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753 · May 2015
Second to last kiss
OliviaAutumn May 2015
There is something to be said about the silence that navigated
Our second to last kiss as if it was searching for someone to blame;
It's the same as realising that when you asked for space
I foolishly gave you enough galaxies so you could always find a place to shine.
But now, in this moment where I am inches away from reaching for your hand

I understand why the earth circles the sun-
Celestial longing clinging on to the rope that this swing is swung
I hold out my arms to the space where you no longer belong,
With lips laced with goodbyes and the taste of your tongue.
753 · Sep 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
Hand me down the love you had before me
And sow gently the tears in your sleeve
So I can wear your heart on arms made
To hold you as you drift through sleep.
744 · Sep 2015
Cracked smile
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
I traced the crack in her smile
And spent the rest of my life trying to find ways
To fill her with laughter, love and fumbles beneath
Freshly washed sheets.
734 · Sep 2014
You.
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
There is something in the wind and I cannot let you go.
Hold my hand, take a breath
There is someone in my bed and I cannot forget your moans.
Erase my mind, wipe my cries
There are some times I see you and I kiss you on your nose.
*Tell me you love me.
You are my home.
728 · Sep 2014
English Language
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
There are 1,013,913 words in the English language, and not one of them describes how I feel about you, about us.

Maybe its because I lost my words when I first kissed you, when I placed my kiss on them strawberry preserve lips so in the future when you asked me,  ‘hunny, where is the last place you saw them?’ I could answer –‘in you’

But I’ll pretend, I’ll play dumb, and search for them like I never knew the universe lived beneath your tongue, as I never want to find them words in case in finding them I misplace you.

And I never want to lose you. To find you in my box of lost and found on a Sunday afternoon amongst tattered dictionaries that are filled with love poems I can no longer speak.
Full of pronouns that hide bener dust which you make angels in, changing he to she, him to her, spreading your arms to chase the rabbits that jump out from these open sheets.
And seeing you lying there, I am both lost and found, no longer bound by the binding of those before you. All I can say is ‘ darling, the Greeks didn’t see you coming’.
There are not enough letters in the alphabet to write this love poem. To assemble a word that describes the way you smile at me, like how the moon draws pictures of the shore, or the way mountains bend to kiss the clouds.

You leave me speechless.
Its hard to believe, but its true.
Sometimes we forget to listen to that pivotal silence that the orchestra plays. Composed in exquisite harmony to ****** suspense through an empty script, in a pause, a breath; an instrumental craftsmanship that maneuvers you through that moment where you enter the protagonists’ kiss.

