A tiny speck in the deep dark mass
Thousands of miles between me and you
You, a burning ball of gas lighting up the sky
I am only a girl laying out on the grass
Watching above I made a wish to fly
Fly to see all the wonderful stars
To see how they shine and burn

I counted the stars as years passed
Now I'm here lying on the ground
My wrinkled hands clenching
As I stared out my window I asked
"When my heart stops let me go to space as a bright star"
drenching in sweat as I waited for the pain to leave
I closed my eyes before I let my last breath pass my lips

Now I burn bright above so many
I watch over my Jenny
My family burns bright with me
My happiness aplenty

So many colors
The sweet taste of lovers
I remember all those warm summers
Chasing boys, boys chasing me
Tones of oranges, reds, and yellows
Cold then came riding on the wind
Soon came the glare on snow
The sun could make me go blind
I fell in love with that slow flow
Too soon though a boy burned my colors away

I can still feel you
I thought I heard your voice
But it was all in my head
Your only in my head
Why the hell did you make that choice?
Why didn't I make the right choice?
A fleeting rejoice
I didn't hear your voice

An empty bed
The covers untouched
Your room is now bare
The paintings unhug

Your in my head
I cant rid myself of this dread
My monsters now fed
An empty bed
Your loss now spread
Numbness consumes as feelings fled
I'm sorry that I feel dead
But your the one truly gone

Loss such a hard punch
Guess I expected you to still be here
I thought you'd have many years to grow
I didn't know
So unexpected that you left
Now I'm left all alone
Without you my heart is blown
Shattered into a million peices

An empty bed
The covers untouched
Your room now bare
The paintings unhung

You're stuck inside hurting my head
I can't rid myself of this **** dread
My monsters now fed
That empty bed
Can you see that your loss has now spread
I don't know if my feelings have fled
I can't be sorry for feeling dead
Your the one truly gone

A poor empty bed
Covers untouched
Hurting so much
Monsters have been fed
Paintings unhung
This pistol has now sung
No more hurting in my head

My monsters now fed
Another empty bed

Hurt-people hurt people

Coffee
My daily bread
Dread
My day without caffeine
Mean
I am without it
Split
My head as I work
****
Myself awake
Make
Me some coffee
I need my caffeine
Not sweet toffee
Bitter black as night
Coffee

I want it all
I want you
Even when I feel small
I want all of you
If your shattered
If your scattered
If your battered from the world
I’ll still want you

Shattered vison
Clearer mirror
Scattered and tattered
Death crawls nearer

Open eyes
The mirror is foggy
Together and fixed
Life is here and now

Happiness
Is found in a dress
Compress
My stomach
Impress
the crowd
Always say yes
Please the people
Maybe I don’t want to please
But I freeze
I do things for you
Yet, never for me
I’m down on my knees
I wheeze
“I can be free”

Die with memories
Memories are your stories
Stories of your dreams
Let your dreams become reality