the sunlight gazes down upon your skin
highlighting the speckles in your eyes
you embrace them with a caring grin
while staring with the ocean tides

you shine like the sun on a stormy night
nonsensical yet charming
and when your eyes gaze so bright
the warning bells scream, alarming

your heat is a soothing fear
drawing me close
blinded by your debut premier
i could only throw a single rose

my light may not shine like yours
and my heat be as striking
but love, this warmth has been through wars
waiting for you, hiding

you are the beauty of my doubt
and the rose to my thorn
to you, i am devout
and by love, i am sworn

Anger is a feeling that we all possess
It’s a horrible beast
A hungry beast
That feeds on stress

It roams through us
Softly biting
And then painfully gnawing
Until we combust

We lash out
Yelling things we don’t mean
Yelling at people we love
Just so the beast rests it’s snout

Our anger is like a plague
Spreading to and fro
But it’s so much more complicated
The beast is vague

We need to **** the beast
And if we can’t
We should tame it
At the very least

If I could go back in time, I would.
Go back to a time nor peaceful
but when I held you in my arms,
everything felt okay.

I remember your eyes, and the way they would sparkle
and the way they'd crinkle when I had made you laugh
and how could I forget the sadness in them,
when I had told you I was leaving

I don't think you believed me when I told you I loved you
but to be fair, I didn't believe you either. 
We were taught that our love was a sin,
and thus we were too scared to call it such.

Sometimes I think about the hill, the one we'd meet upon,
and sometimes I'll cry as I see your silhouette in front of the sunset.
You have always reminded me of the sun. So bright, so... you. 
I suppose the sun thought so too.

Tormenting sadness
Will it ever go away?
What can I do
To keep it at bay?

Is there a solution
To this never-ending problem?
Or will I forever be tucked away
Never going to blossom?

Please tell me
I need to know
Should I keep fighting
Or just let it go?

It follows me
Wherever I walk
And mimics me
Whenever I talk

It molds itself into me
An actor of myself
While I’m in the background
Like a book on a shelf

Maybe I should quit
Forever end this horrible game
And be at rest
With no one but myself to blame

I close my eyes
And take a deep breath
Finally, away I go
Into a place called death

The chipmunks scatter
As you walk through the leaves
And you hear the buzz
Of the gentle breeze

Fall was dying
And winter was birthing
And the bipolar weather
T’was swerving

One day it’s warm
And the other it’s cold
It was beginning to be enough
It was beginning to be old

But you can’t do anything about it
Because this is nature
And you’re just a citizen
In a world of legislature

The flash of white,
in a sea of darkness,
is enough for me

Hope,
that’s what it is,
in an ocean of doubt

Attempting to soothe,
my infamous,
inconsolable mind

But as I swim,
to the lighthouse of hope,
I find myself drowning

Falling deeper into the doubt,
into the darkness,
becoming less and less myself

Somehow, you managed to pull me out,
back to shore,
back to safety

You had pulled me to the lighthouse,
the lighthouse of hope,
and that is where I will reside

Thank you

Why is it
that I always think of myself
in extremes?

I’m either a queen
or a monster
there is no in-between

When I’m on top of the world
I feel like a queen
ruling over her kingdom

And when I’m trapped in my bedroom
flooded with thoughts
I am a monster in a barbed cage

You are my sunshine
Yet also my rain
How can someone so beautiful
Bring such pain?

You’re always there
In the back of my mind
It’s like you’re a part of me
You must’ve become entwined

I want you to leave
Just go away
I need to be alone
Fore my mind is astray

But even though you’re gone
I still have those awful things
Known as memories
Please, God give me wings

I want to fly away
Away from these thoughts
Save me from them
Fore there are lots

But that is foolish
There is nothing I can do
I’m just left with the thoughts
The thoughts of you

There was a time where I lost myself,
where I got stranded in the darkness,
the sea swallowing me whole

Its hands gripping at me,
desperate to keep me under,
for as long as possible

It was violating,
my skin was flaking off,
and the sea was licking it up

I was getting strangled,
the angels in the darkness,
they only watched and pointed

I was paying the price,
for what, no one knows

I prayed,
I prayed,
I prayed

And after months of being strangled,
of losing myself, repeatedly,
I still have the marks,
and I can no longer fully be myself

The thing inside
Beyond the bones
And skin

Beyond the blood
And guts
And heart

There is a light
That glows ever so softly
But it’s enough to make us shine

It is who we are
It is us
That small light

Without that light
We’d be bones
And skin

And blood
And guts
And a heart

Surrounded by darkness
Without that light
We’d be nothing

We’d be nothing

What's wrong with a little cold?
I really enjoy it
But then again,
I'm strange, I've been told

So yes, winter is great
It's like my safe haven
Christmas, cold, snow...
There is absolutely nothing to hate

But then there are the people
The people who hate winter
They cry and complain and carry on
As if they're a child who has a splinter

There are enough warm days
Yet so little cold
Why can't there be more?
Yes, I'm strange. I've been told.

You said you loved me
You acted as if
You found the key
To your heart

I was young
And stupid
And allowed you to take the breath out of my lungs
Without thinking twice

My friends hated you
They told me I shouldn't
But you... You're like a flu
And I, the vulnerable child

You gave me roses
Black like the night sky above
And got close to me, allowing our noses
To brush softly, your breath mixing with mine

Our lips lock
For the first time, my first kiss
And you gawk
As we pull away, breathless

Everything was good
My friends were wrong about you
And so I allowed you to take my girlhood
Maybe that wasn't a good idea

You started acting weird
You would avoid, yell, and pester me
And I feared
That I had made a mistake

I broke it off
And I ran
And sobbed and coughed
In my friends' arms

They were right
You were rotten
And though, I thought you were my knight...
I realized I was blinded by the idea of dark love