there are days i think i've found the right ones there are days i think i know i'm not alone these are not most days but i wish they were i fake that i'm okay with it truth is i've been longing for love but it's hiding everywhere i cannot see.
I really thought I was something more to you That's all I'm ever chasing More I never seem to be enough. I never seem to have the answers. What is love? Will I ever find it?
to everyone ive ever loved i never wanted to lose you to everyone who said they loved me i wish you felt the same you ripped your way right through my fingers and just let me slip away you didnt really love me loving to me means never letting go.
you wanted me to show you so i unzipped my chest took out my heart and displayed it in a glass case i waited for you to speak but you walked away instead. i should have known when you told me about your collection of hearts it wouldn't stop at mine.
I put a piece of my heart away for a long time, You know after a while, You forget where you put something? Until one day, When you're not even looking, You find it, And you promise yourself you will never lose sight of it again.
Disappointment lies on the other side of opening your eyes so I only kiss you with my eyes closed tight. Seeing people for who they really are is something that has made me lose hope in the past. If I saw you I'm not sure I'd like you but drunk and with my lips on yours I do, and I'm not sure I know the difference. Real and fake are close friends who trust eachother too much without question. You told me you were real but then you didn't stop when I said no and I started to think that all I was to you was just a body. Suddenly real and fake became distinct and all I wanted to do was close my eyes. Maybe the shame wouldn't feel so bad or maybe I wouldn't feel so bad. Maybe you'd be who I wished you were, maybe you'd be who I saw before I opened my eyes.
I replay that night more times than I'd like I kiss you in my mind more times than I care to count And all I'm left with at the end of the day Is this pit in my stomach missing you And the feeling I can't do anything about it You're out of my control And that is the most frustrating thing I've had to accept That we could work out in an alternate world The one where you would want to try The one where you would love me The one that isn't this one The one that I'd rather
I dont know how you could see my heart See how it beats slow And still make me run to you Out of breath Just to see how far i can make it Before it stops beating All for you I think im done chasing other people Who want to see me die
You were the closest that I had gotten to loving someone else, And I pushed you away. How I wish you would have pushed back, And how I wish you would have stayed.
I love you how I'll leave you, With all of my heart. I have nothing left to give, So they remain strangers. My heart always belonged to you, I'm not sure why I tried selling myself to anyone else.
You say I've changed when really I've always been this person She has always been hiding My life was like an endless game of hide and seek Except no one ever came looking You never found me So I found myself
oh how easy it was for you to undress me caress me impress me
I'm not a fool just a girl still not able to decipher between loves knowing when it's the real thing and when it's just people like you looking to read a front cover but never a whole book
oh how easy it was for you to tease me and leave me
sometimes i wonder if you are actually too busy or if you're just too busy for me. i already know the answer but when i accept it we will be through and i don't know what my life looks like without you.
I'm simply a souvenir A memory of where you've been You're only ever a visitor here I am not where you'll stay I just wish knowing this Stopped me from wanting you to.
if there ever comes a day where you don't feel loved remember I love you I never forgot you I remember you every second of every day I hope my feelings for you travel through space and time comfort you when you're about to sleep surround your thoughts and whisper i love you one million times over
my dreams are nightmares in disguise, tricking me all the time they are silhouettes that look a lot like love i slip you on like a night dress delicate and smooth hugging my every move a ghost i've let into my body breathing my every breath replacing it with unknown giving it things that once were my own unaware if i'll ever see that part of me again i wave goodbye and in morning time im born again but this face that i don't recognize still isn't good enough in your eyes nothing ever is.
timing told us we were wrong and we tried anyway my heart told me you were wrong and we tried anyway it's always felt wrong with the ones who ended up leaving but I can never force myself to walk away first I don't like giving up on the people that I love even if they don't love me back
Feelings climb out of me constantly Twisting my stomach and pulling at my heart For once I wish i didnt feel sick So nauseated by my emotions So extreme Stuck inside Such a fragile case.
you wanted to keep me close so that you had something but you had everything and didn't even care I was whole when you met me and shrunk to nothing when you left me.
Staring at me through blank eyes What I thought was inside Turned out to be a spiral of doubt The only thing that turned out to be real Was the lesson I learned The slap in the face And the reality check That not all people are looking to love Some just want the surface The smudges on the glass Distorting what you see of yourself My reflection in you was my self worth disappearing Apologetic for who I am And my belief of wrong And right I could have loved you Now you're just one more lonely girl Too stubborn to be anything else Just know I could have loved you
You were never a home You were never meant to keep me warm You were just a person Passing through Most people Are just people Passing through I've built a house Big enough for two but No one ever stays Do not confuse me as a motel Just because I am kind and want to love you Does not mean you can use me. Who taught you that?
The love you share Is one i want One i dont think ill ever get Not that it is out of reach Just that Everything i end up grabbing I squeeze too hard Everything i end up grabbing Crumbles. At least I can watch the people around me Maybe that will be enough
I thought I was done losing Done pretending Done trying to prove My heart only wants you To be happy If you don’t know that by now I will never be enough Nothing will ever be enough
i know what i love i just dont know where that fits in the world i mean maybe it doesn't and maybe thats the point but where do i carve space for myself who will help me once i do and who will try and bury me to cover up the mark i make?
The hole in your heart just keeps getting deeper and deeper. The further we get, the lower we go, and the less hope we have of recovering. The last time I risked it all, I ended up empty. This time I'm playing it safe. I placed my bet and it wasn't enough, goodbye and good luck.
People see my smile and they see Innocence and integrity They see one girl in one piece Not broken in pieces People see my smile and what they don't see Is me.