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I
letters to basil Feb 2020
I
dear quinn,
i know that everything
is spiraling
out of control.
i know that you
aren't okay.

but i also know
that you will
get up after you
fall.
and i know
that your now
is not your forever.

with love,
quinn
II
letters to basil Feb 2020
II
dear quinn,

i know
that you are
scared.

i know that
you just want
to keep quiet.
and let your life
be a story
written about
you.

but it has to be
a story you
write.

love,
quinn
III
letters to basil Feb 2020
III
dear quinn,

can you please
listen?
just for a
second.

i know you want
to brush it all off.
and pretend
that you aren't
hurting.

but you have to
listen to me.
you can hurt.
you do hurt.

give yourself time.
but more
importantly.

give yourself the
truth.

love,
quinn
can't keep pretending.
IV
letters to basil Feb 2020
IV
dear quinn,

you can have
good days

without being
good.

love,
quinn
IX
letters to basil Feb 2020
IX
dear quinn,

missing people
*****.

but you miss them
because they
matter.

love,
quinn
V
letters to basil Feb 2020
V
dear quinn,

one good day
doesn't mean
you're cured.

i know you
want
it to.

but this ****
takes time.
it won't
go away
just because
you have
one good day.

so.
stop lying.
i don't want
you to
delude yourself.

again.

love,
quinn
VI
letters to basil Feb 2020
VI
dear quinn,

if i could just
show you
how much you
mean,
i would do it
in a
heartbeat.

but even if
i could,
you need to
see
it.

so. open. your. eyes.

love,
quinn
VII
letters to basil Feb 2020
VII
dear quinn,

you feel needy.
and you think
that it's a
bad thing.

needing people
to help
you be okay
isn't a
bad thing.

it's human.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Feb 2020
dear quinn,

it's okay
to tell people

how to make
you feel
okay.

they'll call you
by the right name
and the right pronouns.

and if they don't,
they will have lost
a part
of what it is
to be
human.

and that isn't
your fault.

love,
quinn
X
letters to basil Feb 2020
X
dear quinn,

to be alive
is to be
tired.

drink your coffee,
put on your smile,
and pretend
that life doesn't
**** the marrow
out of your bones.

just like everyone else.

love,
quinn
XI
letters to basil Feb 2020
XI
dear quinn,

it
is
okay
to
ask
for
help

love,
quinn
XII
letters to basil Feb 2020
XII
dear quinn,

it's hard
to feel
everything.
especially when
everything
hurts.

but feeling
nothing....

that's like pouring
out your coffee
because it's too hot.

blow on it, and wait.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Feb 2020
dear quinn,

stop making
justifications.

your life
isn't a
list of
excuses.

it's a bucket list.
and it has a
time limit.

love,
quinn
XIV
letters to basil Mar 2020
XIV
dear quinn,

YOU
DESERVE
LOVE

love,
quinn
XIX
letters to basil Mar 2020
XIX
dear quinn,

turn your music
off
for a minute

and make
your own

love,
quinn
XL
letters to basil Jun 2021
XL
dear basil,

please start drawing again
singing again
please start loving again
and living again

please start writing again

<3,
basil
drink ur love life juice :))

19.06.2021
XLI
letters to basil Oct 2021
XLI
dear basil,

the future is a social construct
i know people are ***** about it
but it's going to be okay

give yourself time

<3,
basil
don't let the future get u stressed, love. drink water <3

10.02.2021
letters to basil Oct 2021
dear basil,

watch the sunrise
remember how lucky you are to see it
smell the morning air
keep it in your lungs because you can
water your plants
show them unconditional love

love yourself unconditionally
because you're lucky, because you can

love,
basil
just something about loving myself a little more. this one is for you, too. drink some water, love.