That’s how I feel about you. About us.
There are 1,013,913 words in the English language, and only one of them stands out to me: you.
spoken poetry
724 · Sep 2015
The night after
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
I cannot escape the particles of light that shimmer on her skin,
Glowing embers dancing where my fingertips have been.
The coffee cup grows empty, and her weary eyes meet mine
And for a moment I lose myself completely
Intoxicated with her sunrise*.
716 · Feb 2015
Mirror Mirror
OliviaAutumn Feb 2015
My heart is a broken mirror.
You smashed it when I first saw your smile
And I cling on to the pieces
Hoping my bad luck will never run out.
707 · Jan 2015
Painting Scars
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
These scars are brush strokes of another girls despair.
She spent Summer nights drawing lines between myself and her,
The warmth on her back the only memory left in a cardboard box of misery;
It reminded her she was alive,
A reminder she longed to delete in a shrinking phonebook that breathed out numbers to balance her life.
Lost and found in a pound of broken daydreams.
Each time I catch someones stare I remember her fractured smile,
The only tie I have left that I cannot cut.
684 · Apr 2015
The girl in the bath
OliviaAutumn Apr 2015
She heard the door close and the sound of a trail of clothes
Then the room filled with silence as she lay exposed.
Her heart started beating, like a laugh too shy for her to undo,
"I'm in the bath", she whispered, "and I'm also in love with you".
671 · Nov 2014
Moonshine
OliviaAutumn Nov 2014
There are times when I see her face in the moon,
And every time I see her there, I know she loves me too.
667 · Nov 2014
Lips
OliviaAutumn Nov 2014
She wasn't the kind of girl to wear lipstick or paint the town red.
She would ask me to kiss her and bite her lip instead.
654 · Jul 2015
Tea Stains
OliviaAutumn Jul 2015
I was her cup of tea:
Warm, sweet and drunk best beneath covers.
Some nights the kettle within my heart
Still screams for her to not leave this body so empty*.
644 · Sep 2014
Spoken Poem - Silver Discs
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2q3IPH7SE0
Trigger Warning: ****
Click on the link to listen <3
628 · Nov 2014
Unrequited
OliviaAutumn Nov 2014
For I fear I am no longer alive
But paralysed in desire.
The thought of your breath on
My pillow like sheets of unwritten music,
Lines no longer ironed straight,
This is the rope that tempts my fate
And throws me in the fire.
615 · Jan 2015
Part 1
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
She stood next to me in knickers and a t-shirt,
Needle and thread in hand with a grin between her legs.
"I will unstitch your heart" she said,
"And wear it on my sleeve so you never feel hurt again".
613 · Sep 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
"Do you still love me?" she whispered in my ear,
"How can I love a girl who is no longer here?"
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
This was a place I used to call home,
Now it is just a building with no name,
No touch of endearment on the doormat,
No letters of love but maybe they are lost in the post -
A name is just a word
But I have never heard my footsteps walk
These halls with an echo following
Like another ghost woven into the tapestries
Hanging on the walls,
Old photographs of memories that time
Turned into black and white,
The colours of an old life lost and forgotten
In this empty abyss the world has left behind.
My fingers trace the smile of a young girl
That I believe I used to be,
Innocence untouched by the man
She would fight to unsee.
This used to be home
And now my body is just a shell
I long to crack under my feet,
Feel the bough break
And look at the damage underneath
A disordered house is a disordered mind
But people don't see the fight thats inside
These walls that are shrinking to make me less space
So I can go to bed knowing, there is less I can waste.
584 · Mar 2015
Lost now found
OliviaAutumn Mar 2015
She saw a poster on the tree down the road
The sort left for years, forgotten and alone
And holding her tears she tore down the face
That was no longer lost, for it was her own.
573 · Sep 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
You are my cup of tea.
*And you are the sugar that kills me.
563 · Mar 2015
Spare room promises
OliviaAutumn Mar 2015
The promises were left unkept and forgotten in the spare room
Thrown in with last years fashion and the years before,
And standing at the door I can't remember when we started
Hoarding words to make a life boat we'll never sail,
Never say; did you mean them at all?
554 · Feb 2015
No.
OliviaAutumn Feb 2015
No.
You have no right to take away my foundations
And tell me to walk the plank of wood beneath my feet.
550 · Feb 2015
Swing set
OliviaAutumn Feb 2015
We are a sketchpad swing set.
You push and I keep coming back,
Drawn to you with a force I don’t understand,
You have shades in you I’ll never quite get.
You have seasons in your smile I want to forget.
But even if you push me towards the stars
I’ll always return with the brightest one,
And open arms.
540 · Jul 2015
The Society Club Girl
OliviaAutumn Jul 2015
The books scent lingers on her fingers
Lightly tying up her loose ends till they read
Like Shakespeare carved on a tree for all to see.
Her lover sips her coffee with an elegance only history
Understands;

She is the girl who leans across her rhymes and reasons
And bends her binding around her waist.

She is a woman whose strength
Pauses a book store into a silent stillness;
A muse that is written across my face
As she traces the pages of their story, closing the chapters
With the bite of a lip and a touch of a cheek.

Hers recite the poetry of rosebuds blooming in a far off place.

Still she knows that next season only memories may grow, but today
The taste of her lips remind her of those yet to be sown.
538 · May 2015
bulbs and seeds
OliviaAutumn May 2015
You ask me to ***** in a light bulb
as if I'm planting seeds to let us grow
but rather than gardens and trees
it's light you want until you leave.
532 · Sep 2014
She and the Sea
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
Interlocking fingers
Candyfloss tongue
Sea salt lips
Water in my lungs
Holding my breath
To sink inside
Her love comes and goes
Like the love of the tide.
530 · Sep 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
You cannot capture my heart
When it is already kept in a cage
511 · Dec 2014
Apple skies
OliviaAutumn Dec 2014
The girl never believed in science.
When asked why apples fall
She answered darling, even apples fall in love.
So she baked an apple pie to make her feel grounded, rooted;
She wanted to be consumed like the sea engulfs the mountain in a storm,
Like a core is mounted by those thirsty for the taste of something left unwholly , vulnerability caressing the bitterness left by someone else's lips, traces of time browning their soft edges.

The girl used to lie outstretched on hilltops each night to watch the moon sweep away the stars each morning so the sun could still shine.
If she shut her eyes and opened her mind
She could hear the moon waning "she'll never be mine"
for the sky is a canvas of desire, a constellation of lust that looks different to every lover.
Their wish is the same regardless of the star: that gravity will soon become the real reason their hearts begin to sink each time they see her hand in another's.
every day the girl shuts her eyes to talk to the sky as if she still believes that's where God lives, as if that is where hope is, and whilst shes on her knees her lovers kiss rises amidst the heat of another girls thighs, synchronising moans as if she has finally found one to call home.
maybe she has, but now the girl can't help but think she may drown in this ocean that is empty without its pull to the crash, that her stolen heart is now her lovers buried treasure, buried so deep that shes forgotten she even had it at all.

