A crushing weight on my chest
A hollow ache in my soul
There's a darkness inside
About to swallow me whole

The tears seem choke me
As I try to hold them in
But they keep sneaking out
Burning trails down my skin

A sorrow I can't describe
A melancholy grief
Constantly squeeze my fragile heart
With no hope for relief

Memories haunt me day by day
Sleep refuses to descend
The light fades quickly now
I've waited for this...The End

Don't give up
Don't give in
Too many battles yet to win.
I feel so frail
Full of fear
Wishing I could disappear.
I want to love
I need to live
But I don't have the strength to give.
Coward I am
Courage I lack
I hate myself, I hate this fact.
So I gave up
And I gave in
As desolation settled right in.
The battle was lost
The bruises run deep
Now I'll fade into eternal sleep.

I am Mist floating in the netherworld
The shadow of my heart haunts my memories.

A transparent soul lacking substance
Wafting in the tides of my turbulent mind.

The hollow shell of my body
Tosses and tumbles about in a whirlwind.

The reality of my dream life
Fades into the obscurity of annihilation.

Caught in the act, trapped in the fact
I made my bed now I have to lie in it.
I wanted to win, but it was a sin
Now I have to confess to it.

Like a shooting star, I fell so far
In the tick of a clock I was in too deep.
Now I've been stained, I just feel drained
I've made too many secrets to keep.

"Let me out!" I wanted to shout
But there was nobody around to hear
And even if they did, I was no longer a kid
I've tightened my own noose I fear

This was it, I'm afraid to admit
I can no longer count the sins I've made.
I lie in wait, for a terrible fate
It wont take long for my existence to fade.

The lies choke me,
constricting my throat with their icy tentacles.
Vines riddled with thorns,
twist and scrape inside my airway.
Blood running down my trachea
pools in my lungs,
Each burbling breath
a disturbing reminder of the webs I've woven.

The father is the trunk standing tall and firm
Showing conviction to the young, by his example they learn.
His roots seek nourishment, he never stops to rest
His family wants for nothing because he gives his best.
He patiently endures, and meets all demands
His strength is impressive, mighty and grand.

The mother is the branches stretching her arms to hold her child
Firm and flexible, strong and mild.
Her leaves of protection give shelter from the rain
That are the tears of rejection, injustice and pain.
Her pearls of wisdom are like ripening fruit
Sweetly teaching in her great repute

This family tree gets taken for granted
So many children grow up empty handed
Even though at times they may all disagree
There is nothing more essential than the family tree.

Swirling colors dancing flames
Bring this monochrome world to shame
A rainbows arc crowning the earth
A shimmering sight proving its worth

The songs of whales echo in the deep
And the howls of a wolf grace my sleep
They are music most pure, in a world gone mute
They are so hauntingly absolute

Winters death gives way to spring
And all the flowers it does bring
The summers rays warms us all
Then cools us down with the breeze of fall

Morning grass glistens with dew
Reflecting colors of every hue
There is beauty in life, if you care to see
Just open your eyes and heart to thee

I miss your smile
I miss your laugh
Thinking about it
Takes me back
To a time less lonely
Without this pain
A time free
From all this shame
I wish I had said
I wish I had done
Too many wishes
Left undone
How many times
Can one heart break
How many regrets
Can one heart take
I'm empty inside
That is the truth
But how can I learn
To not miss you

Too many waves
Too much commotion
Too many thoughts
And too much emotion
Back and forth, up and down
The world is rocking, I think I'll drown
I'm losing touch, I can't commit
I can't help it, I'm sea sick.

Too many people
Not enough air
I'm a prisoner
Tied to this chair
Too fast, too slow, side to side
No privacy on this stifling ride
I'm losing my mind bit by bit
I can't help it, I'm car sick

Slow me down, silence the storm
Its 40 below yet I'm still too warm
Too much chaos I can't breathe
I retreat inside, cuz I can't leave
Shattered glass, bottled up tight
Too scared to quit, too tired to fight
Im losing this battle, I've lost my way
I'll lose my life, if I delay
This fear inside is swallowing me whole
Will I ever calm my tormented soul?

When sleep eludes me
My mind bears its soul
To the guardian moon
Shining bright and whole

Tendrils of her light
Reach out to caress me
A silent witness
To my struggle for serenity

When the darkness calls like a siren
And stokes the embers of my fears
The moons sweet embrace
Gently dries my tears

Weak she is not
Tho delicate she seems
She fights my loneliness
With her piercing beams

She patiently waits
For sleep to descend
forever standing guard
As my tireless friend

Your eyes hold me captive
Your arms hold me steady
I'm falling in love
I've fallen already
I give you my heart
I give you breath
I give you my kisses
Till we're parted in death
I thought I was alive
How wrong I had been
You opened my eyes
And made me see again
If this is how it feels
When two become one
Then I give you my all
Until my life is done

You're the peanut to my butter
And the toast to my jam
You love me with my faults
You know who I really am

You're the Hershey to my kiss
And the bumble to my bee
When I am around you
I feel comfortable and free

You're the star to my burst
And milk to my cookie
How much do I love you?
More than Han loves his Wookie!

You're the flip to my flop
And the she to my nannigans
Crap, I wrote myself in a corner
What rhymes with that?.....
Mannequins!!

Rhyming skills aside
You're the best part of me
I'll always be right by your side
From here to eternity.

I couldn't breathe
   I tried to scream
Silent tears
   A horrible dream

You covered my face
   And held me down
I couldn't move
   No help around

I was too small
   Your hands too strong
What did I do
   That was so wrong???

So I just cried
   Wishing you'd leave
Alone in the dark
   I couldn't breathe...

I'm suffocating.
I want to claw my way out of my skin
Not caring how ****** and torn I'd be, for I am that already
A shredded corpse disguised as whole
Mimicking the beat from a counterfeit heart.

I'm imploding.
Being pulverized by crushing defeat
Innocence vanquished and forgotten
A casualty of immense desolation.

I'm disintegrating
Vanishing from existence
Evaporating from memory
Until all that remains is.......

I'm not afraid of the darkness
For only in the dark can one truly see the light.
Our eyes will adjust to see the stars painted in the sky at night.
Im not afraid of sleep
For through sleep the body gets a chance to heal.
Reducing the aches and pains imperfection forces us to feel.
So don't feel grief if I slumber awhile
For I shall awake refreshed and new.
Do not feel alone for you don't have to wait long before I come back to you.
Don't shed any tears for I am not lost forever
My story has not ended I'm just on a different chapter.
I fought a good fight and ran a good race all thats happened is I just finished a little faster.

Your claws are out you rip and tear
You beat me down till I'm not there
You slash and stab without a thought
You aim your words just like a shot
You spew out hate assigning blame
You live to threaten, blind, and maim.

You wont let me grow you won't let me live
Guilt and shame are all you give
You chain me down till I can't breathe
Knowing I'm too weak to leave
You've stripped me bare, removed my soul
Cut me open and swallowed me whole.

You insult with lies until I'm deaf
Steal my joy till I have none left
I've tried to scream, I've tried to hide
So many times I've wish I died
Death would be better than this hell I allow
If I wasn't a coward id be there right now.

Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain
Hiding the tears that fall like rain.
Saying I'm fine , when I'm anything but,
This ache In my soul rips at my gut.
My skin is on fire, I burn from within
The calm on my face is an ongoing sin.
The world must stay out, I've built up a wall
My fragile lie will collapse should it ever fall.
Loneliness consumes me, it eats away the years
Until my life is swallowed by unending fears.
Waiting for someone to see I wear a mask
And care enough to remove it, is that too much to ask?