10.03.2021
letters to basil Oct 2021
dear basil,

regret is useless
learn the lesson and move on

blow out the candle next time
don't go to auditions alone ever again
call your friends more
live outside of your head sometimes

don't wait for her to find someone else
because you're scared of rejection

make a wish before you blow out your birthday candles
write down that thought stuck in your head
don't wait until 10 pm to start that movie on a school night

but it's okay if you want to turn back time a little
just as long as you learn why

love,
basil
just a thing about regret and lessons and time, ig. i've missed you. and myself. and i hope you've been loving yourself and drinking water <3

10.31.2021
letters to basil Mar 2023
dear basil,

i know long distance is the bane of your existence
and you feel like the only person that understands you is
more than 1000 miles away
(maybe that's true)

i also know that you are cursing yourself at 3am
for wanting to be held
thinking that means you are toxic and codependent
but it's OKAY to want love
(i promise)

it's okay to cry yourself to sleep sometimes
because loving across distance is hard and painful
as long as you pick yourself back up in the morning
do your skincare routine, feel beautiful
sing to yourself, be whimsical
smile at strangers, wear your heart on your sleeve
(your heart is not broken, just tired)

but you can do it
live in text messages and phone calls
write letters, send care packages
until you can kiss his soft lips goodnight
every. single. night.
(it will be worth it)

(i promise),
basil
RAHHH i'm so in love it hurtsss.

anyways it's been a whileee. i hope you have been keeping hydrated all this time, my loves. remember to care about yourself :)
i care about you!!

03.13.2022
XV
letters to basil Mar 2020
XV
dear quinn,

love is
a two way
street.

but if you're
the only one
driving,

at least enjoy
the scenery.

love,
quinn
XVI
letters to basil Mar 2020
XVI
dear quinn,

turn your music
down a little.
look up from the
ground a little.
throw up your arms and
smile a little.

you're alive.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Mar 2020
dear quinn,

sometimes
it isn't
your fault.

love,
quinn
if you are reading this: things aren't always your fault. things happen. you don't always deserve everything that happens to you. you can't control everything. you belong, you are loved. you are an awe-inspiring person with so much to offer.

please be careful, stay safe. if you need a friend hmu.

have a good breakfast <3

much love,
quinn
letters to basil Mar 2020
dear quinn,

people aren't
perfect.
after all
they aren't
machines.

you aren't
perfect.
and that's
okay.

love,
quinn
XX
letters to basil Mar 2020
**
dear quinn,

you made it
to twenty
even though
you never thought
you would.

that's Something.

you're Something.

love,
quinn
XXI
letters to basil Mar 2020
XXI
dear quinn,

you can't stop
playing the
violin
because
you're afraid
of breaking the
strings.

and you can't stop
talking
because
you're afraid
of pushing people
away.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Mar 2020
dear quinn,

looking for something
to fill you up
only leaves you
more empty.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Apr 2020
dear quinn,

a magic eight ball
will never
tell you how
to be okay.

love,
quinn
hullo.

i hope you're well. take time to breathe and make sure you stay hydrated. you are a lovely soul, and i hope you appreciate that every once and awhile. thank you for spending a part of your day reading my words.

have a good breakfast <3
letters to basil Apr 2020
dear quinn,

breathe.

love,
quinn
letters to basil Jul 2020
dear atlas,

don't forgive,
just forget.

love,
atlas
you don't owe them ****. i love you.

07.26.2020
XXV
letters to basil May 2020
XXV
dear quinn,

you have
every right
to push  
people away.

but that doesn't mean
you have to.

it doesn't make it better.

i would know,
quinn
get some fresh air. and keep those you love close to you. as close as you can get them. because you cannot know when you will lose them, lovely.

thank you for reading my words <3

04.30.20
letters to basil Jul 2020
dear quinn,

goodbyes are hard
but staying will be harder
just let go

it's okay

love,
atlas
changing my name. it's a journey. much love

07.05.2020
letters to basil Jul 2020
dear atlas,

it's okay to text
twice in a row.

just thought
you should know.

love,
atlas
hey, it rhymed.

this one goes out to all of you, too. double texts are okay, paragraphs are okay, saying more than they respond with is okay.

these unsaid texting rules are just useless boundaries. if you want to talk to them, talk to them. especially in these times of social distancing.  

