
Memories of the day
Sway gently in the moonlight
Ghosts of the past
Waltz into the present
And together
They mock the future
Who lies patiently
In a mist of uncertainty
On my rumpled pillow
My eyelids pinch mercilessly
As the long night
Fades into daylight

Tales of endless suffering
Of neighbours and strangers
The lives that dropped unripe
Do not my burden lighten
If I could lessen someone's woe
It would comfort my soul

Wouldn’t it be perfect
If "we" all became one?
No "I" or "You" or “They”
Just one giant indomitable I
Tall and selfless like the palm tree
Wouldn’t it be liberating if I would
Unify the rift between truth and lie?
If I would cross the fence and pull the plug
On the conflict between good and the need for doing good?
If I would break the horrifying silence of the hibiscus
Stimulating the unsated thirst of the butterfly
If I would make every cloudy face break open like the morning sun
If I would be as liberal as the sun,as cleansing as the rain
If I would be as receptive and meek as the moon
We would be one indomitable “I

Those who feel it don't want it
Those who want it can't feel it
There lies the balance
Within the wheel of chance

No matter how scary,
Gloomy uncertain the future
Seems. It becomes natural,
Safe and certain when it
Passes by

I've seen heaven
Wish it were my haven
When I sought solace here

They numb my mind
They play my mind
The things I saw there

Clay and water
Sieved and pounded
Moulded and shaped of His hands
Why do you then boast?
Of these riches and wealth?
They were here before you
And here they will be
When you are no more
Of wisdom and knowledge?
Acquired and will be required
When you are no more
Your beautiful skin
Nothing but boasting dust
Simply dust, safe that first breath
Giving in love, and with love
If there be any boast
Let it be of His second to none

Let it out
Let it flow
Let it glow
On your cheeks
Down your chest
Be mad
Be sad
Scream some
Wail loud and long
Like a banshee
Let the wind
Ferry your fear
Far, far away
Give your grief
Worries and sorrow
To the breeze of the night
Roll them all
Into the trash
Throw them out
And let them go

Do not grudge pain
It holds on its hot blanket
The evidence of life
Handled and well managed
Life from it
Takes its meaning

I'm freedom
      I need no legs
   Or wings
I'm one with
The with the wind
    And the sky
        I'll float
           I'll fly
               I'll rise

No matter how far I run
It catches up with me
It's not a wonder
It lives in my head

There's a stranger I've come to love
In my heart I've always known him
I hoped he'd star in my love story
Only it ain't a fairytale

I want to inhabit your dreams
And flutter your eyelids
I'd warm your lips
When daylight closes it's eyelids
To rule your day