The girl sits at the windows pane knowing why it got its name hoping she will some day navigate her way to the only star she sees, the only name she breathes.
If only leaves remembered where they fell from.
If only gravity was the reason she fell.
This was written out of my fear of losing someone. Sometimes fear is more powerful than experience,  more real than reality.
507 · May 2015
let go
OliviaAutumn May 2015
you tell me to let go-
you were my ocean
you were my storm.
to let go will surely drown me
so forgive me, I can't move on.
494 · Sep 2015
Summer love
OliviaAutumn Sep 2015
Envelope me in your love
And return me to sender
As darling I will always keep turning up
On your porch on a summers afternoon,
And without any words you'll know
That this kiss was meant for you.
478 · Sep 2014
Canvas
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
My body is a canvas
And you are the artist,
Making art in the night
And that's how it started.
So paint me our future
With brushes of scarlet.
And hang it on the wall
For the days we have parted.
475 · Sep 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
"I'll tell you a secret", the girl returned,
"I am the bedpost your fingers will yearn."
459 · May 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn May 2015
Her fingertips were stained with pollen
With the vase I bought her with freshly cut
Flowers tainted with prints of butter yellow.
A pinafore wrapped with ribbon around her small waist
a chaste smile fashioning her face for the neighbours of our place.
one look at her and I see a fingersmiths daughter.
a girl who outgrew this ***, this house, this girl the porter.
451 · May 2015
Goodbye
OliviaAutumn May 2015
There is no such thing as a goodbye.
Nothing was good about the way her eyes changed colour,
How the street was drained into a black and white portrait
Capturing this one moment in time where she bit her lip
To remind her she was still alive
And turning her back she knew
That she'd never forget the promises she signed,
The ones she kept in her coat pocket
And the ones she left behind.
443 · Sep 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
Forget me never
when I tell you
I am waiting for you
unmade
each night to lie your head
as only then do I rest,
dreaming words
unsaid.
428 · Nov 2014
Organic Love
OliviaAutumn Nov 2014
Her lover told her, "I am organic".
She peeled off her skin and saw her bare
And lying there she pressed into her
Like flowers left under books
Forgotten, fleeting moments
Captured in time.
409 · Feb 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Feb 2015
"I am not a fighter.
My knuckles aren't bruised, but my heart is.
What does that make me?"* she asked tenderly,
"A girl in love", I replied.
409 · Jan 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
Isn't it ironic that I need a map
To tell me what I left behind is still right in front of me?
405 · Sep 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
The scent of her skin is the sweetest perfume,
A sentiment left, leaving traces of you.
404 · Sep 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
She lies open, legs spread
waiting to be read as if it were her first time.
394 · Oct 2014
Seasons
OliviaAutumn Oct 2014
Will you be there when the sun paints a canvas of green?
Envelopes of colour closing in around my body,
A forgotten art form.A broken sculpture.
Wrap me up in a blanket of cellophane
And eat me like an evergreen bathes in gold.
Your seasonal fruit between bitten lips red
But when the leaves envy dances into passion
I wonder if we will be there to see it change.
393 · Jan 2015
My heart
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
You have stolen the one thing I thought I never had left to give,
And the funny thing is it was yours to begin with.
384 · Oct 2014
If only
OliviaAutumn Oct 2014
If only she heard the water falling from my eyes
She would realise I am no longer alive.
If only she knew her kiss planted between open hips
Will wither away in this dark abyss.
If only I asked him to loosen his grip
Then maybe I could breathe without
Gasping
             for  
                  her
                        lips.
382 · Oct 2014
The girl made of sugar
OliviaAutumn Oct 2014
She was the girl who was made out of sugar.
Perfection crystallised in an hourglass figure
To be laced with ribbon around her small waist,
Pulling tighter on your chest, her bittersweet taste.
382 · May 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn May 2015
The monsters under my bed
are merely shadows of my shattered mind.
Each night they dance in a trance of moments too late
for she beneath the bed is the curse of deception.
only can you see her
if you look in your reflection.
379 · Sep 2014
Tell me.
OliviaAutumn Sep 2014
Do not tell me you love me,
Or speak sweet nothings in my ear.
Just spread my legs
So I forget that I'm here.
352 · Feb 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Feb 2015
When you entered my life you bolted the door
Leaving it shut so I was forever yours.
346 · Oct 2014
Alice
OliviaAutumn Oct 2014
She was the bottle that said "drink me"
And lifting up her dress I did just that.
329 · Jan 2015
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
There are times when the clock waltz's faster
And steps on her feet till she can't keep upright.
There are times when the clock stands still
And she looks into the eyes of the one thing she cannot master.
316 · Jan 2015
Love: part two
OliviaAutumn Jan 2015
I don't want to be her background noise
Or the star she forgets to wish upon at night.
I don't want to be the frayed photograph
Left in draws to fad, left out of sight.
I will never be more than what I am
And what I fear is that is never enough.
307 · Nov 2014
Untitled
OliviaAutumn Nov 2014
"Breast stroke is the only way I can keep myself afloat"* she said,
*"So bind my hands. I want to drown in you."
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