07.05.2020
letters to basil Jul 2020
dear atlas,

tw// language

just.
*******.
call.
her.

JUST.
*******.
CALL.
HER.

justfuckingcallher.

you want to talk to her.
so,
just ******* CALL HER.

i love you, but you need to stop being a *******.
love you. *******.

-atlas
******* hate quarantine.

07.26.2020
XXX
letters to basil Dec 2020
***
dear basil,

a name is
yours

not the mouth that
refuses to say it

love,
basil
been a while,,, changed my name again <33

21.12.2020
letters to basil Dec 2020
dear basil,

the past is
not a tattoo

love,
basil
12.21.2020
letters to basil Dec 2020
dear basil,

this isn't about christmas,
though i hope you have a good one.

this is about crying.
or more like
how you don't.

i would say i don't want you to
but i know you.
and your eyes are my eyes.
so i need them to cry.

if they won't cry for her
let them cry for me.
cry for the me you lost
cry for the you that you can't find
cry for the person in the mirror
who doesn't ******* deserve this

because you don't.

YOU DON'T ******* DESERVE THIS.

just because your bruises are healing
doesn't mean that your skin is okay.

it's cracking.
you're cracking.

break open.

love,
basil
this.... this one is for me. but maybe... maybe it's for you too.

25.12.2020
letters to basil Dec 2020
dear basil,

maybe it does cost
$0.00 to be a
"good person"

but for some reason
it is a whole lot easier to be
"nice"
when you can afford to be
"alive"

so
shut up

love,
basil
idfk the world is kinda ******
letters to basil Dec 2020
dear basil,

tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow
are all spelled the same

so why wait for a different number?

you don't need a new year
to be a new person

you just need one moment

love,
basil
my new years resolutions always ****

28.12.2020
letters to basil May 2021
dear basil,

just because a feeling doesn't go away
doesn't make it valid

persistence means nothing if it's going the wrong direction

love,
basil
maybe this is for u too, lovely. and also water. water is for u <3

04.05.2021
letters to basil Dec 2020
dear basil,

stop.
look up.
your flowers
are growing.

don't miss it.

love,
basil
WHEREVER YOU ARE ON YOUR ROAD TO RECOVERY: YOU ARE DOING AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3

this has been a caps lock psa

28.12.2020
letters to basil Apr 2021
dear basil,

you don't have to be in pain
to talk to me </3

i want to hear about your
good days
too

love,
basil
heyyy, i've missed u guys <3 i hope ur all doing well. make sure to tell the person in the mirror how amazing they are; cuz otherwise they won't know :))
drink water.

04.04.2021
letters to basil Apr 2021
dear basil,

i promise i'll go to sleep soon
as long as you promise you'll smile at me
if you see me in public

i swear i'll fix my posture
if you swear to celebrate your birthday this year

and i pinkie swear that i'll love you
if you always love me back

forever,
basil
please get enough sleep and sit a little straighter (ahahh, no pun intended. if ykyk) and don't forget to love your--water **

04.04.2021
letters to basil Apr 2021
dear basil,

happy easter :))
just one more year
dealing with your parent's
religious *******

don't get too mad
it's like that hypnosis said
"if it is anything negative
you will physically and emotionally feel nothing
it will be like watching a movie
and if it is effecting you in this life
you will be able to see it, and let it go"

of course, he was talking about
past life regression

but this is really just a past life waiting to happen

love,
basil
important note!! i don't hate religion or religious ppl, you guys can be great :)) however, my parents are a little,,, stricter abt it and it's caused a lot of tension uwu

but happy easter !! have fun and don't stay mad <3
also water **

04.04.2021

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